Claws on my Heart Ch 3
The light of the morning woke me up, it appeared to be the crack of dawn. I did not sleep well, my head pounded with an incessant headache reminding me of what happened last night. My ass feels a little sore but not terrible, Killian’s knot must have gone down and slipped out of me during the night. I’m still pressed up against him with his arm draped over me, I move slightly and he wakes up. Makes sense for him to be a light sleeper.
“Good morning Daniel.” I felt his paws all over me, he pushed my head down to expose my neck, I felt him drag his tongue across it making me shudder in delight. I can feel him start to grind his sheath against my ass, he’s so warm and soft I don’t want him to stop. I start to get hard as his paw dives between my legs, groping me.
It’s difficult but I manage to muster the strength to sit up “Killian please, I have a headache.” He stops what he’s doing much to my dismay and lets out a heavy sigh, he probably knows what’s coming. Sweet man was just trying to delay the inevitable with some morning fun. 
“How much do you remember of last night?”
“I remember everything, you’d need a lot more to get me that drunk.”
There was no escaping it, I still felt that familiar warmth in my chest, the butterflies in my stomach. I still had feelings for him it wasn’t just the wine talking. “My head hurts, but I remember it all too. You really did spoil me rotten and give me the best night of my life. I think I said some things that, maybe I didn’t mean.”
He just huffs as he pulls me close again. “Liar, you did mean it. It was me that said something stupid. The truth is I don’t know what to feel I’ve never … been in this position before. My life has been nothing but pain and struggle. I never stopped to think that one day I’d meet someone like you. Now that I have, I’m scared. I break things Daniel, I don’t want to break you. I don’t know what this feeling in my chest is but, I’d like to keep experiencing it with you. I like it. I know it’s not the words you were hoping to hear, but it’s all I have for you right now.”
That was more than enough for me, I managed to pry some sensitive history out of him last night. He needed time to process, and so did I. “Take some time to collect your thoughts, you know how I feel. The harvest festival should start next week, you should come with me if you’ve never been I can take you to all the best places.”
He looks apprehensive “I’ve never been to one, I hate crowds.”
I rub his arm reassuringly “Don’t worry with me you’re in good hands. I’ll make sure it’s a night you remember.” He smiles and kisses my forehead, I watch him get up and go rummage through his pack, he tosses me a waterskin.
“Drink, it will help with the headache. This is just, a lot for me right now. I told you things last night I’ve never told anyone before. It made me feel … vulnerable. It’s not something I’m used to feeling.” 
That’s enough for now, don’t want to smother him. I take a few swigs of water as we talk, it does help with my headache just a little. 
“There is one thing that I’m curious about, how old are you?”
He chuckles as he ruffles my hair. “I turn 32 next spring.”
It was obvious he was a bit older than me, being with a mature man felt natural I didn’t mind.
“So you don’t know your birthday?”
“No, that is a human thing, why does the day matter? I know I was born in the spring just makes it easy to keep track of when the weather changes.” I can see his point, I guess it doesn’t really matter.
I hand him the waterskin and watch as he drinks the rest of it “Thanks for that, it did help with my headache. Just consider coming to the festival with me, there’s other non-humans that attend you should be fine.” I rub his chest bringing my hand up to his mane, running my fingers through the thick fur. I can see him visibly relax at my touch maybe he was still up for some morning fun now that we cleared things up a bit.
“I’ll think about it.” He says calmly as one of those paws reaches around to grab my ass. He always applies the right amount of pressure, just enough so that it doesn’t hurt. 
I was always curious and do the same, I see his eyes open a bit wider as he jumps when I sink my fingers into one of his muscular cheeks. He breathes out and relaxes again letting me explore. His ass is firm, I can even feel his tail start to wag as it brushes against my arm. I bet he hasn’t been touched like this in a long time. “Like that do you?” He just nods in response, I keep massaging his ass as I bury myself in his chest. Planting kisses along his pectoral until I find one of his nipples. I give it a long slow lick and for the first time I feel his whole body shudder as he moans. 
“Don’t stop.” Was all he had to say.
I keep licking and kissing his nipple until it gets nice and hard. I take it into my mouth and start to suck on it, flicking my tongue across his stiff peak. I hear him start to pant and whine, he pulls me off and places my lips on his other unattended nipple. I happily oblige, making sure they both get the attention he craves. 
By the time he’s satisfied he pulls me off his chest and looks me in the eye. “Want to try something new?” My heart skips a beat, hell yes.
“What do you have in mind?” He repositions himself so that he’s lying down on his back, patting his waist I think he wants me to straddle him. I sit in his lap so that I’m facing him. My cock has a mind of its own as it points straight at him. I watch him lick his lips as one of his paws wraps around my shaft. He goes slow, pulling my foreskin back to expose the head until it pops out making me shake in his lap. It looks like he’s having fun just playing with me. I get to enjoy a handjob until my cock is leaking all over his paw. He lets me go, all hard and needy.
He twirls his finger “Turn around.”
I don’t really know what he’s getting at. I can guess since I’m facing his sheath I bite my lip, this was hot. “Do you want me to.. put it in you here?” I ask while rubbing his furry sheath. I can see that his cock isn’t out yet but I can feel it a bit deeper inside.
I can practically feel the big stupid grin on his face behind me. “It’ll be fun, try it.”
I’m still not totally used to his anatomy, but I can’t help myself. I stick a finger inside his sheath, it’s not as tight as his ass but its warm and wet. My cock jumps in anticipation, I line up my head with the slim opening and start to push, it stretches easily around my girth as the tip slides inside. His sheath grips me loosely, I rub myself through the outside and it makes me throb inside him. I hear him start to pant and whine behind me, he was enjoying it too. I push in deeper, I don’t want to hurt him but he seems to be fine. I gently rock my hips back and forth as I have half of my cock buried in his sheath. I feel his hard tip poke me on the inside which gives me a shock, he laughs at this.
“What were you expecting to find in there?”
I just smile and keep going, his slick shaft presses against mine. As he gets hard the added tightness feels good. I can hear a lewd schlick each time I gently thrust into him, his sheath is leaking our combined pre at this point. 
“I’m getting close.” I’m not sure if he wants me to cum inside him like this.
I feel one of his paws rub my back. “Do it.”
I start panting harder, I pump his sheath a bit faster as I feel it hit me, I push in as deep as I can my cock sliding past his. His tip finally pops out as I start to cum, filling him with my seed. I rub myself through his sheath a bit more as I milk the last few drops into him, I pull out and watch my thick white semen leak out as his cock gets harder. 
“Told you it would be fun.” He pulls my hips back toward him until I’m sitting on his chest. One of those paws finds its way to the back of my head as he pushes me down, toward his messy crotch. “Sniff.” I find my nose buried in the fur between his legs as his cock rubs against my cheek, smearing my own cum across my face. My senses are assaulted by his strong scent, I can’t help but obey. Inhaling deeply it makes me dizzy and horny. “That’s a good boy, now clean up the mess you made.” I realize that I’ve never actually tasted cum before. He doesn’t give me much of a choice, pressing my face closer to the mess that’s leaking out around his cock. I just go for it sticking my tongue out and licking the cum off of his fur. It tastes salty, a bit acrid but not unbearable. I hear him rumble with delight as I clean him. His scent helped me relax and loosen up as I start licking his shaft, cleaning my cum from him. I can’t control myself as I stick my tongue inside his sheath licking inside of him. The grip on my head gets tighter as he bucks his hips up against my face and lets out a deep moan. He places his hard tip against my lips, demanding entry.
I take a deep breath and part my lips for his cock, he immediately shoves himself inside pressing my head down until he hits the back of my throat. I gag and heave as my teeth lightly graze his shaft. I hear him hiss behind me as he pulls out. “Watch the teeth, you’ll get used to it.” He doesn’t give me a chance to respond as he pushes me back down on his shaft, I do my best to open wide enough. Each time his tip reaches the back of my throat it makes me gag, he seems to enjoy my throat closing around his tip. I really don’t want to puke but I can feel myself get queasy as he keeps ramming himself against my throat. He pulls out, I can see his shaft is all the way out except for his knot. “Get up, I’ll show you.”
I do what he says, getting off him as he stands up and pushes me back up against a tree. I look up at him as he has a big happy grin on his muzzle. He rests his cock on my chest as he idly humps between my pecs. One of his paws grabs my jaw, pressing against the socket to make me open up for him. He takes his other paw and sticks a digit in my mouth pressing it to the back of my throat. “Relax, breathe, hold your breath when I say.” I’m nervous but I trust him to teach me how to properly suck his dick. He just teases his finger at the back of my throat for a while, making me gag and heave as he keeps telling me to relax. I’m stuck there for ages it feels like until my gag reflex calms down. 
“Hold your breath.” I inhale deeply, getting his scent in my nostrils which helps me relax. My throat relaxes as I feel his finger slide back into it, I struggle weakly but I don’t puke. He pulls it out and pushes it back in rhythmically going at a steady pace. “Good enough.” Pushing me to my knees as I come face to face with his dripping cock. It looks daunting as it throbs, his knot looking extra menacing. I can’t believe that was inside me. I press my face right under his shaft, licking his balls and inhaling his scent again, it really does help. Losing patience he grabs my jaw again and forces my mouth open, guiding his tip in my mouth as he presses forward. I feel him hit the back of my throat, I do what we just practiced and inhale deeply doing my best to relax. He hears me do this and pushes forward, his tip sliding down my throat making my eyes go wide. I can feel my throat close up around that thick shaft as he manages to stuff half of his cock down my gullet. I complain, starting to panic a bit since I can’t breathe, grabbing his hips and trying to push him back. Thankfully he pulls out of my throat and lets me catch a few gasping breaths. “Deep breath now.” My heart is pounding in my chest but it’s still a somewhat enjoyable experience being able to handle such a huge cock. I inhale deeply and fill my lungs to capacity as he pushes forward again, both of his hands holding my head in place against the tree as he forces his shaft down my throat. I struggle and try to complain but that just seems to excite him more. I just helplessly watch as his knot comes up to my lips making me give it a kiss. It’s really uncomfortable having his cock in my throat like this and I want it to stop. He just pulls back and pushes himself back in, slowly fucking my face. I can hear him panting hard as his tongue drips some drool on my head. I start making sounds I didn’t know existed, the wet sounds of sex filling my ears. Groaning and lightly heaving around his massive shaft stuffed inside me. 
“Fuck you look so good like that struggling on my cock. I’m getting close pup grab the knot and squeeze.” I do what he says and hold his knot with both hands squeezing hard which makes him growl with delight. With one final rough shove he holds my lips right against his knot as I feel his cock start to throb, depositing his cum directly into my stomach. I really need to breathe, and I start pushing against his hips. Ignoring me he lets his cock throb a few more times as my lungs burn before pulling out. He keeps his tip in my mouth and shoots a few ropes of thick salty cum across my tongue while I breathe hard, coughing. Letting go of my head, his well serviced dick is hanging between his legs, glistening with my spit as it starts to shrink back into his sheath. My mouth must be a mess, my lips feel wet and slimy not to mention the dried cum on my face. It fills me with pride that I was able to pleasure him properly. 
Despite everything my own cock got hard again at some point, Killian’s foot presses it against my belly as he rubs it a bit. “Mmm, you’re perfect.” He says while looking down at me, I stick my tongue out to show him the few ropes of white he shot in my mouth. Swallowing it audibly and showing him it’s gone. He just growls possessively and crouches to kiss me, ramming his tongue in my mouth as we make out passionately. My throat feels a bit sore but it was definitely worth it.
The sun has moved across the sky, it looks to be late morning. I gather myself, just resting against the tree while Killian starts to pack up his cozy little camp. “Did I tire you out already? There’s still a whole day ahead of us.” He tosses my clothes at my feet and I start to groggily get dressed. I didn’t get much sleep and I’m exhausted after such vigorous sex. I walk over to the hot spring and splash my face with warm water, scrubbing the shame from myself as I attempt to clean up. I curiously start to smell myself, I definitely smell like wolf. Can barely detect a hint of anything else over the scent Killian rubbed all over me. I think about taking my clothes off and going for a dip in the spring but a paw on my shoulder stops me. “Don’t, I want you smelling like that.” His paws come up around under my arms to grope my chest making my toes curl. 
I’m too far gone to question him “O-okay, but what if people notice? I smell pretty strong.”
“Here’s what I want you to do, go home, get some sleep. Marinate in my scent then take a bath. Let Leo know that you’re mine and I’ll do what I please with you. I can tell you love it.” He lets me go and I can’t help but feel a rosy affection for him. 
“Y-yeah that sounds good. Do you want some help to pack up here?”
He just shakes his head “Go get some sleep, I’ll find you later.” I don’t need to be told twice as I start to head back home, slowly walking as I ponder what the hell just happened in the past 24 hours. 
I notice that people don’t really care how I smell as I walk through town, to be fair the place always smelled bad. Coming up to the forge I hear the familiar sound of metal on metal, Leo must still be hard at work. I walk inside and just collapse against a table, waiting for him to finish the piece he was working on. He immediately notices me and douses the sword he was hammering, letting it cool on the anvil. Just one look at me was all he needed.
“Holy hell, what happened to you?”
I’m not sure what I look like, but it sure isn’t pretty. “What happened to me? The best night of my life. The morning after was pretty wild too. Before you ask I’m fine, just tired. After a nap and a bath I’ll be right as rain.” I go to walk past him, when he gets a whiff of what I smell like.
He plugs his nose and reels back. “How about a bath first, you reek like dog.”
I just wave dismissively as I head into the back, finding my bed and laying down. The world could wait a few hours. I think I pass out as soon as I hit the hay. 
I slowly open my eyes to be met with the evening sun shining through the wooden boards. I don’t think I’ve slept that well in a long time. As my senses return to me while I rub the sleep from my eyes the smell hits my nose. I was starting to get used to it, but I still had to interact with other humans. Groaning as I get out of bed I begin to start the painstaking process of having a bath. Countless trips and many buckets later there was enough water in the tub. After waiting for it to heat up I step inside and let out a sigh of relief. The heat felt amazing, I make sure to scrub myself several times. My skin is red and irritated after everything but I feel clean again, and pass the smell test. After draining the dirty water, I start tossing my dirty clothes into a basket with Leo’s before putting on a clean set. We both hated doing laundry, so we just opted to pay a local woman to do them for us. 
I still hear Leo hard at work in the forge, it made me feel guilty. Here I was going on a date and having copious amounts of sex then sleeping the day away while he worked. Leo deserved someone of his own one day, he truly is a good man. I should tell him the truth, it was the least I could do. 
Steeling myself I head into the forge and see him engrossed with a half finished crescent axe. I speak up over the loud banging of the hammer “Leo! I need to talk to you, I’ll go make dinner while you finish that.” He’s out of breath as he huffs out a few words “There’s a turkey. I’ll be done soon.”
Heading into the back room I see the plucked turkey hanging above the hearth. Immediately I’m craving those spices I was treated to last night. Shouldn’t get used to it I tell myself, will just have to make do without. Opting to just roast the bird over an open flame I skewer it and slowly rotate. Sitting there for ages as the sun sets and I hear the door open behind me. Leo cleans his hands and sits down at the table. It should be done at this point, the outside a nice golden brown. I take a cleaver and slice the bird in half down the middle, steam rises from its carcass as I put each half on a plate, sliding one over to Leo. 
“So, how are things going with the wolfman? Judging from how you walked in today I’d say good which was a relief honestly.” He starts digging in with his fingers, tearing pieces off the steaming bird.
“His name is Killian, and things are good I think. He took me out on a date last night.” I started tearing into my dinner as well, having worked up an appetite.
“With the state you were in it was more than just a date, but you look happy. Haven’t seen you smile like this in a long time.”
Was I smiling? Not that I was aware of but I did feel happier than I’ve been in a while. “I think I messed up big. We got drunk and just talked for a while, pretty sure words were spoken that neither of us had said before.”
“I told you, don’t think with that thing between your legs, what did you say?”
“That’s the problem, I was thinking with that thing in my chest instead.”
He drops his dinner and just looks at me “You what?” almost like he couldn’t believe it.
“He treated me to expensive things, meats cooked with spices, fine wine that didn’t burn. We were both feeling good, he opened up to me. You might not believe it but he has a sweet romantic side, even if he is just a merc. The life he has led so far hasn’t been great, he confessed his feelings in his own way.”
“So, you love him then and he love you back?”
“Not exactly, I may have let those words slip but he didn’t. He said that this was all new to him and that he felt something in his chest but didn’t know what it was. I’m just going to give him some time he said he’d find me when he was ready. For what it’s worth, he keeps telling me that I’m his.”
Leo starts to look sad “Daniel, don’t take this the wrong way. It sounds like he might not come back. Anyone would be able to see you’re falling for him, are you sure he just isn’t telling you what you want to hear?”
I never considered the possibility, if he was really just using me all this time. I don’t think I could ever love again if my heart got broken like this. Was he just telling me what I wanted to hear? I refused to believe it. “You’re wrong, he just needs time. I’m taking him to the harvest festival he’s never been to one.”
Leo sighs in defeat “You’re young, the first love you find doesn’t mean it will be the only one. I know that all too well. I meant what I said earlier, if he breaks your heart I’ll break his legs.” He holds up a fist.
We both quit eating for a while, dinner has gotten cold. “We both know you’d lose in a fight with him, Killian is massive. Besides I’d hate it if my father and boyfriend fought. You gave him a chance, I’d say he proved himself.”
“What.. did you just call me?”
“My father.”
I see him smile, a genuine one that you can’t control. “Fine, I’ll get to know him if he shows his muzzle around here again. I don’t need to remind you to be careful of what you say around town, giant wolfman or no men aren’t meant to have a boyfriend around here. If that’s even the proper word to call whatever it is you two have.” I was becoming quite a large man, nobody questioned my sexuality. If they did a fist to the face certainly shut them up.
We finish dinner in silence and head off to bed, for the first time in my life things seemed more than good or adequate. I was happy.
There were only a few more days until the harvest festival as vendors started to pour in from all over. I began to see more non-humans arrive as well. It was always fun meeting new people. Realization struck me after seeing a few other wolfmen, none of them had white fur. 
 The next few days weren’t that busy. To keep myself occupied I whittled various objects from wood as I waited for Killian to come back. I was doing an awful lot of waiting. 
There was only one more day until the festivities began, as if on que that familiar silhouette blocked out the sunlight in the doorway as I was busy whittling away. I turn around to see that lovely muzzle looking down at me. There was quite a lot of commotion on the street so I make sure the coast is clear before closing the door and bringing him to the back. Leo was sitting at the table rolling the dice set I had carved. We only had three chairs for the rare occasion of company. Killian set down his hefty pack and rested his spear against the wall. Leo noticed me holding Killian’s paw as we sat down. 
“So, it’s official then. You two are a thing?”
To my surprise Killian takes his paw away. “I don’t know, but I kept my promise and came back to find out. I was out doing a job, got here just in time for the festival.”
That wounded me greatly, but I understood. Feelings are hard sometimes especially when you’re confronted about them. At the very least it sounded like he was open to letting me take him out this time. Leo just looks at us for a moment in thought. “Daniel, can I have a moment to talk with Killian … alone.”
I don’t really like the sound of that but I figured something like this would happen sooner or later. I pat Killian on the shoulder as I get up “Try to be nice, he’s just looking out for me.”
They’re both cool headed enough, at least, I hope. Not really knowing what to do with myself I just go for a walk. It would be petty to try sticking around and eavesdropping, I have more respect for those two than that. Deciding to scope out where to take Killian tomorrow I wander around the trade district. There’s all sorts of stalls being put up. I can see plenty of grills meant for food, caravans being unpacked with every sort of object you’d want to buy. But one caught my eye in particular, a sign with crossed hands and an eye I think it spelled out Mystic. What was a mystic? Curiosity gets the better of me as I poke my head behind the curtains, there was a middle aged woman wearing some kind of colorful head wrap. She had a darker skin complexion than I was used to seeing. In an accent I had never heard before she said “Welcome! The main event hasn’t started yet but I’m always open for business.”
I just look around the small space, there was a round table several small chairs, a glass ball, and a deck of cards laid out on it. “I’m sorry, but I don’t know what this is. What kind of business do you run here?”
A smile spreads across her face, the look you get when someone takes you for a sucker. It was forced and calculated which made me uneasy, it was obvious she had done this many times before. I might be a simple man, but I wasn’t stupid.
“You may call me madam Zora, I’m a seer, peering into your past present and future is my trade. Being born with these innate gifts was a blessing, for I can share it with everyone. Still that doesn’t put bread on the table so readings can be … negotiable.”
I was skeptical, how was this woman able to perform such a feat? I’ve never heard about anyone like this before in all my years. 
“You can see my past, present, and future? I don’t know about all that.”
She sees my skepticism and has something prepared for me. 
“I know it can be hard to believe, why don’t you take a seat and I’ll give you a small taste.” She gestures to one of the chairs.
“Give me one of your hands, I’ll tell you what you already know.”
I was willing to give her a chance at least, everyone deserves that much. I hold out my right hand and she takes it, flipping to my palm as she traces a finger across my callouses. Closing her eyes and just feeling me out.
“Yes I can see it now, you’re a hard working man tempered by fire you work as a smith. There’s something else, recently you’ve … met someone. This person is important to you but you’re not sure if the feeling is mutual. Whoever he is I’m sure he’s a lucky man.”
I’m actually quite shocked “What did you say?” the concern on my face apparent as she shushes me. 
“Don’t fret, nothing said in here is spoken about again there is no judgement withing these walls. Would you care to see your future?”
I can’t be here I have to leave. “No, thank you madam Zora but I really should be going.”
She just watches me stand up and walk away, calling out to me “You’ll be back, I’ve seen it.”
Fear grips me as I put as much distance between me and that place as possible, time to go home. I don’t care if I barge in during the middle of Leo’s interrogation. I walk in like a storm, slamming the door behind me as I go into the back room, I see the two of them just sitting there casually playing dice. 
Leo calls out to me first “Everything alright? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”
I just stammer “She knew, how did she know, she couldn’t have known it’s impossible.”
Killian gets up and gives me a hug, feeling his warm embrace does wonders to calm me down. “What happened?”
I take a seat at the table and tell them about madam Zora, they’re both visibly concerned as well. Leo was the first to stop me in my rant. 
“So you’re telling me, that just by holding your hand she was able to find out about you two? Being a smith is painfully obvious any old drunk could see that so how did she know about…?” He just gestures between me and Killian.
I don’t have an answer, Killian was quiet this whole time just listening. Eventually he interjects “I’ve encountered people like her in my travels. Most of them are frauds but make no mistake, some of them are real. 99 times out of 100 they’ll tell you what a lucky woman she is. Did she say anything else?”
I just fidget nervously “She said that I’d be back.”
Leo just laughs “It’s easy then, don’t go back. It was just a lucky guess is all. Prove her wrong, it’s just an elaborate scam.”
I’m not so sure, I’m deadly curious about the future. They can both sense my hesitation. 
Killian takes my hand in his paw. “Don’t worry about it too much, if I remember correctly, you said you were going to show me a night to remember. From what I have seen, there are plenty of other places to go. Besides, I was looking forward to spending some of this.” He takes a small bag from his pack and gently places it on the table, the jingle of coin was unmistakable.
I put those thoughts to the back of my mind as I come back to reality. “You’re right, I did say that. Another easy well paying job for you I take it, we will definitely find some fine merchandise fit for such a handsome man such as yourself.” This was the first time I flirted with him in front of someone else. 
Leo was just smiling, muttering something under his breath. “Lucky bastard.”
I look between the two of them, then the dice. “Wait, were you playing for keeps?”
Leo lets out a heavy sigh “Yeah, I was trying to teach him a lesson, but it turns out this guy has luck on his side. I had to cut my losses. Looks like your night out on the town is on me.”
Killian just has a big toothy grin on his face, he was rather smug about it. “I’m feeling generous, you’ll get back what we don’t spend. If there’s any left that is.” He nuzzles into my neck, it feels lovely. 
“So it looks like Leo’s interrogation went well? I’m glad you didn’t rip each other’s throats out.”
Leo leans in closer “Aye, maybe you were right about this one. Killian definitely knows how to use that spear and he could scare the piss out of anyone, but he’s got a good heart. I don’t doubt you’ll take care of each other. Daniel here might only know how to throw a few punches, but those suckers hurt.”
I take a breath and ask what I’ve always wanted to “So we have your blessing, to be together, here?”
Staying outside is nice and all, but there’s no place like home. 
Leo just nods “You have my blessing, just make sure NOBODY finds out. Or they’ll burn this whole place down. I’m taking a big risk allowing this you know.”
A weight is lifted from my chest that I didn’t know existed, is this what it felt like to be accepted, validated? “We only really meet outside of town, nobody sees or hears us together. We’re careful. I promise, no fooling around inside anymore. We’ll just be friends at the festival I won’t give people a reason to think otherwise.”
Leo sighs “Good, good, that okay with you Killian?”
He nods in agreement as there’s a knock on the front door. Leo gets up to go answer it “Not a word you two.”
We just sit there in silence as I think I can hear Leo negotiating some sort of deal. I feel Killian’s paw on my thigh. I look him in the eyes as he starts to tease me, gripping me harder as his paw moves closer between my legs making me shudder. We hear footsteps approaching, Killian withdraws his paw and Leo walks in the back.
“We got a rush order, they paying double so get your ass in here and get to work. Need four sharp iron swords by this time tomorrow. Think of it as your way of paying me back for losing to that guy.” Leo points at Killian.
I sit there for a moment waiting for my boner to go down. “I hear you I’ll be right there.”
I can already hear Leo getting things ready as Killian leans in close to whisper in my ear. “When you’re ready tomorrow take a walk around town. I’ll find you.” I take the chance to grab his big handsome mug and plant a kiss on his cheek. 
“See you tomorrow.” He holds his paw to the place where I kissed him, giving me a silent nod as he gathers his things and leaves. I had my work cut out for me, rush orders always pay well but they leave you sore as hell afterwards. Four swords by tomorrow was cutting it close, real close. Without sacrificing the quality we’d just barely make it, better get started.
The clanging and grinding of metal was reverberating throughout the day. I was working myself ragged trying to get this done on time. With the two of us working together we were making good progress, and by nightfall two freshly sharpened swords were secured on the wall. Neither of us bothered to wash ourselves, we were just going to get dirty again tomorrow morning. 
Right at the crack of dawn I realize I’m awake and shoot right up. Tonight was the big night, I needed to finish two more swords and wash myself before nightfall. We only had until about midday for the deadline. It was always a massive pain in the ass having to re-negotiate the price if we were slow. I get up and take a look at myself in the small mirror I kept tucked away in my nightstand. My hair was a mess, my beard was too long, and I was covered in grime. I had my work cut out for me today. I grab a stale piece of bread from the other room and scarf it down.
There’s already some foot traffic outside as people are getting ready for the festivities tonight. No time like the present, sorry Leo. I light up the forge, billowing fresh air as the coals are set ablaze, the heat filling the room. I see that I’ve woken my adoptive father up as he groggily walks into the forge. “You’re up early for once, got a date or something tonight?” 
I start heating up some iron not wasting any time. “You bet your ass I do. I made a promise.”
We don’t say much after that, just put our minds to the task at hand. It’s hot as hell in here, we both slam down water as we sweat. Our arms burn as we pound the metal into shape. My ears ring as we grind the edges into sharp points. My fingers ache as I fasten the handles to the blades. The sun has moved far across the sky and the customer hasn’t come by yet to pick up the swords. I’m thankful we made it in time, but I’m awfully tired now. Maybe I pushed myself too hard. I just look at Leo with a worried expression “I gotta get ready.” 
He places a dirty hand on my dirty shoulder “Don’t worry about it we finished in time, go take a bath and have a nap. I’ll wait for the customer to come by. Oh and trim the beard, you’re looking like a homeless man.” He runs a hand over my scratchy face, it was time for a trim.
I pull my exhausted self to do just that, and after what feels like a torturous amount of trips to fill the tub with water it’s ready. As I slide into the warm water it’s hard to not just relax and fall asleep right there. Scrubbing myself awake does the trick, I even take the time to properly wash my hair too. By the time I’m done the water has turned… black. But I feel better and smell better so I drain the dirty water and head back out, Leo is there all grimy and dirty himself as he plays with a stack of golden coins. “See? It was all worth it.”
He’s absolutely filthy like I was, and the bath has rejuvenated me somewhat. “Leo, if I draw you a bath, will you wake me at sunset?” he just claps his hands together.
“That sounds like a fine deal.”
I spend the next half hour filling the tub up again, it was the least I could do for the man. After that was done I head to my bed and crawl under the blanket, I’m pretty sure I fall asleep instantly.
I feel myself being shaken awake from a deep slumber as I grumble in protest. Opening my eyes to see Leo keeping his end of the bargain, it was good seeing him clean for once. 
“Wake up lad, I thought you had a date tonight.”
Realization hits me that I still have to fix my face, rubbing the sleep from my eyes as I yawn. That will do wonders for my energy levels, I’ll probably need it later. “Thanks Leo, I’ll fix my face.”
He just pats me on the back and walks out, I take out the mirror again and go find a pair of shears. I made sure to keep them sharp, it’s the worst trying to cut hair with a dull blade. I’ve gotten better at cutting my own hair over the years, it only comes down to my shoulders by the time I’m done. Tying it behind my head made me look rather dashing. Moving onto my beard I start trimming the long hairs back. Until they were just shy of my skin, it was a close cut. The rich have some fancy cream they use to shave with, I just opt to keeping it short. Inspecting myself in the mirror I’m fairly happy with the outcome, I’d fuck me. 
The sun is pretty low and I’m feeling nervous, it was nearly time. My man was going to track me down and I was going to give him the best night of his life. Peeking outside the streets were quite busy, people were gathering all over for the celebration. I could already hear some music over the sound of footsteps. Some instruments familiar, some foreign just how it was every year. This time was different, there were so many more people the streets were packed. 
I take a few deep breaths and slide a small sack of coins around my neck, just in case. Night does not take long to fall, lanterns are lit outside to illuminate the darkness as the crowd outside clears, everyone was headed to districts where vendors had set up for this wonderful night.
I slip on my shoes and head out, just taking a stroll down the street, I see the main entrance where everyone has gathered and pass it. Before I know it, a tall handsome dark figure has appeared next to me, silently. “I have no idea how you do that.”
Killian smirks “Just takes practice, lots of practice.” I notice he doesn’t have his spear on him.
“So where’d the spear go, thought you never went anywhere without it.”
He pats my pack “Don’t worry I have it on me, best not to ask how.” He sees the loosely tied sack around my neck, holding out his paw. “Give it here, too easy to steal that in a big crowd. The last pickpocket that stuck their fingers near mine lost a hand.” Something tells me that was a true story. 
I begrudgingly hand it over, noticing the brand-new expression on his face. I’ve never seen it before, almost like he was impressed. “Something caught your eye?” 
“I think you know what it is.” I had a pretty good idea.
“So you hate crowds? If you want, you can hold onto me makes it easier to stick together it seems pretty packed in there.” I point behind us where everyone had gathered. 
He starts to look nervous, another new expression on his face. “It’s loud, and there’s too many smells. I will not hold your hand, but I’ll keep a paw on your shoulder.” From his perspective I could understand that, it was probably overwhelming for him. 
“Hey don’t be nervous, if you want to leave we can go anytime you want I don’t want to make you suffer my fellow humans.” He seems to appreciate this. 
“Lead the way.”
I turn around and start walking with him next to me, there are several guards posted at the entrance that search us for weapons, apparently none were allowed inside. They give Killian a pat down twice, he does look the type. I don’t know how, but they don’t find Killian’s spear, best not to ask. It’s a lively place people have to practically push past each other to get around, it’s overwhelming even for me. “Oh boy.”
Killian taps my shoulder, pointing to one of his ears it’s so loud with all the talking and music he can’t even hear me so I yell in his direction. “THERE’S MORE HERE THAN USUAL, FOLLOW ME.” I know that he’s probably hungry so I walk him in the direction of all the food. The smells of freshly baked bread, meat, cheese, and everything in between assaults the nose. I see him sniffing the air with a fervor I’ve never seen before. He takes the initiative, now pushing me in the direction of this mystery scent he was onto. It was honestly the cutest thing he’s done so far, just following his nose. I can smell what he wanted soon enough, there was a stall selling chunks of spiced meat on a stick, the grill behind them packed full. They have a sign posted with various prices that’s crowded with other hungry customers attracted by the smell. People are wise enough to give the wolfman some space, but I can tell he’s a bit claustrophobic. I smack his arm a few times to let him know we’re going in. You have to be assertive in these lines if you want to get served. Several upset weaklings give me a couple death stares, but one look at the pair they were up against, and everyone backed down. I order three sticks of spiced beef practically screaming over everyone else. I yell at Killian to give me the right amount of money so I can pay the man, taking the three sticks in exchange. I hand two to the ravenous wolfman as we walk away trying to find a less crowded section to enjoy our spoils. I see him tearing them off one chunk at a time as we walk, apparently, he couldn’t wait. 
I see a less crowded area near a square, there weren’t any vendors here so foot traffic was light. We lean up against a wall and chow down on the meat. It was better than the steak Killian cooked for me, but I’d take that secret to the grave with me. Probably because it was cooked all the way through. Once we’re standing there with three dirty sticks in our hands we just toss them on the ground, scraps for the strays. 
He points to his mouth again, still hungry. “I GET TO PICK THIS TIME” I yell before heading back into the chaos. My sense of smell isn’t as strong as his but I already know what I’m looking for. There’s usually a vendor selling roast chicken dipped in some heavenly dark brown sauce, on a stick of course. I find them near the end, it was run by a couple of wolves and their son. Their fur was a deep shade of brown. Killian’s eyes light up at the friendly faces, clearly more comfortable with his own kind. The line here wasn’t as long so I didn’t have to force our way forward. I get three again, handing two strips of dripping chicken to the wolfman as we scurry away to go feast on our prize. The chicken was moist, the sauce was sweet and savory I could tell Killian was a big fan too. Tossing our now empty sticks to the ground I pat my belly.
“READY TO GO?” I yell up at him, he nods in response following closely behind as I take him to the shops with goods rather than food. There are all sorts of things for sale, not as busy as the food market we just left but something would catch our eye eventually. I see a clothing stall and look at the basic rags that I’m wearing. The clothes were all sorts of vibrant colors, expensive for sure. Killian is practically pushing me in that direction as I stare at it too long, and I’m greeted by some type of woman from the east, she’s covered in fur rather slim and dainty. I believe she would be considered a weasel. She takes a step back as a massive wolfman approaches. He leans down and asks me “Which one do you like? These rags are old.” Tugging on my sleeve. 
I see her visibly relax, the prospect of coin always enough to calm a merchant down. I look at the green shirt hanging on display, it looked about my size and one touch let me feel how soft the fabric was, I liked the yellow embroidery. I see Killian conversing with the woman, and with an exchange of hands she takes down the shirt handing it to me. It feels like a cloud compared to what I was wearing. Hot breath graces my ear “Go ahead, put it on.” 
I look around, there’s too many people to have any privacy so I just go for it. I can hear the weasel woman gasp a little and squeal in delight when I take off my old shirt, quickly slipping on the new one. It feels like heaven, no more itchy scratchy rags on my skin. I thank her and we move on. I yell up at him again “HOW MUCH WAS THIS?” 
He smiles and doesn’t answer clearly pleased with himself, I just accept the gift as we keep walking. This time I see Killian stare just a second too long at a stall selling books of all things. I start to pull him in that direction but he firmly resists, bending down so nobody else can hear. “Stop, not that one.”
I just ask “Why not?”
“Because …. I can’t read or write.”
That’s actually kind of sad. “Do you want to learn?”
He gets a bit flustered at this notion, he clearly wants to. I don’t take no for an answer and walk up there by myself. There’s a friendly human man trying to sell his books, but not everyone can read. After negotiating for a minute we come to an agreement for ink, a quill, a blank book, and a short story about an honorable knight with pictures. I wave Killian over and he rolls his eyes, forking over the money. I can see our coin purse is getting rather light. Conveniently I wrap our new possessions in my old shirt as we leave. The ink is sealed in a little container which is helpful. At the end of this road the stalls end and we are met with a square filled with dancing couples accompanied by a lively band. Every one of them is a man and a woman. I look up to see a pained expression on his face, I think he wants to dance with me. There are several giggling girls in the crowd that notice me in my new shirt but are too scared to walk up, probably waiting for me to make the first move. To my surprise a young blonde girl saunters up to me and does a curtsey. 
“May I have this dance my lord?” I hate to dance, especially when I have to fake enjoying it with women. I think for a way out and point up to Killian. 
“Can’t this guy paid me to show him around.”
She brushes her hand against the side of my face, clearly disappointed. “Maybe next time.” She runs off to go rejoin her friends.
Killian leans down, again in a hushed voice “I want to leave.”
I just turn around as he follows closely behind me, we go back the way we came. I know my way around the place well enough as we get farther and farther from the sounds. There are no more lanterns over this way. As we turn a corner I don’t believe my eyes, it was madam Zora’s. It would be completely foolish to move over this way, there was hardly anyone over here. Killian sees me freeze and rubs my shoulders “You don’t have to, we can just go.” I want to.
“Come on, I’ll pay her with what’s left of my own coin there’s no harm in just talk is there?”
He grumbles, clearly not his idea of fun.
I walk inside her humble little setup and am greeted by a smug grin that just screamed I told you so. “Welcome, welcome Daniel I knew you’d be back.” I don’t remember telling her my name.
She pulls out two chairs as I sit down in one.
“Aren’t you going to invite your friend inside?” I’m not entirely sure how she knew, probably just looked out or something.
I call out to him “Killian, can you come join us please?” I hear an annoyed grunt as he steps inside. Clearly struggling to cram himself into such a small space, the chair would never hold him as he just sits on the floor. 
I can see that Madam Zora is a bit shocked, the tall black wolfman giving her quite a fright as she places a hand on her chest to steady herself. Guess she didn’t see that, not an all knowing oracle after all. 
“Oh, well all are welcome here. Could I get you some tea before your reading?” I do feel a bit parched after eating. 
“That sounds lovely Madam, do you want a cup too Killian?” he slightly nods. 
She pours us each a cup of green tea, it was comically small for Killian, she obviously mainly had human customers. 
I take a sip, it was warm and refreshing. “Can you show me my future?” I just have to know. 
She claps her hands together, “Of course, that’s why I’m here but sadly, the future does not come free.” 
I look over at Killian, and he looks back at me rolling his eyes, handing me my small coin purse. I open it up and slide two gold coins across the table to her. “Can you read my friend as well?”
He looks at me and puffs clearly unhappy, but I was curious. “Cmon, it’ll be fun.” I tease him
She quickly takes both of the coins and they vanish, to somewhere. “I’d be happy to.” She picks up the deck of cards and shuffles it several times before fanning the cards out. “These are tarot cards, they will show you your future. Just wave your hands over them and you will be drawn to the correct ones. You can pick as many or as few as you like just put them face down in the order that feels correct.”
Seemed simple enough, I do as she says. It was strange, I’m not sure if it was just some sort of trick but I felt something as I waved my hand across them, I was drawn to pick four placing each facedown on the table. She flips over the first card, I can barely read the words under the pictures they are so old and faded. 
She begins to tell me my future “The fool, I see a man who was bouncing around not knowing what to do with his life. Fear of the unknown and branching out he is content to remain where he is, ignorant of the possibilities around him.” 
She flips over the second card “The lovers, I see that you’ve met someone and you are deeply in love with them. You fear that their feelings aren’t mutual but are willing to do whatever it takes to make it so.”
She flips over the third card “The chariot, with your lover in hand you set out on the open road. The fool no longer you have purpose and are filled with a sense of adventure. You’ve taken control of your life, aligned to no king or lord you are a free man and live your life like every day is the last.”
She flips over the fourth card “The ace of swords, you work as a blacksmith. The most common tool you make is a sword. The sword that you will forge, will not be like any other. It will be the strongest, sharpest, most coveted sword ever created. The colors it reflects will dance across the night mesmerizing all who gaze upon it. It will be in a place, blanketed with snow and this sword will cut through the darkness there, granting your lover the happy ending they have always wanted.”
I just look at her a bit dumbfounded, she reiterated some of our words back to us. It was too coincidental to be just dumb luck. Not only that, I really wanted that future to be true. Killian deserved a happy ending. Taking the cards back into the deck she reshuffles them, fanning them out and holding them in front of Killian. “Same for you.”
He looks at her, a bit annoyed but humors us both. I see a change in his expression, he can feel it too as his paw wanders over the cards. I wonder if he never felt it before. He picks four cards and looks a bit shaken up.
“Something wrong?” she asks him.
He takes a minute to respond. “This might sound strange, but those three..” he points to the first three cards. “Something tells me these are my past present and future. The fourth one, just feels special.”
She looks down at the four cards he chose “Nonsense, the cards are never wrong. Why don’t we see what your life has been and will be shall we.”
She flips over the first card “The tower, your past is not a pleasant one. It is filled with pain, anguish, and violence. You can’t escape it no matter how much you drink trying to drown the memories, they have been burned into your soul. 
She flips over the second card “The devil, your soul is a wicked one, twisted by the cruelty of this world. You consider yourself a devil, cursed at birth and doomed to a lifetime of suffering while you are shunned by those around you.”
She flips over the third card “Death … you bring death with you wherever you go. Rivers run red, your fur is caked in gore, but there are no screams. For all who would be able to scream are silent in the grave.”
She flips over the last card “The star, there is hope, for you have a new path before you. You have found your guiding star, there doesn’t have to be nothing but pain in your life. There is a light right in front of you, you just need to reach out and grasp it and never let go. This is a road to redemption, one that is not easy to walk but worth every moment.”
I look at Killian, he is silent, her words struck a cord in him and he looks shaken. I place a hand on his shoulder and bring him back to reality. “Thank you, Madam Zora, your words are surprising to say the least.”
She takes a little bow as our session is over “Please, tell your friends about me my doors are always open for business.”
I see Killian get up and walk away in a hurry, I follow closely behind speaking up in a hushed voice. “What’s wrong, you don’t think that was real do you?”
He just keeps walking faster “Not here, meet me at the place.” He takes off in a full sprint, I’m shocked at how quick he is no human would ever catch him. I figure he wants some time alone, I take the time to drop off our purchases at home I take off the green shirt he bought me and put it away. Don’t want it to get dirty right after buying it, slipping on my familiar rags. Then I walk at an easy place to our usual meeting spot. I look back at Drakefall and see how lively it still is, the lanterns burn bright into the night. I feel bad, I promised him a night to remember, but not like this. I need to make things right, however I can.
I find Killian pacing back and forth in front of the hot spring, just lost in thought I’ve never seen him so uneasy before. I walk over and place my hand on his arm, trying to calm him. “Woah there, why don’t we have a seat?” I try to console him but he just snaps at me.
“DON’T tell me to calm down.” He seems angry, but the way his paws are trembling I can tell its more than that. I don’t pull away instead I hug him tightly. Eventually I bring him down to the ground with me as I pull back his hood revealing his handsome face. 
“I’ll be here when you’re ready.” I just hold him for a few minutes, I can feel him start to relax into me as he wraps an arm around my shoulders. Eventually he breaks the silence.
“That was real, every word. She knew how we felt, she knew my past. You know what scared me the most?”
I nuzzle into his neck “You can tell me anything.”
He pats my head “You’re my north star, and I’m scared. I don’t know what to do. All my life has been pain but now, I think I feel something in my chest. I’ve been wondering, is it love? For a long time I thought I didn’t deserve such a thing. I’ve killed so many people, who would be dumb enough to love me? Then you came along, and here we are at a crossroads.”
“How are we at a crossroads?”
“Well, I’m at a crossroads. I could just leave and never look back keep doing what I’ve been doing until I’m dead. Or I could be with you, but how would that work? You’re a smith you can’t bring a forge with you. I travel all over what good is a smith without a forge.”
“You forgot one important detail, what I want. This might sound stupid but I believe what she told me. If you’ll have me, I’ll go with you. Wherever you want to go.” I see that his spear is propped up against the rocks behind us.
“Can you teach me?”
I see him look at me a bit confused. “Teach you what?”
I point at his spear “To fight like you do, don’t want you worrying while we’re on the open road. I can teach you to read and write, I had to learn in order to keep the ledger at the forge updated.”
I can see a tear in his eye, probably the first one shed in decades. He leans in and kisses me deeply, I accept it happily. “Daniel, I think I love you.”
I kiss him again. “I love you too.” We just sit there and kiss for what feels like ages. I break the kiss and cup his handsome face. “I’m sorry this wasn’t the wild night of passion you were hoping for.”
He wipes a tear from his eye “You promised me a night to remember, and I’ll never forget this one.” He picks me up in his arms, I’ve never been swept off my feet before it’s a nice feeling. Taking me over to the clearing we slept in before as he lays me down on the bedroll atop the mountain of leaves. “I hope you don’t mind, but can we just sleep tonight, no sex?”
I pat the space next to me “That’s fine by me love.” I take off my shirt and he starts to strip as well, soon we’re both naked and cuddling under the stars as I bury myself in his fluffy neck fur. Sleep takes us quickly, it’s been a long night.
When morning comes I wake up to my lover staring at me. “Good morning pup, sleep well?”
I rub his furry chest “I had the softest pillow to sleep on, I slept great.” I can see he has a mischievous grin on his muzzle. “What are you thinking about, I don’t like that face.”
He chuckles “I’ve been saving something for a special occasion, and I think this warrants it.”
Curiosity takes me, I’ll bite. “What is it?”
He smiles like an idiot “It’s a surprise, come back here tonight. I won’t lie, I’m already excited thinking about it.”
I smirk at that remark and reach between his legs, sure enough his hard tip fits perfectly in my hand. “Oh, now I’m really curious what’s got you worked up.”
He plants a kiss on my forehead “Don’t get too tired today, you’re going to need your energy. It will be worth it I promise.”
I really don’t want to but I get dressed and head home. I see a long line of carts and various other forms of transportation leaving the city this morning. It appears that I’m the only one actually coming in. The place is an absolute mess, trash lines the streets as decorations are taken down. I make my way back home and find Leo still rolling the dice I made, imagining that he could somehow improve his luck with practice. 
I don’t know what my face looks like, but it must be blissful. “Oh wow and just what happened that makes a man look like he’s found paradise?”
I can’t contain it, it’s spilling out of my every pore “Love.”
I hear the rolling of the dice again. “So he finally said it back did he?”
“He did, last night didn’t go as expected. I think it went better.”
I don’t really want to share the details, I want that night to just be mine and Killian’s forever. “So how is it going to work between you two? He’s a merc probably doesn’t stay put for too long.”
I have no idea how to say this, I want to talk about it after my surprise tonight. “I’ll be honest Leo, he said he has a surprise for me tonight. I just want to feel this way for as long as I can, and in the morning, I’ll tell you everything.”
He can see how happy I am right now and doesn’t push it. “Alright then, will you at least tell me how the festival was? That racket kept me up all night.”
I nod and tell Leo of the night’s festivities, how it was extremely crowded. The food was to die for, and the music was lively. I leave out most of the important details of my date, those belong to me. 
“Not giving me a single hint on how it went with your lover eh. I won’t pry as long as you two had fun that’s enough for me.”
The rest of my day is spent running errands, but walking would be the more appropriate word. Buying food, ordering more iron, picking up the laundry. Time won’t pass fast enough, I’m losing my mind in anticipation. I have to resist the urge to touch myself multiple times as my mind wanders and my cock hardens. There’s a weird feeling in my chest, I don’t know what it is. All I know is that it won’t go away until I have a wolfman inside every one of my holes.
Night does not come soon enough, as soon as it’s dark and some lanterns are lit. I walk at a brisk pace towards our little meeting spot, I cannot wait another minute. I get there soon enough, and I see my man sitting on a rock waiting for me, completely naked. “Honestly I expected you to give up and just come here a lot sooner.”
I see his perfect body and can’t resist I strip naked in front of him as my cock stands straight up. 
“Looks like you’ve been thinking about me all day. Finally ready for your surprise?” he’s hiding something behind his back.
“Stop teasing me, come on and give it to me.”
He pulls out two tiny pouches, they wouldn’t hold more than a pinch of something. “We’re gonna get high and fuck.”
I just blink a few times “What’s getting high?”
I see a truly terrifying expression creep across his face, it was definitely involuntary. I could see each point of his sharp teeth as his lips got pulled back in that grin. “This is gonna be fun.” He saunters up to me and places one of the little pouches in my hand. “They call this soul dust, it’s actually been banned in most places it’s so much fun.”
I look at the tiny thing in my palm, could something so tiny be so potent? “Okay, but what’s it do?”
He revels in delight as he explains. “It comes in two colors of powder red and blue. Whoever inhales the red powder transfers everything they feel to the person who inhales the blue powder. You wanna know what it feels like to have a cock like mine, and knot that ass?” He takes my hand and places it on his sheath I squeeze and feel his canine dick getting hard. My cock is dripping in need its embarrassing. This was worth the wait.
“Yes.”
“Good boy, now this stuff gets you really high. That means you’re gonna feel different, a good different. Don’t be scared it’s completely safe.”
“Then why was it banned?”
“No big reason, some people just got addicted and their souls swapped. Changed bodies. You need to do tons of the stuff to trigger that, one time won’t be able to do it.”
I gulp, I didn’t know if I was ready for this. I just look up at him one last time “I trust you. If it gets too much for me and I say spicy, you know what to do?”
He smiles and cups my cheek “I love you Daniel, if you want to stop just say the word this is supposed to be fun.”
It makes me feel immeasurably better hearing him say that. “Okay, so how do we take this stuff?”
I watch him undo the little string holding his pouch together and a tiny pile of red powder rests in the middle. “You inhale like this.” He puts his nose right into the pile and sucks it all up into his nostrils. He keeps inhaling not wasting a single speck of the stuff.
I undo the string on my little pouch and look nervously at the pile of little blue powder. I take a few deep breaths in and out then go for it, I put my nose to the pile and inhale, I keep inhaling until its all in my system. It feels weird, I want to sneeze but I stifle it I have a morbid curiosity of what it would feel like to have a knotted wolf cock. 
I hear a deep rumble in his chest as he pulls me closer to kiss me. I don’t kiss him for long I have questions. 
“How long does it take for me to uh, start feeling you?”
He thinks for a moment. “Depends on the person, sometimes it’s really fast, sometimes it takes an hour. We just have to wait and find out.”
“And how long does this stuff last for?”
“Since it’s your first time, all night pup.”
I can feel my skin start to get warmer, I feel like I can see better. Whenever Killian touches me it’s like every nerve is screaming in ecstasy. He looks into my eyes and smiles.
“Oh fuck those eyes are big, you’re feeling it aren’t you?” He leans down to lick my chest and I moan like a whore.
My cock twitches between my legs. “Uh huh.” It’s really hard to control myself. It’s almost like my body starts to act on its own to take what it wants. I reach around and grab his ass, I can see him wince in pain, I was doing it way too hard. I let go and apologize then try again, gently. I see him relax as he leans into my touch. His pupils dilate, I think he’s starting to feel it too. “Get on all fours, I’m gonna fuck you.”
Neither of us can wait for the real effect to kick in. I watch him get on his hands and knees, his tail swishing back and forth madly. I position myself behind him, spreading his legs. Aware that I’m having trouble controlling my strength I gently grab the base of his tail and yank it up out of the way. That elicits a stifled moan out of him which I enjoy greatly, I still don’t feel what he does. Looking down at his hole’ it looks tighter than before but just as inviting. I don’t wait, lining up my dripping cockhead and smearing my pre around his hole makes him whine like a bitch. I start to press myself inside him, its tight, insanely tight. Must have been a side effect, but as I force my tip in he lets out a sound that I’ve never heard before. I watch the toes on his foot paws curl up tight into a ball. That’s all the information I need, I don’t stop. It feels like I’m about to burst just from penetrating him as I sink in deeper. It’s so velvety smooth warm and wet but the tightness gripping every vein on my shaft makes my eyes roll into the back of my head. 
I realize something, it’s really hard for me to cum. I pull back my hips as I hold his tail out of the way grabbing onto the side of his ass as I push back into him. He pushes back to meet me halfway. I don’t know why I’m not having an orgasm it feels so good. I fuck him at a steady pace, pounding away would be sensory overload. 
Looking between his legs his cock is fully hard, knot too as it flails around. I reach around and give his knot a squeeze. That makes him moan like a whore just like me, but I don’t want him to cum yet, not for what my drug addled brain has in mind for later. 
I stare at his hole, just watching my cock slide in and out of him balls deep, my hairy crotch meeting his hairy ass. It feels indescribably good, no wonder people get addicted. Then I start to feel it, like theres a big cock fucking my asshole. It was happening, and it was wonderful. I don’t last another 2 minutes before I’m having the most mind blowing orgasm I think of anyone ever. I just hold his ass against me as I pump him full of cum, it lasts for what feels like ages as I gently thrust the last few drops into him, pulling out with a shuddering moan. Falling onto my back on the ground in ecstasy.
“Killian, I-I can feel what you do.” I can hardly believe it myself.
I watch him get up, my cum leaking out of his ass as he inserts a finger into himself. I feel it sliding inside as he looks down at me, a pleased expression on his face. “Enjoying yourself?”
I just nod like an idiot “Uh huh.”
He puts his cock in my face. “Ready for this?”
My mind is running at a million miles per hour, but I have a truly sick idea in my head. I sit up and look at him in the eye. “I uhm, have an that I think you’ll like.”
We’re both panting like rabid dogs “Oh yeah? What is it?”
My chest hurts as I think about saying the next few words. “I’m gonna run, and if you catch me. You can do whatever you want. I’ll even make it extra special with those words you like.”
I watch as his expression turns into what I can only describe as pure carnal lust. His tongue hangs out as his spit drips on the ground. He starts panting harder. “Oh yeah, you gonna beg for mercy, beg me to stop.”
I just nod at him as I stand up. “Give me a minute head start.”
I take off in a half sprint, I’m still getting used to being high and don’t want to trip or hurt myself. I don’t think he waited a minute, I can hear thunderous stomps behind me as he closes in fast. It takes me by surprise as I’m tackled from behind, but he pulls me into a roll. I somehow end up on my back with him on top of me. 
I don’t really like his face, it’s that of a predator on the hunt who just caught it’s prey fangs bared ready to tear out its throat. I can sort of feel what he’s going through, he’s into this. How my paws hold down the whimpering man, ready to fuck him whether he wants it or not. I start to put up a little fight. “Get the fuck off me dog!” I scoot back and push his chest away.
I barely register the force applied to my chest, it was like nothing. Grabbing his jaw and pushing it up exposing his neck, I bring my fangs to drag across the skin threateningly. I bite down, gently to let him know his place right now. I feel strong, unstoppable as my cock stands at attention between my legs. 
I relax, stop fighting getting the message. “Please, don’t do this. Not like this please, I’ll give you anything, you want money? Food?”
My chest rumbles in delight hearing him beg I can barely speak anymore my head is so foggy with lust. “No, you’re about to get raped accept it.” I hold my cock at the base and show him, it’s massive and it’s going inside his ass the knot would practically cripple him it was fully engorged. 
The man starts to struggle again, he’s strong for a human his arms are big his chest wide, but he’s still just prey compared to me. I remind him of where he is with my teeth, they could tear him to shreds in an instant. He calms down again. He feels so light in my grip as I drag him across the grass to a nearby log, bending him over it. I can hear him sobbing. I drape my body across his back as I lick the sweet salty tears off his face. I was going to enjoy this. 
I line my dripping tip up with his exposed hole this makes me shudder and get harder. 
Snapping out of the daze I realize where I am now, I’m bent over a log with a gigantic dick about to rape my ass. “Please, this isn’t you, snap out of it.” My mind is foggy, I’m so fucking high I can barely move anymore, my body is confused. 
I can feel it, the tip of Killian’s cock is pressing against my tight hole, I’m not loose and I can’t relax. I think I can feel it like he does. It feels incredible, that tightness needed to be savored slowly. He starts to push into me, it hurts but at the same time my dick feels like its in heaven. He was going slow, but he wasn’t going to stop. 
I felt what it was like to have a cock like his. A warm velvety wet tunnel that gripped my shaft tighter than any hole before. There were a lot of inches to go, as he keeps pressing it into me stretching my ass wide and makes me beg for mercy. The tapered tip spreading the way for the rest of the shaft as it slid in beautifully was pure bliss. 
“Stop! Stop! Fuck that hurts, Stop!” That wasn’t the magic word though, I could feel that Killian was struggling to control himself as I begged, so I kept going.
Through pained cries and yelps as his thick dick stretched my incredibly tight hole I begged. “Stop please, I change my mind I don’t want to get raped. This isn’t fun anymore!”
That was his breaking point, with one powerful thrust he manages to force the thickest part of his shaft past my tight ring, hilting himself to the knot. He lets out the deepest moan I’ve ever heard him make. Pleasure shoots through my dick, there was so much of it buried in a tight and warm hole I couldn’t stop myself from having another orgasm. In reality my own soft cock that was dangling between my legs started dripping cum onto the grass beneath me. My hole clenched around that cock inside me just making me cum harder as I was pleasured from both ends. 
I didn’t get a break, Killian started to fuck me. The pleasure was indescribable, my body was limp bent over the log. I whined and sobbed each time he pulled out halfway and rammed it back inside, it wasn’t fast. It was nice and slow he was savoring it. 
He felt so powerful as he pretended to rape me, just a little sad that the knot might not fit, but that could change. He loved my little whimpers. The desire to knot me was strong, primal, instinctual and I wanted to experience it too I didn’t care about anything else, just getting that knot inside. So I begged for it in my own way.
“No please, not the knot please please it won’t fit. Please if there is a god, don’t let him knot me. Don’t let this beast rape me.”
Killian was lost in the pleasure, he started to grind his knot against my hole, there was no possible way it was going in at the moment. But I felt every moment he tried to, it was like in order to have the best orgasm of my existence, I needed to get the knot in. Having a tight hole to stuff it into would just make it better. I could almost ignore the pain at this point as I start to drool onto the grass, I was focused on what he was feeling. It was incredibly difficult for him to cum without getting the knot inside. No matter how much he fucked with his shaft, it wouldn’t happen without the knot. I finally understood.
He starts pressing it in more insistently, watching that hole barely stretch around the base of his knot. Only managing to ever get just a tiny bit in. He couldn’t take it anymore, not for another second. I was suddenly aware of every muscle in his furry body, how they tensed up, grabbed onto those human hips firmly and with determination started to rape his knot into my ass.
I saw stars in one eye, and agony in the other. The way that he made my hole stretch to fit his knot made me cum again, my cock dribbling yet another weaker few drops of cum onto the grass between my legs. It felt so good to have that tightness wrap around his knot. But he couldn’t cum yet it was pure torture, no matter how good his shaft felt it wasn’t happening. He did his absolute best not to grab onto my hips too hard, his fingers twitching violently as he tried to control his urges. But I heard him grunt with each thrust and failure, and I felt the wave of pleasure with each tiny centimeter of his knot he managed to rape into me. I didn’t care anymore, I wanted to know, I needed to know what it felt like fuck the safe word.
I don’t know what came over me. “What’s the matter? Can’t get your knot in you worthless dog?”
I felt his whole body tense, his claws dug into my sides drawing red lines as I bled. He grunted with each thrust, my hips slamming against the log. He was going hard, and it hurt as I felt my ass being torn. But the knot was starting to go in, and we were so close, just a little more.
In a rhythmic fashion he was grunting loudly. “Hng! Hng! Hng!” it didn’t take much more as my blood lubed up his knot and it finally slipped inside locking us together. Every nerve in my body started firing at once, I couldn’t even feel the pain anymore as I felt Killian’s orgasm. Every fiber of my being was cumming in that moment, squeezing the knot felt like it opened the flood gates. As he started to pump his cum into me, and it didn’t stop. He just held me there suspended in the air pulled back against his hips. I came again, only a single drop of cum leaking out of my spent dick the last drop I had. 
No wonder he liked to get his knot inside, this is what it felt like to be in his position. To have all the power, all the pleasure as his balls pulled up close to his body, they pumped so hard it hurt. After what felt like ages he finally opened his eyes and saw what he had done. The little roleplay they engaged in went a little bit too far.
His claws were red, the blood of his lover, he smelled it coming from his crotch too. This was a new emotion that he had just discovered. REGRET. 
Looking at his claws tears started to well up in his eyes, what was this feeling? He hated it. “What have I done?” he just looks down in horror, he was the devil. Another word popped into his head BETRAYAL. He had promised his love that this would be fun, there was nothing fun about this. A pit formed in his stomach, threatening to swallow him whole.
As he came back to his senses he asked Daniel a question. “Hey there pup, how you doing?”
It was a stupid question which he already knew the answer to. 
I took a moment to gather my thoughts, my mind was fuzzy I had to remember who I was for a moment. My own response surprised me “Killian.. I felt everything you did, I didn’t even feel it hurt. That was, incredible and worth it. I’ll need some bandages, but I wish I had a knot.”
Killian just panted for a moment trying to calm himself, they wouldn’t be able to move for a while. He had already ruined that ass with his knot he’d have to wait until it was fully deflated before even attempting to remove it. But they were still high, it was still in the middle of the night. He could feel himself get hard again as that ass weakly clenched around his dick.
It was going to be a long night.