1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:08,000 Hiding behind a cupboard or something, waiting for me to slip up and I'll feel that heat 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:18,200 cover my cheeks or the sting of whatever new electro gadget you've gotten your hands on. 3 00:00:18,200 --> 00:00:24,320 It's the first time I've been able to actually form a few sentences directed at you. 4 00:00:24,320 --> 00:00:34,120 And I think the issue is I'm not angry, and I don't know why I'm not angry, and in that 5 00:00:34,120 --> 00:00:44,000 same breath I feel like I'm supposed to be livid, destructively angry, but it's not there. 6 00:00:44,000 --> 00:00:50,480 The therapist, and I know she's going to want to listen to this, but what's the odds I'll 7 00:00:50,480 --> 00:00:55,360 actually get through this with anything worth sending to her? 8 00:00:55,360 --> 00:00:57,560 So much pressure. 9 00:00:57,560 --> 00:01:03,440 I think she wants me to be angry too, and it's all this pressure just sitting on me, 10 00:01:03,440 --> 00:01:08,040 boxing me in, and I can't really dig into what I'm actually feeling. 11 00:01:08,040 --> 00:01:13,080 Heck, it's only been three months since I was last in that room. 12 00:01:13,080 --> 00:01:22,680 The day before that, you were inside me, using me, over and over, like you always did. 13 00:01:22,680 --> 00:01:31,000 Except those last couple weeks, I started to feel kind of different, not really used. 14 00:01:31,000 --> 00:01:34,120 I felt like I could leave if I asked you. 15 00:01:34,120 --> 00:01:35,120 I didn't. 16 00:01:35,120 --> 00:01:38,040 I don't know why that is. 17 00:01:38,040 --> 00:01:42,200 I think I'd begin to want to be there. 18 00:01:42,200 --> 00:01:53,120 It's kind of weird to say it now, but I felt owned, like this strong, masculine, hard man 19 00:01:53,120 --> 00:01:54,840 owned me. 20 00:01:54,840 --> 00:02:02,800 I was his property, and every single time I could make him come, make him empty himself 21 00:02:02,800 --> 00:02:09,380 in me, on me, exclusively, for months. 22 00:02:09,380 --> 00:02:17,720 It was his way, no, his body's way of saying that I was just perfect. 23 00:02:17,720 --> 00:02:25,720 Fuck, and I'd make you come almost every day. 24 00:02:25,720 --> 00:02:27,640 I cried at the start. 25 00:02:27,640 --> 00:02:36,920 I remember the first time, coming to, realizing where I was, scared, so fucking scared. 26 00:02:36,920 --> 00:02:40,520 You have no idea. 27 00:02:40,520 --> 00:02:45,600 First off, I remembered leaving the house, feeling all morning as if someone had been 28 00:02:45,600 --> 00:02:53,240 watching me, tracing me, just that kind of, you're not alone feeling. 29 00:02:53,240 --> 00:02:59,080 It was so unsettling, but I told myself not to overthink it. 30 00:02:59,080 --> 00:03:04,840 I followed my usual routine, and I think that was the issue, cause I went for another late 31 00:03:04,840 --> 00:03:06,060 run. 32 00:03:06,060 --> 00:03:16,320 I guess it wasn't that late, but I shouldn't have gone there, near the woods, and yet, 33 00:03:16,320 --> 00:03:24,840 I know now, sitting here, well, it turns me on to remember how hard your hand gripped 34 00:03:24,840 --> 00:03:34,760 around me, how I pulled away and ran so hard my breath burnt my chest, inhaling like I'd 35 00:03:34,760 --> 00:03:42,360 been fucking, and I didn't have time to think, I just remember running, running and tripping 36 00:03:42,360 --> 00:03:48,560 when your weight pressed me down so hard, and I thought you were going to tear my thighs 37 00:03:48,560 --> 00:03:54,960 off, but you pressed your hand against my throat. 38 00:03:54,960 --> 00:04:02,520 It was dark, I couldn't see your face that well, your hand was hot against my throat, 39 00:04:02,520 --> 00:04:08,720 my breath icy cold and stifled because I was being suffocated, and the next thing I recall 40 00:04:08,720 --> 00:04:20,920 is waking up, stripped of whatever I'd been wearing, just in panties, just in cotton panties, 41 00:04:20,920 --> 00:04:29,720 and I'm ashamed to admit it now, that I felt a wet spot in them, I had a bruise on my cheek 42 00:04:29,720 --> 00:04:38,760 and my throat hurt badly, you came in, showing me your face, though whenever someone asks, 43 00:04:38,760 --> 00:04:46,040 I say that you wore a mask, you didn't say anything, just lifted and pressed me against 44 00:04:46,040 --> 00:04:57,880 a cold wall, then you smelled my crotch, god am I really touching myself while I'm thinking 45 00:04:57,880 --> 00:05:09,520 about this, you smelled my cunt, and around my asshole, you were filthy, you wanted to 46 00:05:09,520 --> 00:05:18,400 smell how wet I was, and then you ripped my panties down, and you dipped your tongue wet 47 00:05:18,400 --> 00:05:26,600 and slick into my cunt, eating me out like you would your girlfriend, I tried so hard 48 00:05:26,600 --> 00:05:32,960 not to come, but after a few minutes, having my pussy and asshole eaten, I came on your 49 00:05:32,960 --> 00:05:43,000 tongue, what a little slut I was, I was so angry at myself, I fucking hated you, so much 50 00:05:43,000 --> 00:05:53,320 in that moment, so much, you didn't even acknowledge me, just my holes, you took your cock out, 51 00:05:53,320 --> 00:06:00,080 stood on your feet and told me to turn around, I looked at your eyes as long as I could, 52 00:06:00,080 --> 00:06:09,160 you only looked at my body, I wanted to grab your fat dick so badly, and when I saw you 53 00:06:09,160 --> 00:06:20,240 spit on it, and glide so furiously over the tip, did I try and reach out, realizing too 54 00:06:20,240 --> 00:06:28,240 late my fucking hands were handcuffed, I was so fixed on your thick cock, I knew you were 55 00:06:28,240 --> 00:06:35,960 going to come, I felt ashamed, like something was wrong with me, but I kept watching you 56 00:06:35,960 --> 00:06:44,640 milk your cock, tugging at your balls, and then you whimpered, quietly, before the groaning 57 00:06:44,640 --> 00:06:55,880 started, and you came so hard, I wanted it to land on my skin so badly, but it didn't, 58 00:06:55,880 --> 00:07:01,980 we did that for a while, every now and then, for what could have been a month, eating me 59 00:07:01,980 --> 00:07:10,480 until I came, then jerking off while you perved on my body, you'd feed me twice a day, allowing 60 00:07:10,480 --> 00:07:18,880 me to bathe, never too much, you craved my smell not that of lotion, you dressed me just 61 00:07:18,880 --> 00:07:26,920 for warmth, it stopped being about sustenance really, I counted days in that little room 62 00:07:26,920 --> 00:07:33,880 by the loads of cum you shot on the floor, watching them land on my feet, which you always 63 00:07:33,880 --> 00:07:41,200 had me keep pedicured, on my stomach at times, even touching my breasts when you made me 64 00:07:41,200 --> 00:07:53,400 kneel in front of you, but never in my mouth, fuck I'm so wet, I'm just a dirty girl, and 65 00:07:53,400 --> 00:07:59,460 I don't know how to tell anyone, how to tell anyone that I've been masturbating for weeks 66 00:07:59,460 --> 00:08:07,960 to the memories of what you did to me, how after that month you finally fucked me, you 67 00:08:07,960 --> 00:08:15,080 used rope to spread my legs over a work table, had my pussy perfectly trimmed, and my body 68 00:08:15,080 --> 00:08:25,000 smooth and washed, you treated me like your girlfriend, not a little rape slut, but I 69 00:08:25,000 --> 00:08:34,120 was a rape slut, a little rape victim you snatched in a forest, a cheap little whore 70 00:08:34,120 --> 00:08:41,120 who couldn't even run from you, I can't tell anyone how I stuck my tongue out for you to 71 00:08:41,120 --> 00:08:48,040 spit on me while you fucked into me, how I loved feeling the rope burn me and how your 72 00:08:48,040 --> 00:08:57,640 cock split me, I don't even know your name, but I've never come like that, you drained 73 00:08:57,640 --> 00:09:05,920 my asshole, fucked in and out of it like a cunt, I think hearing me cry makes you come 74 00:09:05,920 --> 00:09:16,160 harder, slapping my face, pinching my nipples, choking me, it all makes your thick fat cock 75 00:09:16,160 --> 00:09:24,640 even harder, you trained my throat, stopped my gag reflex, showed me what happens when 76 00:09:24,640 --> 00:09:39,600 I'm good, I promise I'll be so good sir, I promise, you are so animalistic with me, 77 00:09:39,600 --> 00:09:48,040 so fucking primal, you smelt my holes, sucking on my breasts, sometimes you even licked my 78 00:09:48,040 --> 00:09:57,400 underarms, tasting me, you were so dirty, I think you chose me because you wanted someone 79 00:09:57,400 --> 00:10:05,280 who you could use for your every sexual woman, someone who with enough training would sit 80 00:10:05,280 --> 00:10:14,680 between your legs and eat your ass, eat your ass while I jerked your cock off, yes whoever 81 00:10:14,680 --> 00:10:21,280 else is listening my hands were always tied up, and sometimes when they were it's because 82 00:10:21,280 --> 00:10:29,080 he needed the illusion that I was struggling, but eventually he wasn't raping me, he was 83 00:10:29,080 --> 00:10:40,480 just using me because I wanted to be used, and raped, and owned, and I feel like I tripped 84 00:10:40,480 --> 00:10:49,920 on purpose sometimes, like I wanted to see if you'd rape me, make me come and cry in 85 00:10:49,920 --> 00:11:00,800 the dirt, come like a slut in the woods covered and filled with your perfect cum, I'm going 86 00:11:00,800 --> 00:11:12,600 to cum for you again, just like I did yesterday, and the day before, and the weeks before that, 87 00:11:12,600 --> 00:11:21,080 thinking about the first time your cock filled me up, how good it felt being full, wondering 88 00:11:21,080 --> 00:11:29,000 what the news reports said, wondering what they'd say if they heard me moaning, whimpering 89 00:11:29,000 --> 00:11:37,040 like a little bitch in heat because of your fat heavy cock was making me cum again, what 90 00:11:37,040 --> 00:11:42,160 would they say if they saw me pressing to your lips, trying to kiss you while I got 91 00:11:42,160 --> 00:11:53,360 close to cumming over and over, and then you had me hung up in ropes, and when the lights 92 00:11:53,360 --> 00:12:03,880 come on you entered, there was an audience, maybe eight people who'd I'd seen many times 93 00:12:03,880 --> 00:12:10,000 during the months that went on, you'd fuck me in front of them, treating me like a sex 94 00:12:10,000 --> 00:12:17,560 toy you were jerking off with, they'd watch and play with each other, women and men, it 95 00:12:17,560 --> 00:12:25,400 made me cum knowing that I was just porn to them, no personality, no interests and desires, 96 00:12:25,400 --> 00:12:35,960 no hopes and dreams, just a flush, holes, a pretty face and a tight body, hanging there, 97 00:12:35,960 --> 00:12:43,800 trying to balance with my hands roped above my head, my body displayed for everyone, I've 98 00:12:43,800 --> 00:12:53,880 never felt sexier, when you walked in, calling you sir, knowing that every time I said it, 99 00:12:53,880 --> 00:13:02,160 I'd get wet, hearing your footsteps in the passageway, I'd feel my pussy tense and pulse, 100 00:13:02,160 --> 00:13:11,920 ready to cum for you like a good girl, later on I'd beg for it, shouting and moaning if 101 00:13:11,920 --> 00:13:19,600 you hadn't made me cum in twenty-four hours, it makes me cum now, pressing my fingertips 102 00:13:19,600 --> 00:13:28,520 over the scars where you cut me, or beat me, or slapped me, choking myself just the way 103 00:13:28,520 --> 00:13:38,120 that you would, I didn't want to leave, I want to go back, I still jog the same route, 104 00:13:38,120 --> 00:13:47,040 you know, hoping you'll rape me by a tree, dump your cum in me, make out with me, tell 105 00:13:47,040 --> 00:13:56,160 me what a good little victim I am, that's all I want sir, I want to be your good girl 106 00:13:56,160 --> 00:14:03,280 again, I want to make you so proud, I want to hear your footsteps, I want to smell your 107 00:14:03,280 --> 00:14:13,920 cologne, and your skin, and your cock, I want to lick your balls, and suck your dick until 108 00:14:13,920 --> 00:14:21,080 you've cum all that you can, I want you to drain your heavy balls from me, I hope you 109 00:14:21,080 --> 00:14:28,760 haven't fucked any other little bitch since then, I'm your little whore, and I want to 110 00:14:28,760 --> 00:14:36,720 be your whore again, I want you to beat me, and choke me, spit on my face, eat my pussy 111 00:14:36,720 --> 00:14:44,160 and asshole, I want you to rape me, until I'm your little submissive slut again, I 112 00:14:44,160 --> 00:14:56,840 promise I'll do good, I won't disappoint you, I promise, don't you hear how what I am, don't 113 00:14:56,840 --> 00:15:04,200 you hear how badly I need you to rape me in front of your friends again, I can only masturbate 114 00:15:04,200 --> 00:15:12,360 to the memories so much, I need new memories sir, I promise I'll be so good sir, I swear 115 00:15:12,360 --> 00:15:21,560 on it, I'll suck your toes, kiss your feet, lick all over your hard, perfect body, I'll 116 00:15:21,560 --> 00:15:28,280 be your perfect slave again, better than I was last time, I'll moan, and beg for you, 117 00:15:28,280 --> 00:15:42,320 I'll keep your cock absolutely empty, I just want to cum for you, please, god I can't 118 00:15:42,320 --> 00:15:48,720 I hope you're masturbating to me wherever you are, I know you've got videos of us, recorded 119 00:15:48,720 --> 00:15:55,880 scenes of you raping me, I bet you're sitting down stroking your perfect fat cock while 120 00:15:55,880 --> 00:16:07,120 you watch us, while you watch your perfect little girl, god I want to cum so badly, I 121 00:16:07,120 --> 00:16:14,920 want you to cum with me, please, just do it, I'm gonna cum so hard thinking of you coating 122 00:16:14,920 --> 00:16:24,240 my little whore face in your cum while your friends watch, I'm gonna make you so proud, 123 00:16:24,240 --> 00:16:49,960 please sir, oh fuck, please sir, please, please cum for me, please, oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck, 124 00:16:49,960 --> 00:17:08,720 I'm so frustrated, I just want you to own me again, to slap me, fuck me, choke me, own 125 00:17:08,720 --> 00:17:16,760 me, please kidnap me again, you know I'll struggle like a good girl, I can take it, 126 00:17:16,760 --> 00:17:34,680 I promise, guess this is another unsuccessful attempt, god what's wrong with me, oh it must 127 00:17:34,680 --> 00:17:49,920 be time for that run I suppose.