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Part 3 Rated: R TCest, language, adult concepts and situations
Pairing: Leo/Raph
~~The fabulous cover image was commissioned from @Plastron.", "writing": "Excerpt from Raph’s journal:\n\n[i]\t“He didn’t fight me. I thought he would; damn, he fucking fights me about everything. The way our conversation had started, with him glaring at me and ordering me out of the room, I was ready for a struggle.\n\n\t“Leo just went limp, like he couldn’t fight anymore, and that was fine by me. His mouth tasted like green tea and rice, not my favorite, but on him the flavors were sweet.\n\n\t“I just wanted to taste him; all of him. I wanted to lick his forest green skin, bite it, bruise it and own it. The feelings were so overwhelming that nothing else mattered to me except making him mine like I always knew it should be.\n\n\t“With the tables turned and me being on top this time, his trying to put an abrupt end to this wasn’t gonna happen. I was too determined to find out how far he’d let me go. If he was just playing some kinda game, I wanted to know right then and there. Because I sure the fuck wasn’t playing.\n\n\t“The feeling of his body under me, all that hard muscle pressing into different parts of my skin, was making me crazy hot. My mind just took another leave of absence and surrendered control to my hands. I found myself stroking his arms, enjoying the tight feel of them under my palms and then somehow my hands were on his exposed sides.\n\n\t“When I let go of his arms I felt him move and my brain was kinda like ‘Oh fuck’. I thought for sure that was it, he was gonna start pushing me away. But he didn’t; I felt his hands on my shoulder and my neck and he was pulling me closer and shit, I couldn’t help but shudder.\n\n\t“I couldn’t stop kissing him. All my tongue wanted to do was be inside of Leo’s mouth. Maybe that could have been enough, but I’m alive and I’ve got needs. My gut was doing a fan dance that I could feel all the way down to my groin . . . .\"\n\n[/i]\tRaph’s tongue ravished the inside of Leo’s mouth and his brother gave back as good as he got, tangling his tongue against the invaders. The need for more finally moved Raph away, and he fell to Leo’s neck, licking at the skin in long sweeps.\n\n\tThe sound rolled out of Leo first this time, and Raph now knew what to call it, thanks to his new laptop. Raph let his own answering churr vibrate Leo’s pulse point as he lavished the spot with his tongue.\n\n\tLeo shivered and grabbed at Raph’s shell, his eyes closed as his younger brother forced a new sensation on him. Raph’s response was to grind their plastrons together, the rasping sound further exciting him.\n\n\tUnable to help himself, Raph bit at Leo’s skin, at first nipping lightly, but then as his need grew stronger, he began to bite harder. Leo was writhing under him, and the tiniest moan escaped his throat.\n\n\tRaph opened his mouth wider and trapped a section of Leo’s neck between his lips, starting to suck at it fiercely when Leo gasped and shoved against him as hard as he could.\n\n\tBarely registering that Leo was trying to push him away, Raph lifted his head from his brother’s neck. He was breathing hard, his eyes half open and dark with lust.\n\n\t“D . . . don’t do that. You’re going to leave marks,” Leo whispered urgently.\n\n\tRaph took a deep breath and said, “Yeah, I’m gonna leave marks. Ya’ make love ta someone ya’ tend ta leave marks.”\n\n\t“No,” Leo insisted, louder this time. He planted his hands firmly against Raph’s scutes to push his brother’s mouth further from his body. “You mustn’t leave any marks.”\n\n\tJealousy flared suddenly and without warning, closely followed by its mate named anger.\n\n\t“Ya’ afraid Don might see them? Is that it Leo? This some kind of perverted little ménage a trois ya’ playin’ with us?” Raph asked furiously.\n\n\t“What? No!” Leo yelled. He slipped out of Raph’s grip quickly, sliding out from under him and rolling to his feet. “You don’t understand,” he said.\n\n\tRaph was rising slowly, his narrowed eyes focused on Leo’s. The arousal that had been there moments ago was gone, his anger burning it away.\n\n\t“Then help me understand,” Raph said. “Tell me what the fuck is going on with ya’. Are ya’ tryin’ ta get with Don, is that why you’re playing this fucked up mind game? Ya’ think I ain’t seen the look on your face when I hang with Donny? How ya’ try to get between us and then fawn all over him?”\n\n\t“Leave Donny out of this,” Leo hissed at him.\n\n\t“Donny’s right in the fuckin’ middle of this!” Raph shouted at him. Jabbing an accusatory finger at his brother, he said, “Admit ya’ got a problem with seeing me and Don together, Leo. Admit ya’ started this fuckin’ game of tonsil hockey just so I wouldn’t play with your Donny-boy.”\n\n\t“Is that what you think of me?” Leo asked in astonishment. “Do you honestly think I’m capable of doing something that dishonorable?”\n\n\t“I think you’d do anything ta get your way,” Raph told him. “Ya’ always been like that, it’s your way or the highway. Sometimes your way stinks, Leo. Sometimes your way is totally fucked up. I think I’d rather be with Don than ya’.”\n\n\tThe rage that took over Leo’s features was a terrifying thing to see. The veins in his neck stood out, his lips curled away from his teeth and his brows drew together as he snarled, “Donatello is off limits to you!”\n\n\t“Ya’ don’t get ta make that call!” Raph exploded. “He’s my goddamn brother too!”\n\n\tNeither of them heard the door open.\n\n\t“Raphael! Leonardo!” Master Splinter spoke sharply. “What is the meaning of this?”\n\n\tLeonardo’s face immediately flattened out and his head went down. “My apologies sensei. I didn’t realize our argument had gotten so loud.”\n\n\tRight then Raph saw what Don had been trying to tell him about. Everything about Leo suddenly froze to perfection at the sight of their father. His posture, stance, facial expression; even the tilt of his head and tone of voice. All instantly transformed into their father’s perfect son.\n\n\tMaybe all those years of training and meditation made it possible for Leo to achieve such a radical shift so quickly, but that wasn’t suited to Raph’s temperament. Master Splinter or not, Raphael was still a very angry, very frustrated turtle.\n\n\t“Why don’t ya’ just tell him the truth, Leo?” Raph burst out.\n\n\tHe got the satisfaction of seeing a slight cringe before Leo looked up at him placidly.\n\n\t“Since you seem to think there is some truth that needs to be told,” Leo said, “why don’t you do the honors?”\n\n\tHis tone was calm and his voice smooth, but Raph heard the hint of challenge in it. Raph growled, staring back at him. Didn’t the bastard know that Raph was too pissed off to care what he might blurt out? Didn’t he fuckin’ realize that Raph was capable of spilling all the sordid details about the two of them, about Donat . . . \n\n\tRaph stopped his mouth somehow. He was so damn close to saying exactly what he thought, but he couldn’t drag Don into it. It wasn’t Donny’s fault that Raph was having horrible, perverted desires for Leo, and it sure as shell wasn’t Don’s fault that Leo was apparently just as messed up as Raph was.\n\n\tIn the time it took for that to flash through his brain and put a choke hold on his mouth, Leo’s complacent look had settled into place. A little curve of his lips told Raph that Leo had already known his brother wouldn’t say anything. Leo scored another point in the win column.\n\n\t“Ya’ know what?” Raph said, pointing at both Leo and Master Splinter. “I been stuck down here too long. I’m goin’ topside for some air; Bishop be damned.”\n\n\tHe spun on his heels without waiting for either of them to say anything and stormed out of the room. \n\n\t“Raph!” Leo called after him, an undercurrent of some emotion that Raph didn’t recognize in his voice.\n\n\tMaster Splinter’s words were the last ones Raph heard before he left the lair.\n\n\t“You will not go after him Leonardo. You will remain here and speak to me of this matter.”\n\n\tRaph had run a few miles before he outraced his anger enough to realize he’d been a complete asshole to leave and let Leo take the brunt of Master Splinter’s indignation. That seemed to be all he was capable of doing; starting shit and leaving Leo to clean it up.\n\n\tClambering up the side of a building near the waterfront, Raph plopped down on the roof’s ledge, his feet dangling over into space. He rubbed at his forehead and then pounded his fist into it, mentally chiding himself. It didn’t matter how much he wanted to be with Leo, or how his brother might respond, at some point Leo would always realize that Raph was a first class fuck up and pull away.\n\n\tSensing a presence behind him, Raph tensed slightly before he heard the lightest pad of bare feet. It wasn’t Leo; his stealthy bro’ didn’t even make that much sound, and it sure as shell wasn’t Mikey, who could be silent but rarely made the effort.\n\n\tTurning his head enough to look over his shoulder, he said, “Hey Don.”\n\n\tThe olive skinned brother moved closer, standing next to Raph. “Hey.”\n\n\t“How did ya’ find me?” Raph asked without looking up.\n\n\tDon didn’t wait for an invitation to take a seat next to his brother. Following Raph’s gaze, he took in the lights of the boats that were out on the water.\n\n\t“Tracking module in your shell cell,” Don said. “I installed them in all of your phones a while back.”\n\n\t“You’re a sneaky, fuckin’ bastard, ya’ know that?” Raph said without rancor.\n\n\t“Yes, I suppose I am,” Don responded mildly.\n\n\tThey sat in silence for a few minutes, letting the city noise rise and fall around them. Raph’s sigh told Don he was ready to talk.\n\n\t“Is there anything you want to get off your chest, Raph? Because I had the feeling that you were on the verge of telling me something yesterday before Leo interrupted us,” Don said.\n\n \tRaph rubbed a hand over the side of his neck. He had two choices; he could keep all of this bottled up inside of him until he was a raving lunatic, or he could talk to Donatello. Out of everyone he knew, friends and family alike, Don really was the only one he felt comfortable sharing this kind of information with.\n\n\tThe fact that it involved Don made it a little easier.\n\n\t“I think I’ve got feelings for Leo,” Raph said quietly and then stopped talking to watch Don’s reaction.\n\n\tHis brother’s face was a complete blank for a few seconds, then understanding slowly tiptoed across his features.\n\n\t“Sexual desires?” Don asked in an almost clinical manner.\n\n\tRaph cleared his throat. If anyone else had asked that question so bluntly, he would have leaped from the rooftop to his doom out of shame.\n\n\t“That and more,” Raph answered. “Felt that way about him since I can remember.”\n\n\tDon pursed his lips and nodded. “I think I can understand that, considering your personalities. What have you done about it?”\n\n\tRaph’s hands curled into fists. “Nothing before a few nights ago. Then I went and made a complete ass out of myself by practically admitting it ta him.”\n\n\t“What does that mean?” Don asked. “Practically admitting it to him is what exactly?”\n\n\t“He kissed me,” Raph told him. “That fight ya’ thought we were havin’? Started out as one, but that ain’t how it ended. When ya’ interrupted, he was pulling away from me and I was clinging ta him like a virgin maiden in distress, including the moaning.”\n\n\tHe felt his face heat up in embarrassment and was glad to see that Don wasn’t looking at him. Part of Don’s genius was his ability to listen and do the right thing at the right moment.\n\n\t“He initiated the contact?” Don asked, his expression one of deep concentration.\n\n\t“Oh shit,” Raph groaned, remembering belatedly that Don might have feelings for Leo as well. “I’m . . . I’m a fuckin’ idiot. I didn’t mean ta tell ya’ like that.”\n\n\tDon’s head turned slowly towards him, a puzzled look on his face. “Why are you apologizing to me?”\n\n\t“Because . . . because ya’ and Leo . . . Leo wants ta be with ya’, that’s why he keeps hanging around ya’ all the time,” Raph explained.\n\n\t“Ah,” Don said. “And do you want to be with me too? Because you’ve been practically a second shell the last couple of days as well.”\n\n\t“No!” Raph nearly shouted. “Shell no; no offense ta ya’ brainiac, but I been spending time with ya’ ‘cause it’s the only way I get ta see Leo. Fuckers been avoidin’ me since that first kiss.”\n\n\tSuddenly Don was laughing. Not a chuckle, but full blown laughter.\n\n\t“What is so fuckin’ funny?” Raph asked in a low, dangerous tone.\n\n\tDon managed to calm down enough to choke out, “You think Leo is spending so much time with me because he’s hot for my shell. He thinks you’re spending so much time with me for the same reason, but you both probably want each other. Leo keeps popping in on us all of the time because he thinks we’ll be doing it on my desk if he doesn’t. It’s a comedy of errors!” He started to laugh again.\n\n\tRaph punched his arm, hard. “It ain’t a laughing matter,” he said roughly.\n\n\t“Ouch,” Don griped, rubbing his bicep. Sobering quickly, he said, “No, you’re right, it isn’t. This is the worst kind of love triangle.”\n\n\tRaph eyed him. “Are ya’ interested in one of us too?” he asked tentatively.\n\n\tDon looked at him with amusement. “Oh yes. I am waiting with baited breath for you two alpha males to fight for my hand and whichever of you is left standing gets to carry me off to your bedroom and have your way with me.”\n\n\t“Sarcasm doesn’t suit ya’ bro’,” Raph said with a smile.\n\n\t“Not to insult you Raphael, but my mind has never actually turned in that direction,” Don said. “The question facing us right now is, what are you going to do about straightening out this little misunderstanding?”\n\n\t“Me?” Raph asked incredulously. “Leo started it by kissing me first. I was perfectly content ta be miserable for the rest of my life. Why is it up ta me ta fix it?”\n\n\t“Because Leo fixes everything,” Don said patiently. “For someone who claims to care so much for Leo, you are certainly clueless about what he goes through to straighten out our problems. That includes the number of times when we were growing up that he ran interference for you so that Master Splinter didn’t know some of the things you were doing.”\n\n\tRaph frowned at his feet. “I always wondered why I didn’t get into more trouble. Used ta think it was ‘cause Master Splinter decided ta turn a blind eye ta some of my shit. Never knew it was ‘cause Leo was . . . “ He blinked and said, “Wait, are ya’ telling me Leo lied for me?”\n\n\tDon nodded. “That’s exactly what I’m telling you.”\n\n\t“Holy shit! Leo never fuckin’ lies. He’s got some kinda gadget in his head that doesn’t allow him ta lie,” Raph croaked.\n\n\t“Then I guess you found a way to override it,” Don told him. “He covers for you all the time.”\n\n\tRaph huffed. “I never knew that. Wonder what else I don’t know about him.”\n\n\tDon stood up, smiling as he looked at Raph. “You’ll never find out unless you come back to the lair and have a conversation with him. I’d recommend that you use your mouth rather than your fists, and by the way,” he added with a smirk, “when I say use your mouth, I don’t mean you should be trying to swallow his eye teeth.”\n\n\t“You’re a sick, perverted asshole,” Raph announced, jumping to his feet. “Ya’ ain’t gonna make me regret what I’ll do ta ya’ if ya’ spill what we just talked about, are ya’?”\n\n\t“I’m pretty sure that was a threat,” Don chuckled. “I’ll work hard to avoid your irascible retribution.”\n\n\tWalking next to Don, Raph said, “You’re a stuck-up know it all too.”\n\n\t“Mmm,” Don murmured, his humor evident. “Let’s see; I’m a sneaky bastard, a sick perverted asshole and a stuck-up know it all. No wonder you and Leo both want me so badly.”\n\n\t“Shut the fuck up and let’s go home. I gotta figure out how ta fix this mess and apologize ta Leo and Master Splinter. Ya’ know how I hate ta apologize.”\n\n\tThey climbed down the fire escape and then dropped into the sewers for the trip home. Raph’s mind was swirling with thoughts and emotions while he snatched frantically at them, trying to find something that would tell him what his next step should be.\n\n\tFirst thing he was going to have to do was talk to Master Splinter. Not about his immoral thoughts towards his brother; he sure as shell wasn’t ready for that. Depending on Leo of course, the whole point might be moot. If Leo didn’t want to pursue anything, then there was no reason for Raph to go to war with Master Splinter over it.\n\n\tDon seemed to know that Raph’s mind was in turmoil and he stayed silent during their return journey.\n\n\tAbout a mile from the lair, they turned a corner and nearly ran smack into Leo.\n\n\tThe blue banded Turtle had obviously been waiting for them. Arms crossed, stance wide and glare evident, it was also obvious he was not pleased.\n\n\t“Leo, what are you doing d . . . .” Don started to ask before Leo cut him off.\n\n\t“Go home, Donatello,” Leo ordered in his strictest command voice.\n\n\tIt was a tone of voice Don had been trained to obey, and he did just that, sparing one long look backwards as his two brothers faced off.\n\n\tRaph tried to remember why it was he was going back to the lair so early, but he could feel his resentment surfacing as he looked at Leo’s face. He told himself to breathe deeply and push the annoyance aside, because he needed to if he wanted to have a future with Leo that wasn’t entirely made up of an endless string of arguments.\n\n\tSo instead of going on the offensive, he patiently waited for Leo to say something.\n\n\t“I told you Don was off limits,” Leo said, his tone acidic.\n\n\t“For your information, Fearless, [i]our[/i] brother went looking for me,” Raph replied in an equally acerbic voice. He almost added, [i]‘get bent’[/i], but checked himself at the last minute.\n\n\tFor some unfathomable reason, that information shook Leo. His arms unfolded themselves and his face took on the look he got when trying to assess a shift on the battle field.\n\n\t“Dammit Leo, your confusin’ the livin’ shit out of me,” Raph barked. “I ain’t fuckin’ interested in Don the way ya’ think I am, and he ain’t interested in me like that. He ain’t thinkin’ of ya’ that way either, in case you’re wonderin’. Don told me he didn’t figure ya’ wanted him, but I’m startin’ ta wonder if ya’ just been hidin’ that fact from him.”\n\n\t“No,” Leo’s denial was almost a moan, and the sound cut right through Raphael.\n\n\tStepping towards his brother, Raph said, “Then what is this we got goin’ Leo? I only kissed ya’ twice, but ya’ gotta know how much I wanna keep doin’ that.”\n\n\tLeo’s head snapped up, his face freezing again. “That won’t be happening. Put it out of your head and forget any of it ever happened. Just trust me on this Raph.”\n\n\tWithout waiting for an answer, or for any continuing discussion, Leo turned and started back to the lair.\n\n\tRaph launched himself at Leo’s retreating form without thought. He had no plan, no realization of possible consequences, he just knew he wasn’t finished with Leo.\n\n\tLeo spun around when he heard Raph coming, and was therefore slammed carapace first into the tunnel wall. Raph jammed a knee between his legs and grabbed at his wrists.\n\n\tBefore he could get his hands on them, Leo reached around his brother and got a hold on the ties of his mask. Yanking down, he exposed Raph’s throat and his head darted forward to bury itself beneath Raphael’s chin.\n\n\tCompletely off guard, Raph closed his eyes as he felt Leo’s tongue and teeth assaulting the delicate skin on his throat. His palms were flat on the concrete tunnel walls on either side of Leo, and he had to brace himself when Leo’s tongue found his pulse point, making Raph’s knees shake.\n\n\tHis churr was loud and unbridled as he made no attempt to keep it down this time. A tentative nip at Raph’s collarbone shot a bolt straight into his hidden arousal.\n\n\t“Oh, damn Leo,” Raph groaned, “mark me. Bite me hard, I want the whole fuckin’ world ta see it.”\n\n\tFor an answer, Leo suddenly spun away from the wall, gripping one of Raph’s wrists as he moved. Quicker than lightening, he was behind Raphael, shoving his brother’s plastron against the concrete.\n\n\tRaph grunted in surprise, and tried to pull his arm out of Leo’s hand, but Leo pressed it into his carapace and tugged upwards, bending Raph’s arm painfully behind his back. Raph’s legs were splayed out, and he felt Leo move between them.\n\n\tA hot breath on his neck told Raph that Leo was leaning over him.\n\n\t“I’m going to mark you all right, little bro’,” Leo breathed against him. “I’m going to own you.”\n\n\tRaph quivered in anticipation as he felt Leo’s free hand drift down to wrap around his tail.\n\nTBC…….", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "Excerpt from Raph’s journal:

\t“He didn’t fight me.  I thought he would; damn, he fucking fights me about everything.  The way our conversation had started, with him glaring at me and ordering me out of the room, I was ready for a struggle.

\t“Leo just went limp, like he couldn’t fight anymore, and that was fine by me.  His mouth tasted like green tea and rice, not my favorite, but on him the flavors were sweet.

\t“I just wanted to taste him; all of him.  I wanted to lick his forest green skin, bite it, bruise it and own it.  The feelings were so overwhelming that nothing else mattered to me except making him mine like I always knew it should be.

\t“With the tables turned and me being on top this time, his trying to put an abrupt end to this wasn’t gonna happen.  I was too determined to find out how far he’d let me go.  If he was just playing some kinda game, I wanted to know right then and there.  Because I sure the fuck wasn’t playing.

\t“The feeling of his body under me, all that hard muscle pressing into different parts of my skin, was making me crazy hot.  My mind just took another leave of absence and surrendered control to my hands.  I found myself stroking his arms, enjoying the tight feel of them under my palms and then somehow my hands were on his exposed sides.

\t“When I let go of his arms I felt him move and my brain was kinda like ‘Oh fuck’.  I thought for sure that was it, he was gonna start pushing me away.  But he didn’t; I felt his hands on my shoulder and my neck and he was pulling me closer and shit, I couldn’t help but shudder.

\t“I couldn’t stop kissing him.  All my tongue wanted to do was be inside of Leo’s mouth.  Maybe that could have been enough, but I’m alive and I’ve got needs.  My gut was doing a fan dance that I could feel all the way down to my groin  . . . ."

\tRaph’s tongue ravished the inside of Leo’s mouth and his brother gave back as good as he got, tangling his tongue against the invaders.  The need for more finally moved Raph away, and he fell to Leo’s neck, licking at the skin in long sweeps.

\tThe sound rolled out of Leo first this time, and Raph now knew what to call it, thanks to his new laptop.  Raph let his own answering churr vibrate Leo’s pulse point as he lavished the spot with his tongue.

\tLeo shivered and grabbed at Raph’s shell, his eyes closed as his younger brother forced a new sensation on him.  Raph’s response was to grind their plastrons together, the rasping sound further exciting him.

\tUnable to help himself, Raph bit at Leo’s skin, at first nipping lightly, but then as his need grew stronger, he began to bite harder.  Leo was writhing under him, and the tiniest moan escaped his throat.

\tRaph opened his mouth wider and trapped a section of Leo’s neck between his lips, starting to suck at it fiercely when Leo gasped and shoved against him as hard as he could.

\tBarely registering that Leo was trying to push him away, Raph lifted his head from his brother’s neck.  He was breathing hard, his eyes half open and dark with lust.

\t“D . . . don’t do that.  You’re going to leave marks,” Leo whispered urgently.

\tRaph took a deep breath and said, “Yeah, I’m gonna leave marks.  Ya’ make love ta someone ya’ tend ta leave marks.”

\t“No,” Leo insisted, louder this time.  He planted his hands firmly against Raph’s scutes to push his brother’s mouth further from his body.  “You mustn’t leave any marks.”

\tJealousy flared suddenly and without warning, closely followed by its mate named anger.

\t“Ya’ afraid Don might see them?  Is that it Leo?  This some kind of perverted little ménage a trois ya’ playin’ with us?” Raph asked furiously.

\t“What?  No!” Leo yelled.  He slipped out of Raph’s grip quickly, sliding out from under him and rolling to his feet.  “You don’t understand,” he said.

\tRaph was rising slowly, his narrowed eyes focused on Leo’s.  The arousal that had been there moments ago was gone, his anger burning it away.

\t“Then help me understand,” Raph said.  “Tell me what the fuck is going on with ya’.  Are ya’ tryin’ ta get with Don, is that why you’re playing this fucked up mind game?  Ya’ think I ain’t seen the look on your face when I hang with Donny?  How ya’ try to get between us and then fawn all over him?”

\t“Leave Donny out of this,” Leo hissed at him.

\t“Donny’s right in the fuckin’ middle of this!” Raph shouted at him.  Jabbing an accusatory finger at his brother, he said, “Admit ya’ got a problem with seeing me and Don together, Leo.  Admit ya’ started this fuckin’ game of tonsil hockey just so I wouldn’t play with your Donny-boy.”

\t“Is that what you think of me?” Leo asked in astonishment.  “Do you honestly think I’m capable of doing something that dishonorable?”

\t“I think you’d do anything ta get your way,” Raph told him.  “Ya’ always been like that, it’s your way or the highway.  Sometimes your way stinks, Leo.  Sometimes your way is totally fucked up.  I think I’d rather be with Don than ya’.”

\tThe rage that took over Leo’s features was a terrifying thing to see.  The veins in his neck stood out, his lips curled away from his teeth and his brows drew together as he snarled, “Donatello is off limits to you!”

\t“Ya’ don’t get ta make that call!” Raph exploded.  “He’s my goddamn brother too!”

\tNeither of them heard the door open.

\t“Raphael!  Leonardo!” Master Splinter spoke sharply.  “What is the meaning of this?”

\tLeonardo’s face immediately flattened out and his head went down.  “My apologies sensei.  I didn’t realize our argument had gotten so loud.”

\tRight then Raph saw what Don had been trying to tell him about.  Everything about Leo suddenly froze to perfection at the sight of their father.  His posture, stance, facial expression; even the tilt of his head and tone of voice.  All instantly transformed into their father’s perfect son.

\tMaybe all those years of training and meditation made it possible for Leo to achieve such a radical shift so quickly, but that wasn’t suited to Raph’s temperament.  Master Splinter or not, Raphael was still a very angry, very frustrated turtle.

\t“Why don’t ya’ just tell him the truth, Leo?” Raph burst out.

\tHe got the satisfaction of seeing a slight cringe before Leo looked up at him placidly.

\t“Since you seem to think there is some truth that needs to be told,” Leo said, “why don’t you do the honors?”

\tHis tone was calm and his voice smooth, but Raph heard the hint of challenge in it.  Raph growled, staring back at him.  Didn’t the bastard know that Raph was too pissed off to care what he might blurt out?  Didn’t he fuckin’ realize that Raph was capable of spilling all the sordid details about the two of them, about Donat . . .

\tRaph stopped his mouth somehow.  He was so damn close to saying exactly what he thought, but he couldn’t drag Don into it.  It wasn’t Donny’s fault that Raph was having horrible, perverted desires for Leo, and it sure as shell wasn’t Don’s fault that Leo was apparently just as messed up as Raph was.

\tIn the time it took for that to flash through his brain and put a choke hold on his mouth, Leo’s complacent look had settled into place.  A little curve of his lips told Raph that Leo had already known his brother wouldn’t say anything.  Leo scored another point in the win column.

\t“Ya’ know what?” Raph said, pointing at both Leo and Master Splinter.  “I been stuck down here too long.  I’m goin’ topside for some air; Bishop be damned.”

\tHe spun on his heels without waiting for either of them to say anything and stormed out of the room.  

\t“Raph!” Leo called after him, an undercurrent of some emotion that Raph didn’t recognize in his voice.

\tMaster Splinter’s words were the last ones Raph heard before he left the lair.

\t“You will not go after him Leonardo.  You will remain here and speak to me of this matter.”

\tRaph had run a few miles before he outraced his anger enough to realize he’d been a complete asshole to leave and let Leo take the brunt of Master Splinter’s indignation.  That seemed to be all he was capable of doing; starting shit and leaving Leo to clean it up.

\tClambering up the side of a building near the waterfront, Raph plopped down on the roof’s ledge, his feet dangling over into space.  He rubbed at his forehead and then pounded his fist into it, mentally chiding himself.  It didn’t matter how much he wanted to be with Leo, or how his brother might respond, at some point Leo would always realize that Raph was a first class fuck up and pull away.

\tSensing a presence behind him, Raph tensed slightly before he heard the lightest pad of bare feet.  It wasn’t Leo; his stealthy bro’ didn’t even make that much sound, and it sure as shell wasn’t Mikey, who could be silent but rarely made the effort.

\tTurning his head enough to look over his shoulder, he said, “Hey Don.”

\tThe olive skinned brother moved closer, standing next to Raph.  “Hey.”

\t“How did ya’ find me?” Raph asked without looking up.

\tDon didn’t wait for an invitation to take a seat next to his brother.  Following Raph’s gaze, he took in the lights of the boats that were out on the water.

\t“Tracking module in your shell cell,” Don said.  “I installed them in all of your phones a while back.”

\t“You’re a sneaky, fuckin’ bastard, ya’ know that?” Raph said without rancor.

\t“Yes, I suppose I am,” Don responded mildly.

\tThey sat in silence for a few minutes, letting the city noise rise and fall around them.  Raph’s sigh told Don he was ready to talk.

\t“Is there anything you want to get off your chest, Raph?  Because I had the feeling that you were on the verge of telling me something yesterday before Leo interrupted us,” Don said.

 \tRaph rubbed a hand over the side of his neck.  He had two choices; he could keep all of this bottled up inside of him until he was a raving lunatic, or he could talk to Donatello.  Out of everyone he knew, friends and family alike, Don really was the only one he felt comfortable sharing this kind of information with.

\tThe fact that it involved Don made it a little easier.

\t“I think I’ve got feelings for Leo,” Raph said quietly and then stopped talking to watch Don’s reaction.

\tHis brother’s face was a complete blank for a few seconds, then understanding slowly tiptoed across his features.

\t“Sexual desires?” Don asked in an almost clinical manner.

\tRaph cleared his throat.  If anyone else had asked that question so bluntly, he would have leaped from the rooftop to his doom out of shame.

\t“That and more,” Raph answered.  “Felt that way about him since I can remember.”

\tDon pursed his lips and nodded.  “I think I can understand that, considering your personalities.  What have you done about it?”

\tRaph’s hands curled into fists.  “Nothing before a few nights ago.  Then I went and made a complete ass out of myself by practically admitting it ta him.”

\t“What does that mean?” Don asked.  “Practically admitting it to him is what exactly?”

\t“He kissed me,” Raph told him.  “That fight ya’ thought we were havin’?  Started out as one, but that ain’t how it ended.  When ya’ interrupted, he was pulling away from me and I was clinging ta him like a virgin maiden in distress, including the moaning.”

\tHe felt his face heat up in embarrassment and was glad to see that Don wasn’t looking at him.  Part of Don’s genius was his ability to listen and do the right thing at the right moment.

\t“He initiated the contact?” Don asked, his expression one of deep concentration.

\t“Oh shit,” Raph groaned, remembering belatedly that Don might have feelings for Leo as well.  “I’m . . . I’m a fuckin’ idiot.  I didn’t mean ta tell ya’ like that.”

\tDon’s head turned slowly towards him, a puzzled look on his face.  “Why are you apologizing to me?”

\t“Because  . . . because ya’ and Leo  . . . Leo wants ta be with ya’, that’s why he keeps hanging around ya’ all the time,” Raph explained.

\t“Ah,” Don said.  “And do you want to be with me too?  Because you’ve been practically a second shell the last couple of days as well.”

\t“No!” Raph nearly shouted.  “Shell no; no offense ta ya’ brainiac, but I been spending time with ya’ ‘cause it’s the only way I get ta see Leo.  Fuckers been avoidin’ me since that first kiss.”

\tSuddenly Don was laughing.  Not a chuckle, but full blown laughter.

\t“What is so fuckin’ funny?” Raph asked in a low, dangerous tone.

\tDon managed to calm down enough to choke out, “You think Leo is spending so much time with me because he’s hot for my shell.  He thinks you’re spending so much time with me for the same reason, but you both probably want each other.  Leo keeps popping in on us all of the time because he thinks we’ll be doing it on my desk if he doesn’t.  It’s a comedy of errors!”  He started to laugh again.

\tRaph punched his arm, hard.  “It ain’t a laughing matter,” he said roughly.

\t“Ouch,” Don griped, rubbing his bicep.  Sobering quickly, he said, “No, you’re right, it isn’t.  This is the worst kind of love triangle.”

\tRaph eyed him.  “Are ya’ interested in one of us too?” he asked tentatively.

\tDon looked at him with amusement.  “Oh yes.  I am waiting with baited breath for you two alpha males to fight for my hand and whichever of you is left standing gets to carry me off to your bedroom and have your way with me.”

\t“Sarcasm doesn’t suit ya’ bro’,” Raph said with a smile.

\t“Not to insult you Raphael, but my mind has never actually turned in that direction,” Don said.  “The question facing us right now is, what are you going to do about straightening out this little misunderstanding?”

\t“Me?” Raph asked incredulously.  “Leo started it by kissing me first.  I was perfectly content ta be miserable for the rest of my life.  Why is it up ta me ta fix it?”

\t“Because Leo fixes everything,” Don said patiently.  “For someone who claims to care so much for Leo, you are certainly clueless about what he goes through to straighten out our problems.  That includes the number of times when we were growing up that he ran interference for you so that Master Splinter didn’t know some of the things you were doing.”

\tRaph frowned at his feet.  “I always wondered why I didn’t get into more trouble.  Used ta think it was ‘cause Master Splinter decided ta turn a blind eye ta some of my shit.  Never knew it was ‘cause Leo was . . . “  He blinked and said, “Wait, are ya’ telling me Leo lied for me?”

\tDon nodded.  “That’s exactly what I’m telling you.”

\t“Holy shit!  Leo never fuckin’ lies.  He’s got some kinda gadget in his head that doesn’t allow him ta lie,” Raph croaked.

\t“Then I guess you found a way to override it,” Don told him.  “He covers for you all the time.”

\tRaph huffed.  “I never knew that.  Wonder what else I don’t know about him.”

\tDon stood up, smiling as he looked at Raph.  “You’ll never find out unless you come back to the lair and have a conversation with him.  I’d recommend that you use your mouth rather than your fists, and by the way,” he added with a smirk, “when I say use your mouth, I don’t mean you should be trying to swallow his eye teeth.”

\t“You’re a sick, perverted asshole,” Raph announced, jumping to his feet.  “Ya’ ain’t gonna make me regret what I’ll do ta ya’ if ya’ spill what we just talked about, are ya’?”

\t“I’m pretty sure that was a threat,” Don chuckled.  “I’ll work hard to avoid your irascible retribution.”

\tWalking next to Don, Raph said, “You’re a stuck-up know it all too.”

\t“Mmm,” Don murmured, his humor evident.  “Let’s see; I’m a sneaky bastard, a sick perverted asshole and a stuck-up know it all.  No wonder you and Leo both want me so badly.”

\t“Shut the fuck up and let’s go home.  I gotta figure out how ta fix this mess and apologize ta Leo and Master Splinter.  Ya’ know how I hate ta apologize.”

\tThey climbed down the fire escape and then dropped into the sewers for the trip home.  Raph’s mind was swirling with thoughts and emotions while he snatched frantically at them, trying to find something that would tell him what his next step should be.

\tFirst thing he was going to have to do was talk to Master Splinter.  Not about his immoral thoughts towards his brother; he sure as shell wasn’t ready for that.  Depending on Leo of course, the whole point might be moot.  If Leo didn’t want to pursue anything, then there was no reason for Raph to go to war with Master Splinter over it.

\tDon seemed to know that Raph’s mind was in turmoil and he stayed silent during their return journey.

\tAbout a mile from the lair, they turned a corner and nearly ran smack into Leo.

\tThe blue banded Turtle had obviously been waiting for them.  Arms crossed, stance wide and glare evident, it was also obvious he was not pleased.

\t“Leo, what are you doing d . . . .” Don started to ask before Leo cut him off.

\t“Go home, Donatello,” Leo ordered in his strictest command voice.

\tIt was a tone of voice Don had been trained to obey, and he did just that, sparing one long look backwards as his two brothers faced off.

\tRaph tried to remember why it was he was going back to the lair so early, but he could feel his resentment surfacing as he looked at Leo’s face.  He told himself to breathe deeply and push the annoyance aside, because he needed to if he wanted to have a future with Leo that wasn’t entirely made up of an endless string of arguments.

\tSo instead of going on the offensive, he patiently waited for Leo to say something.

\t“I told you Don was off limits,” Leo said, his tone acidic.

\t“For your information, Fearless, our brother went looking for me,” Raph replied in an equally acerbic voice.  He almost added, ‘get bent’, but checked himself at the last minute.

\tFor some unfathomable reason, that information shook Leo.  His arms unfolded themselves and his face took on the look he got when trying to assess a shift on the battle field.

\t“Dammit Leo, your confusin’ the livin’ shit out of me,” Raph barked.  “I ain’t fuckin’ interested in Don the way ya’ think I am, and he ain’t interested in me like that.  He ain’t thinkin’ of ya’ that way either, in case you’re wonderin’.  Don told me he didn’t figure ya’ wanted him, but I’m startin’ ta wonder if ya’ just been hidin’ that fact from him.”

\t“No,” Leo’s denial was almost a moan, and the sound cut right through Raphael.

\tStepping towards his brother, Raph said, “Then what is this we got goin’ Leo?  I only kissed ya’ twice, but ya’ gotta know how much I wanna keep doin’ that.”

\tLeo’s head snapped up, his face freezing again.  “That won’t be happening.  Put it out of your head and forget any of it ever happened.  Just trust me on this Raph.”

\tWithout waiting for an answer, or for any continuing discussion, Leo turned and started back to the lair.

\tRaph launched himself at Leo’s retreating form without thought.  He had no plan, no realization of possible consequences, he just knew he wasn’t finished with Leo.

\tLeo spun around when he heard Raph coming, and was therefore slammed carapace first into the tunnel wall.  Raph jammed a knee between his legs and grabbed at his wrists.

\tBefore he could get his hands on them, Leo reached around his brother and got a hold on the ties of his mask.  Yanking down, he exposed Raph’s throat and his head darted forward to bury itself beneath Raphael’s chin.

\tCompletely off guard, Raph closed his eyes as he felt Leo’s tongue and teeth assaulting the delicate skin on his throat.  His palms were flat on the concrete tunnel walls on either side of Leo, and he had to brace himself when Leo’s tongue found his pulse point, making Raph’s knees shake.

\tHis churr was loud and unbridled as he made no attempt to keep it down this time.  A tentative nip at Raph’s collarbone shot a bolt straight into his hidden arousal.

\t“Oh, damn Leo,” Raph groaned, “mark me.  Bite me hard, I want the whole fuckin’ world ta see it.”

\tFor an answer, Leo suddenly spun away from the wall, gripping one of Raph’s wrists as he moved.  Quicker than lightening, he was behind Raphael, shoving his brother’s plastron against the concrete.

\tRaph grunted in surprise, and tried to pull his arm out of Leo’s hand, but Leo pressed it into his carapace and tugged upwards, bending Raph’s arm painfully  behind his back.  Raph’s legs were splayed out, and he felt Leo move between them.

\tA hot breath on his neck told Raph that Leo was leaning over him.

\t“I’m going to mark you all right, little bro’,” Leo breathed against him.  “I’m going to own you.”

\tRaph quivered in anticipation as he felt Leo’s free hand drift down to wrap around his tail.

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