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  "writing": "Hurting\n\nI’ve hurt someone.\n\nI was trusted with his heart.\n\nAnd I betrayed that.\n\nWhat I did I can not say,\n\nBut I who had sworn\n\nNever anyone to hurt.\n\nWeather intentional\n\nOr not the deed is done.\n\nTo collect his thoughts,\n\nNow he has gone.\n\nFor my love I’ll abstain\n\nTill he says it is ok I forgive\n\nOr the word I Dread\n\n‘We’re Done’\n\nEven now his absence leaves\n\nMe empty inside.\n\nI want him back though\n\nIf I hurt I don’t deserve him.\n\nIf I can hurt one I hold so dear\n\nNor do I deserve the blessings of \n\nThe Goddess and the \n\nStation of Kestra’Chern.\n\nThe Goddess offers\n\nNo words of comfort, \n\nTo her I feel I’ve also betrayed.\n\nIf she were only to tell me \n\nI’ll take back up \n\nMy station and duties.\n\nBut awareness I must practice,\n\nTo see what my action pain causes.\n\nA Kestra’s job is to help others through\n\nTheir Pain, not cause more.\n\n",
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