A/N: my mind hurts now. My ocs, don't steal them and don't use them without my permission.
Enjoy this song fic~
Pairing: Black Opal/Crystalyne, implied Black Opal/Maw Sit Sit
Rating: PG-13
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I thought after all these years seeing Black Opal again would go smoothly. I thought we would be able to pick up where we had left off and fix everything. I didn't expect her to straight out attack me though. I'm just glad that Maw intervened before Opal tried to shatter me. Of course by that point both of us were pretty banged up and worn out. Maw was kind of pissed off about what Opal had tried doing so after demanding to hear an explanation from her, and after smacking Opal upside the head when said explanation was given, she turned to me. I didn't hear what she was trying to say. All I heard at that time was a loud ringing before blacking out.
I can't even think of one good reason
Why I'm always thinkin' about leavin'
It's not like everything's so horrible
We've been together for a few years now
And you know all my ins and outs
But everything is way to comfortable
From the moment I wake
I plan my escape
When I finally awoke, I was laying on something soft with a thing placed over me up to my shoulders. My head was slightly ringing still so I slowly sat up and looked around. That's when I noticed I was in someone's room and currently sitting on what they must rest in. I noticed the room was slightly messy and that there's stairs to my right, but before I could look any closer at the stuff around me I heard someone shout.
"She's awake!" rapid footsteps soon followed the voice, someone was running up the stairs.
"Steven! Be careful!" another voice shouted from somewhere downstairs, it sounded like a female.
Finally after about two more seconds or so, the one called 'Steven' came into view. He was needless to say... adorably short. He ended up jumping onto part of the thing I was sitting on. For some reason there was excitement in his eyes as he looked at me.
I felt a bit awkward with how he was looking at me so I broke the silence we were in, "Uh... hi?"
"Hi! I'm Steven! What's your name? Are you feeling any better? How did you get here?" he was still excited so all his questions were understandable.
I would have answered him but a familiar voice beat me to it, "Easy there Steven, don't start questioning her just yet okay?"
I looked over to where the voice had came from to see Maw, "... Hey Maw. It's been a while."
"Yes it has. How you been Crystalyne?" her arms were crossed while she was putting her weight mostly on her left leg. She was also smiling at us.
"Good up until earlier." I was still wondering how I got here so I asked her, "Maw, how exactly did I get here? Last thing I remember is fighting Opal in one of the abandoned Kindergartens."
Maw chuckled a little bit before answering me, "Well after you had passed out, I had her carry you back here kind of as a punishment. Once we got here she placed you on Steven's bed, where you are now by the way, and went into her room."
"Why were they fighting?" Steven piped up.
Maw looked at him before glancing at me. She shook her head, "That's kind of complicated Steven."
"How?"
I kind of zoned out after that point and started looking around Steven's room a bit more from where I sat. You can really tell a lot about someone with how they have their living space. Steven had asked Maw more about me and Opal, why we were fighting and the such, Maw answering only what she deemed as okay enough to tell him about. I guess he was really interested in us or something. I didn't mind though. The noise of a warp pad activating caught all of our attention. Steven had said something about 'the Gems' being back before getting off of the bed and running downstairs. I was curious so I went to get up, but Maw stopped me. She said that I needed to take it easy because I was still sore from the fight, I didn't let that stop me though, so with a rather annoyed sigh Maw helped me up and we both walked down the stairs.
That's when I figured out who these 'Gems' were. There was three gems that Steven was talking to. They noticed me and Maw when we got closer and Steven started introducing all of us, minus Maw since Steven said she already knew them. One was a Pearl, she seemed to be the protective one out of the three. Another was an Amethyst, she was kind of like the wild type out of the three, I liked her the most. She was also adorably short like Steven. Then there was Garnet, she was... mysterious. I also got to meet who that voice belonged to, it was someone named Connie. She was a friend of Steven's.
Not long after Opal decided to come out from wherever she was to see what was going on. I could tell she wasn't really glad to see that I was up and about again. She just kind of glared at me before disappearing again.
I'm not scared
'Cause I know there's something out there waiting for me
And I swear
That I'll find it someday, just wait and see
I don't care
That you call me crazy
I can't stay 'cause I need room to breathe
There's nothing left to say
Better sorry than safe
My time spent at this Steven's home wasn't long. If I said I had left of my own accord I would've been lying. I left because of Opal. I tried making things right between us, I really did. I would be calm about it as I didn't want to alarm her but when that didn't work I figured I'd give her some space so she could get used to me being around again. That pretty much didn't really work out either.
I figured that if she truly wanted me gone then I would just leave. So after about another week of staying there, I finally left when everyone had retired to their rooms. I did leave a note telling Steven goodbye, he was a nice kid and I didn't want him worrying about where I went, so it seemed like the right choice. I did tell the gems, Maw and Opal bye in the same note. It was short though, I didn't want to waste their time.
Sometimes I wish you cheated on me
Then leavin' here would be so easy
It's time to take a chance and give you up
In the morning I'll wake
And make my escape
I had traveled around for a while, not really paying attention to where I was going. I didn't really care, just as long as I ended up somewhere. The whole time though I was just thinking. I thought about how me and Opal had met, which now that I think about it was actually kind of funny.
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I had just arrived at some type of court, I was escorting some random gem I didn't really bother paying attention to. It wasn't until after I got the said gem to where they were supposed to be when me and her had finally met. She was standing by the door to one of the many rooms. I guess she had been escorting someone too, well it was either that or she was just a worker there. She was so... distant, didn't pay attention to everyone else around her unless addressed by them. She just stood there, her posture was straight, her arms were resting behind her back and she had one of the most emotionless expressions I've ever seen.
She was beautiful, in a way that I didn't know I liked until months later when we met again and actually had a chance to talk. By then there was rumors of a Rose Quarts who had rebelled against her Diamond. I didn't think much of it, I was more focused on getting to know this strange gem. We got to talk for only a couple minutes that day. We did agree on meeting up at a place we both knew of to continue our conversation. Opal wouldn't tell me about certain things when I asked, but it was okay, she was a very precise gem after all. It did take awhile, but finally after a few more months from when we started talking, I got her to open up to me a bit more. She told me about which court she was from. She talked about her likes, dislikes and even her job.
We had hit it off quite nicely after that. We got as close as our different courts would allow, but it wasn't enough, we both wanted more during that time. We just didn't know how to go about it.
One night when we were having a stroll through a rather unpopulated area, we stopped and just looked up at the sky. I'm not sure why we did, so I ended up looking at Opal instead. She seemed to be thinking deeply about something. I had set my hand on her shoulder and was going to ask what was wrong, but then looked at me and what she did next surprised me. She had kissed me. It wasn't long, she stopped as soon as she started.
I'm not sure what we became that night, all I know is that I kept thinking about her a lot after that. It wasn't long until we both ended up meeting Maw, the poor girl was in charge of taking care of some basic worker gems. All of us just seemed to hit it off. Me and Opal had developed a deep friendship with Maw, all of us were close. We didn't think anything would get in the way of that.
That was until the war started.
I'm not scared
'Cause I know there's something out there waiting for me
And I swear
That I'll find it someday, just wait and see
I don't care
That you call me crazy
I can't stay 'cause I need room to breathe
There's nothing left to say
Better sorry than safe
The war changed all of us. It got in the way of us spending time together and just being the three weirdos we were. At some point in the war me and Opal started to drift apart. Our ideals had changed, I hadn't really noticed it until she asked me the one question I never thought I'd hear her say.
"Will you join the rebellion with me and Maw?"
"... What?"
I couldn't do it. I couldn't turn my back on the world I knew and had loved. I could see the disappointment and sadness in her eyes when I told her I couldn't. I couldn't understand why she wanted to betray everything she knew. I didn't know what made her want to do that in the first place! She always seemed so loyal to the court she was from. I wanted to know what made her think this way, I didn't want her to leave me.
When she hadn't answered any of my questions and just stared at the ground instead, I panicked. I grabbed her shoulders and asked her what was wrong and why she thought joining the rebellion was the right thing to do. When she looked up at me it was like a slap to the face. She was crying. My Opal was crying. She was always so careful about what emotions to show around me or anyone for that matter. I tried to calm her down, I really did, but she just took my hands off of her shoulders before running away.
I had lost her.
I had lost the one I cared so much about.
I had lost the one I didn't even know I loved until then.
I'm not scared
'Cause I know there's something out there waiting for me
And I swear
That I'll find it someday, just wait and see
I don't care
That you call me crazy
I can't stay 'cause I need room to breathe
There's nothing left to say
Better sorry than safe
Oh yeah
The next time we met it was on the battlefield. She was just like I had remembered, at least that's what it seemed like. But in the fog of war, everything seems to be clouded and when it finally lifted... I knew she wasn't the same Opal I hade fallen in love with.
The Opal I fell in love with was one that was loyal to her court, the one who loved space and would take any opportunity to travel through it and the one who hated when lower gems interrupted her when she was talking. She was the one who never opened up with someone unless she was comfortable with them, the one who was scared of showing the wrong emotion, the one who hated when any gem got hurt.
This Opal was more dark. This one didn't seem to care about hurting gems. This one was a bloodthirsty killer that I couldn't recognize. This one wasn't the one I fell for. ...This one was a monster.
I will admit that I did things that I'm not proud of. I did just as much damage as her and Maw, who thankfully understood why I couldn't betray my home, maybe even more. All of us did things that I'm sure we would like to forget, but made perfect sense to do at the times they happened.
We all lost ourselves.
Then nearing the end of the war, Opal and Maw weren't around anymore. I had thought they died fighting for whatever cause it was that they chosen to follow.
There's nothing left to say
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Now though, after years of thinking that, I'm glad I wasn't right. I'm glad that they're both still alive and enjoying life like we all used to way back when things were normal. I'm just still trying to get over one thing that I wasn't ready to face after all these years.
... My Opal has moved on.
She's happy with Maw now, I saw enough of how they acted around each other to piece it together. Don't get me wrong, I am glad that she's better and letting someone else in again.
Its just... even after all this time... I still love her.
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A/N: that's it. Song used was Better Sorry Than Safe by Halestorm.
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