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they're just a bunch of negative emotions i'd had bottled up for awhile... character design really is something that can put me into a meditative, calm state to sort out my feelings~ it was a very theraputic project. it's also why i added so many little extra unnamed cubs!
don't know if theyre going to be a one-off thing, or if i want to adopt them off, (not even sure how i would go about that or if anyone would even want them lmao), or if i want to draw more eventually... 🙃 but enjoy if it helps you like it does me.
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