I don't know what I would really, really like.
People talk about all these explicit things, you know.
What it feels like to go down on somebody.
Feel them shake and tremble and shiver.
You know what I like?
Tension.
That moment of not knowing what's going to happen next.
It's like that space between the kiss right before two lips meet.
There's this electricity in the air.
You can feel its pulse surround you.
There's this thought that's going on in your head of like, what's going to happen?
How is this going to feel?
Where the only thought consuming you is of the person in front of you.
And how you want them to fall apart and you want to take your precious time doing it.
And memorize every inch of that moment.
That build up.
That sweet, sweet tension.
That's what I want.
That's what I miss.
And I think sometimes I feel it with you.
But it's crazy, right?
I can never be us.
No way.