>>67080286>"I'm so sorry baby. I'm so sorry." I feel tears streaming down my face onto him.>"Don't leave me. You'll be okay. C'mon, Anon." I coo to him. I gently brush his face. >I finally hear a slam on the front door, they're here. The two meds rush in, both saurians, and they push me back, getting right on him. I watch as they work, firstly resuming my duties, then placing a hand against his neck. My heart drops even more when I see them glance at each other, one running back outside.>The remaining med starts chest compressions. No.>The second returns, a small device, curled wires between two pads. I know what that's for. No. No he'll be fine. I didn't... I didn't do this. >They count down and his body jolts. He'll cough and take a deep breath in just a second. He'll forgive me. He'll be there for Sera's birth.>Another count, another pulse. >I suddenly find my legs give out. I'm sitting now. I've unconsciously covered my mouth with my hand. It's just a small scratch. I watched him almost break every bone is his body.>Another pulse, the two lean back. No>They turn their heads to me slowly. No. No NO NO NONONONO.>A nod no. He's gone.>I drop my arms. I can't even wail. Everything was perfect. I had what I wanted. I screwed it up. >I feel heavy droplets landing on my legs, my eyes streaming. I feel a hand on my shoulder. >Sera's going to grow up alone and it's my fault.>I shut my eyes and see him. Smiling and happy. It's when I told him we're having a child. My body is rocked with shakes and sobs. Fin, suffering.
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