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Okay, so, um, requesting feminons talk about lesbian experience slash crushes, um, for

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experience just what you did, for crushes describe what you felt towards that person,

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I had preferred if they were fictional too, like, fictional characters. Okay. So, um,

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as far as real life, I'll do that first, and then after that, oh my god, I have so many

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fucking lesbian crushes on fictional characters, just saying. Okay, um, let me just adjust

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my mic really quick. Okay. So, uh, real life, um, I've had crushes on, like, schoolmates

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and friends of mine, like, female friends for as long as I can remember, um, and maybe

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I should have realized sooner that I like, like chicks a lot, but, um, I didn't, I didn't

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realize that until I was maybe 13. Um, I didn't realize that I liked girls until then, and

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I've had crushes on almost every single one of my female friends. Um, I mean, obviously,

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if I'm friends with them, then they have qualities in them that I like. Like, they're intelligent,

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um, you know, they're funny, things like that. So, those kind of things, um, make me quite

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attracted to people. Um, but as far as lesbian experiences, um, my first ever lesbian experiences

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with my current best friend, um, and I will call her Capricorn? Sagittarius? I, whatever,

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I'll just call her whatever. She's my best friend, and she, she and I worked together,

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um, that's how we met, and we had kind of talked about, um, things, you know, like how

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she, I think she said she was kind of curious, but of course that was many years ago, um,

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that was in 2010, um, early 2010, so it's been, you know, almost four years since this

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all happened at the beginning. Um, and I remember, I, for some reason, I really like her nose.

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Like her nose is just interesting and beautiful, and she's gorgeous. She'll never, ever believe

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me, but she's gorgeous, and she has huge tits, and I'm not even really that big of a tit

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person, but hers are just, when she's naked, it's fantastic, and, um, I'm sorry, I'm sitting

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here thinking, going off on a tangent, um, and so the first time that we kissed, um,

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I had really had a crush on her for a while, and I'd never kissed a girl in that way, and

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so it was, we were up really late at my sister's house, because I lived with my sister at the

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time, um, my sister worked until, you know, 7am, so she didn't get back until really late,

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and we were up on the couch, and I remember us talking about us kissing, we talked about

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it, and then both of us were too nervous and shy to do anything, and I think we sat there

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for a good 45 minutes in anticipation, where I think, I know that I was absolutely dripping

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at the thought of kissing her, and we just were both too scared, and finally, I just

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went, fuck it, and I leaned over on the couch, and I put my hand around her head, and I kissed

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her, and I kissed her like I meant it, and we kissed for a while, and then we, we kind

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of stopped, we kind of snapped out of it, and we got breakfast, and we realized how

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exhausted we were from being up all night, and that was, that was it, um, for the first

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kiss that first night. From there, um, she and I would grab each other's boobs randomly,

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we would, I remember this one time where she was gonna leave my house, and, because we

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had just been hanging out, and she, we were gonna leave, and she pushed me up against

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a wall in my bedroom, and she's, she's taller than I am by maybe four inches, because I'm

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short, and she kind of looked down at me, and she kissed me, and it was so intense,

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it was, she bit my neck, and I bit hers, and it was so fucking nice, and, um, I'm like

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shaking because there's, there's a whole story beyond this that I'll, I'll go into just briefly,

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I won't go into it too much, I'm trembling, also I'm kind of nervous because I haven't

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recorded anything dirty in a while, um, but, it just, that, I just remember things like

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that, I just remember, and then there was this one time, um, we were alone in her apartment,

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and we had been drinking margaritas, and I was a lot junker than she was, only because

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I drink faster than she does, she drinks very very very slowly, and it's quite frustrating

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to be honest, um, when you're trying to get drunk, and I remember somehow, I was, I mean

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I was the drunkest I'd probably ever been, almost, almost, the other time I was really

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really really drunk and involved in other lesbian spirits that I'll go into, but, um,

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it was the drunkest I'd ever been in my life, we're laying on the floor, somehow she was

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naked, and I don't remember how that happened, but all I know is that I was laying on the

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floor, and she was up on the couch, and I, um, climbed up on the couch, between her legs,

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and I mean obviously we'd been kind of fooling around, but we had never done anything like

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this before, and, um, I climbed up between her legs, and I, uh, nestled my face, um,

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on her thigh, and I ate her out, and I sucked on her clit, and eventually I put a couple

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fingers inside of her, and she came, and, and she came again, and her boyfriend roommate

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was gonna be home soon, and so, uh, I had to stop because we were worried about him

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coming home, of course you get off the couch, you're laying horizontally, you get off the

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couch, you're then vertical, you're really really drunk, and to the bathroom, um, ended

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up ruining the whole mood, but that wasn't anything that I could control, all I know

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is that that was fantastic. Um, after that, um, there were, you know, we, we made out

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a little bit and stuff, and I'm sorry I'm rambling, this is going on for a very long

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time, um, but I'm, I'm sure if you really want to listen, you, you won't mind because

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I'm just kind of rambling and I'm still shaking, um, I, I miss her, I miss her terribly, um,

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there was a, she's just, she's just so smart and scared in her own way, but she doesn't

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ever put off that she's scared, she's so headstrong, but I, I always see past it, I always know,

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and I know that she cares about me, and basically, um, I realized, um, about eight months ago

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or so that I'm in love with her, um, like, actual in love with her, um, and so that's

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why I'm getting kind of emotional talking about her, she's still my best friend but

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she's kind of a sore, sore subject, I suppose you can say, um, but I, I'm gonna see her

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tomorrow and of course nothing's gonna happen anymore, basically from there when I, when

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I ate her out, we had a couple times where we did stuff and she would come to me, you

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know, when she wanted stuff and it was, it was great, it was fine, I didn't have a problem

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with that, um, you know, she would stay over, um, and she would sleep in my bed when my

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boyfriend wasn't home, she would sleep in my bed and we'd sleep naked and ended up doing

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stuff several times and when I finally did tell her, um, that I was in love with her

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and not, oh I love you like a friend, that there's a different kind of love that she

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reserves as I found out specifically for, for men and, um, I still haven't gotten up

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the courage to tell her that, um, she hurt my feelings or that maybe she owes me an explanation

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because I do feel kind of used, um, I thought that she felt similar, so, um, I'll, I'll

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stop being so heavy, um, beyond her, um, in August, yeah in August, maybe late July, um,

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I entered a DNS relationship with somebody who has done some recordings with me, her

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name's Leo, um, she was my master's mistress, I was her mistress, and of course my master

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is my master, so it was a triangle and she and I actually kind of developed feelings

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for each other outside of just that, you know, of course like I said, smart, funny, has a

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lot in common, um, that's, you know, why we get along as friends and then, um, life kind

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of got in the way, um, we had had, we had one night of, we had a couple nights of really,

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really, really passionate things and then life got in the way and I haven't seen her

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in a while, um, you know, but that's okay, that's, you know, that's understandable, and

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so she and I don't see each other as much as we used to, but she was beautiful and short

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kind of butch-y haircut, but she wasn't a butch, in our relationship she was the butch,

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I mean I'm incredibly femme, but um, she had tattoos and she was gorgeous, she was even

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more beautiful than my best friend is, but of course I'm not in it for the looks, right,

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but she just, uh, brown eyes, just you could look into forever, blonde, and just gorgeous,

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absolutely gorgeous. There's a couple recordings, um, of her and I in my archive, um, if you

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ever wanted to listen to those, um, but those are my two major lesbian relationships, um,

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so far I hope to have more, I really do, because I, I identify myself as 80% lesbian, um, 20%

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lesbian, although I don't know if I could ever be in a lifetime relationship with a

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woman, um, I would like to have a long-term relationship with a woman, I've already committed

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myself to a lifetime relationship with a man, um, only because I tend to enjoy male companionship

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better than I do female companionship, but um, it's, this is kind of dragging on forever

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so I'll wrap up, um, as far as fictional, um, lesbian crushes, right now my current

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fictional lesbian crush is Amy Pond from, um, The Eleventh Doctor, with The Eleventh

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Doctor, no, he's The Twelfth Doctor, whoever Matt Smith is, after David Tennant, Amy Pond,

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oh my god, she's fucking gorgeous, aw, she's so cute, she's, yeah, she's pale, she's a

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redhead, and she's, she's so sweet, and she's kind of like a, um, fuck you, I'm an awesome

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kind of girl, um, other fictional crushes, oh my god, I just like, aw fuck, that's my

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current major one, but that's because I'm currently on her episodes of Doctor Who, um,

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I'm really into, I had a thing for Claire Unlost, um, just the Aussie accent just got

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to me, um, I have a major crush on Turtle, she posted in the thread, she's not a fictional

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character, but, I don't know why I lumped her in with fictional characters, um, I thought

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I would be able to think, like, of everything right off the top of my head, but basically,

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I am either attracted to very feminine badass-y types, or butch vulnerable types, I don't

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know, it's, it's kind of a contradiction, I'm into badass fems and vulnerable butches,

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and basically, I just, I love all women in their own way, and they are all gorgeous,

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and I want to kiss all of them, so, yeah, that's, that's about it.