there really must be something wrong with me it's just I can't stare at you
longer than a few seconds without this glorious indescribable flea feeling
fluttering inside me this can't be normal right
butterflies in my stomach is that is that how they say it fucking hell who
would have thought that I had a romantic in me I certainly didn't at least not
until you came along honestly I don't know when or how it all started we've
been friends forever I don't know when exactly things change between us but
since then it's like I don't even know myself anymore as I spend more time with
you I learn more and more about myself too it's a little scary sometimes it's
like I'm getting to know a stranger but I'm not complaining
god I'm so fucking helpless so fucking powerless I wonder if you know about the
effect you have on me I think maybe you do one look of time is one look or tiny
smile from you and I melt into a puddle reason flies out of the window all the
negativity and stress vanish into smithereens my mind goes blank and gets
filled with a thought of you you you nothing else but you I can't believe how
lucky I am to have you in my life what did I even deserve to have someone like
you and no one hell am I running ruining this no fucking way I just I just can't
this whatever this is manifests itself physically too I get this weird feeling
in my stomach my chest tightens my heart quickens its pace my breath itches in my
throat often the words threatened to spill out of my mouth even though I'm
sure I wouldn't know how to express myself what would I even tell you my
lips crave the feeling of yours against mine and my arms my arms ache and yearn
for your touch sometimes thinking about all these hurts knowing that it's all
just in my head god I wonder if you know about the effect you have on me look at
you right now we're chilling at your favorite cafe like what we do nearly
every weekend God look at you so carefree so pure so fucking breathtaking I
could stare at you all day I love the way you tilt your head back and erupt into
laughter when I say something remotely funny I love the way you simply revel in
the present moment not worrying about anything else and your lovely eyes I
love the way they crinkle when you laugh the way they twinkle when you tell me
things you're passionate about oh when you have something devious in my you
cheeky little thing I love the way your eyes fix on me so intently when I'm
speaking you make me feel like I'm the most interesting people person in the
world like nothing else no one else can capture your attention like I'm the only
one that matters when I'm with you I always wish I couldn't just freeze time
then and there just you and me a time when I don't have to worry about the
future or reality a time when I can pretend that our thoughts and feelings
are in think a time when my fantasies can happen when anything can happen
god how badly I wish I can replay this moment a thousand times over but there's
no use thinking about the impossible right now I just want to savor this
moment with you I love you fuck I guess that's what it is then love maybe I love
you it leaves a foreign but pleasant taste in my mouth I love you god you have
no idea how much I fucking love you I wish I could tell you how I feel but I
can't I can only say it in my head for now this will have to do