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So, um, if you want me to talk about my fetishes, ones that we have in common, um, the ones

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that you listed that we had in common were pet play, collars, choking, rape, slave play

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and BDSM.

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Um, I have a lot of experience with all of those types of play, um, just start at the

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beginning.

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So, pet play, um, pet play, we've got, um, so I spend, um, all of my time like in a relationship

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where I'm the kitten.

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It's not always pet play, but he calls me kitten, um, prior to that I was in a long

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term relationship with somebody who, we also did pet play, um, sometimes it involves walking

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down leashes, um, leashes, little treats, telling me to sleep on the floor, um, it's

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demeaning in a lot of ways, and it's degrading and it's fucking hot as hell, um, I, I love

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pet play, but the literal sense of pet play is usually more along the lines of puppy play,

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um, kitten, pet play is a little bit harder because cats don't really listen to anybody,

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cats kinda just do whatever the fuck they want to, so, I guess I'll move on, because

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kittens don't listen, um, the next thing, collars, I, we have a lot of collars.

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We have, um, a posture collar and a chain collar, um, if you don't know what a posture

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collar is, it's really tall and it, it conforms around your shoulders and, um, around your

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chin, so you really have to sit straight up when you wear it, um, ours is pink, and I

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have a, um, a black leather collar that I wear when we're playing, but I also wear a

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day collar, um, it's a, a little metal chain kind of thing, we bought from an independent

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jeweler, jeweler, and instead of the normal like lobster clasp that most necklaces have,

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it's a locking jump ring metal, um, I was collared on July 18th of this year, and obviously

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I've not taken it off for two months now, um, so two months of wearing this, and I never

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wanna stop wearing it, I love it, I love knowing that I'm permanently, um, marked and owned,

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that when I get home I wear my regular black leather collar, um, choking, choking I absolutely

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fucking adore, choking is amazing, you have a saliva flowing everywhere and, and you feel

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like you're gonna puke or pass out, that's, that's, that's just from somebody strutting

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their cock down your throat, which is amazing, but also on the other hand the choking, which

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is what you could be talking about, wrapping your hand around someone's neck, wrapping

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your hand around someone's neck, and squeezing, squeezing so hard, and you start seeing stars

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and you're choking and you're gasping for breath and even if you consent into it, it's,

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your brain, um, starts to panic and everything gets blurry and you can't breathe, um, oh

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god it's so fucking hot, um, I really need to be choked right now, I haven't been choked

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in a little bit, um, rape, rape is something that we love to play around with, we actually

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did rape play a little bit this morning, um, he woke up behind me and his cock was pressing

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me over my ass, and he was holding me in my sway and then suddenly he's grabbing my wrists,

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he's holding me there and he tells me I don't have any control over what's gonna happen

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and he doesn't even fucking like try to get me comfortable, he grabs me and he holds me

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down and he sticks a condom on and he fucking just shoves it, he shoves it inside me and

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I'm not even wet and I'm struggling and I'm yelling and screaming and trying to kick him

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but he holds me down because he's a lot stronger than I am, he holds me down and his cock just

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pushing into me and I can't help but get wet in response, I can't because it's just so

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fucking hot to lose that control, um, I went off on a little tangent, I'm sorry, slave

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play, um, I'm not a good slave, I'm a brat, I'm, I would like to be a better submissive

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but I could never be a slave, I'm too independent, but I can play like I'm a slave, I have a

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lot of things that I can provide, like taking off your shoes at the end of the day and kneeling

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at your feet and just cooking your meals and cleaning your house but that's domestic servitude

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which is totally different and beyond that I mean BDSM is my life, I live it all the

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time, um, bondage discipline, bondage is not something we use very frequently because I'm

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usually a very willing, submissive, um, discipline, we have a wooden paddle hanging on the wall,

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that's our punishment paddle, he uses it to correct my behavior when it's unacceptable,

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um, dominance and submission, dominance is not something I do but it's something he does,

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submission I've talked about at great lengths, sadism is masochism, I am a huge masochist,

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I mean the harder, the longer, the more bruised I am afterwards, the better I get off on it,

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I, I can come to being camed and whipped and flogged and tortured and it's, it's all really

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fantastic, I, I, at the core of all of this, you know, the entire, the entire list of things,

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the core of all of it is why I enjoy it is because I am such a dominant, controlling

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person in my real life, I'm not meek, I'm not, um, I'm not anything that could be misconstrued

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as submissive in my everyday life and it's fucking phenomenal to just shut off and to

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shut down and to let the adrenaline carry me to places that I still mark a lot to this

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day, you know, ten years into the lifestyle, so with that I guess I'm gonna end my rambles

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but I hope you enjoyed me talking about all of this with you.