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baby can we talk something's been bothering me no no it's nothing you've

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done oh well not exactly you are wonderful when we're together I feel

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safe I feel cared for respected loved I'm so happy with you the problem and it's

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not necessarily a problem but the concern I have the issue is I mean okay

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let me start over this might sound strange but it really bothers me that

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there's no proof that you love me no physical evidence if you stripped me

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naked and looked at every part of me the skin of my throat the creases of my

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elbow the cheeks of my ass spaces between my toes you you would never find

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something that showed we are connected I was thinking about this the other day

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while appreciating the bruises you gave me they had started such a lovely purple

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but they were turning pink and I knew that soon they would be gone that's when

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I thought bruises fade I want scars so that's what this is about I want you to

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cut me to mark me permanently to brand on my skin the proof that I am yours so

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that anyone who looked could see beyond all doubt that I belong to you I know

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that's more intense than anything we've done before I understand if you're not

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ready for it but it's it's something that I had to tell you you you will do

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it oh could we right now yes yes of course we can lay your clean sheet on

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the bed to catch the blood okay there I think face down is best so you have all

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of my back to work with what I strip and get ready would you boil one of the

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knives from the kitchen the new one that's really sharp yeah thank you it's

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ready perfect here I lay down will you tie my arms and my legs down I don't

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want to squirm too much

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Wow I can't believe this is really happening no no I want it I need it I

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trust you show me the knife please okay okay could you just start with a small

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cut just a few inches so I can get used to it yes could you could you trace it

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on my back with your finger before yes yes that feels right I am ready are you

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ready okay no that was that was perfect just wait a bit wait a moment just just

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wait okay again twice as long this time

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I love it I don't stop anymore could you do to

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near each other and the other side of my back yeah I'm ready just yes I'm

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getting excited no no no no don't touch me there don't touch me I just want to

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feel the blade right now and your hands on my back please could you rub my neck

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a little that's nice I was worried actually that you wouldn't like it but

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you do don't you yeah I can feel your eagerness your anticipation yeah that's

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how I feel too yeah just don't enjoy it too much all right I don't think that we

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can do this very often okay I'm ready for more I want a longer one this time

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with a curve at the end could you trace it for me on my skin longer than that yes

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that's what I want I'll be okay really more like a curve like you yes like that

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okay okay I'm ready fuck fuck fuck fuck can you hold my hand on my hand thank

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you thank you

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yes I'm okay what does it feel like I I wouldn't know how to describe it you

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want me to try okay I'm not going to disobey when you're holding that knife

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so first is the fear I trust you I trust you completely but there is fear when I

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sense you standing behind me above me holding the knife I can't help it I know

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what you could do to me if you want it no it's good it's thrilling when I feel

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the blade rest on my skin the fear elevates to anticipation the moment

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before the cut my entire being is focused on that angle part just waiting

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for that first movement when the blade bites into me when the pain comes it's a

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relief a release all the tension given form and just let go I mean it fucking

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hurts but I want it to hurt and I know that it's a gift from you it will create

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a mark that connects us forever it's like there's something beautiful inside

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me underneath that skin and this is the only way to let it out as long as it's

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you holding the knife it has to be you after you make the cut and the pain

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starts to fade all I feel is that beauty radiating out of me you see too I'm so

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glad okay ready to start again now I want a lot of small cuts along my

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shoulders like rain like a storm yes like that exactly

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I'm ready

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oh that felt like you were cutting music into me that was wonderful okay now I

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want to ask you something more please I want you to make some cuts on your own

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whatever you want yes these are your scars I'm happy to wear whatever you

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want to give me can you tell me what it is

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oh you want to give me your name maybe that's a bit long yeah your initial of

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course of course I would be honored to wear them on my skin right behind my

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shoulder blade should be fine I'm ready

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okay just one more please yes the last one

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I want it on my face please I need a scar that somewhere everyone can see

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just a small cut on my cheek oh it feels different when I can see the knife yes

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put the tip just there right against my skin please press deep for this one thank

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you thank you yes yes that was the last one I'm tingling all over no no of

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course not you you did nothing wrong you're wonderful I wanted it I wanted it

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so much and you did so well I'm so proud of you thank you so much

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please could you start a shower for me I I want to wash off that blood now yeah

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thank you I'm just going to rest here a bit longer I can't wait to see the scar

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feeling

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thank you