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This is when I fucking SNAPPED on my ex-girlfriend. I have an inner muse named Murdoc, (Gorillaz, FTW!) and I just let 'em out with my Feral self.
Note: You don't EVER want my fursona's eyes to be red like this. Its a good sign that I've gone Beserker. xD
Well, for those of you who know me, I mean really know me, you know that I was currently in the middle of a very bad, and abusive relationship with my former girlfriend, Starrdust. Well, today she basically complained about everything from wanting ice cream to dinner. I told her to get it herself, but oh no, she couldn't be talked into going herself and getting food. What did I do? I walked and got it for her with
\n\t\t\t\t\tdarktabby on the phone. Bear in mind, it was 90 or so degree weather I was walking in, with a headache already looming in the back of my skull...In a word, I was teetering on the edge of Murdoc-muse popping out and creating havoc, so to speak. TN was able to calm me down, and boy, was I pissed. It takes a LOT to get me that worked up, but when I am...Alas, this didn't end with me getting her food. As soon as I was outside of the door from my walk, she text me and said "Do You still want me?"
From there, I gave in to my inner rage. This woman had me trapped for so long, raped me several times, (And yes, it was rape - Once from me being drunk *is stupid sometimes* and once in a "Open your legs or GTFO" with no where for me to go with below zero weather) constantly kept me on my toes about who I was talking to, absolutely could not make it without me laying in bed with her 24/7...you get the drift.
She then told me she wanted to break up. I said fine. I didn't care. She said "You obviousully love Rob more than me, c'uz you'd never do this to him."
I lept from my seat and screached "Don't you even FUCKING DARE compare yourself to him. *rips open door now, forcing her door open, glaring eye to eye with her, feeling Muds-muse hold back just slightly* He never raped me. He never made me leave someone I actually *loved* to be with him! He never made me put out or get out in the freezing cold! Your right, I never would do this to him because you're NOT him! He's never done half the shit you've put me through! Furthermore, you're fucking lucky to have a person like ME be your friend! Anyone else would have left you from the get go, the first break down, but I didn't!"
"WHY DON'T YOU GO THEN?!"
*muse breaks free now*
"BECAUSE I FUCKING CARED ABOUT YOU, YOU FUCKING DULLARD! YOU THINK I DIDN'T?! WHAT THE HELL? I've been there for you more than your so called friends have been! I sat there through the thicket of darkness with you, and you just act this way. You fucking cunt! I'm the best thing that ever WILL happen to you, because you're too fucking stupid to know a good thing when you got it! Fine, we're through, fuck off."
*storms back to room, slams door, breaths heavy and downs two painkillers, trying to calm down*
The buzz in the back of my skull is still there...Listining to Feel Good Inc has me in a slightly...intoxicated...mood. I'm tempted to hit the bottle tonight, just to get the rest I need.
Heh heh heh...fucking cunt was crying tonight...good. I want to hear her suffer. I want to hear her cry...I want to hear her die...painfully for the shit she's done. HAIL SATAN. Death is even too good for her...I just want her to suffer.
God, I need a fag...Its been forever since I had one...Bloody body isn't a smoker though...Probably best that way...I want a bass, I feel a spot of inspiration coming on...Satan...I'm glad I don't have to watch those fucking milk gobblers tomorrow.
So yeah. ._. She came |_| close to me pummeling her.\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t