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Summary: Donatello experiences something that leaves a lasting and perhaps debilitating impression on him. His brothers help him in the only way they know how.
Rated: NC-17 Contains turtlecest; tcest

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  ", "writing": "\tDonatello came back to consciousness slowly. There was a dull ache behind his eyes so he kept them closed as he waited for his head to clear.\n\n\tWhen it finally did, he remembered the sequence of events that led up to his being hit by a dart that knocked him out. Don immediately tried to lift his hand, but found that both arms were outstretched and restrained.\n\n\tPanic surged up his spine and he opened his eyes. Blackness met his vision and he realized his was blindfolded.\n\n\t[i]``It's a dream, it's just another dream,'' [/i]Don told himself. He tried moving his legs, but they were strapped down, his ankles secured and spread wide. From his position, Don could tell he was on some sort of table.\n\n\tEven as he tried to fight the rising alarm by telling himself he was dreaming, Don knew he was awake. None of what he felt had the qualities of one of his dreams; the straps on his wrists and ankles hurt, there was a dull throb in his head from the drug he'd been injected with, and he could feel the coolness in the air.\n\n\tHe needed to know what was happening but wasn't sure if he should let his captors know he was awake. Fear for his brothers made his decision for him and Don cleared his throat, hoping to get someone's attention.\n\n\t``Good, you're awake.''\n\n\t[i]Bishop[/i].\n\n\t``Where are my brothers?'' Don asked.\n\n\t``You shouldn't be concerned about them right now Donatello,'' Bishop said. It sounded as if he were coming closer. ``They are safe. For the moment.''\n\n\t``What do you mean `for the moment'? I want to know what you've done with my brothers!'' Don exclaimed.\n\n\t``I told you, they are safe,'' Bishop said, unperturbed by Don's tone. ``Whether or not they remain that way depends entirely upon you.''\n\n\tThose words had an ominous and all too familiar ring to them. Though Don was sure he wouldn't like the answer, he had to ask the question anyway. ``How does their fate depend on me?''\n\n\t``Because you have something I want,'' Bishop answered. ``Something I desire.''\n\n\tThere was a sudden lump in Don's throat and when he swallowed, he was fairly certain the sound was audible. ``You already have our DNA samples,'' he said. ``You know we aren't aliens and you know that not only are we no threat to the Earth, we've always done our best to protect it. Our goals are the same as yours.''\n\n\t``Not quite,'' Bishop said. From the sounds he was hearing, Don could tell that the man was circling the table. ``After all, there are only four of you. Four to fight however many hundreds of thousands of alien invaders? No. What I need is an army, one that isn't afraid to fight and won't run away when the odds are against them. What I need is thousands of [i]you[/i].''\n\n\tThe way he stressed that one word made Don test his straps again. They held tight.\n\n\t``You've already tried to create a new humanity, a new superior race,'' Don said. ``You used our DNA and that of Master Splinter to create your Slayer, and your creation went mad. Using us for that purpose doesn't work. You're intelligent enough to know that.''\n\n\tBishop chuckled. ``I'll admit I've had to rethink the Slayer concept. While the original design appealed to me for obvious reasons, I've realized that the one thing I can't manipulate is my soldiers' appearance. They don't have to fit in with the rest of the human race, not if they're capable of hiding in the shadows. Mutants such as yourselves will do nicely for my purpose.''\n\n\t``I don't know how you're going to manage that,'' Don said. ``The Utroms developed the ooze that transformed us and they're gone. You can't duplicate that ooze even if you extract our blood and attempt to separate the various components. By mutating us, the ooze itself mutated.''\n\n\t``You're approaching this from the viewpoint of a scientist,'' Bishop said. ``To achieve the answer to my dilemma, I had to go back to my roots. I was a man first and foremost. From an early age we know that there is one very basic way to replicate a sentient living organism.''\n\n\tDonatello refused to be baited into revealing that he understood where the conversation was headed. After all, his viewpoint might be tainted by the dreams he'd been having. If so, he wasn't going to be the one to put ideas into Bishop's head.\n\n\t``There are other ways to protect the Earth from invasion,'' Don said quickly. ``An early warning system, enhanced weaponry, a planetary defense grid, any number of deterrents that would prevent an invading force from ever entering our atmosphere. Having to put anyone in harm's way when that's not necessary isn't logical or moral.''\n\n\t``Morality doesn't interest me,'' Bishop said. ``The things you speak of assume that we have time to prepare for the inevitable. We don't. The crisis is already upon us.''\n\n\t``I would think that using the technology left behind by the Triceratons and the Federation would give you the advancements you need in order to develop a means to protect the Earth, one that doesn't involve genetic manipulation,'' Don said. ``Creating a superior race would take far more time than expanding those other avenues of defense.''\n\n\t``Trust me, my EPF is working on every means possible to keep this planet safe,'' Bishop said. ``You might say that you are my pet project. One that I find particularly enticing.''\n\n\tDon felt a gloved palm touch his leg, just above his knee. The hand slowly stroked upwards, sliding over to his inner thigh and stopping just short of his groin.\n\n\t``Stop that,'' Don demanded, striving to keep the distress from his voice. He shook his leg as much as the restraints allowed, trying to knock Bishop's hand off of him.\n\n\t``I do enjoy watching you struggle,'' Bishop said. ``It is useless of course, but your movements add a level of enjoyment to my plans.''\n\n\t``What plans?'' Don finally asked. He felt the tip of a finger brush the underside of his tail. ``What are you trying to do to us?''\n\n\t``Don't you mean `what are you planning to do to me'?'' Bishop countered. ``My interest in your brothers is purely scientific. You on the other hand appeal to me on an entirely different level.''\n\n\t``Why? I'm exactly like them,'' Don said, relieved when Bishop stopped touching him.\n\n\t``No, you are most certainly not like them,'' Bishop said. ``While you have the same genetic makeup as your brothers, you are a genius. You are fascinating in many ways, Donatello. While I hope to gain additional knowledge about what makes you tick, my attraction also leans towards something a tad more salacious.''\n\n\tDon couldn't take any more of the dancing around the subject. ``If you're planning to breed me, let me assure you that I'm a male.''\n\n\t``That fact only enhances my vision,'' Bishop said. ``I plan to use your sperm to inseminate a number of test subjects. From one of them I am sure to produce the perfect soldier. Those soldiers will be raised by me much as your rat master raised you. They will be completely devoted to me and to my cause, and they will have your intellect.''\n\n\tThis was too much like one of the dreams Don had experienced. ``The only problem with your plan is that I won't cooperate. You can't force an erection from me. If you cut me open to collect sperm, you might damage me in a way that makes me impotent. That destroys any chances to correct mistakes you make in your first insemination attempts. Besides, the fatal flaw in your idea is that you cannot crossbreed two different species.''\n\n\t``Such a brilliant and logical mind,'' Bishop said as he pressed a hand to Don's belly. ``My scientists have already overcome the difficulty of crossbreeding. I have no intention of cutting into you; that can be saved for your brothers. Hopefully though I won't need to destroy any of them because you [i]will [/i]cooperate.''\n\n\tThe threat was clear. Do as Bishop asked and his brothers' lives would be spared.\n\n\t``You needn't tie me to a table to get what you want,'' Don said, striving to remain calm. ``I'm perfectly capable of masturbating into a collection jar.''\n\n\t``If that were all I wanted, your assurances of cooperation would be perfectly acceptable,'' Bishop said as he began to rub small circles on Don's stomach.\n\n\tSince nothing was inhibiting Bishop's movements, Don guessed that he was no longer wearing his gear. Somehow knowing he was fully naked made his situation seem worse.\n\n\t``From the start you've never seen us as anything but freaks and mutations,'' Don said. ``You can't possibly view me in any other way. You've always been completely focused on your ultimate mission. What you're suggesting is a . . . a base need.''\n\n\t``Did you think that just because my physical body was altered by my alien captors that I would have lost my humanity?'' Bishop asked. ``Did you think that I couldn't feel desire as I did when I was completely human? I must admit that what I find alluring has changed, but I am still fully functional in that department. To put it simply; I intend to have my way with you. Often.''\n\n\tDon's blood turned to ice. He began to struggle against his restraints again, hoping to loosen even one of them.\n\n\t``That's insane,'' Don said. ``You're talking about rape in a totally matter-of-fact way. Please Bishop, stop and think about what you're planning to do.''\n\n\t``I have done nothing but think about it for an extended period of time,'' Bishop said. ``For months actually. I'll even wager that you've thought about it a time or two yourself.''\n\n\tThe way he said that made Don wonder if Bishop could possibly know about his dreams. That wasn't likely unless he . . . unless Bishop had somehow gotten into his head. Don's mind skittered away from that thought.\n\n\t``No,'' Don said aloud.\n\n\t``Yes,'' Bishop replied, a complacent ring in his voice. ``It's time. No more talking.''\n\n\tDon heard an object that sounded like a belt buckle hit the ground, followed by the thunk of a pair of shoes. Bishop seemed to be quite close, judging from the swishing sounds of clothing being removed.\n\n\tMouth dry and heart pounding, Don tried to think of something he could say to stop Bishop from raping him. Words flew through his head, but he couldn't catch them, couldn't string them together in a coherent form. The great intellect that Bishop bragged about finding attractive was being swallowed by growing dread.\n\n\tAs soon as Don felt the table shift with the weight of another body, his higher brain deserted him.\n\n\t``Don't touch me!'' Don shouted at the top of his lungs.\n\n\tHe began to thrash on the table, fighting the restraints that held his ankles, pulling against the bands the held his wrists down. Don jerked his entire body from side to side, shaking the table with his frantic movements.\n\n\tHis head slammed against the table as Don rocked back on his carapace. Sudden pain bloomed from the impact, making him feel dizzy, but that didn't slow his desperate battle to get free. The bindings on his wrists and ankles bit into his skin as Don struggled to loosen them.\n\n\t``Let him up!''\n\n\tThat voice! Don knew it. The familiar accents cut through his fog. Just like he'd imagined in his dreams, one brother was there to save him. The thought was immediately followed by dismay.\n\n\t``Mikey! Run! Get away!'' Don yelled.\n\n\tHe suddenly felt a warm hand on his face. ``You're okay, Donny. Stop fighting so we can get you off the table.''\n\n\tDon went limp. He hadn't heard a fight, but apparently his brothers had all managed to escape and come to his rescue.\n\n\tMikey removed his blindfold and Don blinked up at him, overcome with relief. ``Mikey,'' he whispered.\n\n\tHis brother leaned in to kiss his lips quickly. ``Don't move, `kay? We tied you kind of tight.''\n\n\tIt took a second for Don to process the `we'. Then he looked around and saw that he was in the garage.\n\n\tRaph and Leo were removing the bindings that held him down on one of his work tables. Both wore looks that were a mixture of guilt, apprehension, and sorrow.\n\n\t``We're sorry, Donny. This was a bad idea,'' Raph said.\n\n\t``This . . . what?'' Don asked in some confusion.\n\n\t``We thought you wanted this,'' Leo said. ``Your fantasy. We wanted to give it to you.''\n\n\tDon started to move and Mikey slid an arm under his neck to support him. Gripping Mikey's shoulder as a brace, Don slowly sat up.\n\n\t``Bishop?'' Don asked, his brow knitting as he looked around.\n\n\t``Not here, never was,'' Raph asked. ``Damn, I didn't expect that reaction or I wouldn't have done this to ya'. Just to be clear, Mikey was against it from the start.''\n\n\tDon glanced up at Mikey. ``Everything that happened . . . didn't?''\n\n\tMikey shook his head. ``I still get some of the blame if you wanna be upset with us. I didn't like the idea, but I went along with it.''\n\n\t``We insisted,'' Leo said. ``We were all getting our kicks from adding another level to our relationship, but it seemed like you weren't. Then that last time . . . you weren't satisfied with us. We had to find a way to make you happy.''\n\n\t``We thought if we played out your fantasy, you'd be excited by us again,'' Raph said, picking up the explanation. ``Maybe it would even make your dreams stop.''\n\n\t``Those dreams had nothing to do with how sexually satisfied I am,'' Don protested.\n\n\t``I told them that,'' Mikey said. ``You're happy with us and I know that. Please don't be mad at what we did, okay? We've all been worried about your dreams `cause they kinda seem to be getting worse and they're happening a lot more often.''\n\n\tDon looked down at the bruises on his wrists. The adrenaline was starting to leave his system and he felt shaky.\n\n\t``I'm not mad,'' Don said. It was true. He realized he should have felt a little angry or resentful at the deception, but he didn't. Maybe he would later. For now, he thought he understood why his brothers had pulled that trick on him.\n\n\t``Ya' scared the crap out of us when ya' started fighting so hard,'' Raph said. ``This idea about giving ya' your rape fantasy blew up in our faces.''\n\n\t``I've certainly learned that the real thing is nothing like a fantasy,'' Don said. He sighed deeply. \"I guess a fantasy is more arousing because you're still in control. It's kind of . . . [i]freeing[/i].''\n\n\t``Being tied up and forced is freeing?'' Raph asked. ``That makes zero sense, Donny.''\n\n\tLeo frowned. ``Do you feel some sort of shame or anxiety about engaging in sex with us? Do you fantasize about being forced to avoid feeling responsible for the sex we're having? I've worried lately that the reason you always bottom is because you can't get off unless you fantasize that we're raping you.''\n\n\t``I don't fantasize that at all!'' Don argued. When Mikey cleared his throat, Don amended his statement. ``Okay, I'll admit this last time with the three of you I did, but that's only because the dreams are messing with my head.''\n\n\t``Glad you're finally acknowledging that,'' Mikey said. ``I might not have wanted to use this tactic to get you to open up to us, but since it's a done deal, we should dig around and find out what else is in your noggin.''\n\n\t``Unlike you guys, what I fantasize doesn't mean that on some deeper subconscious level I want it to happen,'' Don said. ``To be honest, I don't know why rape even became a fantasy. I started having the dreams and they sort of carried over into my waking life.''\n\n\t``You had them before we became sexually active,'' Leo reminded him.\n\n\t``I had them when I started to feel attracted to you guys in that way,'' Don corrected.\n\n\t``Because you're ashamed of it,'' Raph said. ``That's what it is, despite what ya' say. Ya' don't really want to be doing this.''\n\n\t``That isn't true Raph,'' Don said, reaching a hand towards Raph and waiting until he finally took hold of it. ``I want nothing more than to be with you guys; I love being with the three of you. Maybe I just want to imagine what it feels like to totally surrender myself to someone.''\n\n\t``You don't have to imagine that, you can do it for real, with us,'' Mikey said. ``Go deeper Don. I love to fantasize too, but for something involving sex, my imaginary partner would have to be really hot. You dream about us . . . well, not me, but that's okay `cause at least we're attractive to you. But you're dreaming about Bishop too, and not just when you're asleep.''\n\n\t``I don't find Bishop attractive,'' Don said, finding it important to set his brothers straight on that point.\n\n\t``Ya' don't really want to be raped, ya' don't have a thing for Bishop, but ya' couldn't cum this last time until we held ya' down,'' Raph said. ``Except for ya', the rest of us are all playing out our own personal kinks. Don't ya' have some kind of, what's the word I'm looking for? Oh yeah, repressed desire.''\n\n\t``Bondage?'' Leo suggested, as he had once before.\n\n\t``That's your fantasy,'' Raph said, shooting a sharp glance in his older brother's direction. ``Biting and bondage. And marking us.''\n\n\t``It's no worse than your rough stuff,'' Leo shot back. ``It borders on sadism.''\n\n\t``Do either of you guys not like any of that?'' Mikey asked, his tone getting their attention. He waited for an answer and receiving none, continued. ``I haven't heard anyone complaining about the games I like to play with you. We need to agree right now that nobody should hide or feel ashamed of their personal fantasies. We need to agree that none of us will feel bad or be made to feel bad `cause we don't want to participate in a particular kink.''\n\n\tDon was only half listening to his brother's conversation. ``He wanted me,'' Don said, almost to himself.\n\n\tHis brothers stopped talking. Don could feel them staring at him, waiting for him to continue, but he was still trying to follow the trail of an old memory.\n\n\t``Who wanted ya'? Who are ya' talking about?'' Raph finally asked.\n\n\t``Wait,'' Don said. His eyes narrowed as he struggled to grasp what it was that eluded him. ``Repressed. You said I repressed my desires, but that's not it. I repressed a memory.''\n\n\t``A memory of what? What's going on in that head of . . . .?'' Raph began.\n\n\tIt was Mikey who stopped him from talking by showing his palm in a motion to halt. Raph scowled at him but kept his mouth shut.\n\n\t``Bishop. It was Bishop,'' Don said. ``Our first encounter with him.''\n\n\t``Geez Donny, that happened ages ago,'' Raph said. ``We were all right there together.''\n\n\t``Not at first,'' Don said. He released Raph's hand to grab onto the edges of the table, his knuckles turning white as the memory came flooding back.\n\n\t``He did something to you?'' Leo asked, his voice deepening and carrying with it an angry edge.\n\n\t``I was still a little out of it from the stun blast that hit us,'' Don said, his forehead furrowed as he concentrated on accessing the blocked memory. ``We were moving, being wheeled towards the big lab where we all wound up. Bishop came up alongside me and told the soldier who was pushing my table to stop and leave us for a minute.''\n\n\tWhen Don stopped, Mikey laid a reassuring hand on his shoulder. ``You're doing good, keep chasing the memory. You gotta get it all out.''\n\n\tNodding at Mikey's wisdom, Don continued. ``When we were alone Bishop leaned over me and whispered that I shouldn't worry, that he wasn't going to dissect me. He said he had other plans for me. While he was talking, he pressed his hand . . . he pressed his hand between my legs and stroked my tail and then he . . . .''\n\n\tHe stopped again, unsure about what he was remembering. Could it be a false memory, brought on by the dreams and stress?\n\n\tAs if reading his mind, Mikey said, ``You know by the way a memory feels if it's real or not, Donny. What else did Bishop do?''\n\n\tRealizing that Mikey was right, that the things he remembered were too vivid to have been imagined, Don said, ``He pressed his fingers against my entrance and pushed the tip of one partway inside of me.''\n\n\t``I'll kill him,'' Raph snarled, his hands closing into fists.\n\n\t``I didn't yell or anything,'' Don said. ``I guess I was too stunned that a human would do that.''\n\n\t``You were loopy from being knocked out,'' Leo said. ``That's probably why you didn't freak out when he touched you like that.''\n\n\t``And why it disappeared into your subconscious,'' Mikey said. ``You must not have been separated from us for long, `cause you were right there when they put us down facing each other in that big lab.''\n\n\t``I remember hearing Raph groan and Bishop glanced up before coming even closer. He told me he was going to . . . to make Leo and Raph watch as he used me. He said he was going to force Leo and Raph into fucking me and if they refused, he'd threaten to dissect Mikey.''\n\n\t``Whoa, no wonder you were having those screwed up dreams,'' Mikey said. ``I guess that's why I was never in them.''\n\n\t``And why ya' kept dreaming that Bishop was mind controlling me and Leo,'' Raph said.\n\n\t``At the time, I wasn't sure about any of it. I think I believed that Bishop was messing with my head, attempting to rattle me so that I wouldn't try to come up with a way out of our situation,'' Don said. ``Then he scanned me but turned around to menace Mikey. Why would he do that unless he was saving me for something else?''\n\n\t``But he couldn't threaten you with Mikey if he was planning on dissecting him right there in front of us,'' Leo said.\n\n\t``I guess that's partly why the memory got suppressed,'' Don said. ``I know I was too worried at the time about you guys and Professor Honeycutt to think much about my situation. After we got free and got to the Professor, his sacrifice pushed everything that happened to us to a place in my head that got locked up.''\n\n\t``I would have thought tapping a memory like that would have given ya' nightmares, not rape fantasies,'' Raph said.\n\n\t``I'm fairly certain that the fantasies were a coping mechanism,'' Don said. ``I mean, in a dream or a waking fantasy, I can take control. I suppose that's why just now when I thought that Bishop was going to rape me, I panicked. Plus . . . .''\n\n\tWhen he trailed off, Mikey gently tapped his thigh to get his attention. ``Plus what? Go on, we've got to be able to tell each other anything.''\n\n\t``Go ahead Donny, we won't judge you,'' Leo said.\n\n\t``Maybe part of my fantasy about Bishop was because despite how depraved his is, he wanted me,'' Don said in a small voice, unable to meet his brother's eyes. ``He made me feel like I was attractive to someone. I didn't think any of you guys returned the feelings I was starting to have towards you and that you never would.''\n\n\tMikey immediately wrapped his arms around Don. ``You are totally hot Donny! Of course he would think so, but we do too, and we've got first dibs.''\n\n\tDon had to chuckle. His younger brother had a gift for taking a ticklish subject and putting a humorous spin on it.\n\n\t``We can all understand those kinds of thoughts,'' Leo said. ``Get called a freak enough, even when you're saving someone, and it can have an effect on your concept of self-worth,'' Leo said.\n\n\t``I thought to myself that if Bishop really planned to do this to me, that if I acted as though I enjoyed it, he wouldn't hurt you guys,'' Don said. ``All of that flashed through my head in just a few minutes and then disappeared into the lock box in my brain.''\n\n\t``Well heck, no wonder you were having wet dreams,'' Mikey said.\n\n\t``Mikey was the one who set you free after Master Splinter, April, and Casey showed up to rescue us,'' Leo said. ``That explains why you sometimes had a sense in your dreams that he was going to be coming to your aid.''\n\n\tDon went quiet then, recalling the past events and seeing how they had played into the dreams he'd started to have.\n\n\t``What are you thinking about?'' Raph asked.\n\n\t``The timing,'' Don told him, looking around at his brothers. ``Desire for a relationship with you guys and then having that come true must be why I accessed a memory that was locked in the part of mind associated with sex. I'm glad that I know where those dreams were coming from now. Maybe I won't have them anymore.''\n\n\t``Ya' happy about that?'' Raph asked. ``Ya' sure did seem to enjoy them.''\n\n\t``I'll be happy if they're gone,'' Don said. ``I don't need them to help me come to terms with Bishop's abuse anymore. And just for the record, let me say again how much I love what the four of us have together. I couldn't be more satisfied.''\n\n\t``Except that you're still the only one without a fantasy,'' Leo said. ``Are you sure there isn't something that excites you a little more than anything else?''\n\n\tDon's mind flashed to the memory of watching Mikey service Raph, watching how Mikey had turned their brother into a writhing, moaning, helpless mass. With a smile, Don glanced up at Mikey.\n\n\t``What?'' Mikey asked.\n\n\t``You're the one who's helped me realize what my real fantasy is,'' Don said. ``I know why I prefer to submit too. I like to watch; I like to see your faces while you're taking pleasure from me. I like feeling that desired, but I also like watching you guys do each other. It turns me on.''\n\n\t``Donny likes a show!'' Mikey crooned.\n\n\t``That's an easy kink,'' Raph said, punching Leo playfully on the arm. ``I got no problem with letting ya' watch me fuck one of these two.''\n\n\t``Or having him watch you bottom,'' Leo said with a devilish grin.\n\n\t``Hey, how did you guys manage to sound like Bishop?'' Don asked, suddenly curious about their subterfuge.\n\n\t``Voice synthesizer,'' Leo said, pointing at the device which sat on a work bench. ``I remembered that you'd gotten one from April a while back and had programmed a number of voices into it. Including Bishop's.''\n\n\t``I completely forgot I had that,'' Don admitted.\n\n\t``I used a blow gun to deliver the tranq dart,'' Raph said. ``After I faked that call from Casey by setting my phone to ring at a certain time, me and Leo drove around the block and came back in by way of the sewers.''\n\n\t``While they were setting everything up, my job was to make sure you stayed on the roof,'' Mikey said. ``When you started calling for me, I turned out the lights.''\n\n\t``I'd already worked my way up to the roof opposite ours,'' Raph said. ``As soon as it looked like ya' were going in to investigate, I shot ya' with the dart.''\n\n\t``That's a lesson in being more aware of your surroundings,'' Leo chided.\n\n\t``You just had to say that,'' Don said, feeling embarrassed. ``The roof! We have to finish putting down tiles!''\n\n\tHe jumped down from the table and his head started to spin. Mikey reached out to steady him.\n\n\t``Slow down slick,'' Raph said. ``We finished the roof while ya' was taking your power nap.''\n\n\tDon's laugh was shaky and he knew his brothers heard it. To cover that up, he said, ``At least your trick got me out of some work.''\n\n\t``You need some sleep,'' Mikey said. ``The real kind, not the drugged kind. It's gonna hit you like a ton of bricks when you finally realize everything you've gone through, and it'd be best if you're taking it easy when that happens.''\n\n``You're always so in tune with our needs,'' Don said, gazing lovingly at his brother. ``It's almost like you can look inside of us.''\n\n“And you’re always so giving,” Mikey said in return. “Raphie here can be a brute, but he’d never let anyone hurt us. Leo holds us together and keeps us focused. It’s why we work so well together. We all have certain strengths and they fill in our individual weaknesses.”\n\n\t“Damn Mikey, that’s . . . deep,” Raph said.\n\n\t“And you thought I was nothing but good looks,” Mikey teased. Gathering up Don’s gear and his bo, Mikey said, ``Come on Donny, I'm taking you to bed. These two can clean up.''\n\n\t``You're sure smart enough when it comes to avoiding work!'' Raph called after them as Mikey led Don to the elevator.\n\n\tMikey took Don into his room. After settling Don in bed, Mikey stripped off his gear and climbed in next to him.\n\n\t``I'm not leaving you alone,'' Mikey said, pulling Don up against him.\n\n\tDon sighed as his body began to relax. ``I know why I never had one of those dreams when I slept alone with you,'' he murmured.\n\n\t``Yeah? Why's that?'' Mikey asked.\n\n\t``Because knowing exactly where you are, that you're safe, that I'm safe with you, stops the dream from happening,'' Don whispered.\n\n\t``I love you too, Donny. Everything's gonna be good now, you'll see,'' Mikey said.\n\n\t``Do you think Leo and Raph are worried that they've been doing things with me that I didn't want?'' Don asked. ``I tried to reassure them.''\n\n\t``They might be a little worried `cause the fake rape was their idea and it scared you,'' Mikey said. ``They're both just naturally more aggressive about what they want. It'll be fine once you start asking for your fantasy. You should make that request good and kinky too. It's the only way to help them stop feeling guilty.''\n\n\tDon chuckled sleepily. ``I'll do it, if you help me come up with something.''\n\n\tMikey kissed the top of his head. ``Yeah, I'll help. I have a great imagination.''\n\n\t``I know you do,'' Don said.\n\n\tThose were his last words for the night. Don slept heavily and dreamlessly all of the way into the next day. He was happy that things seemed perfectly normal between all four of the siblings, though he sensed some tentative behavior from both Leo and Raph.\n\n\tDon knew that couldn't be allowed to continue, because whatever doubts they had would simply fester and grow.\n\n\tLater in the day, Mikey and Don held a conference in the latter's lab. They were careful to ensure that both of their brothers were busily engaged in other things so they wouldn't be interrupted.\n\n\tIf either Leo or Raph noticed that Don seemed a bit more excited than usual at dinner, they didn't comment on it. Nor did they seem surprised when later that evening Mikey indicated that they were both to join him in Don's room.\n\n\tSeeing the mattresses piled in the center of Don's room didn't surprise them either. What did get their attention was seeing the array of sex toys that were strewn about the bedding.\n\n\t``What gives?'' Raph asked as Mikey shut the door behind them and engaged the lock.\n\n\tDon sat in a chair placed at an advantageous angle, giving him a bird's eye view of the `nest'. ``You did say you had no problem performing for me,'' he said. ``Mikey had a great idea for your first show.''\n\n\t``What exactly would that be?'' Leo asked suspiciously.\n\n\t``You two play with each other using however many of these objects you'd like,'' Mikey said. ``First one to drop down has to bottom for the other.''\n\n\t``Excuse me?'' Raph said.\n\n\t``We know the two of you like a challenge,'' Don said. ``Mikey will play referee. I'll be the judge.''\n\n\tLeo and Raph glanced at each, both coloring perceptibly.\n\n\t``Gonna back down?'' Mikey asked in a taunting tone.\n\n\tRaph sneered. ``Never.''\n\n\t``No way,'' Leo snapped.\n\n\t``That's good, `cause this is Donatello's fantasy,'' Mikey said. ``Now is when we start to make his dreams come true.''\n\nFIN\n\n", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "\tDonatello came back to consciousness slowly.  There was a dull ache behind his eyes so he kept them closed as he waited for his head to clear.

\tWhen it finally did, he remembered the sequence of events that led up to his being hit by a dart that knocked him out.  Don immediately tried to lift his hand, but found that both arms were outstretched and restrained.

\tPanic surged up his spine and he opened his eyes.  Blackness met his vision and he realized his was blindfolded.

\t``It's a dream, it's just another dream,'' Don told himself.  He tried moving his legs, but they were strapped down, his ankles secured and spread wide.  From his position, Don could tell he was on some sort of table.

\tEven as he tried to fight the rising alarm by telling himself he was dreaming, Don knew he was awake.  None of what he felt had the qualities of one of his dreams; the straps on his wrists and ankles hurt, there was a dull throb in his head from the drug he'd been injected with, and he could feel the coolness in the air.

\tHe needed to know what was happening but wasn't sure if he should let his captors know he was awake.  Fear for his brothers made his decision for him and Don cleared his throat, hoping to get someone's attention.

\t``Good, you're awake.''

\tBishop.

\t``Where are my brothers?'' Don asked.

\t``You shouldn't be concerned about them right now Donatello,'' Bishop said.  It sounded as if he were coming closer.  ``They are safe.  For the moment.''

\t``What do you mean `for the moment'?  I want to know what you've done with my brothers!'' Don exclaimed.

\t``I told you, they are safe,'' Bishop said, unperturbed by Don's tone.  ``Whether or not they remain that way depends entirely upon you.''

\tThose words had an ominous and all too familiar ring to them.  Though Don was sure he wouldn't like the answer, he had to ask the question anyway.  ``How does their fate depend on me?''

\t``Because you have something I want,'' Bishop answered.  ``Something I desire.''

\tThere was a sudden lump in Don's throat and when he swallowed, he was fairly certain the sound was audible.  ``You already have our DNA samples,'' he said.  ``You know we aren't aliens and you know that not only are we no threat to the Earth, we've always done our best to protect it.  Our goals are the same as yours.''

\t``Not quite,'' Bishop said.  From the sounds he was hearing, Don could tell that the man was circling the table.  ``After all, there are only four of you.  Four to fight however many hundreds of thousands of alien invaders?  No.  What I need is an army, one that isn't afraid to fight and won't run away when the odds are against them.  What I need is thousands of you.''

\tThe way he stressed that one word made Don test his straps again.  They held tight.

\t``You've already tried to create a new humanity, a new superior race,'' Don said.  ``You used our DNA and that of Master Splinter to create your Slayer, and your creation went mad.  Using us for that purpose doesn't work.  You're intelligent enough to know that.''

\tBishop chuckled.  ``I'll admit I've had to rethink the Slayer concept.  While the original design appealed to me for obvious reasons, I've realized that the one thing I can't manipulate is my soldiers' appearance.  They don't have to fit in with the rest of the human race, not if they're capable of hiding in the shadows.  Mutants such as yourselves will do nicely for my purpose.''

\t``I don't know how you're going to manage that,'' Don said.  ``The Utroms developed the ooze that transformed us and they're gone.  You can't duplicate that ooze even if you extract our blood and attempt to separate the various components.  By mutating us, the ooze itself mutated.''

\t``You're approaching this from the viewpoint of a scientist,'' Bishop said.  ``To achieve the answer to my dilemma, I had to go back to my roots.  I was a man first and foremost.  From an early age we know that there is one very basic way to replicate a sentient living organism.''

\tDonatello refused to be baited into revealing that he understood where the conversation was headed.  After all, his viewpoint might be tainted by the dreams he'd been having.  If so, he wasn't going to be the one to put ideas into Bishop's head.

\t``There are other ways to protect the Earth from invasion,'' Don said quickly.  ``An early warning system, enhanced weaponry, a planetary defense grid, any number of deterrents that would prevent an invading force from ever entering our atmosphere.  Having to put anyone in harm's way when that's not necessary isn't logical or moral.''

\t``Morality doesn't interest me,'' Bishop said.  ``The things you speak of assume that we have time to prepare for the inevitable.  We don't.  The crisis is already upon us.''

\t``I would think that using the technology left behind by the Triceratons and the Federation would give you the advancements you need in order to develop a means to protect the Earth, one that doesn't involve genetic manipulation,'' Don said.  ``Creating a superior race would take far more time than expanding those other avenues of defense.''

\t``Trust me, my EPF is working on every means possible to keep this planet safe,'' Bishop said.  ``You might say that you are my pet project.  One that I find particularly enticing.''

\tDon felt a gloved palm touch his leg, just above his knee.  The hand slowly stroked upwards, sliding over to his inner thigh and stopping just short of his groin.

\t``Stop that,'' Don demanded, striving to keep the distress from his voice.  He shook his leg as much as the restraints allowed, trying to knock Bishop's hand off of him.

\t``I do enjoy watching you struggle,'' Bishop said.  ``It is useless of course, but your movements add a level of enjoyment to my plans.''

\t``What plans?'' Don finally asked.  He felt the tip of a finger brush the underside of his tail.  ``What are you trying to do to us?''

\t``Don't you mean `what are you planning to do to me'?'' Bishop countered.  ``My interest in your brothers is purely scientific.  You on the other hand appeal to me on an entirely different level.''

\t``Why?  I'm exactly like them,'' Don said, relieved when Bishop stopped touching him.

\t``No, you are most certainly not like them,'' Bishop said.  ``While you have the same genetic makeup as your brothers, you are a genius.  You are fascinating in many ways, Donatello.  While I hope to gain additional knowledge about what makes you tick, my attraction also leans towards something a tad more salacious.''

\tDon couldn't take any more of the dancing around the subject.  ``If you're planning to breed me, let me assure you that I'm a male.''

\t``That fact only enhances my vision,'' Bishop said.  ``I plan to use your sperm to inseminate a number of test subjects.  From one of them I am sure to produce the perfect soldier.  Those soldiers will be raised by me much as your rat master raised you.  They will be completely devoted to me and to my cause, and they will have your intellect.''

\tThis was too much like one of the dreams Don had experienced.  ``The only problem with your plan is that I won't cooperate.  You can't force an erection from me.  If you cut me open to collect sperm, you might damage me in a way that makes me impotent.  That destroys any chances to correct mistakes you make in your first insemination attempts.  Besides, the fatal flaw in your idea is that you cannot crossbreed two different species.''

\t``Such a brilliant and logical mind,'' Bishop said as he pressed a hand to Don's belly.  ``My scientists have already overcome the difficulty of crossbreeding.  I have no intention of cutting into you; that can be saved for your brothers.  Hopefully though I won't need to destroy any of them because you will cooperate.''

\tThe threat was clear.  Do as Bishop asked and his brothers' lives would be spared.

\t``You needn't tie me to a table to get what you want,'' Don said, striving to remain calm.  ``I'm perfectly capable of masturbating into a collection jar.''

\t``If that were all I wanted, your assurances of cooperation would be perfectly acceptable,'' Bishop said as he began to rub small circles on Don's stomach.

\tSince nothing was inhibiting Bishop's movements, Don guessed that he was no longer wearing his gear.  Somehow knowing he was fully naked made his situation seem worse.

\t``From the start you've never seen us as anything but freaks and mutations,'' Don said.  ``You can't possibly view me in any other way.  You've always been completely focused on your ultimate mission.  What you're suggesting is a . . . a base need.''

\t``Did you think that just because my physical body was altered by my alien captors that I would have lost my humanity?'' Bishop asked.  ``Did you think that I couldn't feel desire as I did when I was completely human?  I must admit that what I find alluring has changed, but I am still fully functional in that department.  To put it simply; I intend to have my way with you.  Often.''

\tDon's blood turned to ice.  He began to struggle against his restraints again, hoping to loosen even one of them.

\t``That's insane,'' Don said.  ``You're talking about rape in a totally matter-of-fact way.  Please Bishop, stop and think about what you're planning to do.''

\t``I have done nothing but think about it for an extended period of time,'' Bishop said.  ``For months actually.  I'll even wager that you've thought about it a time or two yourself.''

\tThe way he said that made Don wonder if Bishop could possibly know about his dreams.  That wasn't likely unless he . . . unless Bishop had somehow gotten into his head.  Don's mind skittered away from that thought.

\t``No,'' Don said aloud.

\t``Yes,'' Bishop replied, a complacent ring in his voice.  ``It's time.  No more talking.''

\tDon heard an object that sounded like a belt buckle hit the ground, followed by the thunk of a pair of shoes.  Bishop seemed to be quite close, judging from the swishing sounds of clothing being removed.

\tMouth dry and heart pounding, Don tried to think of something he could say to stop Bishop from raping him.  Words flew through his head, but he couldn't catch them, couldn't string them together in a coherent form.  The great intellect that Bishop bragged about finding attractive was being swallowed by growing dread.

\tAs soon as Don felt the table shift with the weight of another body, his higher brain deserted him.

\t``Don't touch me!'' Don shouted at the top of his lungs.

\tHe began to thrash on the table, fighting the restraints that held his ankles, pulling against the bands the held his wrists down.  Don jerked his entire body from side to side, shaking the table with his frantic movements.

\tHis head slammed against the table as Don rocked back on his carapace.  Sudden pain bloomed from the impact, making him feel dizzy, but that didn't slow his desperate battle to get free.  The bindings on his wrists and ankles bit into his skin as Don struggled to loosen them.

\t``Let him up!''

\tThat voice!  Don knew it.  The familiar accents cut through his fog.  Just like he'd imagined in his dreams, one brother was there to save him.  The thought was immediately followed by dismay.

\t``Mikey!  Run!  Get away!'' Don yelled.

\tHe suddenly felt a warm hand on his face.  ``You're okay, Donny.  Stop fighting so we can get you off the table.''

\tDon went limp.  He hadn't heard a fight, but apparently his brothers had all managed to escape and come to his rescue.

\tMikey removed his blindfold and Don blinked up at him, overcome with relief.  ``Mikey,'' he whispered.

\tHis brother leaned in to kiss his lips quickly.  ``Don't move, `kay?  We tied you kind of tight.''

\tIt took a second for Don to process the `we'.  Then he looked around and saw that he was in the garage.

\tRaph and Leo were removing the bindings that held him down on one of his work tables.  Both wore looks that were a mixture of guilt, apprehension, and sorrow.

\t``We're sorry, Donny.  This was a bad idea,'' Raph said.

\t``This . . . what?'' Don asked in some confusion.

\t``We thought you wanted this,'' Leo said.  ``Your fantasy.  We wanted to give it to you.''

\tDon started to move and Mikey slid an arm under his neck to support him.  Gripping Mikey's shoulder as a brace, Don slowly sat up.

\t``Bishop?'' Don asked, his brow knitting as he looked around.

\t``Not here, never was,'' Raph asked.  ``Damn, I didn't expect that reaction or I wouldn't have done this to ya'.  Just to be clear, Mikey was against it from the start.''

\tDon glanced up at Mikey.  ``Everything that happened . . . didn't?''

\tMikey shook his head.  ``I still get some of the blame if you wanna be upset with us.  I didn't like the idea, but I went along with it.''

\t``We insisted,'' Leo said.  ``We were all getting our kicks from adding another level to our relationship, but it seemed like you weren't.  Then that last time . . . you weren't satisfied with us.  We had to find a way to make you happy.''

\t``We thought if we played out your fantasy, you'd be excited by us again,'' Raph said, picking up the explanation.  ``Maybe it would even make your dreams stop.''

\t``Those dreams had nothing to do with how sexually satisfied I am,'' Don protested.

\t``I told them that,'' Mikey said.  ``You're happy with us and I know that.  Please don't be mad at what we did, okay?  We've all been worried about your dreams `cause they kinda seem to be getting worse and they're happening a lot more often.''

\tDon looked down at the bruises on his wrists.  The adrenaline was starting to leave his system and he felt shaky.

\t``I'm not mad,'' Don said.  It was true.  He realized he should have felt a little angry or resentful at the deception, but he didn't.  Maybe he would later.  For now, he thought he understood why his brothers had pulled that trick on him.

\t``Ya' scared the crap out of us when ya' started fighting so hard,'' Raph said.  ``This idea about giving ya' your rape fantasy blew up in our faces.''

\t``I've certainly learned that the real thing is nothing like a fantasy,'' Don said.  He sighed deeply.  "I guess a fantasy is more arousing because you're still in control.  It's kind of . . . freeing.''

\t``Being tied up and forced is freeing?'' Raph asked.  ``That makes zero sense, Donny.''

\tLeo frowned.  ``Do you feel some sort of shame or anxiety about engaging in sex with us?  Do you fantasize about being forced to avoid feeling responsible for the sex we're having?  I've worried lately that the reason you always bottom is because you can't get off unless you fantasize that we're raping you.''

\t``I don't fantasize that at all!'' Don argued.  When Mikey cleared his throat, Don amended his statement.  ``Okay, I'll admit this last time with the three of you I did, but that's only because the dreams are messing with my head.''

\t``Glad you're finally acknowledging that,'' Mikey said.  ``I might not have wanted to use this tactic to get you to open up to us, but since it's a done deal, we should dig around and find out what else is in your noggin.''

\t``Unlike you guys, what I fantasize doesn't mean that on some deeper subconscious level I want it to happen,'' Don said.  ``To be honest, I don't know why rape even became a fantasy.  I started having the dreams and they sort of carried over into my waking life.''

\t``You had them before we became sexually active,'' Leo reminded him.

\t``I had them when I started to feel attracted to you guys in that way,'' Don corrected.

\t``Because you're ashamed of it,'' Raph said.  ``That's what it is, despite what ya' say.  Ya' don't really want to be doing this.''

\t``That isn't true Raph,'' Don said, reaching a hand towards Raph and waiting until he finally took hold of it.  ``I want nothing more than to be with you guys; I love being with the three of you.  Maybe I just want to imagine what it feels like to totally surrender myself to someone.''

\t``You don't have to imagine that, you can do it for real, with us,'' Mikey said.  ``Go deeper Don.  I love to fantasize too, but for something involving sex, my imaginary partner would have to be really hot.  You dream about us . . . well, not me, but that's okay `cause at least we're attractive to you.  But you're dreaming about Bishop too, and not just when you're asleep.''

\t``I don't find Bishop attractive,'' Don said, finding it important to set his brothers straight on that point.

\t``Ya' don't really want to be raped, ya' don't have a thing for Bishop, but ya' couldn't cum this last time until we held ya' down,'' Raph said.  ``Except for ya', the rest of us are all playing out our own personal kinks.  Don't ya' have some kind of, what's the word I'm looking for?  Oh yeah, repressed desire.''

\t``Bondage?'' Leo suggested, as he had once before.

\t``That's your fantasy,'' Raph said, shooting a sharp glance in his older brother's direction.  ``Biting and bondage.  And marking us.''

\t``It's no worse than your rough stuff,'' Leo shot back.  ``It borders on sadism.''

\t``Do either of you guys not like any of that?'' Mikey asked, his tone getting their attention.  He waited for an answer and receiving none, continued.  ``I haven't heard anyone complaining about the games I like to play with you.  We need to agree right now that nobody should hide or feel ashamed of their personal fantasies.  We need to agree that none of us will feel bad or be made to feel bad `cause we don't want to participate in a particular kink.''

\tDon was only half listening to his brother's conversation.  ``He wanted me,'' Don said, almost to himself.

\tHis brothers stopped talking.  Don could feel them staring at him, waiting for him to continue, but he was still trying to follow the trail of an old memory.

\t``Who wanted ya'?  Who are ya' talking about?'' Raph finally asked.

\t``Wait,'' Don said.  His eyes narrowed as he struggled to grasp what it was that eluded him.  ``Repressed.  You said I repressed my desires, but that's not it.  I repressed a memory.''

\t``A memory of what?  What's going on in that head of . . . .?'' Raph began.

\tIt was Mikey who stopped him from talking by showing his palm in a motion to halt.  Raph scowled at him but kept his mouth shut.

\t``Bishop.  It was Bishop,'' Don said.  ``Our first encounter with him.''

\t``Geez Donny, that happened ages ago,'' Raph said.  ``We were all right there together.''

\t``Not at first,'' Don said.  He released Raph's hand to grab onto the edges of the table, his knuckles turning white as the memory came flooding back.

\t``He did something to you?'' Leo asked, his voice deepening and carrying with it an angry edge.

\t``I was still a little out of it from the stun blast that hit us,'' Don said, his forehead furrowed as he concentrated on accessing the blocked memory.  ``We were moving, being wheeled towards the big lab where we all wound up.  Bishop came up alongside me and told the soldier who was pushing my table to stop and leave us for a minute.''

\tWhen Don stopped, Mikey laid a reassuring hand on his shoulder.  ``You're doing good, keep chasing the memory.  You gotta get it all out.''

\tNodding at Mikey's wisdom, Don continued.  ``When we were alone Bishop leaned over me and whispered that I shouldn't worry, that he wasn't going to dissect me.  He said he had other plans for me.  While he was talking, he pressed his hand . . . he pressed his hand between my legs and stroked my tail and then he . . . .''

\tHe stopped again, unsure about what he was remembering.  Could it be a false memory, brought on by the dreams and stress?

\tAs if reading his mind, Mikey said, ``You know by the way a memory feels if it's real or not, Donny.  What else did Bishop do?''

\tRealizing that Mikey was right, that the things he remembered were too vivid to have been imagined, Don said, ``He pressed his fingers against my entrance and pushed the tip of one partway inside of me.''

\t``I'll kill him,'' Raph snarled, his hands closing into fists.

\t``I didn't yell or anything,'' Don said.  ``I guess I was too stunned that a human would do that.''

\t``You were loopy from being knocked out,'' Leo said.  ``That's probably why you didn't freak out when he touched you like that.''

\t``And why it disappeared into your subconscious,'' Mikey said.  ``You must not have been separated from us for long, `cause you were right there when they put us down facing each other in that big lab.''

\t``I remember hearing Raph groan and Bishop glanced up before coming even closer.  He told me he was going to . . . to make Leo and Raph watch as he used me.  He said he was going to force Leo and Raph into fucking me and if they refused, he'd threaten to dissect Mikey.''

\t``Whoa, no wonder you were having those screwed up dreams,'' Mikey said.  ``I guess that's why I was never in them.''

\t``And why ya' kept dreaming that Bishop was mind controlling me and Leo,'' Raph said.

\t``At the time, I wasn't sure about any of it.  I think I believed that Bishop was messing with my head, attempting to rattle me so that I wouldn't try to come up with a way out of our situation,'' Don said.  ``Then he scanned me but turned around to menace Mikey.  Why would he do that unless he was saving me for something else?''

\t``But he couldn't threaten you with Mikey if he was planning on dissecting him right there in front of us,'' Leo said.

\t``I guess that's partly why the memory got suppressed,'' Don said.  ``I know I was too worried at the time about you guys and Professor Honeycutt to think much about my situation.  After we got free and got to the Professor, his sacrifice pushed everything that happened to us to a place in my head that got locked up.''

\t``I would have thought tapping a memory like that would have given ya' nightmares, not rape fantasies,'' Raph said.

\t``I'm fairly certain that the fantasies were a coping mechanism,'' Don said.  ``I mean, in a dream or a waking fantasy, I can take control.  I suppose that's why just now when I thought that Bishop was going to rape me, I panicked.  Plus . . . .''

\tWhen he trailed off, Mikey gently tapped his thigh to get his attention.  ``Plus what?  Go on, we've got to be able to tell each other anything.''

\t``Go ahead Donny, we won't judge you,'' Leo said.

\t``Maybe part of my fantasy about Bishop was because despite how depraved his is, he wanted me,'' Don said in a small voice, unable to meet his brother's eyes.  ``He made me feel like I was attractive to someone.  I didn't think any of you guys returned the feelings I was starting to have towards you and that you never would.''

\tMikey immediately wrapped his arms around Don.  ``You are totally hot Donny!  Of course he would think so, but we do too, and we've got first dibs.''

\tDon had to chuckle.  His younger brother had a gift for taking a ticklish subject and putting a humorous spin on it.

\t``We can all understand those kinds of thoughts,'' Leo said.  ``Get called a freak enough, even when you're saving someone, and it can have an effect on your concept of self-worth,'' Leo said.

\t``I thought to myself that if Bishop really planned to do this to me, that if I acted as though I enjoyed it, he wouldn't hurt you guys,'' Don said.  ``All of that flashed through my head in just a few minutes and then disappeared into the lock box in my brain.''

\t``Well heck, no wonder you were having wet dreams,'' Mikey said.

\t``Mikey was the one who set you free after Master Splinter, April, and Casey showed up to rescue us,'' Leo said.  ``That explains why you sometimes had a sense in your dreams that he was going to be coming to your aid.''

\tDon went quiet then, recalling the past events and seeing how they had played into the dreams he'd started to have.

\t``What are you thinking about?'' Raph asked.

\t``The timing,'' Don told him, looking around at his brothers.  ``Desire for a relationship with you guys and then having that come true must be why I accessed a memory that was locked in the part of mind associated with sex.  I'm glad that I know where those dreams were coming from now.  Maybe I won't have them anymore.''

\t``Ya' happy about that?'' Raph asked.  ``Ya' sure did seem to enjoy them.''

\t``I'll be happy if they're gone,'' Don said.  ``I don't need them to help me come to terms with Bishop's abuse anymore.  And just for the record, let me say again how much I love what the four of us have together.  I couldn't be more satisfied.''

\t``Except that you're still the only one without a fantasy,'' Leo said.  ``Are you sure there isn't something that excites you a little more than anything else?''

\tDon's mind flashed to the memory of watching Mikey service Raph, watching how Mikey had turned their brother into a writhing, moaning, helpless mass.  With a smile, Don glanced up at Mikey.

\t``What?'' Mikey asked.

\t``You're the one who's helped me realize what my real fantasy is,'' Don said.  ``I know why I prefer to submit too.  I like to watch; I like to see your faces while you're taking pleasure from me.  I like feeling that desired, but I also like watching you guys do each other.  It turns me on.''

\t``Donny likes a show!'' Mikey crooned.

\t``That's an easy kink,'' Raph said, punching Leo playfully on the arm.  ``I got no problem with letting ya' watch me fuck one of these two.''

\t``Or having him watch you bottom,'' Leo said with a devilish grin.

\t``Hey, how did you guys manage to sound like Bishop?'' Don asked, suddenly curious about their subterfuge.

\t``Voice synthesizer,'' Leo said, pointing at the device which sat on a work bench.  ``I remembered that you'd gotten one from April a while back and had programmed a number of voices into it.  Including Bishop's.''

\t``I completely forgot I had that,'' Don admitted.

\t``I used a blow gun to deliver the tranq dart,'' Raph said.  ``After I faked that call from Casey by setting my phone to ring at a certain time, me and Leo drove around the block and came back in by way of the sewers.''

\t``While they were setting everything up, my job was to make sure you stayed on the roof,'' Mikey said.  ``When you started calling for me, I turned out the lights.''

\t``I'd already worked my way up to the roof opposite ours,'' Raph said.  ``As soon as it looked like ya' were going in to investigate, I shot ya' with the dart.''

\t``That's a lesson in being more aware of your surroundings,'' Leo chided.

\t``You just had to say that,'' Don said, feeling embarrassed.  ``The roof!  We have to finish putting down tiles!''

\tHe jumped down from the table and his head started to spin.  Mikey reached out to steady him.

\t``Slow down slick,'' Raph said.  ``We finished the roof while ya' was taking your power nap.''

\tDon's laugh was shaky and he knew his brothers heard it.  To cover that up, he said, ``At least your trick got me out of some work.''

\t``You need some sleep,'' Mikey said.  ``The real kind, not the drugged kind.  It's gonna hit you like a ton of bricks when you finally realize everything you've gone through, and it'd be best if you're taking it easy when that happens.''

``You're always so in tune with our needs,'' Don said, gazing lovingly at his brother.  ``It's almost like you can look inside of us.''

“And you’re always so giving,” Mikey said in return.  “Raphie here can be a brute, but he’d never let anyone hurt us.  Leo holds us together and keeps us focused.  It’s why we work so well together.  We all have certain strengths and they fill in our individual weaknesses.”

\t“Damn Mikey, that’s . . . deep,” Raph said.

\t“And you thought I was nothing but good looks,” Mikey teased.  Gathering up Don’s gear and his bo, Mikey said, ``Come on Donny, I'm taking you to bed.  These two can clean up.''

\t``You're sure smart enough when it comes to avoiding work!'' Raph called after them as Mikey led Don to the elevator.

\tMikey took Don into his room.  After settling Don in bed, Mikey stripped off his gear and climbed in next to him.

\t``I'm not leaving you alone,'' Mikey said, pulling Don up against him.

\tDon sighed as his body began to relax.  ``I know why I never had one of those dreams when I slept alone with you,'' he murmured.

\t``Yeah?  Why's that?'' Mikey asked.

\t``Because knowing exactly where you are, that you're safe, that I'm safe with you, stops the dream from happening,'' Don whispered.

\t``I love you too, Donny.  Everything's gonna be good now, you'll see,'' Mikey said.

\t``Do you think Leo and Raph are worried that they've been doing things with me that I didn't want?'' Don asked.  ``I tried to reassure them.''

\t``They might be a little worried `cause the fake rape was their idea and it scared you,'' Mikey said.  ``They're both just naturally more aggressive about what they want.  It'll be fine once you start asking for your fantasy.  You should make that request good and kinky too.  It's the only way to help them stop feeling guilty.''

\tDon chuckled sleepily.  ``I'll do it, if you help me come up with something.''

\tMikey kissed the top of his head.  ``Yeah, I'll help.  I have a great imagination.''

\t``I know you do,'' Don said.

\tThose were his last words for the night.  Don slept heavily and dreamlessly all of the way into the next day.  He was happy that things seemed perfectly normal between all four of the siblings, though he sensed some tentative behavior from both Leo and Raph.

\tDon knew that couldn't be allowed to continue, because whatever doubts they had would simply fester and grow.

\tLater in the day, Mikey and Don held a conference in the latter's lab.  They were careful to ensure that both of their brothers were busily engaged in other things so they wouldn't be interrupted.

\tIf either Leo or Raph noticed that Don seemed a bit more excited than usual at dinner, they didn't comment on it.  Nor did they seem surprised when later that evening Mikey indicated that they were both to join him in Don's room.

\tSeeing the mattresses piled in the center of Don's room didn't surprise them either.  What did get their attention was seeing the array of sex toys that were strewn about the bedding.

\t``What gives?'' Raph asked as Mikey shut the door behind them and engaged the lock.

\tDon sat in a chair placed at an advantageous angle, giving him a bird's eye view of the `nest'.  ``You did say you had no problem performing for me,'' he said.  ``Mikey had a great idea for your first show.''

\t``What exactly would that be?'' Leo asked suspiciously.

\t``You two play with each other using however many of these objects you'd like,'' Mikey said.  ``First one to drop down has to bottom for the other.''

\t``Excuse me?'' Raph said.

\t``We know the two of you like a challenge,'' Don said.  ``Mikey will play referee.  I'll be the judge.''

\tLeo and Raph glanced at each, both coloring perceptibly.

\t``Gonna back down?'' Mikey asked in a taunting tone.

\tRaph sneered.  ``Never.''

\t``No way,'' Leo snapped.

\t``That's good, `cause this is Donatello's fantasy,'' Mikey said.  ``Now is when we start to make his dreams come true.''

FIN

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