Okay, so, um, requesting feminons talk about lesbian experience slash crushes, um, for
experience just what you did, for crushes describe what you felt towards that person,
I had preferred if they were fictional too, like, fictional characters. Okay. So, um,
as far as real life, I'll do that first, and then after that, oh my god, I have so many
fucking lesbian crushes on fictional characters, just saying. Okay, um, let me just adjust
my mic really quick. Okay. So, uh, real life, um, I've had crushes on, like, schoolmates
and friends of mine, like, female friends for as long as I can remember, um, and maybe
I should have realized sooner that I like, like chicks a lot, but, um, I didn't, I didn't
realize that until I was maybe 13. Um, I didn't realize that I liked girls until then, and
I've had crushes on almost every single one of my female friends. Um, I mean, obviously,
if I'm friends with them, then they have qualities in them that I like. Like, they're intelligent,
um, you know, they're funny, things like that. So, those kind of things, um, make me quite
attracted to people. Um, but as far as lesbian experiences, um, my first ever lesbian experiences
with my current best friend, um, and I will call her Capricorn? Sagittarius? I, whatever,
I'll just call her whatever. She's my best friend, and she, she and I worked together,
um, that's how we met, and we had kind of talked about, um, things, you know, like how
she, I think she said she was kind of curious, but of course that was many years ago, um,
that was in 2010, um, early 2010, so it's been, you know, almost four years since this
all happened at the beginning. Um, and I remember, I, for some reason, I really like her nose.
Like her nose is just interesting and beautiful, and she's gorgeous. She'll never, ever believe
me, but she's gorgeous, and she has huge tits, and I'm not even really that big of a tit
person, but hers are just, when she's naked, it's fantastic, and, um, I'm sorry, I'm sitting
here thinking, going off on a tangent, um, and so the first time that we kissed, um,
I had really had a crush on her for a while, and I'd never kissed a girl in that way, and
so it was, we were up really late at my sister's house, because I lived with my sister at the
time, um, my sister worked until, you know, 7am, so she didn't get back until really late,
and we were up on the couch, and I remember us talking about us kissing, we talked about
it, and then both of us were too nervous and shy to do anything, and I think we sat there
for a good 45 minutes in anticipation, where I think, I know that I was absolutely dripping
at the thought of kissing her, and we just were both too scared, and finally, I just
went, fuck it, and I leaned over on the couch, and I put my hand around her head, and I kissed
her, and I kissed her like I meant it, and we kissed for a while, and then we, we kind
of stopped, we kind of snapped out of it, and we got breakfast, and we realized how
exhausted we were from being up all night, and that was, that was it, um, for the first
kiss that first night. From there, um, she and I would grab each other's boobs randomly,
we would, I remember this one time where she was gonna leave my house, and, because we
had just been hanging out, and she, we were gonna leave, and she pushed me up against
a wall in my bedroom, and she's, she's taller than I am by maybe four inches, because I'm
short, and she kind of looked down at me, and she kissed me, and it was so intense,
it was, she bit my neck, and I bit hers, and it was so fucking nice, and, um, I'm like
shaking because there's, there's a whole story beyond this that I'll, I'll go into just briefly,
I won't go into it too much, I'm trembling, also I'm kind of nervous because I haven't
recorded anything dirty in a while, um, but, it just, that, I just remember things like
that, I just remember, and then there was this one time, um, we were alone in her apartment,
and we had been drinking margaritas, and I was a lot junker than she was, only because
I drink faster than she does, she drinks very very very slowly, and it's quite frustrating
to be honest, um, when you're trying to get drunk, and I remember somehow, I was, I mean
I was the drunkest I'd probably ever been, almost, almost, the other time I was really
really really drunk and involved in other lesbian spirits that I'll go into, but, um,
it was the drunkest I'd ever been in my life, we're laying on the floor, somehow she was
naked, and I don't remember how that happened, but all I know is that I was laying on the
floor, and she was up on the couch, and I, um, climbed up on the couch, between her legs,
and I mean obviously we'd been kind of fooling around, but we had never done anything like
this before, and, um, I climbed up between her legs, and I, uh, nestled my face, um,
on her thigh, and I ate her out, and I sucked on her clit, and eventually I put a couple
fingers inside of her, and she came, and, and she came again, and her boyfriend roommate
was gonna be home soon, and so, uh, I had to stop because we were worried about him
coming home, of course you get off the couch, you're laying horizontally, you get off the
couch, you're then vertical, you're really really drunk, and to the bathroom, um, ended
up ruining the whole mood, but that wasn't anything that I could control, all I know
is that that was fantastic. Um, after that, um, there were, you know, we, we made out
a little bit and stuff, and I'm sorry I'm rambling, this is going on for a very long
time, um, but I'm, I'm sure if you really want to listen, you, you won't mind because
I'm just kind of rambling and I'm still shaking, um, I, I miss her, I miss her terribly, um,
there was a, she's just, she's just so smart and scared in her own way, but she doesn't
ever put off that she's scared, she's so headstrong, but I, I always see past it, I always know,
and I know that she cares about me, and basically, um, I realized, um, about eight months ago
or so that I'm in love with her, um, like, actual in love with her, um, and so that's
why I'm getting kind of emotional talking about her, she's still my best friend but
she's kind of a sore, sore subject, I suppose you can say, um, but I, I'm gonna see her
tomorrow and of course nothing's gonna happen anymore, basically from there when I, when
I ate her out, we had a couple times where we did stuff and she would come to me, you
know, when she wanted stuff and it was, it was great, it was fine, I didn't have a problem
with that, um, you know, she would stay over, um, and she would sleep in my bed when my
boyfriend wasn't home, she would sleep in my bed and we'd sleep naked and ended up doing
stuff several times and when I finally did tell her, um, that I was in love with her
and not, oh I love you like a friend, that there's a different kind of love that she
reserves as I found out specifically for, for men and, um, I still haven't gotten up
the courage to tell her that, um, she hurt my feelings or that maybe she owes me an explanation
because I do feel kind of used, um, I thought that she felt similar, so, um, I'll, I'll
stop being so heavy, um, beyond her, um, in August, yeah in August, maybe late July, um,
I entered a DNS relationship with somebody who has done some recordings with me, her
name's Leo, um, she was my master's mistress, I was her mistress, and of course my master
is my master, so it was a triangle and she and I actually kind of developed feelings
for each other outside of just that, you know, of course like I said, smart, funny, has a
lot in common, um, that's, you know, why we get along as friends and then, um, life kind
of got in the way, um, we had had, we had one night of, we had a couple nights of really,
really, really passionate things and then life got in the way and I haven't seen her
in a while, um, you know, but that's okay, that's, you know, that's understandable, and
so she and I don't see each other as much as we used to, but she was beautiful and short
kind of butch-y haircut, but she wasn't a butch, in our relationship she was the butch,
I mean I'm incredibly femme, but um, she had tattoos and she was gorgeous, she was even
more beautiful than my best friend is, but of course I'm not in it for the looks, right,
but she just, uh, brown eyes, just you could look into forever, blonde, and just gorgeous,
absolutely gorgeous. There's a couple recordings, um, of her and I in my archive, um, if you
ever wanted to listen to those, um, but those are my two major lesbian relationships, um,
so far I hope to have more, I really do, because I, I identify myself as 80% lesbian, um, 20%
lesbian, although I don't know if I could ever be in a lifetime relationship with a
woman, um, I would like to have a long-term relationship with a woman, I've already committed
myself to a lifetime relationship with a man, um, only because I tend to enjoy male companionship
better than I do female companionship, but um, it's, this is kind of dragging on forever
so I'll wrap up, um, as far as fictional, um, lesbian crushes, right now my current
fictional lesbian crush is Amy Pond from, um, The Eleventh Doctor, with The Eleventh
Doctor, no, he's The Twelfth Doctor, whoever Matt Smith is, after David Tennant, Amy Pond,
oh my god, she's fucking gorgeous, aw, she's so cute, she's, yeah, she's pale, she's a
redhead, and she's, she's so sweet, and she's kind of like a, um, fuck you, I'm an awesome
kind of girl, um, other fictional crushes, oh my god, I just like, aw fuck, that's my
current major one, but that's because I'm currently on her episodes of Doctor Who, um,
I'm really into, I had a thing for Claire Unlost, um, just the Aussie accent just got
to me, um, I have a major crush on Turtle, she posted in the thread, she's not a fictional
character, but, I don't know why I lumped her in with fictional characters, um, I thought
I would be able to think, like, of everything right off the top of my head, but basically,
I am either attracted to very feminine badass-y types, or butch vulnerable types, I don't
know, it's, it's kind of a contradiction, I'm into badass fems and vulnerable butches,
and basically, I just, I love all women in their own way, and they are all gorgeous,
and I want to kiss all of them, so, yeah, that's, that's about it.