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but they say I will not make it by Rachel Wiley when you are fat and I am

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fat the streets are full of soothsayers telling you how you will die they all

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seem so anxious for my heart like it's an unattended package at the airport so

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I move through the world listening for my heart like it must be a clock

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swallowed by a crocodile no a canary that goes silent much too late no they

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are certain it is going to attack my heart like a hungry bear on a campground

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ripping a zipper down my chest cracking my sternum like a cheap tent pole no I

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am not at all sorry for my size so I must be a barge which would make my heart

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of fish watched onto the deck gasping flopping slamming scales off its body

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like an angry beauty queen ripping sequins from a dress that didn't sparkle

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enough to win but then that would make my heart a beauty queen that can't walk

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in heels no wait my heart is an hourglass filled with gunpowder and at

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any given moment some wild spark is gonna blow me sky-high so I don't know

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maybe this is why I love the way I do with teeth and swallow and song and

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snarl and water and sparkle and consequence maybe this is why I show up

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to your front door out of breath and full of dazzle like this is the last

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ballyhoo and nothing at all can wait till the morning forgive me they keep

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telling me that my heart is not my heart they keep telling me that I am dying

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this may be our last chance