So, um, if you want me to talk about my fetishes, ones that we have in common, um, the ones
that you listed that we had in common were pet play, collars, choking, rape, slave play
and BDSM.
Um, I have a lot of experience with all of those types of play, um, just start at the
beginning.
So, pet play, um, pet play, we've got, um, so I spend, um, all of my time like in a relationship
where I'm the kitten.
It's not always pet play, but he calls me kitten, um, prior to that I was in a long
term relationship with somebody who, we also did pet play, um, sometimes it involves walking
down leashes, um, leashes, little treats, telling me to sleep on the floor, um, it's
demeaning in a lot of ways, and it's degrading and it's fucking hot as hell, um, I, I love
pet play, but the literal sense of pet play is usually more along the lines of puppy play,
um, kitten, pet play is a little bit harder because cats don't really listen to anybody,
cats kinda just do whatever the fuck they want to, so, I guess I'll move on, because
kittens don't listen, um, the next thing, collars, I, we have a lot of collars.
We have, um, a posture collar and a chain collar, um, if you don't know what a posture
collar is, it's really tall and it, it conforms around your shoulders and, um, around your
chin, so you really have to sit straight up when you wear it, um, ours is pink, and I
have a, um, a black leather collar that I wear when we're playing, but I also wear a
day collar, um, it's a, a little metal chain kind of thing, we bought from an independent
jeweler, jeweler, and instead of the normal like lobster clasp that most necklaces have,
it's a locking jump ring metal, um, I was collared on July 18th of this year, and obviously
I've not taken it off for two months now, um, so two months of wearing this, and I never
wanna stop wearing it, I love it, I love knowing that I'm permanently, um, marked and owned,
that when I get home I wear my regular black leather collar, um, choking, choking I absolutely
fucking adore, choking is amazing, you have a saliva flowing everywhere and, and you feel
like you're gonna puke or pass out, that's, that's, that's just from somebody strutting
their cock down your throat, which is amazing, but also on the other hand the choking, which
is what you could be talking about, wrapping your hand around someone's neck, wrapping
your hand around someone's neck, and squeezing, squeezing so hard, and you start seeing stars
and you're choking and you're gasping for breath and even if you consent into it, it's,
your brain, um, starts to panic and everything gets blurry and you can't breathe, um, oh
god it's so fucking hot, um, I really need to be choked right now, I haven't been choked
in a little bit, um, rape, rape is something that we love to play around with, we actually
did rape play a little bit this morning, um, he woke up behind me and his cock was pressing
me over my ass, and he was holding me in my sway and then suddenly he's grabbing my wrists,
he's holding me there and he tells me I don't have any control over what's gonna happen
and he doesn't even fucking like try to get me comfortable, he grabs me and he holds me
down and he sticks a condom on and he fucking just shoves it, he shoves it inside me and
I'm not even wet and I'm struggling and I'm yelling and screaming and trying to kick him
but he holds me down because he's a lot stronger than I am, he holds me down and his cock just
pushing into me and I can't help but get wet in response, I can't because it's just so
fucking hot to lose that control, um, I went off on a little tangent, I'm sorry, slave
play, um, I'm not a good slave, I'm a brat, I'm, I would like to be a better submissive
but I could never be a slave, I'm too independent, but I can play like I'm a slave, I have a
lot of things that I can provide, like taking off your shoes at the end of the day and kneeling
at your feet and just cooking your meals and cleaning your house but that's domestic servitude
which is totally different and beyond that I mean BDSM is my life, I live it all the
time, um, bondage discipline, bondage is not something we use very frequently because I'm
usually a very willing, submissive, um, discipline, we have a wooden paddle hanging on the wall,
that's our punishment paddle, he uses it to correct my behavior when it's unacceptable,
um, dominance and submission, dominance is not something I do but it's something he does,
submission I've talked about at great lengths, sadism is masochism, I am a huge masochist,
I mean the harder, the longer, the more bruised I am afterwards, the better I get off on it,
I, I can come to being camed and whipped and flogged and tortured and it's, it's all really
fantastic, I, I, at the core of all of this, you know, the entire, the entire list of things,
the core of all of it is why I enjoy it is because I am such a dominant, controlling
person in my real life, I'm not meek, I'm not, um, I'm not anything that could be misconstrued
as submissive in my everyday life and it's fucking phenomenal to just shut off and to
shut down and to let the adrenaline carry me to places that I still mark a lot to this
day, you know, ten years into the lifestyle, so with that I guess I'm gonna end my rambles
but I hope you enjoyed me talking about all of this with you.