2019-10-31
I could have gone out, but I didn't. I stayed inside and masturbated for what I am hoping will be the last time until December 1st. I suppose since I'm writing this log of me not masturbating I should introduce myself. My name is Ossian, I like masturbating because I'm a teenager with horomones, and I like guys and a concerning amount of fetishes. So, hopefully, every night I'm gonna be updating this log with how I'm doing. What an interesting idea.

2019-11-01
I hate myself already. Fucking great. I'm not even close to desperation or anything, but you bet your ass I want to masturbate. I can't really go back on my commitment now, I guess. I'd feel guilty for the rest of time. I just hope that I don't get so horny I lose my mind or something. I have an erection which is not fucking going down which is more annoying than anything else. I like dicks so it would be helpful for my situation if I didn't have a very visible dick right in front of me at all times.

2019-11-02
The fantasies have started. Normally, not wanking for a single day wouldn't be that much of a big deal. I'd be fine. But the fact that it's part of a stupid fucking challenge makes it a lot more difficult to handle. I don't have a boyfriend but I keep on imagining someone, not anyone in particular, ramming me in the ass for hours on end. Could I very simply just drink gallons of cum right fucking now? Is that too much to ask for? This is going to be an unbearable month...