I wanted to add that if any pledges go through for this month, I'll refund them manually. I'm unaware of a cleaner way to prevent charges and things here.
I've received so many messages here and on tumblr, and frankly I'm too ashamed to read them. Any message alerts preview the kindness from all of you, and I'm grateful for those understanding and reaching out. Please forgive my silence. When I'm able, I want to respond to them each in kind. The things my brain has been doing has been frightening to me, and I just need it to subside.
Thank you all. Keep well.