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I never knew any of them, but I miss their presence, and feel for the people that really are grieving the way I was when it was Red-N-Milo. And on the other paw, even when it's just strictly a parasocial relationship, this is no doubt at least a handful of furs' first real shock to the system. They've seen for the first time just how real shit can get. This might be one of the longest online people/fursona fanhoods for them, one of their longest friendships if they knew him starting out. There's people that dissed or abandoned him that feel wretched now. Of course, the little cyberwar we have playing out right now, which is why I can't post this on the owner's own site. This really blows, all around. \n\nA dedication to other furs from the past, living and otherwise, is something that does and very well should take lots of attempts. And yeah, I'll totally get to recording this. But I really had my heart set on FA, and in a matter of days these lyrics won't make sense anymore! 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So yeah, call it a bit much to put him up there with hip-hop legends, but I think I'm going to miss him similarly. I never knew any of them, but I miss their presence, and feel for the people that really are grieving the way I was when it was Red-N-Milo. And on the other paw, even when it's just strictly a parasocial relationship, this is no doubt at least a handful of furs' first real shock to the system. They've seen for the first time just how real shit can get. This might be one of the longest online people/fursona fanhoods for them, one of their longest friendships if they knew him starting out. There's people that dissed or abandoned him that feel wretched now. Of course, the little cyberwar we have playing out right now, which is why I can't post this on the owner's own site. This really blows, all around.

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