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I'm so sick of waking up
I'm so sick of dealing with this
I'm so sick of fucking up
I'm so sick of dealing with me
Why was I born so fucked up?
Why is my brain such a rut?
I'm so sick of hating myself
Just let me be
Buried deep inside
No where left for me to hide
Cut me up and spill my guts
When will it be enough?
Am I evil?
Am I evil?
I am evil.
I am evil.
My happy place was burned to the ground
My happy place is all gone now
I'm a lost child in the world of the jaded
I'm a lost child begging to be loved
I can't help myself
I can't control these thoughts
I'm so sick of waking up
I'm so sick of dealing with this
I'm so sick of fucking up
I'm so sick of dealing with me
Why was I born so fucked up
Why is my brain such a rut
I'm so sick of hating myself
Just let me be
My happy place was burned to the ground
My happy place is all gone now
I'm a lost child in the world of the jaded
I'm a lost child begging to be loved
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