{
  "submission_id": "3319819",
  "keywords": [
    {
      "keyword_id": "29572",
      "keyword_name": "anxiety",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "327"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "33065",
      "keyword_name": "anxious",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "263"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "1029",
      "keyword_name": "clean",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "10370"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "4221",
      "keyword_name": "depressed",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "549"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "4222",
      "keyword_name": "depression",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "1114"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "2348",
      "keyword_name": "emotion",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "406"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "7653",
      "keyword_name": "emotional",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "851"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "10010",
      "keyword_name": "emotions",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "450"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "36091",
      "keyword_name": "freeform",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "13"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "1422",
      "keyword_name": "general",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "2737"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "6519",
      "keyword_name": "hurt",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "1095"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "119254",
      "keyword_name": "mental health",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "180"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "103036",
      "keyword_name": "mental illness",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "92"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "19908",
      "keyword_name": "poet",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "18"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "13177",
      "keyword_name": "poetry",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "832"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "85209",
      "keyword_name": "safe for work",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "1747"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "13974",
      "keyword_name": "sfw",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "29643"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "299",
      "keyword_name": "short",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "3961"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "2702",
      "keyword_name": "text",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "23138"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "7172",
      "keyword_name": "words",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "582"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "23835",
      "keyword_name": "writer",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "137"
    },
    {
      "keyword_id": "13849",
      "keyword_name": "writing",
      "contributed": "f",
      "submissions_count": "1972"
    }
  ],
  "hidden": "f",
  "scraps": "f",
  "favorite": "f",
  "favorites_count": "0",
  "create_datetime": "2024-05-09 20:17:03.078447+00",
  "create_datetime_usertime": "09 May 2024 22:17 CEST",
  "last_file_update_datetime": "2024-05-09 20:10:11.366142+00",
  "last_file_update_datetime_usertime": "09 May 2024 22:10 CEST",
  "username": "draconicdreamsart",
  "user_id": "1203922",
  "user_icon_file_name": "417122_draconicdreamsart_1640704981.draconicdreamsart_screenshot_20211227-103207_2.png",
  "user_icon_url_large": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/usericons/large/417/417122_draconicdreamsart_1640704981.draconicdreamsart_screenshot_20211227-103207_2.png",
  "user_icon_url_medium": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/usericons/medium/417/417122_draconicdreamsart_1640704981.draconicdreamsart_screenshot_20211227-103207_2.png",
  "user_icon_url_small": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/usericons/small/417/417122_draconicdreamsart_1640704981.draconicdreamsart_screenshot_20211227-103207_2.png",
  "file_name": "5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.txt",
  "file_url_full": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/files/full/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.txt",
  "file_url_screen": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/files/screen/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.txt",
  "file_url_preview": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.txt",
  "thumbnail_url_huge": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.jpg",
  "thumbnail_url_large": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.jpg",
  "thumbnail_url_medium": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.jpg",
  "thumb_huge_x": "300",
  "thumb_huge_y": "298",
  "thumb_large_x": "200",
  "thumb_large_y": "198",
  "thumb_medium_x": "120",
  "thumb_medium_y": "119",
  "files": [
    {
      "file_id": "5028837",
      "file_name": "5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.txt",
      "file_url_full": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/files/full/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.txt",
      "file_url_screen": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/files/screen/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.txt",
      "file_url_preview": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/files/preview/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.txt",
      "mimetype": "text/plain",
      "submission_id": "3319819",
      "user_id": "1203922",
      "submission_file_order": "0",
      "full_size_x": null,
      "full_size_y": null,
      "screen_size_x": null,
      "screen_size_y": null,
      "preview_size_x": null,
      "preview_size_y": null,
      "initial_file_md5": "5a0bb5e4539740e0cca44ddf7fe9417b",
      "full_file_md5": "5a0bb5e4539740e0cca44ddf7fe9417b",
      "large_file_md5": "",
      "small_file_md5": "",
      "thumbnail_md5": "25912298656ff401d8aec8391c5fe98c",
      "deleted": "f",
      "create_datetime": "2024-05-09 20:10:11.366142+00",
      "create_datetime_usertime": "09 May 2024 22:10 CEST",
      "thumbnail_url_huge": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/huge/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.jpg",
      "thumbnail_url_large": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/large/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.jpg",
      "thumbnail_url_medium": "https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/thumbnails/medium/5028/5028837_draconicdreamsart_degredation_of_love.jpg",
      "thumb_huge_x": "300",
      "thumb_huge_y": "298",
      "thumb_large_x": "200",
      "thumb_large_y": "198",
      "thumb_medium_x": "120",
      "thumb_medium_y": "119"
    }
  ],
  "pools": [],
  "description": "This poem was also prompted during the [url=https://emotionsmatterbpd.org/]Emotions Matters[/url] Virtual BPD Poetry Meet for May - however, this time it was essentially, [i]\"there should be more love stories about....\"[/i] This relates to my divorce.\n\n[b]If you enjoy this poetry, you will love my new [url=https://payhip.com/b/kIxln]zine[/url][/b]",
  "description_bbcode_parsed": "<span style='word-wrap: break-word;'>This poem was also prompted during the <a href=\"https://emotionsmatterbpd.org/\" rel=\"nofollow\">Emotions Matters</a> Virtual BPD Poetry Meet for May - however, this time it was essentially, <em>&quot;there should be more love stories about....&quot;</em> This relates to my divorce.<br /><br /><strong>If you enjoy this poetry, you will love my new <a href=\"https://payhip.com/b/kIxln\" rel=\"nofollow\">zine</a></strong></span>",
  "writing": "Degredation of Love\n\nPassionate, true love at first sight, \nEnding in a fizzling flame that sparks out.\nThe love once faithful, now brittle and faded,\nCannot be clung to for comfort any longer.\nOne side burns hot, the other frozen cold,\n\nMesmerized by another - leaving you behind\nWith only echoing memories and dust of what once was.\nAs they rejoice you drown in your sorrows,\nBegging for forgiveness and peace once again,\ncollapsing onto the cold floor alone.\nYou're left with just one question: \"why?\"\n",
  "writing_bbcode_parsed": "<span style='word-wrap: break-word;'>Degredation of Love<br /><br />Passionate, true love at first sight, <br />Ending in a fizzling flame that sparks out.<br />The love once faithful, now brittle and faded,<br />Cannot be clung to for comfort any longer.<br />One side burns hot, the other frozen cold,<br /><br />Mesmerized by another - leaving you behind<br />With only echoing memories and dust of what once was.<br />As they rejoice you drown in your sorrows,<br />Begging for forgiveness and peace once again,<br />collapsing onto the cold floor alone.<br />You&#039;re left with just one question: &quot;why?&quot;<br /></span>",
  "pools_count": 0,
  "title": "\"Degredation of Love\" (Poetry)",
  "deleted": "f",
  "public": "t",
  "mimetype": "text/plain",
  "pagecount": "1",
  "rating_id": "0",
  "rating_name": "General",
  "ratings": [],
  "submission_type_id": "12",
  "type_name": "Writing - Document",
  "guest_block": "f",
  "friends_only": "f",
  "comments_count": "0",
  "views": "5"
}