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Now it’s just going to harm him even more..how are you gonna tell him now you idiot ?”\n\nThe fox grabbed his phone as he looked to the messages he was seeing before the hedgehog interrupted him, going to the chat of a certain rabbit he had been frequenting a lot, he lowered the head as he read again all the conversation knowing he would have to face his actions sooner or later, he knew what he had done, he knew he had done just the same that Amy had done before him, he could now feel the guilt, he could now feel the anguish and regret, of not being able to control himself.\n\nThe fox began flooding in tears as he left the phone on the night table, now knowing the blue boy was waking up slowly.\n\n-Sonic: hmmm…. it’s…something wrong?...\n\nThe hedgehog yawned slowly as he was barely awake.\n\n-Tails: oh n-no I’m fine... just got something on my eyes…go back to sleep sweet chilly…\n\nThe fox covered the hedgehog with his tails allowing him to fall sleep again and giving him time to dry his tears without sonic noticing. \nHe knew how he was going to react, he simply knew it, he knew all their progress would be erased and he would end up worse than Amy left him before him, he knew he was as bad and as selfish as her and now he was scared…for only time was going to finally drown him with the truth and he could no longer hide from what was about to happened, or better said, who was going to happened. He loved him, he really did, but he couldn’t deal with what he had to do as a fox all the time they were simply passive, he needed the feeling and now his way of getting it paid a terrible consequence.\n\nHe knew it was going to end…for now…he had become the person he swore never to be.\n\nThe fox waited for a long time, a couple of hours just covering the hedgehog with his tails trying to make his mind on a small possibility for forgiveness of his actions, but he knew what he didn’t deserve such a privilege, he knew his mate deserved better.\n\nThe fox finally chose to stand up slowly and walk to his lab, maybe some work could help him clear his mind, sad fully it wasn’t going to help, he could only think on that and, after dropping some tools, he finally stopped, for he couldn’t concentrate at all and knew he was probably just going to break something for doing things out of anger and despair.\n\n-Tails: great job miles…..you really ruined it these time…\n\nThe fox whispered to himself as he kneeled to pick everything down and putted everything back into place.\n\n-Tails: you could have just waited…but you just had to be an asshole….an idiot….\n\nThe fox kept whispering to himself and then just sat down on the floor trying to control his anger and guilt, but it was simply not possible for him anymore. Things had just grown to big for him to control and he knew it, he had lost it, he finally became the kind of couple he promised not to be, and now was going to abandon him just like the one before him, and he knew…he couldn’t change how things were going to end. Whipping silently as the morning sun began to rise.\n","writing_bbcode_parsed":"-Tails: “what am i even doing?”
The fox thought to himself as he sat on the side of the bed turning his cellphone’s flash to be able to see around.
The fox lowered his ears and looked down at his mate’s smile as he slept comfortably.
-Tails: “I shouldn’t be doing these..i was gonna end it for good..why did I simply gave in so stupidly? Now it’s just going to harm him even more..how are you gonna tell him now you idiot ?”
The fox grabbed his phone as he looked to the messages he was seeing before the hedgehog interrupted him, going to the chat of a certain rabbit he had been frequenting a lot, he lowered the head as he read again all the conversation knowing he would have to face his actions sooner or later, he knew what he had done, he knew he had done just the same that Amy had done before him, he could now feel the guilt, he could now feel the anguish and regret, of not being able to control himself.
The fox began flooding in tears as he left the phone on the night table, now knowing the blue boy was waking up slowly.
-Sonic: hmmm…. it’s…something wrong?...
The hedgehog yawned slowly as he was barely awake.
-Tails: oh n-no I’m fine... just got something on my eyes…go back to sleep sweet chilly…
The fox covered the hedgehog with his tails allowing him to fall sleep again and giving him time to dry his tears without sonic noticing.
He knew how he was going to react, he simply knew it, he knew all their progress would be erased and he would end up worse than Amy left him before him, he knew he was as bad and as selfish as her and now he was scared…for only time was going to finally drown him with the truth and he could no longer hide from what was about to happened, or better said, who was going to happened. He loved him, he really did, but he couldn’t deal with what he had to do as a fox all the time they were simply passive, he needed the feeling and now his way of getting it paid a terrible consequence.
He knew it was going to end…for now…he had become the person he swore never to be.
The fox waited for a long time, a couple of hours just covering the hedgehog with his tails trying to make his mind on a small possibility for forgiveness of his actions, but he knew what he didn’t deserve such a privilege, he knew his mate deserved better.
The fox finally chose to stand up slowly and walk to his lab, maybe some work could help him clear his mind, sad fully it wasn’t going to help, he could only think on that and, after dropping some tools, he finally stopped, for he couldn’t concentrate at all and knew he was probably just going to break something for doing things out of anger and despair.
-Tails: great job miles…..you really ruined it these time…
The fox whispered to himself as he kneeled to pick everything down and putted everything back into place.
-Tails: you could have just waited…but you just had to be an asshole….an idiot….
The fox kept whispering to himself and then just sat down on the floor trying to control his anger and guilt, but it was simply not possible for him anymore. Things had just grown to big for him to control and he knew it, he had lost it, he finally became the kind of couple he promised not to be, and now was going to abandon him just like the one before him, and he knew…he couldn’t change how things were going to end. Whipping silently as the morning sun began to rise.
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