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I tried to talk with my family but they seem to be tired of me. Even if is just talking about my day or asking about theirs. I feel like a stranger more than before. I’ve thinking of moving sooner than I planned but is best to keep the calm.
At this point, I barely got close friends, seems like most of them takes so seriously the fact of “being an adult sucks”, and some are just really negative or even treat me like a kid for being “too dreamy” or “carefree” when I prefer to talk about something else that is not work. A few friends still love having fun so, I don’t want to be the one being negative with all of this.
My ex (which is a long story, but we agreed to contact zero in march) did a scene with my friends at a party last week. This was too painful, stressful and kinda made me feel ashamed but I don’t care much that at all, is just that seeing him again and having his apologies next day felt like starting again from zero my healing process ❤️🩹 .
College stuff is getting heavy. I know I can do it but sometimes I reach my limit (like today). Everyone trust me so much, so it’s simply so much pressure.
I need a fucking break.
I hope I can make it to may or june.
This is kinda vent post but I needed too. Hope soon finishing furry stuff I and some suggestions you did in last journal, which I appreciate, just wait a lil’ ;w; .
Haha sorry for the long text. This was like a big life update no one asked haha.
Life is hard. But I won’t give up. And drawing (along other stuff) is still my safe place <3
Hope you all doing well and thanks for keep supporting my artwork <3 ",
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