Okay, so where I left you guys my contract was rule number five.
So I wanted to separate it out because it's a lot and I don't know.
I don't know why, I just felt like it should be in sections as opposed to just one half
hour long recording about what, basically about what being submissive means to me because
this is, this is it, this is how I live my real life, this is my, this is my daily life,
this is my relationship with my master and it means so fucking much to me, shhh.
Okay, so number six.
Owner has complete discretion with what to do with his property, including training and
punishment.
A kitten is required to be completely obedient to her owner, failure to comply will result
in punishment.
Methods of punishment are at the owner's discretion, provided they cause no permanent harm to
the pet.
So I have to listen in and do what he tells me to and punishment in our house is not something
we like to do, we don't do play punishments, we don't shhh, we don't pretend like punishments
are nothing.
We have a very specific punishment tool, it's a wooden paddle that hangs in our bedroom
separate from all the other fun impact play toys because it's not meant to be fun, it's
not meant to be taken lightly.
I've never used it on anybody, I won't even touch it when I'm getting it down, I mean
unless I'm getting it down for him, but I can see it anytime I'm snuggled in his arms,
you know when I'm laying on his chest, it's on the wall that I can see.
So I know that I need to behave because that's what happens and he doesn't like doing that
to me.
Um, anyway sorry my nerves are getting to me because this is really really personal,
so if I'm babying more often it's just because I'm nervous because I'm letting you guys into
this big aspect of my life.
Kitten understands that her mind and body belong to owner and may be trained, restrained,
gagged, used sexually, punished physically, or anything owner deems fit.
So that's pretty self explanatory but number 8, Kitten agrees to obey to the best of her
ability to devote herself and to devote herself entirely to the pleasure and desires of owner
and must obtain permission from owner before performing any sexual action including masturbation.
Kitten also renounces all of her rights to her own pleasure, comfort, or gratification
except in so far as permitted by the owner.
So basically that rule is why I can't fap in the threads as often as I used to be able
to because I'm not allowed to fap as often as I used to be able to in general for me
to get permission and that's really hard for me.
The last time I got punished was because of that because sometimes I just, I get so fucking
horny and he doesn't respond to his texts in time or he's sleeping and I don't want
to wake him to ask him if I can please fuck my navy cunt, oh god, I really need to fap.
But yeah and so like also in that rule is if he wants to fuck me and he doesn't want
me to cum I have no say, he can just use me and I can try to get him off and in the process
think about my grandma so I don't cum so his cock doesn't force me to fucking cum all over
it.
Reading this has really really turned me on and I think it's partially humiliation, partially
that I'm reminding myself what this collar I wear is for when I'm holding onto it.
9. Owner agrees to learn what excites Kitten through exploration and communication and
try to incorporate this into the relationship to the best of his ability. So for example
he's not as much of a sadist as I am a masochist but I am a huge masochist and I ate lots and
lots of pain, ergo, rule number 9.
10. This one is where a lot of people shy away from being a tom. This is where it's
a lot of work for the owner.
10. Owner accepts full responsibility of Kitten. This includes but is not limited to pet survival,
health, physical well being and mental well being. Kitten accepts full responsibility
for informing owner of any real or perceived dangers or safety concerns but also states
that owner's decision will be final regarding these issues. Owner agrees that Kitten will
not be punished for respectfully stating these concerns. Owner further agrees to listen to
Kitten's concerns with a clear and open mind. Owner shall endeavor not to inflict physical
harm upon Kitten which might require the attention of someone outside the relationship.
So basically he's saying that he takes complete control over me. That if I'm having an anxiety
attack he is vowing to take care of that for me. To tell me is that he's taking responsibility
of my health and my eating habits and my doctor's appointments and I mean he takes such fucking
good care of me and that's really the biggest thing with that role. The snacks were like
I came up with to help me remember.
11. Kitten agrees to give up all control of her financial assets and physical possessions
at any time. Owner may give free reign of these possessions but ultimately if the parties
disagree the final decision will lie with the owner. Kitten is required to respect and
do all that she can to not damage owner's other possessions and will never attempt to
dictate what owner may do with them.
So this role was put in so that for example I'm going to be buying a car soon and I feel
it's in my best interest to buy it as soon as possible to get his car that I'm loaning
off the road so that his other car he's got two cars and I'm driving one and he's driving
one but the one that he's driving shouldn't be driven because it's not a driving car it's
a race car. So I think I should get the car as fast as possible he thinks I should save
the money. If there's a disagreement it's his call. When I finish my degree and I have
more money than I know what to do with because I don't need much to be happy I'm just going
to give him all my money and tell him to take care of it because I don't want that kind
of responsibility I don't want control over that. And for example as far as never dictating
what owner may do with them he has some hobbies that I think are stupid and as far as I've
been over the years it's very disrespectful about that. I make comments because we're
not always constantly in the dumb sub line space so I'll say how much money did you spend
on that thing or blah blah blah and that's not my call that's not something that I should
do and his money is his call you know. So I need to be more respectful of that. Number
12 Kitten agrees to accept the responsibility of using the safe word when necessary. Kitten
acknowledges that the safe word is read and a safe signal in the event that speech is
not possible is blinking rapidly or opening or closing of the hands. Owner accepts the
responsibility of assessing situations where kitten calls the safe word or signal and will
to the best of his ability make judgement on whether to modify the activity or stop
activity entirely. Kitten agrees to hold no ill will toward owner's decision. Owner agrees
not to punish kitten for the use of a safe word. I don't very often safe word but when
I do he needs to make adjustments even if it doesn't mean stopping. It's pretty self
explanatory though we do have two safe words. Red is for stop completely and yellow is for
you need to pull back. 13 Owner and kitten may take on additional partners at each other's
comfort level. Each must approve of the additional partners and has the right to end the relationship
at any time. Each other must have first priority and their emotional stability must take precedence
over the other party's wishes. So basically he can have doms, he can have subs, he can
have girlfriends, boyfriends, whatever. Same is so for me. Same for me. But if he doesn't
like one of my partners he can end the relationship at any time and vice versa. We learned that
after he took on another sub earlier this year and we had some learning curves to do
to get over. 14 Kitten agrees to answer any and all questions asked by Owner freely, promptly
and to the best of her knowledge. Kitten further agrees to volunteer any information that Owner
should know regarding Kitten's physical or emotional state. Owner agrees to never use
this information to harm Kitten in any way. So it's pretty self-explanatory. But it helps.
Kitten states that her limits are but are not limited to what is noted below in section
2.1. Owner agrees to never violate these limits without prior negotiation of and consent by
Kitten. 16 Owner will furnish Kitten with a symbolic token of ownership, the mutually
agreed-upon day collar, which is not to be taken off unless required by physicians for
medical tests. While outside of the house, Kitten is required to also wear the engagement
ring and or wedding ring after marriage. While inside the house and or as requested, Kitten
will wear her normal collar in addition to these other symbols of ownership. Kitten agrees
to wear these symbols at all times as per the rules stated above, except when Owner
states otherwise or the agreement terminates. So the engagement ring I remember most days
when I go to work or when I leave. I don't wear it all the time because it has a lot
of really small diamonds and I get paranoid that some of the tiny diamonds are gonna fall
out and I'll never find them ever again, forever. So I do take it off at night. But the normal
collar that I have is black and it's a generic looking collar, but it means a lot to me.
So I wear that when he asks me to at home. I don't always have to wear it at home. And
I can't sleep in it very well because it kind of digs into my chin. It's kind of tall.
Seventeen, Kitten will treat herself with respect at all times in the way Owner wishes.
This includes but is not limited to taking her medicine, wearing seatbelts, keeping with
hygiene standards. Kitten will not engage in activities that damage herself. So yeah,
I have medicine that I have to take, I have to take it. I am bad about wearing seatbelts
and he hates it. So that's in there. Hygiene standards include keeping myself cleanly shaven
and keeping my hair dyed. Which by the way, just an update, my hair is now lavender. It
has been for about six months now. Yeah, and I used to have trouble with self harm and
so that's in there as well. Eighteen, Owner may choose to rename his pet whatever and
whenever he wishes to better reflect Kitten's new status, Kitten is required to respond
to the name. That's just in case. Kitten agrees and understands that any infractions,
this is nineteen, any infractions of this agreement or any act Kitten commits which
displeases Owner will result in punishment. Kitten will gracefully accept punishment and
try to learn from it. Kitten agrees to assemble the punishment materials as ordered by Owner
and to assume any position needed to accept the punishment. Kitten understands that failure
to comply with Owner's orders will result in a more severe punishment. Owner will inform
Kitten that she is being punished when punishment occurs. Owner will explain the reason for
punishment either before, during, or following punishment. Owner agrees to discipline only
out of a desire to better the pet and further agrees to never punish out of or during failings
of anger. I touched briefly on how this has been earlier. It's something that happens, basically, five smacks with the paddle is pretty standard, but the more I do something. If I, like for example when I
fapped without permission and I had to record the thing for the thread, that was five, but
apparently the next time I do it, it'll be ten. And that thing makes me cry, not only
because it hurts, but because emotionally it's hard. But yeah. And number twenty. Owner
agrees that this arrangement is to be spoken of only between privileged parties and that
pet is permitted to conduct her normal activities outside of this agreement should they prove
to hinder her work or other responsibilities in any way. Kitten shall not be punished should
this occur. So like my friends, I can talk about this obviously, who already know. My mother, who is in the kink scene as well, I can talk to her about it. Things like that.
So, and I can do my normal things, as long as it doesn't impact our relationship. And then there's a spot for the date and a spot for our names to be signed. And then
my hard limits, which is section 2.1, reality, real children, scat, water sports, there's an asterisk beside water sports, competitions with but they're submissives. That's, yeah, ass to mouth in any way. Public nudity, there's an asterisk, exhibitionism, there's an asterisk.
Next to water sports, public nudity, exhibitionism, the asterisk denotes a current hard limit, but with a lot of training and extenuating circumstances, this may change if absolutely necessary.
Competitions with but they're submissives, that's something I learned recently I can't do. Ass to mouth is just bad. So, and water sports is just something I'm not comfortable with. But this was a little longer than I expected, so I apologize.
But I hope you enjoyed listening to what our contract is and what it means to me.