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Anonymous Sat 15 Jun 2024 01:46:17 No.66610660 Report
Quoted By: >>66611034
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PoT server restart'd, startin picrel now

>The last words I may ever get to tell Dad were "I hate you."

>I've been alone in his hospital room for half an hour now.
>Mom and I have been here for at least three. We got here when it was still daylight out; sun's set since.
>It's quiet, except for the beep of his pulse on the monitor and the whining of other machinery.
>I hate hospitals.
>They smell weird.
>Smell fake, too sterile. It makes my scales itch.
>And now I'm here all by myself. Huddled up on this shitty couch for visitors that feels like its cushions are made of rocks.
>A Doctor asked Mom to come with him a little bit ago. She asked if I wanted to come with. I told her no.
>I wanted to be alone, so I said.
>I regret it now.
>I hate sitting in here with him.
>But he's not even here. He's unconscious. Bruised and broken up and ugly looking.
>Fucking Skinnie. Mom could have tanked a car crash, no sweat, no diff. But not you. You scaleless asshole, who infected me with your gross fucking human genes.

>...The car crash he got in because of me. Because I made him want to leave the house to clear his head.
>Retard.
>He should have just stayed home.
>He should have just left me alone and let me browse in peace.
>But no. He heard me talking shit with the bros on the 'cord and HAD to come into my room and start preaching his bullshit, like I haven't heard it a million times before.
>I can hear his stupid voice now.
>"Cynthia, why don't you call your sister and see how she's settling at college? Or see if Sera or Maria's around? You've been in here all day."
>And I told him to get out of my room, and that I didn't want to talk to those faggots anyways. Especially not Amber. Fuck her.
>"Don't talk about your sister like that. You know she misses you."
>Yeah, Dad. She's your favorite daughter, don't have to rub it in.
>"I didn't say that--"
>You don't have to. I can fucking tell. All you talk about is her.

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Anonymous Sat 15 Jun 2024 02:01:03 No.66611034 Report
Quoted By: >>66611391 >>66611409
>>66610660
>That made him furrow his brow. "Have you ever considered that's because Amber actually goes out and does things?"
>At least you can admit you don't give a fuck about my hobbies.
>"You don't have hobbies. This--" He had waved towards my setup. "Isn't a hobby."
>I tried to talk. He cut me off.
>"I've been right where you are. You're going to look back at this time and hate yourself for it."
>It makes me happy. It's fun. I'm allowed to have fun, why can't you just leave me alone?
>Just because YOU fucked up YOUR childhood doesn't mean I'M doing the same.
>Go grieve over that bird bitch you still pine over some more. I hate the way you treat me. I hate -you-.

>...I don't know why that all came out of me, in hindsight.
>He didn't even say anything that drastic.
>It just sort of spilled out. It felt good at the time. It felt good to see him stare at me all quiet and sad.
>"I know you don't mean that." That's what he said before he closed the door and went downstairs. Heard the car pull out a couple minutes after.
>What a pussy. Running away from your daughter, half your size. Whipped bitch, don't even know why Mom keeps you around. Why she settled for something like you.
>I can't wait to head to Uni after this summer. Far away from this overbearing shithead and stupid lectures and his retard normie fucking opinions. Boomer brain rotted from troll's remorse, thinking he knows SOOOOOOO much just because he used to shitpost.
>I couldn't wait for him to be out of my life.

>That's what I thought then.
>But now, every time I glanced up and see him in that bed, my throat feels raw. My chest feels...Fucking congested.
>I hate the silence most of all. We rushed to make it here so quick that I forgot to grab my airpods. And it feels weird to consider playing YouSnoot out loud in a place like this.
>The quiet keeps making me hear those machines.
>Keeps making me look over at him.
>I need to hear someone else.
>Talk to someone.

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Anonymous Sat 15 Jun 2024 02:14:10 No.66611409 Report
Quoted By: >>66611713
>>66611034
>I've gone through every social media app I own. Contacts included.
>The last text I ever got from any of the neighbors came from six months ago.
>After Sera kicked me out of the groupchat.
>We had stumbled over politics. Melissa tried sharing her normie libshit opinions. I decided to give her a piece of my mind.
>Uneducated bitch deserved it for being so stupid.
>But apparently I was in the wrong for actually using my head and exploring alternative sources of media.
>As per usual, whenever I open my mouth, it's suddenly a problem.
>Not that it mattered. I didn't miss the notifications from that shit anyways.
>I didn't need their smoothbrained bellcurved takes interrupting my immersion during my freetime.
>Not like any of them ever did anything for me, anyways.
>They were just there because of Amber.
>And now that she's gone, what use did they have to tolerate me anymore.

>Amber, Dad's favorite daughter, whose half a country away.
>Amber, who can't even be here when OUR father is fucking comatose in a hospital bed.
>Pursuing some faggoty music degree. Yeah, my interests are retarded and gay, but Amby wants a Bachelor's for being a barista the moment she graduates, so Mommy and Daddy immediately bankroll her.
>She's not even your real mom you feathered cunt.
>But you couldn't settle for taking Dad away from me. No, you had to go for broke.
>And now Dad might be gone for good.

>...Maybe the frens in the Snootcord will listen.

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Anonymous Sat 15 Jun 2024 02:27:22 No.66611713 Report
Quoted By: >>66611973
>>66611409
>General chat's the only active channel in my hangout server.
>Some of my buds are chatting about the Blockcraft server we started up recently. Modded, of course.
>They'll hear me. Let me let it out. I trust them.
>They're my only real friends.
>We're gonna meet this summer in person, moment I'm out of the house. We've had to delay the get-together two times now, but it'll definitely happen this time.
>I try to play it off with some humor at first.
>"my retard apecuck father got his ankles broken by a car"
>So on and so forth.
>But it doesn't feel cathartic.
>It just feels gross, and the more I type about it, the more I feel..
>Miserable.
>Rewrite after rewrite, the sarcasm gradually drips away.
>I realize I don't want to joke about it.
>I want to talk about it.
>I want someone to tell me it's gonna be alright. That they're here for me.
>"Dad's in the hospital. im scared. can someone please talk to me."
>I don't care that it sounds desperate. I'm tired of feeling like I'm going to burst.
>Send. I stare at screen, eyes fixed. The chat slows down for a second, and I can feel my breath catch in my throat in anticipation.
>Someone reacts with a heart. That makes my chest flutter a little.
>Then a fish.
>Then a pregnant man.
>Then the post gets deleted--What the fuck?
>The server owner's typing. I've known BusterNuts for years, we met back on World of Wingcraft, he'll have something sweet to say.
>"@limecrime repost this gay shit in #vent faggot"

>You've got to be fucking joking.
>This was serious you fat fucking retard.
>I'm being serious.
>I needed someone to talk to.
>I needed -you guys-.
>And they're just talking about a fucking video game again. Like it didn't even happen.
>I can't help it. I huck the phone at the fucking wall. My beak's gritted to tight that it hurts.
>Why the fuck am I shaking so much.
>Calm down.
>Stop sperging out.

>Dad knows how to help when I get like this.

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Anonymous Sat 15 Jun 2024 02:37:04 No.66611973 Report
Quoted By: >>66612186
>>66611713
>I've always struggled with feeling overwhelmed easily.
>Been that way my whole life.
>And every time I feel like I'm gonna collapse, Dad would see me and pick me up.
>He'd sit me in his lap in the office, or the living room, or wherever he had it at the time.
>And we'd just play games for awhile.
>Sometimes together.
>Sometimes I'd just watch him play.
>It didn't matter what we did.
>He was there and I felt safe.
>And after a long time he'd ask me if I wanted to talk.
>And I always would.
>And he'd ask me what was wrong.
>And I'd try to tell him.
>And I'd cry.
>And he'd hold me and tell me it's okay until it stopped.
>The last time we did that was years ago.
>Because when he asked if I wanted to spend some time with him until I felt better, I said no.
>I didn't want Dad's help.
>That was cringe. I didn't need it. I was just being retarded and needed to unwind.

>But I want it now.
>And I can't have it, because he's laying still in that fucking bed.
>And he might never, ever get up again.
>Thinking that I hated him.
>I thought I did.
>But I realize now I hate not being able to tell him to go away.
>It doesn't feel good if it's not a choice.
>It doesn't feel good.
>This doesn't feel good.

>I can't stop myself from sobbing into my own hands.
>There's no one else around to hear me anyways.

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Anonymous Sat 15 Jun 2024 02:45:49 No.66612186 Report
Quoted By: >>66612281 >>66612283 >>66612378 >>66612395 >>66612406
>>66611973
>Dad was actually right.
>Every faggot online I thought I placed stock in is flaking on me, the one time I actually need them.
>And the people I should be leaning on are all gone.
>Because I drove them off.
>And it's too late to let him say I told you so.
>It's too late.
>I'm going to be a bitch with one parent and no friends.

>Amber had to deal with this her entire life.
>No wonder she clung to Dad so much.
>I want to right now, too.
>All I've got is silence, sterile hospital air and the sounds of my own hiccupping.

> . . .
>"Hey little lime."

>That fucking nickname.
>Dad's used it for me my whole life.
>Said my scales looked like a lime slice.
>I always thought it was embarrassing.
>But right now, I've never wanted to hear it more.
>I can't even see him smiling through the tears in my eyes.
>I run to the bed and wrap my arms around his stupid Skinnie neck and I scream against his throat.
>I howl and beg him and tell him I'm sorry and that I love him.
>And I feel his hand near my spine plates, and he tells me it's okay.

>I've got my Dad again.
>I'm never letting him go.

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dont care if the last bit's a little sappy