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, who encouraged me to be a cow in the first place. it was always hard to imagine it being an appropriate fit for me.. it felt so off limits because i found them to be so beautiful. TOO beautiful for myself >> but avvy really helped me with my self image.. her designs were more flattering & accurate than i could ever make on my own. i'm very grateful..

he is mostly reserved, and rather isolated in his life. he is soft spoken, mumbles and slurs his words a lot, and avoids eye contact. but he's not averse to gettnig close to others... he's just spent a lot of his life drifting in and out of others' lives. no deep or close bonds that stuck. he's withdrawn, and holds himself tightly. he's very emotional, and cries uncontrollably a lot of the time. but also he is capable of silliness, amidst his sulkiness.. much like myself hehe!!

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