I never know where to start. This week has been like every other week. I'm just so frustrated.
I know that we've talked about how therapy isn't a magic wand, and I definitely feel
like you've helped me become more aware of how I process things. I look forward to coming
here every week and talking to you, but I still have all the same urges. I'm still just
so horny all the time, and it's starting to make me go beyond the things I've done before.
I'm starting to worry that it's going to interfere with my life. I'm already doing things I never
thought I would do, and I'm honestly thinking about doing a lot more. No. I know what we
talked about last week, but I haven't been able to stop. I masturbated at least three
times every day in the last week. What goes through my mind when I do it is just how frustrated
I am, and horny, and like, how close I am to having sex, but how it still feels like
it's something out of reach. Do you think it's possible for a virgin to be sexually
frustrated or like a nymphomaniac or something? What do you think? I think you must be a pretty
good therapist because you answer every question with a question. I think that's why I masturbate
so much, because I think about sex constantly, and I feel like I must be the only virgin
on campus, and it's like I just know everyone around me is having sex all of the time, and
I want to do it too. I just don't want my first time to be with some asshole from Tinder
who's just trying to get laid. I could definitely make that happen, and I think about it. I
do. I know that guys look at me. I feel their eyes on me. Even when I don't see them looking,
I know they are, and when I masturbate, I just think about how they all want to touch
me, about teasing and showing off until they can't hold back and they want to molest me,
but not in a bad way. Like, they know I want it, that I want to let them touch me. They
can just tell I want them to fondle me over, grab my tits, rub between my legs, and squeeze
my butt. I think about them grinding their hard cocks against me in a dark corner or
a dark room. You've heard of Reddit, right? Well, there's this place on there where girls
post naked pictures of themselves, and some guys do too, and I started looking at those
pictures all the time. I know I shouldn't have done this, but after a few weeks, I took
a naked picture of myself and I posted it, and almost immediately I started getting comments
and messages one after another. It made me feel so good to know that guys were enjoying
my body, and it made me want to post more, so I kept doing it. I take photos of myself
while I masturbate. Sometimes I go into public bathrooms and take photos and post them in
the middle of the day. Last week I was getting coffee and I was sitting in the table in the
corner, and when I thought nobody was looking, I pulled my top off and took a picture of
my tits right there in public, and I posted it. I go in there all the time looking at
comments and posting new photos. It makes me really horny, and I end up masturbating
in the middle of the day between classes back in my room, or sometimes I go to the bathroom
or wherever I am and rub my clit really hard. It's making me horny just talking about it.
I want to play with myself. Can I? Can I just play with myself a little while we talk? I
mean, I feel really comfortable with you. I know, I know what's wrong, but don't tell
me no, please. You always say that therapy is a safe place, and that all I need to when
I'm here is just be who I am, and who I am is a horny girl, and I want to play. Don't
you want to see me play? I can tell you do. I've seen the way you look at me too, even
though you're my therapist, and it's wrong. I know you want to see me naked, and it makes
me horny. I want you to see my body. Look. Look at me. If I just pull the edge of my
skirt with my fingers, and spread my legs, do you see my panties? I like to rub my fingers
over my panties sometimes, and then pull them down when I start getting really excited like
I am now. It makes me wet to spread my legs for you. When I play, I like to put my fingers
like this, and pull back so my clit can come out to play, and then I make my fingertips
on my other hand a little wet, and just gently I play on my clit while I spread, and I think
about guys watching me play. Do you like watching me play? Is your cock hard? Yeah, I know it
is. I want you to take it out, and stroke it for me. I want to see what men do when
they look at my body. I know it's bad. Be bad with me. Help me. I need you to help me
get this out of my system. That's it. Show me. I want to see how you stroke your cock
to me. Yeah, make it wet. Use your spit and make it wet. It's dirty. Be dirty with me.
Do you like seeing my pussy? Do you like how it looks when I spread it? I love how you
bump your cock. Do you want to hear what other dirty things are on my mind? I watch a lot
of porn, and I watch girls like me, the same age as me, getting fucked by big, beautiful
cocks like yours. Do you ever jack off to porn? I think it's amazing how some girls
do hundreds of scenes, and I think about how hot it would be if I were a porn girl. I'd
love knowing that millions of guys are looking at me, watching me fuck, and that they know
every inch of my naked body because they've jacked off to me so many times. I love seeing
girls get fucked really hard. I imagine how their pussies must feel so full when guys
are forcing their big cocks inside. And I love how nasty the girls are, how they let
the guys cum all over them, how every scene ends with a girl getting covered with cum
all over her face. I've had my toy inside me, but I want to know what it feels like
with a real cock. Please, who cares? I want you to be my first fuck. Yeah, we both want
it. It's okay. Grab me and put your cock inside me. I want to feel how it feels to be grabbed
and fucked. I'm really, really wet. It's okay. You can fuck me as hard as you want. Yeah,
make me feel it. Make me feel you deep inside me. Oh, fuck. You're so fucking thick. Fuck.
I feel myself all spread open and it feels so good. It feels so good. It feels so good
to finally get fucked. Fuck. When I become a porn girl, you can jack off to me and know
that you were my first fuck. That you fucked me when I was a horny virgin pouring my heart
out to you in your office. I'm not a virgin anymore, though. I'm not a virgin anymore,
thanks to you. Fuck me. Oh, fuck me. Fuck me. You can come all over me. Use me to get
your cock off and cover me and come. Cover me and come and make me a porn girl. Fuck,
fuck, fuck, fuck. Yeah, yeah, it feels really fucking nice. Do it. Yeah, yeah, do it. I
want to feel you come. I want to feel it shoot out all over me. I want to feel how it feels
to be dirty and messy and have my face full of cum. Oh my god. Oh my god. I love it. It
feels so hot all over my skin. Yeah, all over my face. Fuck. Oh, fuck. That was amazing.
I had no idea that today was going to be the day. I needed that, but I'm not. I'm needing
your help, though. We've dealt with my virginity, but I'm still a nymphomaniac. I guess we'll
pick up there next week, huh?
