I really want a guy to choke me. I want to be choked while being fucked, but I've been too afraid to tell anyone. I'm scared guys would think I'm weird if I brought it up. During sex, I've put their hands on my neck before and sometimes they squeeze for a few seconds and I think, yeah, this is gonna be the time. He's gonna actually choke me. But they never do. They just squeeze lightly for a few seconds and then release, thinking they'll hurt me otherwise. I always end up so disappointed. I just want a man to choke me like he wants to kill me. I want to have to wear a scarf for a week in the bruises that he leaves me with. I want him to put his hands around my neck and just hold my neck gently but firmly, caressing it as he looks into my eyes. I want him to have his hands around my neck as he kisses me, then slowly he tightens his grip just a bit at first as he looks into my eyes. I want to feel his hands tighten around my neck even further. I'll find it hard to breathe and start to breathe deeper, feeling the pressure build up in my head and my lungs. I want him to start fucking me while he has his hands around my neck choking me. Then I want him to squeeze even harder as I start to gasp for air. My face will become red and I'll try to take deep breaths but to no avail since he has his hands tighter around my neck, almost squashing my trachea. And I'd start to panic and flail my arms and legs around, heading him to release me from his grip but he won't falter. He'll just continue his tight grip and continue to look into my eyes. His facial expression would be neutral with a slight determination in his eyes that shows he wants to get the job done. He starts to thrust his cock into me harder, ignoring the fact that my body is bucking madly underneath him as I try to break free. He'd just be looking into my eyes the whole time, fucking the shit out of me as he has his hands squeezing my neck. I'd start to get weak and my movements become less intense. Tears start to run down my cheeks as I desperately try to get some air. Then I'd stop fighting it since I know it's pointless and my body relaxes and almost goes limp. This is the best feeling during the whole thing as there's this tinglyness that starts off at the back of my head and walks its way down through my entire body. Meanwhile he's still pounding his cock into my cunt with me laying there motionless with a blank stare in my eyes. I lay still since I have no energy to fight him any longer and just let the sensation overwhelm and consume me. It's a feeling of serenity and it's the closest feeling to being at peace that I have never known. I lay there with the sensation of being on cloud nine, my body his to use as he rims his cock harder into me, full well knowing that any time now I'm going to pass out. He puts his face closer to mine and rapes my mouth with his tongue. My eyes flicker back and forth as I feel the last bit of life escape from my body. I pass out and he fucks me even harder now, removing his hands from my neck as he slaps my tits. I black out for a few seconds and after a few hard slaps to the face, I wake up. Upon waking up, I don't know where I am for a few seconds. All I see is him on top of me, slamming his cock into me as he looks deep into my eyes. I'm not sure where I am or what is happening, but it feels so good. He feels amazing inside of me and instinctively, I let out a moan. Oh fuck. That feels incredible. All I can hear is him breathing heavily and the sounds of his cock going in and out of my wet cunt. I then remember what is happening and I start to fuck him back. I'm close to orgasm so I beg him to fuck me harder. Fuck me harder? Please. Fuck me like you mean it. He tells me he's close and he starts to squeeze my throat again, but he squeezes hard right from the start this time and I become lightheaded. His cock feels so good thrusting in and out of me. I start to cum and I feel my cunt tighten around his cock. He lets out a moan as he shoots his cum right inside of me. Where can I find a guy like this?