baby can we talk something's been bothering me no no it's nothing you've
done oh well not exactly you are wonderful when we're together I feel
safe I feel cared for respected loved I'm so happy with you the problem and it's
not necessarily a problem but the concern I have the issue is I mean okay
let me start over this might sound strange but it really bothers me that
there's no proof that you love me no physical evidence if you stripped me
naked and looked at every part of me the skin of my throat the creases of my
elbow the cheeks of my ass spaces between my toes you you would never find
something that showed we are connected I was thinking about this the other day
while appreciating the bruises you gave me they had started such a lovely purple
but they were turning pink and I knew that soon they would be gone that's when
I thought bruises fade I want scars so that's what this is about I want you to
cut me to mark me permanently to brand on my skin the proof that I am yours so
that anyone who looked could see beyond all doubt that I belong to you I know
that's more intense than anything we've done before I understand if you're not
ready for it but it's it's something that I had to tell you you you will do
it oh could we right now yes yes of course we can lay your clean sheet on
the bed to catch the blood okay there I think face down is best so you have all
of my back to work with what I strip and get ready would you boil one of the
knives from the kitchen the new one that's really sharp yeah thank you it's
ready perfect here I lay down will you tie my arms and my legs down I don't
want to squirm too much
Wow I can't believe this is really happening no no I want it I need it I
trust you show me the knife please okay okay could you just start with a small
cut just a few inches so I can get used to it yes could you could you trace it
on my back with your finger before yes yes that feels right I am ready are you
ready okay no that was that was perfect just wait a bit wait a moment just just
wait okay again twice as long this time
I love it I don't stop anymore could you do to
near each other and the other side of my back yeah I'm ready just yes I'm
getting excited no no no no don't touch me there don't touch me I just want to
feel the blade right now and your hands on my back please could you rub my neck
a little that's nice I was worried actually that you wouldn't like it but
you do don't you yeah I can feel your eagerness your anticipation yeah that's
how I feel too yeah just don't enjoy it too much all right I don't think that we
can do this very often okay I'm ready for more I want a longer one this time
with a curve at the end could you trace it for me on my skin longer than that yes
that's what I want I'll be okay really more like a curve like you yes like that
okay okay I'm ready fuck fuck fuck fuck can you hold my hand on my hand thank
you thank you
yes I'm okay what does it feel like I I wouldn't know how to describe it you
want me to try okay I'm not going to disobey when you're holding that knife
so first is the fear I trust you I trust you completely but there is fear when I
sense you standing behind me above me holding the knife I can't help it I know
what you could do to me if you want it no it's good it's thrilling when I feel
the blade rest on my skin the fear elevates to anticipation the moment
before the cut my entire being is focused on that angle part just waiting
for that first movement when the blade bites into me when the pain comes it's a
relief a release all the tension given form and just let go I mean it fucking
hurts but I want it to hurt and I know that it's a gift from you it will create
a mark that connects us forever it's like there's something beautiful inside
me underneath that skin and this is the only way to let it out as long as it's
you holding the knife it has to be you after you make the cut and the pain
starts to fade all I feel is that beauty radiating out of me you see too I'm so
glad okay ready to start again now I want a lot of small cuts along my
shoulders like rain like a storm yes like that exactly
I'm ready
oh that felt like you were cutting music into me that was wonderful okay now I
want to ask you something more please I want you to make some cuts on your own
whatever you want yes these are your scars I'm happy to wear whatever you
want to give me can you tell me what it is
oh you want to give me your name maybe that's a bit long yeah your initial of
course of course I would be honored to wear them on my skin right behind my
shoulder blade should be fine I'm ready
okay just one more please yes the last one
I want it on my face please I need a scar that somewhere everyone can see
just a small cut on my cheek oh it feels different when I can see the knife yes
put the tip just there right against my skin please press deep for this one thank
you thank you yes yes that was the last one I'm tingling all over no no of
course not you you did nothing wrong you're wonderful I wanted it I wanted it
so much and you did so well I'm so proud of you thank you so much
please could you start a shower for me I I want to wash off that blood now yeah
thank you I'm just going to rest here a bit longer I can't wait to see the scar
feeling
thank you