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Yes, I have many hobbies and interests that are stereotypically male, but even as a kid, I never understood why the boys acted the way they did, and why I couldn't dress pretty and hang out with the girls.

I know fantasy and roleplay are a great way to explore these feelings, and actually get some satisfaction of being what I feel I should have been, but again, for various reasons I have been hesitant, and downright scared to really take advantage of them in that way.

I created my HollyAnn character to roleplay a female, but Eddie has become such a part of me that I feel I need to have him make the journey that I wish I had the money and the courage to take in life.

Thanks, and SO many of them, go the wonderful and talented [iconname]FenFen[/iconname] to bring that acceptance to life and start us down that road

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