I spent a lot of time before I went to college to protect my freedom-loving psyche from the school and contemporary Chinese culture of shame. At that time, I often lay in bed in the middle of the night, crying for an hour or two, dealing with my psyche. I won’t say I regret that I didn’t spend more… time? — to deal with my psyche to allow me to do more things of what was perceived as short-sighted and ungrateful but in line with my heart’s quest for freedom, such as accepting a month or two of reprimands from my parents and insisting on homeschooling.

Anyway, it’s good to be rebellious, or just to be disobedient and try to make things in your line. I will support that.