I really don't want to argue with you. No. I know I said some things and I got really
mad, but I'm really really sorry for it. I know that lately we have been going through
things and it's just really really hard for me to, you know, keep things inside me, bottled
up, my needs and my wants, and I really didn't want to fight with you or make a scene or
say anything. But sometimes, you know, it's just, I really want you to want me, you know?
Like even how you say things, I don't want you to tell me that you can come if you want.
I want you to just, you know, make me feel like I'm wanted. Just tell me like, I want
you here, I want to see you or something like that, you know? And a little bit more. And
it's just been in my head and I'm trying to give hints here and there, but like I want
you to make me feel wanted, like I'm yours. And I know that you're a gentleman and you
want to do things with my consent and be nice to me and treat me well, but sometimes I just
want you to just grab me and be like, this is mine or just, you know, hold me, kiss me
and say nobody is allowed to kiss here. And I'll be like, yes daddy, this is all yours.
You know what I mean? I know you have this really goodbye image and I know that that's
how you see yourself, but that's not how I see you. I really see you as a very, very
bad boy who wants to dominate and control things. That's one of the reasons why I was
attracted to you, because I knew that you had a side like that inside you, you know?
And the fact that you still didn't show me that side kind of made me a little bit mad,
you know? Because I want to feel like that. I want to feel like I am the submissive one
and I'm here to serve you daddy. I'm here to serve your every need. Really? You think
so? So you're going to show me the bad side of yours? Uh huh. I would really love that.
I really, really want to see that. I feel like the fight that we had was because I really
wanted to see that side of yours and you not showing it to me just made me feel angry.
But I don't want to feel angry. I want to serve you. Yes. I want you to grab me like
that daddy.