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Omorashi will be in part II, though!\n- \n\n\tXavier was getting frustrated.\n\n\tHe wanted to say something, [i]anything[/i] to break the cycle of thoughts in his head, but the only things that came to mind were about Erin, and more specifically, the two piece bathing suit clinging to her body. And, as if hiding unwarranted, overkill erections down the side of his trunks wasn't bad enough on its own, there was his mother, sitting in the driver's seat, only feet away. Every time he tried to think of something 'mom appropriate' to say, his mind was pulled back to Erin and her attire, and he got caught up in another fantasy. \n\n\tThere was nothing outwardly sexy about the bathing suit, either. No flashy colors, or excessive exposure, just a baby blue tone throughout the entire thing. The sight of her breasts was made more interesting than usual, and that would be doubly true after they swam, but Xavier still had not even seen the bottom half of her two-piece. She wore a matching skirt; that, while quite short at the highest point of its slant, was long enough to deter any wandering eyes, and left much to the imagination.\n\n\tHe had mixed feelings on it, feeling thankful there was less stimulus in the car, but also wondering if its effects on his imagination were making things worse, as the urge to look beneath it was nearly overwhelming, and most of his fantasies involved either pulling it up or pulling it off.\n\n\t\"So did you guys want me to leave the phone with you, or did you just want me to come at a certain time...?\"\n\n\t\"Uhhh, we were thinking about maybe two hours or something. That still cool with you?\" He looked over at Erin.\n\n\t\"Yeah, two hours should be fine.\"\n\n\t\"Okay, well, I'll try to be as close to two hours as I can, but don't be surprised if I am tastefully late.\"\n\n\tXavier pondered if his mom's comment was just a joke or if it had some kind of hidden meaning as they pulled on to a dirt road leading through a small forest. The car rocked as they hit a series of bumps.\n\n\t\"Oh, geez, this road is getting worse.\" Erin grabbed the handle above the back door.\n\n\tXavier glanced over, catching sight of her bouncing chest. He quickly looked away. \"Yeah, I think it is the rain or something. There's been a lot it lately. I think it is making the holes worse.\"\n\n\t\"Feels like it.\"\n\n\tThankfully, the pond was not far, and as they got closer, the dirt became increasingly sandy and leveled out. By the time it was visible, the forest had opened up, leading to small perimeter of tall, flimsy grass, with a small, informal camp for visitors to set up tents or towels. There was a clearing in the vegetation surrounding the coast of the pond for small boats like canoes; one of the few signs other people actually went there. It was small and relatively unpopular, as they had never ran into anybody else there in the past, but the humble vibe met their needs perfectly.\n\n\t\"Alrighty, looks like we're here.\" She pulled up by the clearing.\n\n\t\"Thanks for driving us, mom.\"\n\n\t\"Yeah, we really appreciate it!\"\n\n\t\"Oh, I'm happy to! I could hardly expect you to get all the way out here without someone to drive you. What do you guys plan on doing all the way out here for two hours?\"\n\n\t\"Eh, nothing much, probably take a swim or something...\" Xavier replied.\n\n\t\"For two hours?\"\n\n\t\"I dunno... We'll probably walk around or something. Same stuff we do at home, really.\"\n\n\t\"Same stuff? Hmm... “ She sounded concerned. “Okay, well, you both have fun... Be safe.”\n\n\tXavier sighed and closed his door. Erin smiled and closed hers as well.\n\n\tHe pondered the meaning to her words as she continued down the path, driving until it terminated in a circle, just big enough for her to turn around. Xavier and Erin stood around awkwardly, waiting for her to drive back past them. They waved and pretended to be interested in saying good-bye.\n\n\tAs she disappeared into the trees, it became clear the awkward standing around was not going with her. Xavier looked over at Erin, and found her staring back. He swallowed.\n\n\t\"So... whadda you wanna do?\"\n\n\tShe just shrugged.\n\n\t\"You wanna get in the pond? Or maybe walk around it for a bit?\"\n\n\t\"Eh, I don't think I wanna get wet yet.\" -- Xavier's ears twitched -- \"And the grass around the pond is kinda... annoyingly high.\"\n\n\t\"Hmm, yeah, it's at that place where it constantly tickles your legs and makes you think there're bugs on you and stuff...\"\n\n\t\"Bugs? I don't normally get that.. I guess I can see where you're coming from, though. Just don't really feel like they're bugs.\"\n\n\t\"Eh, it's more about the tickling. \"\n\n\tShe nodded. \"Yeah. It isn't the good kind of tickling either; it's the... 'I am gonna have to sneeze soon' kind of tickling. That real, uncomfortable kind of tingling.\"\n\n\t\"I didn't know there was a good kind of tickling...\" Xavier looked at her dubiously and chuckled.\n\n\t\"Well, you know, the... less bad tickling. This is the worse kind.\"\n\n\t\" Worse kind? ...Gosh, if I didn't know better I'd say you actually like being tickled.\"\n\n\t\"...I do not like being tickled. And I know what you're thinking, and do not even try it.\" She squinted at him.\n\n\t\"So you're saying if I [i]did[/i] try it, there is something for you to be worried about?\"\n\n\tShe didn't respond.\n\n\t\"Hmmm,\" Xavier closed his eyes. \"Good to know.\"\n\n\t\"And [i]what[/i], exactly, is good to know?\" She retorted.\n\n\t\"That you're ticklish.\"\n\n\t\"Hmpf! You would have to touch me to tickle me.\" She crossed her arms over her chest.\n\n\t\"...Oh? I wouldn't mind touching you. Is that a request? Or a demand?\"\n\n\t\"Neither, and it's gonna be a 'no' if you try tickling me.\"\n\n\t\"So, if I don't try to tickle you, is it gonna be a yes?\"\n\n\t\"It's gonna be a 'you'll see,' and currently, your future's looking a little bleak.\"\n\n\t\"Wow, that's kinda harsh. We haven't even moved and I've already been shot down.\"\n\n\t\"...That's what you get for flying over enemy territory.\"\n\n\t\"I was hoping you weren't gonna be the enemy, though.\"\n\n\t\"I'm not going to be your enemy if you don't do anything dumb -- like tickle me.\"\n\n\t\"Ah, well... I guess a temporary cease-fire will have to do then.\"\n\n\tShe frowned.\n\n\t“I guess I can't blame you for being worried.” He shrugged. “We both know what happens when you laugh too hard. And being stuck out here for two whole hours...”\n\n\t“Yeah, well, keep dreaming. Because that only works if I already have to go. Oh, and to be clear, that last time was a [i]fluke[/i]. It takes more than some laughter to make me... do that.” Her cheeks were darkening.\n\n\t“I guess I just gotta wait until you need to go then.”\n\n\tShe frowned again. “You better not.”\n\n\t\"'We'll see.'” He said it in a mocking tone and laughed. “Anyway, we can just lay here if you don't want to walk around. I am sure something will come to us.\"\n\n\tXavier laid out the towel not waiting for her response, positioning it so they would be lying in the flattest spots. He sat down first, planning to use where she sat relevant to him as a gauge of her interest. She walked over and stood on the towel, and he stole a glance at her behind as she did her best to sit down in a polite way, considering the skirt she was not at all used to wearing. Much to his dismay, she ended up positioning herself at the opposite edge of the beach towel. Even an inch further and her butt would have been on the grass.\n\n\t\"Oh, wow.\" He said it as he feigned offense.\n\n\t\"What?\"\n\n\t\"Well, I dunno, I guess I am just surprised you're sitting so far away.\"\n\n\tHer eyebrows furled. \"Whatta you mean?\"\n\n\t\"It's just, after everything, I expected you would sit a bit closer. This is further than you would [i]normally[/i] sit.\"\n\n\tShe frowned. \"You can't say something like that!\"\n\n\t\"Oh? But I just did.\"\n\n\t\"Yes, but it is rude.\" She crossed her arms again, this time under her breasts, involuntarily hiking them up.\n\n\t\"Why is it rude? I would say it is a legitimate problem to have.\"\n\n\t\"Yes, but I didn't plan on [i]staying[/i] over here. I was gonna move closer.\"\n\n\t\"You were? If you were gonna move closer, why not just sit closer to me to begin with?\"\n\n\t\"Because maybe I would [i]like[/i] to move closer.” Her cheeks were darkening again.\n\n\t\"So you're uncomfortable with us immediately being super close?\"\n\n\t\"No... It isn't that. Maybe I just... like the idea of doing it slow. Its more fun that way. And less embarrassing, at least when you don't point out everything I do as I do it.\"\n\n\t“So what, you wanna make it, like, a game?” Xavier teased.\n\n\t“Not a game.” She frowned again.\n\n\t“Okay, well, whatever you wanna call it... You wanna do it slow, then?”\n\n\t“I [i]did[/i] want to do it slow, but its a little too late for that.”\n\n\t\"Ooooh... Well, what if I just-\" He slid himself an inch closer to her. \"What if I did that? Would you return it?\"\n\n\t\"I would, yes. But I think you're missing the point.\"\n\n\t\"No, I see the point, but I can hardly go back in time and undo having said it, so I may as well just try to salvage the situation.\" He laughed.\n\n\t\"Hmm.\" She blushed. There were several moments of silence before she moved an inch closer to him. “There.”\n\n\tHe moved an inch away.\n\n\t\"... Okay,\" she frowned. \"Why did you do that?\"\n\n\t\"Because I realized we're both gonna end up on your side of the towel if I keep moving over like this.\" He laughed again.\n\n\t\"Oh, yeah, that's true...\"\n\n\t\"Okay, how about this: you just slide [i]all[/i] the way over here, and I put my arm around you?\" Xavier swallowed after saying it.\n\n\tShe looked over at him nervously. She didn't respond verbally, and instead slid several inches in his direction after several moments of deliberation. He met her halfway, causing their hips to touch when they stopped. He placed his arm around her shoulder, proud of how he handled the situation, even if not with picturesque eloquence.\n\n\t\"God, hardly a minute after being shot down and you already have me in your embrace. I'll have to watch out for this one... You work fast.\"\n\n\tXavier laughed. \"The car ride up here got me feeling all pent up... I had to do something to make up for lost time.\"\n\n\t\"'Lost time.' you say it like it's been days.\"\n\n\t\"Sure felt like it. Also, [i]technically[/i], it has been since we last got together.\"\n\n\t\"... Sounds like I've really gotten you smitten.\"\n\n\t\"'Smitten.'\" He chuckled.\n\n\tShe frowned. \"Says the little boy who can't even handle a car ride without getting 'pent up.'\" She mocked.\n\n\t\"Ha! Not my fault, if you ask me. It's yours for being so... Well, you know.\"\n\n\tShe looked at him, curious and with another emotion he couldn't quite make out.\n\n\t\"Don't act like you don't actually know what I mean.\"\n\n\t\"I do [i]kinda [/i]know... But maybe I want to hear you say it. And maybe I'm not completely sure, so be specific.\" She smiled.\n\n\t\"Okay, well, you're pretty good looking, for starters...\"\n\n\t\"Good looking?\"\n\n\t\"Yeah, good looking.\"\n\n\t\"And what's good looking about me?\"\n\n\tXavier blushed. \"... What isn't? Honestly.\"\n\n\tShe giggled. \"What a cop out answer.\"\n\n\t\"The problem is that if I point out one thing as being good looking, that implies the rest of you isn't. And I am pretty smitten by the whole package.\"\n\n\tHer resulting smile was more candid than usual, as was the blush on her cheeks.\n\n\t\"But, I guess if I [i]have[/i] to point out something, I would start with your face.\"\n\n\t\"My face?\"\n\n\t\"Yes. But it would be criminal to be anymore specific, because its all so good. So I can't say you have beautiful eyes, or really enticing lips.\" Xavier laughed as he saw her eyes widen.\n\n\tShe pulled her knees to her chest and hugged them. \"Really coming on strong today...\"\n\n\t\"Just a little 'pent up,' is all.\"\n\n\t\"I could tell... So is there anything else you like about me?\"\n\n\t\"Plenty more.\"\n\n\tThere was silence, as Erin waited for a response, and Xavier waited for her to realize one wasn't coming.\n\n\t\"You're not going to tell me, are you?\"\n\n\t\"Nope. Not now, at least.\"\n\n\t\"...Hmm, probably pay back for all the torture yesterday.\"\n\n\t\"Well, in my defense, it isn't exactly easy to say all this to someone I haven't even kissed yet.\"\n\n\tShe paused for a moment. \"Yeah, I suppose it wouldn't be...\"\n\n\tShe looked over at him and their eyes met. Xavier waited for one of them to crack and look away, but neither of them did. After everything they had gone through, they were too comfortable with the intimacy to be scared off.\n\n\tXavier recognized the situation, despite having never been in it, and he knew what had to come next. He felt a pang of regret before his mind went blank, having initialized it so quickly, without any time to think it over and consider his actions; but now that they were staring at each other, he had no choice. He moved his head closer to hers, acting entirely on instinct, hoping his empty mind did not mislead him.\n\n\tHe felt a small boost of confidence when her eye lids started to close in response. When their lips were less than an inch apart, they both stopped for a moment, and their heads grew closer slowly, until they met each other with light pressure and closed mouths. Xavier wasn't sure whether or not he was supposed to pull away, but after a rush of memories relating to all they had done and experienced together, he knew pulling away would have been an insult to her.\n\n\tHe let his tongue lightly probe the spot where her lips met, and he felt them spread as her tongue met his. Neither of them took it aggressively, and neither of them felt any need to take control. They had the confidence of knowing it was a first time for them both, so even if one of them was bad, the other would not know. \n\n\tXavier felt her teeth and pulled back a bit, finding the sensation strange. He returned to what he preferred, which was allowing their tongues to glide against each other, something he felt confident she enjoyed. When he saw one of her eyes crack open, he closed his, realizing that his staring was probably making her uncomfortable.\n\n\tAfter about sixty seconds, they both pulled away, feeling as if the momentum they initially had was lost. Xavier looked at her, but she stared down at his chest, clearly more daunted than he was.\n\n\t\"So, wow, that just happened.\"\n\n\t\"Yeah...\" She said so breathlessly.\n\n\tXavier turned to face the pond, not sure of what to say or do, but feeling satisfied and entirely less 'pent up.' She snuggled up against him, trying to get closer than she already was. She rested her head against his chest.\n\n\t\"I can see you enjoyed yourself.\" She was looking down at his trunks, specifically at the long bulge extending down his leg.\n\n\tHe chuckled, embarrassed. \"Yeah, a bit. Did... you enjoy it?\"\n\n\t\"Yeah, I enjoyed it. \" She almost whispered.\n\n\t\"Would you... wanna do something like that again?\"\n\n\tAfter several seconds of silence, she lifted her head off of Xavier's chest and turned to face him. She pressed her lips against his, but quickly pulled away to adjust her body. She used her hand as support as she leaned back and kissed him again. This time, Xavier felt her tongue probe him, and willingly he submitted.\n\n\tHe kissed her back, letting their tongues glide against each other once again. Xavier tried to retake control of the situation out of obligation, being the male wanting to do what was expected of him, but when he placed his hand on her back, she responded by pushing against him with her lips. She lifted her hand off the ground and rested it against his chest, pushing him on to the ground.\n\n\tXavier felt his breath picking up. He opened his eyes -- just then realizing they were closed at all -- and saw her hovering above him, on all fours. He ran his fingers through her fur, trying to match her energy, and felt as her back tightened and wriggled as his claws scratched the flesh below. His eyes closed again, and they remained like that until he felt her knee tap against his -- the one he had suspended.\n\n\tShe was peeping at him with partially open eyes, and it was then he realized what was happening. He let his knee drop to the ground as he completely laid out on the towel, feeling as she positioned herself immediately above him. His lower parts were throbbing and the pressure of his scratching grew more intense, trying to pull her closer.\n\n\tHis hands broke symmetry, one staying on her back, moving up closer to her neck; the other slipping past the hem of her skirt, which he used as a border between lower back and bottom. He squeezed the center of her butt cheek, forcing an involuntary moan from her throat as she lurched forward. Xavier felt his erection tighten from the suddenness of her response. He pushed against her lips with his, pulling her back into the moment.\n\n\tHe could feel the material of the skirt and the slippery mesh-like material of the bikini below, and while he had wanted his first time of touching a girl's butt to be with her naked, he was in no place to complain. He just knew he would look back on it, wishing he had known how to properly appreciate the moment, since she was so rarely in a bathing suit.\n\n\tHis hand fiddled with the edge of her skirt as he toyed with the idea of pulling it up over her butt. He could have gotten away with it, but it was apparent the sensations from their current contact were already shocking to her, and anything more might prove to be overwhelming. Instead, he brought his hand back up, and continued to grab at her in a constantly changing way -- sometimes slowly and softly, other times harder and with haste.\n\n\tWhen she pulled away from his lips, there was a small line of spittle connecting them. Their breathing had slowed down from earlier, but was still heavier than normal. She plopped down next to him, resting her head on his chest as he pulled her close.\n\n\t\"Wow.\" Xavier said aloud after a few seconds of shared silence.\n\n\t\"That's what I was gonna say.\" She giggled.\n\n\t\"That was...\" His voice trailed off.\n\n\t\"Awesome?\"\n\n\t\"Yeah... awesome.\" Xavier stared up at the clouds, thinking back to their last 'date,' wondering how things had accelerated so quickly.\n\n\t\"So much for not getting wet.\"\n\n\tHe looked down at her. \"...Not getting wet?\"\n\n\t\"Yeah.\" She squirmed in his arms. \"Looks like it happened anyway.\"\n\n\t\"Oh.\"\n\n\tShe laughed. \"I can see you enjoyed hearing that.\" The bulge between his legs flexed.\n\n\tXavier blushed. \"It isn't everyday I get to hear something like that...\"\n\n\t\"It isn't everyday I get to say it.\" She chuckled.\n\n\t\"So... since it might be a little rude of me to check through other means... How wet are we talking?\"\n\n\t\"Wow, subtle.\"\n\n\t\"Wasn't even trying to be subtle. I just want to know.\"\n\n\t\"Hmm...” She paused and looked down at her lap. She gyrated her hips for a moment, but stopped quickly. “It isn't that bad. I mean, I can [i]feel[/i] it. But, I don't think you could see it from the outside. At least not in a bikini.\"\n\n\t\"... Why do you specify a bikini?\"\n\n\t\"It's because of the material. Like, what a bikini is made out of. It wouldn't show it too well. But, I guess if I had on panties or something there might be a spot... It is mostly... undisturbed, too. I know that sounds weird but I guess it isn't too, like, on my clothes or anything, and it isn't too much on my fur either.”\n\n\t\"That's so hot.\"\n\n\tShe giggled. \"Really?\"\n\n\t\"It really is. I mean, really, you are just, ridiculous.\" He laughed.\n\n\t\"I'm... ridiculous?\"\n\n\t\"I mean, it is ridiculous how hot you are. The things you say, the things you do, it is unbelievable. It is unrealistic. Sometimes, you make me wonder if I am dreaming or something...\"\n\n\t\"Xavier, don't take this the wrong way, but how did you stay a virgin so long? You're just so compassionate and sweet and just, the entire package. You're fun to talk to, you're... hot to look at, and I just feel, completely.... just, every aspect of you is perfect.\"\n\n\t\"That's only because of what you say. I am not nearly as interesting as you think; and I am not nearly as smooth or romantic as I come off. A lot of what I say I have to try, I feel almost like I am faking it, but because my mind is blank and I have no choice. It's you that makes me like this. You just [i]know[/i] what to say...\"\n\n\t\"God! Your only flaw. You have no self-esteem. Did you know that? Of course your mind is blank when you talk to people, because... I can just tell you feel like you need to say something... impactual, with every word. Every line of speech from your mouth is... like a line, almost. Like you are filling in the gaps to some strange play that will reject you if you can't keep up.\"\n\n\tXavier stared at her, listening attentively.\n\n\t\"But you don't have to do that. If people reject you, that is [i]their[/i] problem, not yours. I mean, yeah, realistically you have to go along with the play [i]sometimes[/i], but doing it all the time removes the living from life and makes it a giant... obligation? Why [i]even[/i] care what they think? \"\n\n\t\"Huh. I guess that's true...\"\n\n\t\"No,\" she propped herself up on her elbow to face him. \"That wasn't a rhetorical question. I want to know why. Why do you even care?\"\n\n\t\"Why do I care?\"\n\n\t\"Why do you care what people think about you?\"\n\n\t\"That's a little presumptuous. I haven't confirmed a single thing you've said.\"\n\n\t\"So? The fact you said you haven't 'confirmed it' proves to me it is true, because if it wasn't at least [i]partly[/i] true, you would have said so.\"\n\n\tXavier sighed. \"...So you wanna know why I care what people have to think about me?\"\n\n\t\"Yeah, I wanna know.\" Her voice grew serious in its delivery and somewhat intimate in its tone.\n\n\t\"But like, that is a question you just can't ask somebody. It- it isn't something you can expect an answer to.\"\n\n\t\"Yeah, and you ask me questions that shouldn't be asked all the time, and I always answer them.\"\n\n\t\"Yeah... I guess that's true, but... No, wait, it isn't the same thing. Your questions aren't as serious as this. They're not nearly as... [i]involved[/i].\"\n\n\t\"But I still answer. I at least [i]try[/i] to answer. Can't you at least do that for me?\"\n\n\tHe repeated her choice in words in his head: 'for me.' He sighed again.\n\n\t\"I don't know... I guess... I guess I feel like it matters, a lot. Even if most people say it doesn't. I have to come off as good or impressive because if I don't, it will... negatively impact my life.\"\n\n\t\"Negatively impact your life?\"\n\n\t\"Yeah, what people think of me, how they treat me, how I am thought of and the opportunities I get in life... If I can't come off as a good person, then I will be missing out on things, things that could seriously change things for me. I will have a tougher time in life, and... in general... Ugh, I don't know.\"\n\n\t\"No, no, like, I understand. But, do you really think that... playing life the way you do is beneficial? To yourself or anybody? Shouldn't the things that come to you be the things that [i]should[/i] come to you? Why would you even want things not meant for you, how would you ever enjoy them?\"\n\n\t\"I-\"\n\n\t\"[i]And[/i], on top of that, why do you think the world is better off with the person you... think is the person you should be, rather than the one you are? I know it isn't a simple process or easy to just let yourself be you... especially because like I said before, sometimes you do have to like, put on a front. But, Xavier...\" She paused.\n\n\t\"You're an amazing person, and that is becoming more and more clear to me as we spend time together. I think I could always... see that in you, and you're amazing even when you're playing a part, but the real you, the people who really like you, that's what they see -- and that's because they [i]understand[/i] you. Don't make yourself hard to understand and push people and opportunities away. You're too... special, for that.\"\n\n\tUpon making her point, she turned around and rested her head on his chest.\n\n\t\"I... appreciate you saying all that.\"\n\n\t\"I'm sorry if it was... offensive at all. I like whoever you choose to be, but I prefer the real you, and I think everyone else does too.\"\n\n\t\"This is gonna sound corny but... I kinda wish I could appreciate the real me, too.\"\n\n\t\"I think you need to spend more time figuring out who the real you actually is. You can't love something you don't know. It just isn't possible.\"\n\n\tXavier paused for several moments, thinking deeply about her assertion. \"Huh. I guess its true.\"", "writing_bbcode_parsed": "\tComing of Youth
\tChap 3
\tPart UNO
\tWord Counter: 4.3k
\tFetishes/Kink: Nothing beyond furries in bikinis. Omorashi will be in part II, though!
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\tXavier was getting frustrated.

\tHe wanted to say something, anything to break the cycle of thoughts in his head, but the only things that came to mind were about Erin, and more specifically, the two piece bathing suit clinging to her body. And, as if hiding unwarranted, overkill erections down the side of his trunks wasn't bad enough on its own, there was his mother, sitting in the driver's seat, only feet away. Every time he tried to think of something 'mom appropriate' to say, his mind was pulled back to Erin and her attire, and he got caught up in another fantasy.

\tThere was nothing outwardly sexy about the bathing suit, either. No flashy colors, or excessive exposure, just a baby blue tone throughout the entire thing. The sight of her breasts was made more interesting than usual, and that would be doubly true after they swam, but Xavier still had not even seen the bottom half of her two-piece. She wore a matching skirt; that, while quite short at the highest point of its slant, was long enough to deter any wandering eyes, and left much to the imagination.

\tHe had mixed feelings on it, feeling thankful there was less stimulus in the car, but also wondering if its effects on his imagination were making things worse, as the urge to look beneath it was nearly overwhelming, and most of his fantasies involved either pulling it up or pulling it off.

\t"So did you guys want me to leave the phone with you, or did you just want me to come at a certain time...?"

\t"Uhhh, we were thinking about maybe two hours or something. That still cool with you?" He looked over at Erin.

\t"Yeah, two hours should be fine."

\t"Okay, well, I'll try to be as close to two hours as I can, but don't be surprised if I am tastefully late."

\tXavier pondered if his mom's comment was just a joke or if it had some kind of hidden meaning as they pulled on to a dirt road leading through a small forest. The car rocked as they hit a series of bumps.

\t"Oh, geez, this road is getting worse." Erin grabbed the handle above the back door.

\tXavier glanced over, catching sight of her bouncing chest. He quickly looked away. "Yeah, I think it is the rain or something. There's been a lot it lately. I think it is making the holes worse."

\t"Feels like it."

\tThankfully, the pond was not far, and as they got closer, the dirt became  increasingly sandy and leveled out. By the time it was visible, the forest had opened up, leading to small perimeter of tall, flimsy grass, with a small, informal camp for visitors to set up tents or towels. There was a clearing in the vegetation surrounding the coast of the pond for small boats like canoes; one of the few signs other people actually went there. It was small and relatively unpopular, as they had never ran into anybody else there in the past, but the humble vibe met their needs perfectly.

\t"Alrighty, looks like we're here." She pulled up by the clearing.

\t"Thanks for driving us, mom."

\t"Yeah, we really appreciate it!"

\t"Oh, I'm happy to! I could hardly expect you to get all the way out here without someone to drive you. What do you guys plan on doing all the way out here for two hours?"

\t"Eh, nothing much, probably take a swim or something..." Xavier replied.

\t"For two hours?"

\t"I dunno... We'll probably walk around or something. Same stuff we do at home, really."

\t"Same stuff? Hmm... “ She sounded concerned. “Okay, well, you both have fun... Be safe.”

\tXavier sighed and closed his door. Erin smiled and closed hers as well.

\tHe pondered the meaning to her words as she continued down the path, driving until it terminated in a circle, just big enough for her to turn around. Xavier and Erin stood around awkwardly, waiting for her to drive back past them. They waved and pretended to be interested in saying good-bye.

\tAs she disappeared into the trees, it became clear the awkward standing around was not going with her. Xavier looked over at Erin, and found her staring back. He swallowed.

\t"So... whadda you wanna do?"

\tShe just shrugged.

\t"You wanna get in the pond? Or maybe walk around it for a bit?"

\t"Eh, I don't think I wanna get wet yet." -- Xavier's ears twitched -- "And the grass around the pond is kinda... annoyingly high."

\t"Hmm, yeah, it's at that place where it constantly tickles your legs and makes you think there're bugs on you and stuff..."

\t"Bugs? I don't normally get that.. I guess I can see where you're coming from, though. Just don't really feel like they're bugs."

\t"Eh, it's more about the tickling. "

\tShe nodded. "Yeah. It isn't the good kind of tickling either; it's the... 'I am gonna have to sneeze soon' kind of tickling. That real, uncomfortable kind of tingling."

\t"I didn't know there was a good kind of tickling..." Xavier looked at her dubiously and chuckled.

\t"Well, you know, the... less bad tickling. This is the worse kind."

\t" Worse kind? ...Gosh, if I didn't know better I'd say you actually like being tickled."

\t"...I do not like being tickled. And I know what you're thinking, and do not even try it." She squinted at him.

\t"So you're saying if I did try it, there is something for you to be worried about?"

\tShe didn't respond.

\t"Hmmm," Xavier closed his eyes. "Good to know."

\t"And what, exactly, is good to know?" She retorted.

\t"That you're ticklish."

\t"Hmpf! You would have to touch me to tickle me." She crossed her arms over her chest.

\t"...Oh? I wouldn't mind touching you. Is that a request? Or a demand?"

\t"Neither, and it's gonna be a 'no' if you try tickling me."

\t"So, if I don't try to tickle you, is it gonna be a yes?"

\t"It's gonna be a 'you'll see,' and currently, your future's looking a little bleak."

\t"Wow, that's kinda harsh. We haven't even moved and I've already been shot down."

\t"...That's what you get for flying over enemy territory."

\t"I was hoping you weren't gonna be the enemy, though."

\t"I'm not going to be your enemy if you don't do anything dumb -- like tickle me."

\t"Ah, well... I guess a temporary cease-fire will have to do then."

\tShe frowned.

\t“I guess I can't blame you for being worried.” He shrugged. “We both know what happens when you laugh too hard. And being stuck out here for two whole hours...”

\t“Yeah, well, keep dreaming. Because that only works if I already have to go. Oh, and to be clear, that last time was a fluke. It takes more than some laughter to make me... do that.” Her cheeks were darkening.

\t“I guess I just gotta wait until you need to go then.”

\tShe frowned again. “You better not.”

\t"'We'll see.'” He said it in a mocking tone and laughed. “Anyway, we can just lay here if you don't want to walk around. I am sure something will come to us."

\tXavier laid out the towel not waiting for her response, positioning it so they would be lying in the flattest spots. He sat down first, planning to use where she sat relevant to him as a gauge of her interest. She walked over and stood on the towel, and he stole a glance at her behind as she did her best to sit down in a polite way, considering the skirt she was not at all used to wearing. Much to his dismay, she ended up positioning herself at the opposite edge of the beach towel. Even an inch further and her butt would have been on the grass.

\t"Oh, wow." He said it as he feigned offense.

\t"What?"

\t"Well, I dunno, I guess I am just surprised you're sitting so far away."

\tHer eyebrows furled. "Whatta you mean?"

\t"It's just, after everything, I expected you would sit a bit closer. This is further than you would normally sit."

\tShe frowned. "You can't say something like that!"

\t"Oh? But I just did."

\t"Yes, but it is rude." She crossed her arms again, this time under her breasts, involuntarily hiking them up.

\t"Why is it rude? I would say it is a legitimate problem to have."

\t"Yes, but I didn't plan on staying over here. I was gonna move closer."

\t"You were? If you were gonna move closer, why not just sit closer to me to begin with?"

\t"Because maybe I would like to move closer.” Her cheeks were darkening again.

\t"So you're uncomfortable with us immediately being super close?"

\t"No... It isn't that. Maybe I just... like the idea of doing it slow. Its more fun that way. And less embarrassing, at least when you don't point out everything I do as I do it."

\t“So what, you wanna make it, like, a game?” Xavier teased.

\t“Not a game.” She frowned again.

\t“Okay, well, whatever you wanna call it... You wanna do it slow, then?”

\t“I did want to do it slow, but its a little too late for that.”

\t"Ooooh... Well, what if I just-" He slid himself an inch closer to her. "What if I did that? Would you return it?"

\t"I would, yes. But I think you're missing the point."

\t"No, I see the point, but I can hardly go back in time and undo having said it, so I may as well just try to salvage the situation." He laughed.

\t"Hmm." She blushed. There were several moments of silence before she moved an inch closer to him. “There.”

\tHe moved an inch away.

\t"... Okay," she frowned. "Why did you do that?"

\t"Because I realized we're both gonna end up on your side of the towel if I keep moving over like this." He laughed again.

\t"Oh, yeah, that's true..."

\t"Okay, how about this: you just slide all the way over here, and I put my arm around you?" Xavier swallowed after saying it.

\tShe looked over at him nervously.  She didn't respond verbally, and instead slid several inches in his direction after several moments of deliberation. He met her halfway, causing their hips to touch when they stopped. He placed his arm around her shoulder, proud of how he handled the situation, even if not with picturesque eloquence.

\t"God, hardly a minute after being shot down and you already have me in your embrace. I'll have to watch out for this one... You work fast."

\tXavier laughed. "The car ride up here got me feeling all pent up... I had to do something to make up for lost time."

\t"'Lost time.' you say it like it's been days."

\t"Sure felt like it. Also, technically, it has been since we last got together."

\t"... Sounds like I've really gotten you smitten."

\t"'Smitten.'" He chuckled.

\tShe frowned. "Says the little boy who can't even handle a car ride without getting 'pent up.'" She mocked.

\t"Ha! Not my fault, if you ask me. It's yours for being so... Well, you know."

\tShe looked at him, curious and with another emotion he couldn't quite make out.

\t"Don't act like you don't actually know what I mean."

\t"I do kinda know... But maybe I want to hear you say it. And maybe I'm not completely sure, so be specific." She smiled.

\t"Okay, well, you're pretty good looking, for starters..."

\t"Good looking?"

\t"Yeah, good looking."

\t"And what's good looking about me?"

\tXavier blushed. "... What isn't? Honestly."

\tShe giggled. "What a cop out answer."

\t"The problem is that if I point out one thing as being good looking, that implies the rest of you isn't. And I am pretty smitten by the whole package."

\tHer resulting smile was more candid than usual, as was the blush on her cheeks.

\t"But, I guess if I have to point out something, I would start with your face."

\t"My face?"

\t"Yes. But it would be criminal to be anymore specific, because its all so good. So I can't say you have beautiful eyes, or really enticing lips." Xavier laughed as he saw her eyes widen.

\tShe pulled her knees to her chest and hugged them. "Really coming on strong today..."

\t"Just a little 'pent up,' is all."

\t"I could tell... So is there anything else you like about me?"

\t"Plenty more."

\tThere was silence, as Erin waited for a response, and Xavier waited for her to realize one wasn't coming.

\t"You're not going to tell me, are you?"

\t"Nope. Not now, at least."

\t"...Hmm, probably pay back for all the torture yesterday."

\t"Well, in my defense, it isn't exactly easy to say all this to someone I haven't even kissed yet."

\tShe paused for a moment. "Yeah, I suppose it wouldn't be..."

\tShe looked over at him and their eyes met. Xavier waited for one of them to crack and look away, but neither of them did. After everything they had gone through, they were too comfortable with the intimacy to be scared off.

\tXavier recognized the situation, despite having never been in it, and he knew what had to come next. He felt a pang of regret before his mind went blank, having initialized it so quickly, without any time to think it over and consider his actions; but now that they were staring at each other, he had no choice. He moved his head closer to hers, acting entirely on instinct, hoping his empty mind did not mislead him.

\tHe felt a small boost of confidence when her eye lids started to close in response. When their lips were less than an inch apart, they both stopped for a moment, and their heads grew closer slowly, until they met each other with light pressure and closed mouths. Xavier wasn't sure whether or not he was supposed to pull away, but after a rush of memories relating to all they had done and experienced together, he knew pulling away would have been an insult to her.

\tHe let his tongue lightly probe the spot where her lips met, and he felt them spread as her tongue met his. Neither of them took it aggressively, and neither of them felt any need to take control. They had the confidence of knowing it was a first time for them both, so even if one of them was bad, the other would not know.

\tXavier felt her teeth and pulled back a bit, finding the sensation strange. He returned to what he preferred, which was allowing their tongues to glide against each other, something he felt confident she enjoyed. When he saw one of her eyes crack open, he closed his, realizing that his staring was probably making her uncomfortable.

\tAfter about sixty seconds, they both pulled away, feeling as if the momentum they initially had was lost. Xavier looked at her, but she stared down at his chest, clearly more daunted than he was.

\t"So, wow, that just happened."

\t"Yeah..." She said so breathlessly.

\tXavier turned to face the pond, not sure of what to say or do, but feeling satisfied and entirely less 'pent up.' She snuggled up against him, trying to get closer than she already was. She rested her head against his chest.

\t"I can see you enjoyed yourself." She was looking down at his trunks, specifically at the long bulge extending down his leg.

\tHe chuckled, embarrassed. "Yeah, a bit. Did... you enjoy it?"

\t"Yeah, I enjoyed it. " She almost whispered.

\t"Would you... wanna do something like that again?"

\tAfter several seconds of silence, she lifted her head off of Xavier's chest and turned to face him. She pressed her lips against his, but quickly pulled away to adjust her body. She used her hand as support as she leaned back and kissed him again. This time, Xavier felt her tongue probe him, and willingly he submitted.

\tHe kissed her back, letting their tongues glide against each other once again. Xavier tried to retake control of the situation out of obligation, being the male wanting to do what was expected of him, but when he placed his hand on her back, she responded by pushing against him with her lips. She lifted her hand off the ground and rested it against his chest, pushing him on to the ground.

\tXavier felt his breath picking up. He opened his eyes -- just then realizing they were closed at all -- and saw her hovering above him, on all fours. He ran his fingers through her fur, trying to match her energy, and felt as her back tightened and wriggled as his claws scratched the flesh below. His eyes closed again, and they remained like that until he felt her knee tap against his -- the one he had suspended.

\tShe was peeping at him with partially open eyes, and it was then he realized what was happening. He let his knee drop to the ground as he completely laid out on the towel, feeling as she positioned herself immediately above him. His lower parts were throbbing and the pressure of his scratching grew more intense, trying to pull her closer.

\tHis hands broke symmetry, one staying on her back, moving up closer to her neck; the other slipping past the hem of her skirt, which he used as a border between lower back and bottom. He squeezed the center of her butt cheek, forcing an involuntary moan from her throat as she lurched forward. Xavier felt his erection tighten from the suddenness of her response. He pushed against her lips with his, pulling her back into the moment.

\tHe could feel the material of the skirt and the slippery mesh-like material of the bikini below, and while he had wanted his first time of touching a girl's butt to be with her naked, he was in no place to complain. He just knew he would look back on it, wishing he had known how to properly appreciate the moment, since she was so rarely in a bathing suit.

\tHis hand fiddled with the edge of her skirt as he toyed with the idea of pulling it up over her butt. He could have gotten away with it, but it was apparent the sensations from their current contact were already shocking to her, and anything more might prove to be overwhelming. Instead, he brought his hand back up, and continued to grab at her in a constantly changing way -- sometimes slowly and softly, other times harder and with haste.

\tWhen she pulled away from his lips, there was a small line of spittle connecting them. Their breathing had slowed down from earlier, but was still heavier than normal. She plopped down next to him, resting her head on his chest as he pulled her close.

\t"Wow." Xavier said aloud after a few seconds of shared silence.

\t"That's what I was gonna say." She giggled.

\t"That was..." His voice trailed off.

\t"Awesome?"

\t"Yeah... awesome." Xavier stared up at the clouds, thinking back to their last 'date,' wondering how things had accelerated so quickly.

\t"So much for not getting wet."

\tHe looked down at her. "...Not getting wet?"

\t"Yeah." She squirmed in his arms. "Looks like it happened anyway."

\t"Oh."

\tShe laughed. "I can see you enjoyed hearing that." The bulge between his legs flexed.

\tXavier blushed. "It isn't everyday I get to hear something like that..."

\t"It isn't everyday I get to say it." She chuckled.

\t"So... since it might be a little rude of me to check through other means... How wet are we talking?"

\t"Wow, subtle."

\t"Wasn't even trying to be subtle. I just want to know."

\t"Hmm...” She paused and looked down at her lap. She gyrated her hips for a moment, but stopped quickly. “It isn't that bad. I mean, I can feel it. But, I don't think you could see it from the outside. At least not in a bikini."

\t"... Why do you specify a bikini?"

\t"It's because of the material. Like, what a bikini is made out of. It wouldn't show it too well. But, I guess if I had on panties or something there might be a spot... It is mostly... undisturbed, too. I know that sounds weird but I guess it isn't too, like, on my clothes or anything, and it isn't too much on my fur either.”

\t"That's so hot."

\tShe giggled. "Really?"

\t"It really is. I mean, really, you are just, ridiculous." He laughed.

\t"I'm... ridiculous?"

\t"I mean, it is ridiculous how hot you are. The things you say, the things you do, it is unbelievable. It is unrealistic. Sometimes, you make me wonder if I am dreaming or something..."

\t"Xavier, don't take this the wrong way, but how did you stay a virgin so long? You're just so compassionate and sweet and just, the entire package. You're fun to talk to, you're... hot to look at, and I just feel, completely.... just, every aspect of you is perfect."

\t"That's only because of what you say. I am not nearly as interesting as you think; and I am not nearly as smooth or romantic as I come off. A lot of what I say I have to try, I feel almost like I am faking it, but because my mind is blank and I have no choice. It's you that makes me like this. You just know what to say..."

\t"God! Your only flaw. You have no self-esteem. Did you know that? Of course your mind is blank when you talk to people, because... I can just tell you feel like you need to say something... impactual, with every word. Every line of speech from your mouth is... like a line, almost. Like you are filling in the gaps to some strange play that will reject you if you can't keep up."

\tXavier stared at her, listening attentively.

\t"But you don't have to do that. If people reject you, that is their problem, not yours. I mean, yeah, realistically you have to go along with the play sometimes, but doing it all the time removes the living from life and makes it a giant... obligation? Why even care what they think? "

\t"Huh. I guess that's true..."

\t"No," she propped herself up on her elbow to face him. "That wasn't a rhetorical question. I want to know why. Why do you even care?"

\t"Why do I care?"

\t"Why do you care what people think about you?"

\t"That's a little presumptuous. I haven't confirmed a single thing you've said."

\t"So? The fact you said you haven't 'confirmed it' proves to me it is true, because if it wasn't at least partly true, you would have said so."

\tXavier sighed. "...So you wanna know why I care what people have to think about me?"

\t"Yeah, I wanna know." Her voice grew serious in its delivery and somewhat intimate in its tone.

\t"But like, that is a question you just can't ask somebody. It- it isn't something you can expect an answer to."

\t"Yeah, and you ask me questions that shouldn't be asked all the time, and I always answer them."

\t"Yeah... I guess that's true, but... No, wait, it isn't the same thing. Your questions aren't as serious as this. They're not nearly as... involved."

\t"But I still answer. I at least try to answer. Can't you at least do that for me?"

\tHe repeated her choice in words in his head: 'for me.' He sighed again.

\t"I don't know... I guess... I guess I feel like it matters, a lot. Even if most people say it doesn't. I have to come off as good or impressive because if I don't, it will... negatively impact my life."

\t"Negatively impact your life?"

\t"Yeah, what people think of me, how they treat me, how I am thought of and the opportunities I get in life... If I can't come off as a good person, then I will be missing out on things, things that could seriously change things for me. I will have a tougher time in life, and... in general... Ugh, I don't know."

\t"No, no, like, I understand. But, do you really think that... playing life the way you do is beneficial? To yourself or anybody? Shouldn't the things that come to you be the things that should come to you? Why would you even want things not meant for you, how would you ever enjoy them?"

\t"I-"

\t"And, on top of that, why do you think the world is better off with the person you... think is the person you should be, rather than the one you are? I know it isn't a simple process or easy to just let yourself be you... especially because like I said before, sometimes you do have to like, put on a front. But, Xavier..." She paused.

\t"You're an amazing person, and that is becoming more and more clear to me as we spend time together. I think I could always... see that in you, and you're amazing even when you're playing  a part, but the real you, the people who really like you, that's what they see -- and that's because they understand you. Don't make yourself hard to understand and push people and opportunities away. You're too... special, for that."

\tUpon making her point, she turned around and rested her head on his chest.

\t"I... appreciate you saying all that."

\t"I'm sorry if it was... offensive at all. I like whoever you choose to be, but I prefer the real you, and I think everyone else does too."

\t"This is gonna sound corny but... I kinda wish I could appreciate the real me, too."

\t"I think you need to spend more time figuring out who the real you actually is. You can't love something you don't know. It just isn't possible."

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