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Looking around I see the usual group of \nstudents rushing around and thankfully here they seem to be ignoreing me. \n\n\tThinking to myself \"Mabey this won't be so bad-\" my thoughts are interupted\nby what could be wrost thing I could run in to, a pack of wolves. I guess\nshould explian why. Im Nathen, a hybird, or as most would say a mongrul. Im\na small wolf mouse mix, mostly mouse to most who see me from a distance. That is untill they get\nclose and see my ears and tail.\n\n\n\tAnyway, back to the story, the typical pack alpha walks up and I can already \nsee how this going to end. \"Hey look the new guys a runt\" the leader of group, \nobviusly the bulling type, makes a stupid atempt to make himself look scary.\n\"I don't feeling like dealing your kind today, how bout you just go around saying \nyou did whatever it is you were going to do and give me some peace\" I figuered \nthis ploy was going to fail anyway, but I did promise dad I would at least \ntry to avoid getting kicked out agine.\n\n\tThe lower ranking members didn't help either as they keep egging there\nleader on. \"You going to let some runt half bread talk to you like that boss?\"\nThe larger moved foward and I already how this going to end \"No, runts need to\nknow there place\" He swings I duck down and get ready to bring him and his \nlackys down. The fist goes over me and I start to go into the Tyrant Rave.\nI am about to land it and knock this guy clear across the building when a familar\nand unwelcome voice rains over head.\n\n\tThe group backs off and I back flip away from them. \"What the hell\nare you doing here?\" my twin sister Noel. The leader respones first \"You know\nthis jerk ?\" I decide intergect at this point \"I thought dad wasn't going to send \nus to the same school anymore. At least after the last time.\" Noel says \"Well what did you expect,\nyou are running out of schools that will take you.\" Iratated by the current state of things,\nI simply say \"Fine, I'll make you a deal, keep your \"friends\" off my case and stay \nout of my way, in return, I will keep a low profile so you won't catch grife,\ndeal?\" I pause waiting for an answer \"Fine, sounds fair.\" I walk off knowing \nthat wont last long, but today should be ok.\n\n \t\"Sorry about that Jack, he wasnt always like this.\" The leader Jack,\nlooked confused at this point \"Why you apologzing Noel?\" She shock her head,\n\"Think about it we are twins, and had he landed that technique we would not be able \nto have this talk.\" At this point it dawned on him what she meant. \"So he can\nfight like you?\" Walking up to him she answer \"Yes, he has been kicked out of \nsevral schools already\"\n\n\tI meanwhile, by some miracle, make it to the end of the day without\nfurther incedent. Well other than usual nonsense of having to be stood up \nin front of the class and for all intsenive pourpses marking you as target for\nfor the established cliques.\n\t\n\tWhile grabing my stuff from my locker, I hear another voice behind me.\nOut of pure habbit I swing around and try to knock the daylights out of who\never is behind me. To my suprise The taller fox catches my fist and smiles.\n\"Noel was right, you have changed man.\" Being to iratated to reconize him I\nsimple state \"What part of, leave me alone dose my sister not understand?\"\nWhat suprisises me next is the expresion on his face, he looked hurt. \"You\nreally don't remember me?\"\n\n\t\"Kain?\" Is all can say at this point, the rough exterior I\nhave been using for a long time now faltuers. \"Man, Im sorry, I thought \nI told Noel to tell you I was at this school.\" I don't say anything and as always he \nseems to read me like a book \"You two still aren't good terms are you?\" \nRelaxing a bit I answer \"No, we disowned each other after the huge fight 2 schools\nback.\" The look he gives me makes me feel bad about it for a bit.\n\"You can't hold that aginst her forever, I can forgive, why can't you?\"\n\n\t\"She betryed us, I can't forgive that. I was happy there, had friends,\nwas not hassled about being a hybrid. Now I can't even stay in a school....\"\nKain in his gentle manner interjected at this point. \" Ok, you have a point\nabout that, but what about the other incedents?\" I want to object, but deep down\nI know he is right, \"They had it coming\" my voice wavering now. \"I thought as\nmuch, but think of this way, I can be here for you now\" I drop my cold extiror\nas he said this, remembering all the good times, \"That dose make things seem\nbetter.\" \n\n\t\"I know this a touchy subject, but she is your family\" I am unconvinced\nby his reasoning. I turn and look at him \"Blood dosen't equal family,\ngaranty love, or make every wrong magicaly go away.\" Kain looks a bit worried now, \nthis wasn't the furrson he remembered, he did how ever drop the subject\nfor the time being. Deciding a more private place would make more sense\nfor his concerns and questions. \"You doing anything after school?\"\nI shurg \"Not really, just need stop my place.\" Kain chuckles a bit\n\"Your dad acually keeping you under control?\" I knida laugh \"Not really,\nI think he will be pleased with how today went tho, last school did not go\nwell. Why do you ask?\" Kain smiled \"I was wondering if you would like to come to\nmy place tonight, it's friday so we could have the whole weekend to catch up.\"\nThinking for a bit I nod in agreement \"That really sounds like a good idea.\nI can finaly relax abit\"\n\n\tThe walk back to my place was quick. We went in to find my dad waiting.\nHe didn't quite look upset nor did he look all that happy, seeing Kain did complicat\nthing things abit to. \"Hi dad\" I try to act normal, not knowing whats going on.\n\"Your sister called, said you picked a fight with a group of her friends.\" Kain interjected\nhimslef here \"He didn't do that, they where giving him grife.\" Dad looked\nsomewhat convinced. \"Well, I guess since the school did not call today. I can call that\ngood news\" He glanced at Kain agine, not in very welcoming manor.\n\n\tI caught this as well as Kain. \"Get over it dad, you said you wanted me at school\nto make friends in the first place.\" Dad was still not to thrilled, but did pick up\non something that helped the situation. I didn't notice to begine with, but the cold and\nemotionless exterior that I had been using had softened a bit. \"You are right,\" he paused thinking about\nall that happened recently. Mostly change in my personalty, I ues to be a bright\neyed happy go lucky kind of guy. Then there were sevral events that caused grife for everyone,\neven splintering the family. He decided to try and start from scratch, worrying about the growing\nrift between us.\n\n\tAt this point he looks at Kain then at me \"You could try to get along with your sister, your twins after all.\"\n\"I can only promise to have nothing to do with her, if I had any say at all in the matter I would be an only\nchild.\" Both dad and Kain were a bit taken a back. Kain spoke first \"That's harsh.\"\nDad was suprised by that response, he expected Kain to just jump in and deffend my postion.\nAt this point I just went to my room to dich my school stuff.\n\n\tKain went to follow but my dad asked him something. \"Do you think he is still capable of\nanything other than resintment?\"\"Kain's voice was quite but kind \"I think so, but he needs time.\nfurrsons handle things diffrently, and we were all hit hard. I think the best thing to do is \nto just let him work it out for himself till he wants help dealing with it. It dosen't show,\nbut deep down theres alot of depriesion and saddness.\" He looked at Kain this time impressed \nand more aproving \"Your right.\" \n\n\tKain took the opertunity to ask a question \"Would you mind if Nate spent\nthe weekend with me?\"Dad look at him thoughfully \"You really do care about him don't you.\"\n\"Yes, alot\" Kain answered without any hesatation. \"Ok, I dout me saying no would stop him anyway.\"\nKain looked at him \"He is not rebelling, he is just missrable. I know you see it. \nBefore anything eles can be said I walk back down stairs.\n\n\tI toss my backpack over my shoulder. \"I'm ready Kain.\" I walk out the door to find Noel standing there wating for me.\n\"What do you want?\" I say in very cold voice. \"You can not hold this grudge forever.\" At this point I'm really losing\nmy paticents. \"Leave me alone, we are NOT family anymore.\" She shakes her head,\n\"Not family? We are twins, how can we not be.\" I put my pace down and hold my arm out, a flaiming sowrd \nappears in my clenched fist.\"Leave now, I have nothing to talk to YOU about.\n\n\tI force my weapon forward a sizable stream of flames flys in her deriction. \"Gun Fang\"\nShe jumps out of the looking surprised and a bit hurt, she really wanted to try and apoligze.\n\"Your right, Sol, your not my brother. Your just a weapon now.\" Kain and dad walk out and see what is \ntranspairing.\"Your right, and its your fault.\" Kain walks up to me now \"Lets just go\" he looks me in the eyes, and I\nquickly give in. \"Ok\" the blade disapers from sight and we depart, leaving dad and Noel almost speachless.\nNoel asks quitly \"How dose Kain do that?\"Dad responds \"I'm just suprised he will still\nlisten to anyone.\"\n ", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "Sometimes I wonder
By Nathen Rexxen
I do not own anythig envolving Guilty Gear, Any thing GG realted is property of Aksys
games and Arcsystem works.




\tWalking in to the building, I cant help but wonder why im even here.
This is third school in 4 months. Looking around I see the usual group of
students rushing around and thankfully here they seem to be ignoreing me.

\tThinking to myself "Mabey this won't be so bad-" my thoughts are interupted
by what could be wrost thing I could run in to, a pack of wolves. I guess
should explian why. Im Nathen, a hybird, or as most would say a mongrul. Im
a small wolf mouse mix, mostly mouse to most who see me from a distance. That is untill they get
close and see my ears and tail.


\tAnyway, back to the story, the typical pack alpha walks up and I can already
see how this going to end. "Hey look the new guys a runt" the leader of group,
obviusly the bulling type, makes a stupid atempt to make himself look scary.
"I don't feeling like dealing your kind today, how bout you just go around saying
you did whatever it is you were going to do and give me some peace" I figuered
this ploy was going to fail anyway, but I did promise dad I would at least
try to avoid getting kicked out agine.

\tThe lower ranking members didn't help either as they keep egging there
leader on. "You going to let some runt half bread talk to you like that boss?"
The larger moved foward and I already how this going to end "No, runts need to
know there place" He swings I duck down and get ready to bring him and his
lackys down. The fist goes over me and I start to go into the Tyrant Rave.
I am about to land it and knock this guy clear across the building when a familar
and unwelcome voice rains over head.

\tThe group backs off and I back flip away from them. "What the hell
are you doing here?" my twin sister Noel. The leader respones first "You know
this jerk ?" I decide intergect at this point "I thought dad wasn't going to send
us to the same school anymore. At least after the last time." Noel says "Well what did you expect,
you are running out of schools that will take you." Iratated by the current state of things,
I simply say "Fine, I'll make you a deal, keep your "friends" off my case and stay
out of my way, in return, I will keep a low profile so you won't catch grife,
deal?" I pause waiting for an answer "Fine, sounds fair." I walk off knowing
that wont last long, but today should be ok.

 \t"Sorry about that Jack, he wasnt always like this." The leader Jack,
looked confused at this point "Why you apologzing Noel?" She shock her head,
"Think about it we are twins, and had he landed that technique we would not be able
to have this talk." At this point it dawned on him what she meant. "So he can
fight like you?" Walking up to him she answer "Yes, he has been kicked out of
sevral schools already"

\tI meanwhile, by some miracle, make it to the end of the day without
further incedent. Well other than usual nonsense of having to be stood up
in front of the class and for all intsenive pourpses marking you as target for
for the established cliques.
\t
\tWhile grabing my stuff from my locker, I hear another voice behind me.
Out of pure habbit I swing around and try to knock the daylights out of who
ever is behind me. To my suprise The taller fox catches my fist and smiles.
"Noel was right, you have changed man." Being to iratated to reconize him I
simple state "What part of, leave me alone dose my sister not understand?"
What suprisises me next is the expresion on his face, he looked hurt. "You
really don't remember me?"

\t"Kain?" Is all can say at this point, the rough exterior I
have been using for a long time now faltuers. "Man, Im sorry, I thought
I told Noel to tell you I was at this school." I don't say anything and as always he
seems to read me like a book "You two still aren't good terms are you?"
Relaxing a bit I answer "No, we disowned each other after the huge fight 2 schools
back." The look he gives me makes me feel bad about it for a bit.
"You can't hold that aginst her forever, I can forgive, why can't you?"

\t"She betryed us, I can't forgive that. I was happy there, had friends,
was not hassled about being a hybrid. Now I can't even stay in a school...."
Kain in his gentle manner interjected at this point. " Ok, you have a point
about that, but what about the other incedents?" I want to object, but deep down
I know he is right, "They had it coming" my voice wavering now. "I thought as
much, but think of this way, I can be here for you now" I drop my cold extiror
as he said this, remembering all the good times, "That dose make things seem
better."

\t"I know this a touchy subject, but she is your family" I am unconvinced
by his reasoning. I turn and look at him "Blood dosen't equal family,
garanty love, or make every wrong magicaly go away." Kain looks a bit worried now,
this wasn't the furrson he remembered, he did how ever drop the subject
for the time being. Deciding a more private place would make more sense
for his concerns and questions. "You doing anything after school?"
I shurg "Not really, just need stop my place." Kain chuckles a bit
"Your dad acually keeping you under control?" I knida laugh "Not really,
I think he will be pleased with how today went tho, last school did not go
well. Why do you ask?" Kain smiled "I was wondering if you would like to come to
my place tonight, it's friday so we could have the whole weekend to catch up."
Thinking for a bit I nod in agreement "That really sounds like a good idea.
I can finaly relax abit"

\tThe walk back to my place was quick. We went in to find my dad waiting.
He didn't quite look upset nor did he look all that happy, seeing Kain did complicat
thing things abit to. "Hi dad" I try to act normal, not knowing whats going on.
"Your sister called, said you picked a fight with a group of her friends." Kain interjected
himslef here "He didn't do that, they where giving him grife." Dad looked
somewhat convinced. "Well, I guess since the school did not call today. I can call that
good news" He glanced at Kain agine, not in very welcoming manor.

\tI caught this as well as Kain. "Get over it dad, you said you wanted me at school
to make friends in the first place." Dad was still not to thrilled, but did pick up
on something that helped the situation. I didn't notice to begine with, but the cold and
emotionless exterior that I had been using had softened a bit. "You are right," he paused thinking about
all that happened recently. Mostly change in my personalty, I ues to be a bright
eyed happy go lucky kind of guy. Then there were sevral events that caused grife for everyone,
even splintering the family. He decided to try and start from scratch, worrying about the growing
rift between us.

\tAt this point he looks at Kain then at me "You could try to get along with your sister, your twins after all."
"I can only promise to have nothing to do with her, if I had any say at all in the matter I would be an only
child." Both dad and Kain were a bit taken a back. Kain spoke first "That's harsh."
Dad was suprised by that response, he expected Kain to just jump in and deffend my postion.
At this point I just went to my room to dich my school stuff.

\tKain went to follow but my dad asked him something. "Do you think he is still capable of
anything other than resintment?""Kain's voice was quite but kind "I think so, but he needs time.
furrsons handle things diffrently, and we were all hit hard. I think the best thing to do is
to just let him work it out for himself till he wants help dealing with it. It dosen't show,
but deep down theres alot of depriesion and saddness." He looked at Kain this time impressed
and more aproving "Your right."

\tKain took the opertunity to ask a question "Would you mind if Nate spent
the weekend with me?"Dad look at him thoughfully "You really do care about him don't you."
"Yes, alot" Kain answered without any hesatation. "Ok, I dout me saying no would stop him anyway."
Kain looked at him "He is not rebelling, he is just missrable. I know you see it.
Before anything eles can be said I walk back down stairs.

\tI toss my backpack over my shoulder. "I'm ready Kain." I walk out the door to find Noel standing there wating for me.
"What do you want?" I say in very cold voice. "You can not hold this grudge forever." At this point I'm really losing
my paticents. "Leave me alone, we are NOT family anymore." She shakes her head,
"Not family?  We are twins, how can we not be." I put my pace down and hold my arm out, a flaiming sowrd
appears in my clenched fist."Leave now, I have nothing to talk to YOU about.

\tI force my weapon forward a sizable stream of flames flys in her deriction. "Gun Fang"
She jumps out of the looking surprised and a bit hurt, she really wanted to try and apoligze.
"Your right, Sol, your not my brother. Your just a weapon now." Kain and dad walk out and see what is
transpairing."Your right, and its your fault." Kain walks up to me now "Lets just go" he looks me in the eyes, and I
quickly give in. "Ok" the blade disapers from sight and we depart, leaving dad and Noel almost speachless.
Noel asks quitly "How dose Kain do that?"Dad responds "I'm just suprised he will still
listen to anyone."
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