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My ideal rape scenario, eh? You want me to give the board ideas. Well, there's fantasies

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that I think I've only spoken about once and it was on a Vogue Roo track years ago, so

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perhaps people who aren't older denizens might benefit from hearing it. So I've had a fantasy

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where I go out with friends and somebody spikes a drink or something, I get black out drunk,

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you know, basically drugs must be involved here for the, um, the pass out and the forgetfulness

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effect, but one of the big desires I have is after this happens I wake up tied up with

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the vast majority of my skin covered in something. Now it doesn't have to be latex because I

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know how much of a mess that is, but the point is is that there's not a lot of skin for me

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to feel much of anything, it's covered. My eyes are covered in a blindfold, my hands

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are down behind my back, my legs are dangling and suspended. I've got headphones over my

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ears with white noise going so that all I can do is feel as who knows how many men use

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every single pore I have as violently as they wish for as long as they wish. I have actively

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fantasised to this idea and there's sort of a kink to it thinking that it would be someone

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that I know who would betray me that way and I would never know who it is by the time I'm

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done if I have throat left with which to swallow something, another dose of the drug would

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be administered and I would awaken either in front of my home or on my couch, utterly

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used, wondering if I need an STD test, covered in god's know how many people's gum, in a

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ton of pain, wondering who the fuck it was that I was with who could possibly do that

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to me. Another sort of scenario, a lot of these involve kidnapping mind you, that I've

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thought about is one similar to that script I did actually, sort of getting kidnapped

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and you know a lot of people are like oh brought to a basement, no I want to be left in say

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a condo or an apartment or something you know something that would just be mine and left

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there under constant surveillance, lock and key and randomly have someone who is unidentifiable

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who's dressed in such a way or has a mask on or something, you know they bring me food

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and I'm forced to eat it on my hands and knees, I'm taken for their pleasure whenever they're

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down with these, I'm bound and tied and gagged and utterly ravaged at the will of this individual

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who then turns around and tells me how grateful I must be for having that sort of attention,

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so I don't have to worry about anything other than when I'm next going to become his victim

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and perhaps eventually it is still unwilling and I pull up all of the funds of a fight

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but somewhere inside of me I grow to accept this place, this idea that this benefactor

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of mine, the only human contact I get apart from let's say I need mental simulation so

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they give me books so I don't end up you know killing myself while I'm waiting there and

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there becomes this sort of I'm eventually given back and somehow consensual sex is utterly

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ruined for me so I end up putting myself in the position where I will go to burrows sleazy

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places, college campuses, places where I know roofies when rampant and actively court people

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that my spidey sense so to speak tells me might be rapists so I hope that you enjoyed

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that Anon, I'm still working on your input out you requested but I thought that you might

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think that a peek into the shallow side of my twisted fantasies might be interesting.