>"Anon?" Fang asks, a pit in my stomach telling me this is going to be a rough conversation.
>"Yeah, Fang?" I ask back, as she sits up in bed, placing her hand gently on my chest. I match her stance.
>"Can we talk about...us?" Oh god
>"Y-yeah?" Panic in every fiber of my being.
>"So eventually, and I mean not any time soon or anything but like, after you come back from college... did you want to have a kid?" I'm blindsided by this
>I hadn't put much thought into it before but I suppose I'd like to have a little Mous running amok.
>"Yeah I don't see why not, do you?" I ask carefully
>"...I... I don't know?" she asks? Seems we're both confused here.
>I don't interrupt and let her continue
>"I just... I don't know if I'd be a good mom." she stops at that word
>"Mom." she says again, emphasizing it.
>"Parent?" I ask back
>She looks at me then shakes her head, drooping it.
>I think a moment on how we've been so far and come to a rather easy conclusion.
>"You'd do great, honestly." her eyes light up, her head flicking up and meeting my gaze intensely. Her face begging me to tell her more. I oblige.
>"Think of how you handled me when I was hurt." I lead her on to the same conclusion I came to
>"Well that's different." she says, lips pulling back to a neutral expression.
>"You wanna know who you reminded me of during that whole thing? My mom. Almost made me miss her for a minute." I say to Fang, grabbing her knee gently
>She looks away, not entirely convinced
>"Well, what are you afraid of, then?" I ask, trying to get her to fully open to this. She does
>"What if I'm not good enough? What if I don't listen enough. What if I-" I cut in as she's getting hysterical
>"Shhhh." I gently shush her and pet her back
>She shuts her eyes and starts again, panic managed.
>"I'm so scared of hurting someone that close to me... again." she says, eyes starting to tear as she looks down.
>"...can I say something a bit rough?" I ask, a sort of plan formed in my head.
cont.