a young girl, naked except for pink boxers, stands watching the sunset from a highway overpass. she's decided that once the sun sets, her life is going to end. she hopes she'll wake up in a different life, maybe this time as a daughter, with a mother who isn't dead, and no dad or stepmom to treat her like shit

she spent the last several hours chain smoking a pack of cigarettes and throwing stuff off the overpass. the cigarettes were left in the motel room she found herself in this morning by the guy who was staying there, presumably in exchange for sucking his dick and whatever else he did to her. her memory of the night is hazy and she doesn't really know how much of it was real, but she's fairly certain that she sucked the guy's dick at least once

dozens of people and hundreds of cars have passed by her in the few hours that she has been standing on the overpass, and not one stopped to talk to her or see if she was ok. to the girl it's a clear sign that she is not wanted in this world

as the sun falls to the horizon, she leans over the edge and watches the traffic below. she imagines the jump over and over again. she wonders whether she'll hit a car or the asphalt

"did u drop something down there?" a sweet voice says from behind. the girl doesn't turn around. she just keeps looking over the edge. the owner of the voice stands beside her and leans over the edge too. the girl sighs and glances over to see who is bothering her. she sees a woman perhaps in her 30s, a large bear in a flower print dress. "um, maybe ur clothes?" the woman asks

"no.. i'm just watching the cars" the girl replies flatly

"oh, i see. did u need some help getting home? it's almost dark, i could walk with u"

"no, it's ok. i, um.. don't have a home"

"oh, honey, i'm so sorry to hear that.. well i don't want u to have to sleep out here in the open. why don't u spend the night at my house? i have an extra bedroom"

the girl sighs softly and looks down at the ground. "do i have to suck someone's dick for this?"

the woman chuckles nervously, the unexpected question causing her to stammer, "h-honey, i would never make u do that or anything u don't want to do"

"ok.." the girl replies with no indication of either incredulity or relief in her voice. she's perhaps too dissociated to even be sure this is real

the two walk until they reach the woman's home. they walk thru the front door right as the sun sets

"would u like some dinner? u seem hungry" the bear asks, taking a look at the girl's tired face. the girl doesn't look back, but nods slowly. the bear reheats two slices of pot pie from the fridge and the two sit down together to eat

"hmm.. it's yummy.." the girl says after a few bites. "..thank u" her tone is still mostly flat, but it's clear from her face that she's happy to have food in her belly after not eating since yesterday

the bear smiles at the girl. the two finish their dinner and the bear collects the plates

"by the way, if u want to take a bath or a shower, ur welcome to. i, um, don't have any clothes u can change into, but i might be able to borrow some from the neighbors, would that be alright?"

the girl makes eye contact with the bear for the first time. she's happy about the idea of getting to take a bath. she hasn't been able to take an actual bath in a bathtub since she lived with her real mother years ago. "oh.. alright"

"um.." the bear shuffles a little bit. "i hope it doesn't make u feel bad that it's not obvious to me, but i wanna make sure i get u clothes u like. are u a boy or a girl?"

"umm.." the girl silently stares at the bear for a moment. she's actually quite happy to hear the question. this is the first person she's ever met that didn't already have it in their head that she was a boy. "i'm a girl"

"ok! why don't u go wash up, and by the time ur done i should have some clothes for u. bathroom's right over there" she points to a door

the girl goes into the bathroom, takes off her boxers, fills the tub, and sinks into the hot water. she sighs wearily and closes her eyes

it's just now occurring to her that this is actually happening, that this is actually real life, the same life that she thought was over just 24 hours ago, the same life that she was going to end at the highway overpass. was it? maybe she actually did die and this was the new life she had woken up into. either way, even if this turns out not to be real, she's happy she's getting to have a bath at least

maybe thirty minutes pass. after washing her hair and her body, she hops out the tub and dries off. she steps out of the bathroom and is greeted by the bear who is sipping some tea. "the neighbor brought some clothes by, they're laying on the bed in ur bedroom" she points to a door

the girl walks into her bedroom to see a few outfits ranging in style from cutesy pink and purple, to goth or punk black and white and red, as well as some bras and underwear. she's very excited to see these choices in front of her. she never got to have anything like this living with her parents. she opts to just put on some panties and a camisole for bed and save a proper outfit for the morning

she walks back out of her bedroom. the bear is still sipping tea at the table. the bear smiles at the girl, admiring how cute she looks. the girl offers a smile back. this is the first time the bear has seen her smile

"um.. thank u.." the girl looks away shyly "..for being nice to me. u don't even know me, but still ur being nice to me"

"aww sweetheart, i'm glad i can offer u some kindness. i can tell u really need it. u seem u have been having a pretty rough time"

the two look at each other in silence for just a moment

"would u like to sit and chat a bit? i would love to get to know u a bit"

"ok.." the girl pulls a chair out and sits at the table

"would u like some tea?"

the girl nods. the bear gets up to pour some water and steep the tea

"what's ur name anyway?" the bear inquires while preparing the cup

"asscastle" the girl states flatly

the bear takes note of the unusual name, but just smiles warmly and doesn't comment on it. "nice to meet u asscastle. i'm miriam. miriam pannenkoek" she sets the tea down in front of asscastle

"oh.. nice to meet u miriam"

"how old are u sweetheart?"

"i'm thirteen"

"thirteen, gosh.." the bear contemplates what kind of situation would lead to a thirteen year old being homeless. "u said u didn't have a home to return to. why's that?"

"my stepmom caught me looking at gay stuff and she said she doesn't want a fag living under her roof and told me i had to leave by morning"

"oh my god, that's so awful, i can't believe ur parents would do that to u.. i'm so sorry sweetheart"

"um, u don't care that i'm gay right?"

"not at all! um, i mean, i'm gay too" miriam blushes

"oh.." asscastle blushes too and looks down at the tea in front of her. she smiles shyly. "um, that's really cool"

miriam smiles shyly as well, looks down, and takes a sip of her tea

asscastle looks up at the bear. "does that mean u only like girls?"

miriam chuckles in the middle of taking a sip. she puts the cup back down. "um, actually i like everyone. girls, boys, and all the rest"

"that's cool.."

"what about u? do u only like girls?"

"um, i mean, i dunno. i'm pretty gay i think. i think i mostly just like boys. i mean, i guess i just like dicks a lot"

miriam tilts her head slightly and looks at the girl inquisitively. she can tell she's missing something

"oh, umm.. i forgot to mention, i'm actually a boy. i mean like, i have a dick. i just really wish i was a girl"

"oh, ur trans!" the bear is excited to hear this. "i had no idea honestly. u make a very cute girl"

asscastle blushes. "thanks.. um, that's ok too right? that i'm trans?"

"yeah! i mean.. yeah.." miriam smiles shyly and blushes. "i'm trans too" she states quietly, as if to make sure no one else but asscastle could hear

"w-wow.." asscastle's eyes get wide. "um, like u have a dick too?"

"yeah.." the bear realizes she's talking openly about her genitals with a thirteen year old. she savors the feeling

"that's so cool" she's thinking about miriam's dick, and about sucking miriam's dick. she thinks if she was going to suck anyone's dick, she would like it to be a cool older trans woman who is nice to her. this is kinda gay, she thinks, and she feels good about that

the two sit in quiet for some time, looking away from each other and awkwardly sipping their tea

"umm.. i have a question tho" asscastle breaks the silence. "i dunno if it's ok to ask about.."

"oh! yeah, please feel free to ask"

"umm.. u have a dick, but u also have boobs. i thought only girls can have boobs, like.. actual girls"

miriam is not phased by the "actual girls" comment. she can tell asscastle is newly exploring her transness and has a lot to learn. "oh, well, i take estrogen. it causes ur breasts to grow, as well as a bunch of other changes all over ur body"

"wow, that's so cool. i didn't know that" asscastle ponders for a moment, thinking about what it would be like if she had breasts. "one day i wanna do that i think. tho i also kinda like the idea of being flat like a little girl"

miriam chuckles quietly at this and smiles. she feels it's quite naughty for her to be hearing thoughts like that coming from a thirteen year old. she enjoys this little privilege privately. "that's the cool thing about being trans, u can do whatever u like with ur body! it's all up to u"

asscastle smiles. then she yawns. she's getting sleepy

"are u thinking it's just about bedtime?"

asscastle nods. "yeah, um.. i'm glad i met u. i never thought i would meet another gay person or trans person. and.."

asscastle looks away and swallows. she can feel herself getting a little choked up at what she's saying, but years of being punished by her parents and peers for crying have made it hard for her to. she clears her throat

"i'm happy u found me out there on the bridge, before, um.. i'm happy u found me"

miriam looks sweetly at the little girl. "i'm so happy for that too. ur a sweetheart, and u've been thru so much. i'm happy i can show u some kindness"

she stands up from the table. asscastle stands up too. miriam walks over to her. "can i give u a hug goodnight?"

asscastle looks up at the bear. "oh, uh.. no one's ever asked me that before. yeah, sure"

miriam gets down on her knees and hugs the little girl tight. asscastle rests her head on the bear's shoulder, closes her eyes, and smiles. this is the first time she's been hugged by anyone in years

the two embrace for a while before miriam breaks the hug. she looks asscastle in the eyes and smiles warmly. "i hope u sleep well sweetheart. i want u to know, u have a home here, always"

asscastle smiles awkwardly. she doesn't quite know what to say. she's a little flustered from the affection. "thank u.. i hope u sleep well too"

asscastle walks into her bedroom and hops into bed. she lays there thinking about the day and once again realizes that she is actually living in reality and that this is real life. she thinks about how lucky she is to have been found just before she jumped, and just how lucky she is to have been found by someone as cool and nice as miriam

she closes her eyes and hugs a pillow. she pretends she's hugging miriam. she wishes she could be sleeping with her. soon she drifts into sleep

but asscastle's sleep is disturbed by nightmares of the night before, of being verbally abused and kicked out by her stepmom, of being molested by that guy who said he was a ghost, and the other weirdos she met. was that just a dream? did that actually happen? she awakes in a panic to find that she's wet the bed 

"oh no.. no no no.." she's afraid of how miriam might react, whether she'll be mad and tell her to leave. she's worried she might have ruined the only good thing that's ever happened to her

after sitting on the wet sheets for some time, she works up the courage to go to miriam's room and tell her about what happened

"um.. ms. miriam.."

the bear stirs and sits up to look at the figure standing in her doorway. "hmm? asscastle? what is it sweetheart?" she turns on her bedside lamp

"umm.. i'm really, really sorry.." she shuffles for a moment and takes a deep breath. "i peed the bed. i'm really sorry.."

"aww, sweetheart, it's alright. i'll take care of the bedding in the morning" she notices asscastle's wet panties. "why don't we get u changed?"

asscastle nods. she's still too embarrassed to look her friend in the eye 

"is this something that happens a lot?"

"umm, it happens sometimes when i have bad dreams. my stepmom used to get really mad at me. i just stopped telling her when it happened"

"aww, sweetie. well, i promise i will never yell at u like that, especially for something that u can't control" the bear reassures. asscastle nods, and looks up to meet her eyes

"umm, if u want.." miriam suddenly feels a little shy bringing this up, "i have some diapers that are ur size. obviously if it's too embarrassing, u don't have to.."

asscastle's eyes widen, she feels a flutter in her stomach. diapers have been an interest of hers that she's kept a secret from everyone for years, and the idea of getting to wear them again has been a long time dream that she never thought she would get to live. she feels herself starting to get a little hard at the thought

"umm, y-yeah.. ok.." she's trying not to convey her excitement, but her breathing is shallow and her heart is thumping

miriam, quite observant of others' emotional states, picks up on this but doesn't say anything. she's excited that her little friend is excited. "come over here and get on the bed, i'll help put it on u if u'd like"

asscastle walks over to the bed and hops on. she's just barely imperceptibly quivering. she watches as the bear rummages thru a drawer and pulls out a folded diaper and some wipes and baby powder 

"um, the only ones i have in ur size are these ones with cute pink bunnies on them. i hope that's ok"

"y-yeah.. a-actually that's.. really cute" her excitement is now obvious and she knows it. she's embarrassed and hopes miriam can't tell that it's cuz she's turned on

"oh shit" asscastle thinks to herself. she realizes that she's at half mast inside her wet panties and miriam is going to see that when she changes her. she wonders if she should just put them on by herself

it's too late tho. miriam is already standing right in front of her. "here, let's take these wet panties off" miriam can obviously see that the little girl is erect thru her underwear

she sets the diaper stuff on the bed and reaches down to pull off asscastle's panties. "umm, is it ok if i do it for u?" she hopes the answer will be yes

"uhmhm.. y-yeah" she's fully erect now, and blushing both from the excitement and the embarrassment. she places her hand over the top of her muzzle and looks away

miriam pulls the wet panties over her erection and down her legs carefully and as if nothing is amiss. she's also excited by this and can feel herself getting just slightly hard beneath her nightgown. she discards the panties to the laundry basket

"why don't u lay down now, i'll clean u off" asscastle does so, and miriam grabs a wet wipe and very gently wipes around her thighs and the sides of her hips. asscastle whimpers slightly at the cold sensation of the wipe touching her skin

"is it ok if i wipe ur privates?" miriam's erection is poking out of her sheath now, tho her gown obscures this. asscastle whimpers and nods as the bear wipes the crevice between her balls and her legs as well as her shaft. the touch causes her to throb just a bit. she loves the feeling but is also deeply embarrassed by the whole thing, despite miriam not showing any signs of judgement 

miriam moves her paw down between asscastle's legs and wipes her butt and the base of her tail. the feeling of having her butt wiped is extra special to asscastle, a feeling she has not felt since she was very little. it causes her to gasp quietly

"there sweetheart, all clean. i'll put the diaper on u next" she unfolds the diaper. "here, turn to ur side so i can get the tail loop" asscastle does so, and the bear wraps the back loop of the diaper around the base of her thick tail and fixes the tape. "there, now u can lay on ur back again. oh would u like some baby powder?"

"mmph, y-yeah" asscastle holds her quivering hand to her mouth. this whole experience is making her feel really little 

miriam sprinkles baby powder all over her privates and bottom, and on the padding of the diaper. "umm, i'm gonna spread it around a bit if that's ok" asscastle nods. the smell of the baby powder is intoxicating to her and reminds her of her early childhood

miriam gently runs her paw all around where she sprinkled the powder, patting it and spreading it into all the little crevices. asscastle's penis throbs a bit at the intimate touch and she whines softly. miriam is blushing as well. she knows it's just part of the process of putting on a diaper, but she's still getting to touch a thirteen-year-old's intimate parts, and that makes her heart flutter

the bear folds the front flap of the diaper up over asscastle's groin, fastens the tapes to the front, and tucks in the padding around her legs. "there u go sweetie, all done!!"

asscastle lets out a small sigh. she's still in a bit of a daze and is hard under her diaper. "th-thank u" she sits up in bed. she suddenly remembers why she was getting a diaper put on her in the first place. "oh, um.. where can i sleep? the other bed is, um.."

"well, there's a couch" miriam replies, "but um.. u can sleep with me if u'd like" she hopes the girl will say yes, and asscastle had hoped she would offer

"y-yeah.." asscastle feels a feeling of warmth flood over her body and her chest feels fluttery. "i would really like that"

miriam climbs into the other side of the bed and pulls the covers over her. asscastle follows suit and gets under the covers too. she still can't believe this is all happening. she can feel she's on the verge of something, some kind of breakthru, but she can't pinpoint exactly what it is

"oh, um, hehe, i just remembered.." miriam pulls open a bedside drawer and pulls out something small. she offers it to asscastle, hoping she won't be offended. it's a cute pink pacifier. "only if u want it of course"

the little girl says nothing but reaches out and grabs the pacifier. she puts it in her mouth and begins sucking on it. this is the final push she needed. she feels a sensation flow over her. she's three years old again. the last ten years of harsh lessons, abuse, pain, and loss wash away like they're nothing. she feels so small now, almost like she's physically shrinking. the big bear next to her feels so much bigger than her, and she radiates an aura of warmth and safety

a wall inside of her that has been there for years suddenly vanishes. the thoughts and feelings that she has been hiding from are no longer sealed off, but right now she is not afraid of them. hot tears begin to well up in the little girl's eyes. she can't hold them back anymore. she begins sobbing

miriam reaches her arms around asscastle and hugs her against her chest. asscastle squeezes her back and buries her face in the bear's fluffy chest. she bawls in miriam's embrace, the sound of her cries muffled by fur

"aww, there there little one, let it all out.. everything is gonna be ok" miriam softly whispers little words of reassurance into the little girl's ear

miriam slowly sinks down into a laying position under the covers, holding asscastle tight in her arms. the two lay locked in each other's embrace for almost twenty minutes before miriam reaches over to turn off the lamp. asscastle's sobbing has turned into small whimpers at this point, and soon the two fall quietly asleep in each other's arms

the night passes and the two don't break their embrace. asscastle has what might be the first complete and restful sleep she's had in almost ten years. no weird dreams or nightmares or sleeptalking or half-waking events. just an uninterrupted period of deep sleep

she awakens before miriam, the pacifier still in her mouth and her face buried in the bear's warm bosom. her head is resting on her big soft bear arm. the sun is visible thru the curtains and fills the room with a soft and gentle light

this moment feels like a little bit of heaven. it almost does feel like she has died and been reborn. last night was the first time she's cried in more years than she can remember, and it feels like all the tears took all the bad feelings she's been carrying since then with them

she still feels a little bit like she's three years old again, especially nestled here in the arms of.. her mother? not quite, but there's a motherly quality to miriam that was never present in asscastle's own mom, and especially not her stepmom. miriam feels safe to her in a way no one else ever has. she feels like she will protect her from all the things that had ever hurt her before

asscastle closes her eyes and nestles her face into miriam's chest. she takes a deep breath and sighs. miriam smells nice. it's hard to describe exactly how. maybe a bit like flowers?

miriam stirs a bit. she hugs asscastle tighter and nuzzles the little girl on top of her head between her big ears. this gives asscastle a pleasant shiver and a feeling of warmth. she lets out a soft sigh

soon the two wake up and get out of bed together. they head into the kitchen so miriam can cook them breakfast. asscastle is still wearing her diaper, but placed her pacifier on the nightstand. miriam is still in her nightgown. the two don't say much, but keep glancing at each other and smiling when their eyes meet

miriam cooks them some bacon, eggs, and toast while the coffee finishes making. they sit at the corner of the table eating from the same plate, exchanging smiles. asscastle has never experienced anything like this with anyone, parental figure or otherwise. this moment feels very nice, and most importantly, in contrast to almost every other moment of her life, this moment doesn't feel lonely 

miriam gets up to pour herself some coffee and put away the dishes. she sits back down at the table with asscastle, who is dangling her legs from the chair and swinging them back and forth in an alternating manner. asscastle is looking at her as if she wants to say something. miriam glances back at her with her cup up to her lips, her smile perceptible from behind the mug 

"um, miriam, how old are u?"

miriam takes a sip of her coffee. "i'm 33"

"do u have any kids?"

"well, in a sense, i've had many. i'm a third grade teacher" she smiles, "but no, i don't have any kids of my own"

asscastle nods. she almost wants to ask, "can i be ur kid?" but stops herself

"i babysit kids a lot, especially when school's out. parents come to me when they need to get away from their kids" she scratches her chin, "and kids come to me when they need to get away from their parents"

"i think if i knew u before i got kicked out, i would have come to u a lot"

"i wish i had known u! i'm sorry it took something really awful happening to u for us to meet"

"i'm happy we did meet tho.." asscastle doesn't quite know how to put her feelings into more words than that, or exactly what her feelings even are

"me too, sweetheart" miriam smiles

the two sit in silence for a while as miriam finishes her coffee. asscastle is still alternating between looking out the window and looking at her

miriam looks down at asscastle's diaper. "by the way, how's ur diaper? still doing ok? do u need a change?"

asscastle blushes a bit. she does want miriam to change her at some point, just for the sake of the intimacy. "umm, i'm still dry. maybe in a little bit.." she twiddles her fingers. "i, um, really like wearing a diaper. i feel like i'm little again"

miriam smiles sweetly. she's savoring the realization that she's helping a young trans girl discover age regression. it's not the first time she's been party to that

"mhm, is that why u were crying last night?" miriam asks

"yeah.. i mean i was crying for a bunch of reasons. i've never been able to cry, not since i was really little. people were always extra mean to me when i cried, so eventually i didn't cry anymore, i just turned off my feelings when i felt bad"

"what were some of the reasons u were crying?"

"well, at first it just started happening on its own, like something inside of me had been waiting to cry for years and years and it just all came out. then i was crying cuz i realized how fucked up it was that my parents kicked me onto the street for being gay. then i was crying cuz i got raped by like three different people"

"oh.."

"oh yeah, i didn't mention that yet huh.. um, i guess i didn't even realize that's what it was until i thought about it last night"

"sweetheart, i'm so sorry.. would it help at all to talk about it?"

"well, it happened the night when my stepmom called me a fag and told me i had to be gone by morning. i didn't have anywhere to go, so i decided my only option was to kill myself. so i took all the drugs i had stashed away, which was six benadryls, like fifteen robotabs, a couple of grams of shrooms, four oxys.."

"oh my god, sweetheart.."

"i knew it probably wasn't enough to kill me.. probably. but it was everything i had and i figured it would get me fucked up enough that i could go out and get hit by a train or something and not even care"

"i'm really glad u didn't.."

"yeah, me too.." asscastle glances up at her friend and smiles sweetly before continuing her story. "i kinda just laid in bed waiting for it all to kick in. but it just made me really sleepy. i ended up falling asleep and felt like i was having a really weird and vivid dream. it felt a little bit like the real world, but everything was flashing weird colors and none of the geometry made sense"

asscastle sighs and pauses for a moment to take a deep breath. the expression on her face changes to a mix of worry and embarrassment

"later i realized i wasn't actually dreaming, and that everything that happened that night actually happened, but while it was happening i thought it was a dream. for the first half an hour or so, i was like totally detached from reality. i was basically dreaming and sleepwalking outside.." she winces. "oh yeah, i was also naked the whole time except for my pink boxers. u saw how i was when u found me"

miriam nods. she reflects the expression of pained embarrassment on the little girl's face

"anyway, while i was detached from reality and dreaming, i relived the experience of getting caught by my stepmom and screamed at, except i was acting it out like i was recapping a thing that happened years ago to an audience of my close friends. my stepmom was like a three headed monster in my memory, which was actually pretty funny

during all this i was thinking about how ridiculous this whole situation is, but then also felt really sad cuz i remembered i was literally going to die. so i laid back down in bed to sleep, but it wasn't really my bed, and i wasn't really in my room. it didn't make sense cuz i don't remember going anywhere. i still have no idea where i was or how far i walked. i kind of don't want to know"

asscastle glances out the window. she realizes she doesn't know where she is now either, aside from that she is safe in miriam's house. wherever she is, she hopes it's far away from her parents

"at this point i was starting to become more attached to reality, tho i was still definitely tripping balls. there were parts that were pretty clearly hallucinations mixed in with reality, usually whenever i felt embarrassed or uncomfortable. it's almost like my mind was making things up to make the situation more bearable. but the places i went and the people i met were definitely real

anyway, i woke up to this guy crouching over me and talking to me. for some reason i immediately assumed he was a ghost, or maybe he told me he was. he made me suck his dick and jerk him off. it felt really awkward and bad, but i thought it was a dream, so like whatever. then he said we were going on an adventure and brought me into the woods and jerked me off, which felt kinda nice, but also weird cuz i didn't really want it and i was scared of the woods. then we left the woods and saw a cop car that i thought was a monster. i got really scared. the guy told me to hide, then he ran off

the car eventually left, so i walked around trying to find the guy. but instead i ran into the cop and he told me he was going to take me to jail. he locked me in the back of his car, which i thought was jail, for maybe like half an hour, but it seemed like literally days. and then before he let me go, he also made me suck his dick. honestly i don't know why people keep wanting me to suck their dick, i'm actually really bad at it and i kinda don't like it"

asscastle sticks her tongue out and makes a disgusted expression. she just internalized that she was forced to give a cop a blowjob

"um, anyway, the cop told me to go wait in a nearby building, which i later realized was a motel lobby. the guy at the desk was nice at first. he was trying to show me something cool on his computer. but then he pulled down his pants and told me i had to put my dick in his butt, which my hallucinating brain convinced me was his computer or had something to do with his computer. he made it seem really important, and was telling me to thrust in and out and telling me to go faster. at this point i still thought it was a dream, so i just went with it. i think i actually came tho.."

the girl has a mixed and somewhat confused expression on her face as she recounts this experience

"uhh, soon after that, someone else showed up and told me to come with him. he brought me to one of the motel rooms where the guy from earlier was staying. this is when i was starting to come down i think, cuz i kind of remember the room actually made sense and was pretty clearly a motel room. the guy was annoyed to see me and was saying some weird shit about like stealing my identity and taking my place in the world or something, then told me to suck his dick again if i wanted him to not do that. so i did, and then he told me i was going home

i think hearing that kinda snapped me out of it, cuz that's about when all the colors started going back to normal and i realized this was all actually happening and wasn't just a really weird dream. for some reason i wasn't that shocked, i just kinda felt bad cuz i remembered i was homeless and was going to have to kill myself

the guy left pretty soon after. no joke, he actually climbed out the window. i know for sure i did not hallucinate that. that guy was so fucking weird. he left a pack of cigarettes tho, so i stayed in the room and smoked a few, then fell asleep for a few hours before someone woke me up and kicked me out

after that it was late in the afternoon and i was really tired and feeling like shit. i walked down the road for a bit and i found a bridge that i decided i was going to jump off of later. i tried to sleep but couldn't really, so i sat there and smoked while throwing rocks off the overpass for a few hours. i was gonna jump once the sun set, until.."

asscastle's facial expression warms up as she returns to present reality. she looks up at miriam sheepishly. "..u found me"

miriam has been listening very closely to the girl's story. she has tears in her eyes and a look of sadness and pity on her face. she's heartbroken that this poor sweet girl was taken advantage of by multiple people while she was in a vulnerable state on a bunch of drugs and clearly in need of help. none of them even tried to help her. none of them cared to figure out what was going on with her. she's heartbroken, but not surprised

"honey, oh sweetie.. i'm so sorry that u were taken advantage of by these people, these adults who should have known something was wrong and been there to take care of u.."

"honestly, ur the only adult that has ever taken care of me" asscastle looks down at the floor

miriam quietly gets down on her knees beside the girl and wraps both arms around her. "i'm not gonna let anyone hurt u like that anymore"

asscastle closes her eyes and rests her head on miriam's shoulder. she feels warm and safe in the bear's embrace

"so that's what i was crying about last night, but that's not all of it.."

miriam opens her eyes, preparing to hear another sad story, but she does not let go of her embrace 

"after that, i was crying cuz i was so happy. ever since i came home with u, u have been so nice to me. no one has ever been so nice to me or made me feel so safe. and then even when i wet the bed, u were so gentle and understanding. and then, um, i got to feel so small, for the first time.. in forever.."

asscastle's eyes start to well up with tears. miriam's do as well. she squeezes her eyes shut and tears roll down her face. they both hug each other tight. miriam rocks the girl gently from side to side in her embrace

"bwuh.." asscastle tries to reach for words to say, but nothing else comes out. she just shuts her eyes and sniffles. she feels like a child again safe in her mother's embrace. she doesn't even notice that she's wetting her diaper

miriam does notice, as the front of asscastle's diaper is pressed against her chest. she can feel the familiar warmth and recognizes the familiar muffled tinkling sound. this puts a small smile on her face amidst the tears

without a word, miriam lifts the girl up out of the chair. asscastle's arms are still wrapped around her neck. she brings asscastle to the bed they both shared last night and sits against the headboard. she cradles the small girl in her lap, gently stroking the side of her face with her big paw

asscastle sucks her thumb, still blissfully lost in littlespace. her mind is quiet in this calm state, but she can feel waves of warmth emanating from her chest and flowing thru her body. some part of her has needed this for a very long time

miriam too feels a warm glow in her chest. giving love to this little one who has so desperately needed it fills her with warmth. her heart flutters, and is pushing her to say something. her mind is conflicted, she doesn't know whether it's too early. but her heart knows it's right, and that it's something asscastle needs to hear

"i love u sweetheart"

the little girl stirs a bit and murmurs softly. she pulls her thumb from her mouth. "i love u too mom" she says in a babyish voice and smiles

the word "mom" makes miriam's heart skip a beat. it makes her melt. she smiles a melty smile and looks sweetly at the little thing in her lap. "hehe.. mom?"

asscastle giggles softly. "i hope that's ok.. u feel a little like a mom to me, with the way u take care of me, with how kind u are to me. even tho we barely know each other, u are more of a mom to me than any of the other moms in my life ever were" she's still speaking in her babyish voice

"oh sweetheart.. even tho we barely know each other, i care about u so much. u feel like a daughter to me"

"buh.." asscastle's eyes well up with tears. the word "daughter" has a similar effect on her as the word "mom" did on miriam. "ur the first person that has ever called me that. i never even thought i would hear that, but it feels so good to be called that"

"i'm so happy for that, sweetheart.. my sweet little girl" miriam coos. asscastle giggles cutely and wriggles in the bear's lap. she nuzzles her face against miriam's belly

both of them are feeling a lot of love for each other in the moment. both of them are getting erect, but neither really takes notice of each other's erection, nor really their own. they're both lost in the moment and in their feelings for each other 

asscastle sits up and repositions in miriam's lap in order to give her a big hug. she wraps her arms and legs around the bear and buries her muzzle in her chest fur. miriam in turns wraps her arms around the girl and squeezes her tight, resting her muzzle atop the little girl's head. both of their erections are pressed together, but neither of them show any outward indication of being aware of that

the two hug like that for a few moments before asscastle slumps down to the bed and lays her head in miriam's lap. she rests her arm on miriam's leg, her hand right amidst miriam's crotch. this position now brings miriam's attention to her own erection, and she blushes a little, not sure of how asscastle would react if she notices, and not aware of asscastle's own arousal

asscastle on the other hand has been aware of miriam's arousal for some time. she moved into this position intentionally. she can smell miriam's crotch thru her gown. her nose is inches away. she takes a couple deep breaths. her heart is beating rapidly. without saying anything, she gently presses her nose against miriam's penis thru her nightgown and nuzzles it

this makes miriam gasp. she wasn't expecting it, and, for asscastle's sake, doesn't know if she should allow herself to indulge in it, even tho she wants to. but she realizes asscastle must be doing it intentionally. she decides to see where the little girl takes this

asscastle giggles a little. she's blushing. "um, mom.." she touches the back of her hand against miriam's penis as well and sighs shakily. she's clearly a little nervous, but also really wants this. "am i making u kinda horny?"

"mrph.." miriam blushes a deep red and looks to the side. she's a little embarrassed, still not totally sure what asscastle thinks about this, or if she should be allowing this to progress. she hopes asscastle feels positively about all this. she can't tell that asscastle is throbbing erect inside of her wet diaper. "i'm just a little excited, i hope that's ok"

asscastle giggles sweetly. "hehe yeah.. um, i'm horny too" she reaches into her diaper and touches herself. "i, um, really like when u hug me and hold me.. and i like the way u smell"

miriam smiles a melty smile. her heart is pounding. "oh sweetheart.. um, i'm.."

"can i suck ur dick?" asscastle interrupts before miriam can say anymore. she bites her lip nervously 

"oh sweetie.. are u sure that's something u want urself? i just want to make sure it's what u want, especially after.."

"ur the first person i've ever been with whose dick i actually want to suck. and, um.. i really, really want to" she looks up at miriam with loving eyes. she's also really, really nervous about this and hopes she's not taking things too far for miriam

miriam takes a deep breath and exhales shakily. she can detect asscastle's nervousness. she gives her a reassuring smile. "ok. now remember, if at any point u want to stop, it's ok to. or if i do anything that makes u uncomfortable, please let me know" she nervously lifts her gown to reveal her erection poking out from her sheath

asscastle smiles sweetly then looks down at the bear's penis. it's long and pink and somewhat slender, but still quite thick compared to her own. she strokes herself while taking in the sight. she holds it with her free hand and starts by licking it up and down, then puts the head into her mouth and licks

miriam moans softly at all the little sensations. she knows asscastle is too small to take the entire thing into her mouth, but finds all the little licks and mouthing sensations very cute. she reaches down to pet asscastle with one paw, and with the other paw strokes the girl's arm, following it down to her hand in her diaper. "is it ok if i..?"

"mhmm" asscastle replies with a full mouth. she takes her own hand out of her diaper to let miriam in. the bear's big paw slides in, and with her index finger and thumb she gently grabs asscastle's little penis. there is quite a bit of pre she can feel. she strokes up and down gently. asscastle whines and quivers at the touch

with both her hands free, asscastle is able to grab the bear's dick fully and stroke it up and down as she sucks. she tries to take the head as far into her mouth as she can, but isn't able to make it very far. still the sensation is very pleasant to the bear. asscastle bobs her head up and down in rhythm with her strokes

miriam's moans get louder. getting to fondle this little girl's dick in her diaper, while her own is sucked and played with so cutely, and feeling and hearing the little girl's reactions to her touches, is really turning miriam on. she is getting close

"ooh, sweetie, ur doing a really great job.. i'm gonna cum soon if u keep it up" miriam says cutely. her breathing is shallow

the words of approval make asscastle feel very nice, especially after the times she's been told she was bad at sucking dick. she picks up her pace. she knows what will happen next, but she's never tasted anybody's cum but her own. she's eager to see what it's like

miriam squeezes asscastle's little penis between her fingers, pinching and rolling her foreskin a bit. she can feel little dribbles of pre squeeze out every now and then 

"ouhh.. ur going to make me cum little one.." miriam shuts her eyes tight and her hips buck. her breathing is rapid and her face is flush. "sweetheart.. i'm cumming!"

multiple squirts of watery thin cum fill the little girl's mouth. the taste is slightly salty, and maybe just a little sweet. miriam moans loudly as she cums, whispering "oh fuck" between gasps. asscastle drinks it all down. her own breathing is rapid from the excitement of awaiting her prize, as well as from the physical activity of stroking and sucking. she pulls back after swallowing it all to catch her breath. she looks at her work, the tip of miriam's dick glistening wet and dribbling, and the whole thing still throbbing lightly 

"ohh fuck, that was so nice.." after finishing, miriam looks down at asscastle and sees the adorable look of accomplishment on her face. asscastle looks back up at her and smiles. the two smile lovingly at each other for a moment 

"u did a really great job sweetheart, that felt so good"

asscastle blushes and grins wide. "thank u, it was really nice for me too. i've never tasted someone else's cum before, urs tastes really good"

miriam blushes a little too at the compliment and at the realization of what she just did. this was essentially this little girl's first time, her first real time, and miriam got to be the one to experience that with her. such occasions are a really special treat, she feels

"oh, um, sweetie, i'm sure u know this, but u wet urself. do u want me to change u into a clean diaper?"

"yeah!!" she doesn't bother to mask her excitement this time

"hehe, ok" miriam gets up to get a fresh diaper and changing supplies. asscastle gets herself into position

miriam untapes her diaper. asscastle is still quite hard and there is a string of pre running from her tip to the wet diaper padding. "oh sweetheart, um.." she giggles

"oh, yeah.. i, um, really enjoyed that" the little girl replies sweetly

"would it be alright if i..?" she lowers her head closer to asscastle's crotch and looks up at the girl

asscastle nods. "m-mhm.."

miriam presses her wet nose against the girl's penis and sniffs. that sensation alone makes asscastle gasp and moan slightly. miriam sniffs around her crotch, taking in all the wet diaper smells. the scent is actually causing the bear to get aroused again

miriam suddenly climbs over asscastle so that her body is positioned entirely over the girl's and they are face to face. this move surprises asscastle. her eyes get wide as she awaits what will happen next

"can i kiss u?" the bear asks boldly

"y-y-yeah" asscastle replies with both excitement and shyness

miriam presses the tip of her muzzle against asscastle's. she gives her a few kisses on the lips, then sticks her tongue inside just a little. asscastle sticks her tongue out too. miriam thrusts her tongue inside, and the two deep kiss for a few moments. this causes the girl's penis to throb

miriam pulls away and looks down at asscastle. asscastle looks back up and smiles. "w-wow.."

without saying anything, miriam kisses asscastle's neck, again and again, slowly moving down to her chest. she pulls the camisole top the girl is wearing up over her head and off, exposing her bare chest. asscastle's heart is throbbing. miriam kisses down her chest, and gives kisses to each of her nipples as she goes. this makes asscastle moan loudly

miriam kisses her way down the girl's tummy, and finally arrives at her crotch. miriam gives her kisses all around her crotch and on her shaft and balls and even a few on her taint and butthole. all the little kisses make asscastle throb and moan even more

finally miriam takes the head of asscastle's penis into her mouth, bobbing up and down, at first just an inch, going slightly deeper with each bob, until she takes the whole little shaft in her mouth. she tongues the whole thing up and down while it's in her mouth, making asscastle gasp

then she reaches under asscastle's balls with her tongue and pulls those into her mouth too. she tongues all around and pushes the shaft against the roof of her mouth

"oh f-fuck" asscastle says softly. the sensation is intensely pleasant and unlike anything she's ever felt before

miriam reaches her tongue out again, asscastle's whole package still in her mouth, and this time touches it to asscastle's butthole, giving it a few wet slurps before pushing the tip just barely inside. asscastle whines with pleasure

miriam laps her tongue up asscastle's taint back into her mouth and continues to work on the little girl's shaft and balls, increasing her rhythm. she can tell the girl is getting close from her breathing and heartbeat and the amount of pre coming from her tip

indeed asscastle is close. "i-i'm gonna cum soon.. f-fuck.. it's so good.. fuuuck.." she moans loudly with each breath and her hips buck in time with miriam's motions. miriam takes the middle digit of her paw and presses just the tip of it into asscastle's butthole, pushing and wiggling the digit in rhythm with her sucking

"oh fuck!!" she wasn't expecting the sudden new sensation in her butt, but she loves it. "ohh, i'm gonna cum, fuck.." she covers her face with both of her hands and makes little whimpering sounds of increasing intensity. "i'm cumming!! i'm cumming!! fuck!!" she exclaims, and moans and whines loudly. the intense pleasure completely overtakes her

thick warm shots of white cum shoot forth and coat the bear's tongue. she savors and swallows every little drop. asscastle lays back and closes her eyes, hands still clasped over her face. she's breathing rapidly and has to catch her breath

miriam sucks out any last drops, discreetly licks her paw digit, then sits back up. she looks at the spent little creature catching her breath laying in front of her, then looks down at her little penis softening up. "good job sweetheart!" she giggles. she grabs a wet wipe and begins cleaning up around the little girl's crotch

the sudden cool sensation makes asscastle yelp and giggle. "i almost forgot u were changing my diaper"

miriam giggles back. "i almost did too" she finishes wiping, then swaps out the used diaper for a fresh one, sprinkles some powder, and tapes it up. "there u go, how's that?"

"mmph, that's nice.." asscastle says in a babyish voice

miriam gets back up on the bed and lays her head on the pillow. asscastle scoots up the bed and lays next to her, cuddling up and resting her head on her fluffy chest 

"was that nice for u?" miriam asks

"mhm.. was it nice for u?" asscastle asks in turn

"mhm, it was a lovely time sweetheart"

"i really liked it when u licked and fingered my butt, i really wanna do that again"

miriam giggles. "next time we can play around like that a little more"

"uhm, i wanna lick ur butt too.. and maybe put something inside"

miriam giggles some more and blushes. "we can do that too"

"i love u mom"

"i love u too sweetie. ur a wonderful daughter"

asscastle giggles and snuggles up. "i'm sleepy.."

"me too" miriam smiles. "let's take a little nap"

"ok" asscastle replies. she wiggles her feet a bit, clearly wanting something. "umm.."

"do u need this?" miriam grabs the pacifier and holds it to asscastle's lips

asscastle sighs cutely, "y-yeah.." she takes the pacifier into her mouth. miriam gives her nose a little kiss, and the girl giggles

miriam wraps her arms around the little girl. asscastle does the same. the two hold each other tight and drift to sleep in each other's arms

the end