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She was a pur soul and for sure one which will be missed.\n\nAs memorial and honor, i created her a picture as how i remember her in the persona in form of \"Sparky\", her Spy Vs Spy character.\n\nThe text you can read there was taken 1:1 from her Secondlife profile, \"Neo Jesse (Feram Brimm)\". It makes me really cry and feel sad but i had to do something in memories of her.\n\nI know that people will try to honor her with a video becourse she was a really beloved person by many. I also took part and sended already all stuff i could find to the video creator and shared already a small story about her and how i met her. I will copy the story below, if youre willing to read it. As for some links you might be intrested in incase you were a close friend of hers:\n\nNichole's Obituary:\nhttps://www.berryhillfh.com/obituary/nichole-hargrove\n\nA song i had in mind becourse of her (if you read the story now down below, you might see why):\nhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2F-UMMnpY2w\n\nHer FA account:\nhttps://www.furaffinity.net/user/novagecko/\n\nThe Story about me and Feram:\n\nAs for a small story, im sorry if my english sucks a bit. firstly im from germany and i really try my best with english,\nsecondly, the death of my friend is really something which makes me really cry and feel how much i really do miss her.\n\nNichole Marie Hargrove, mostly known for me as \"Feram\" or \"Sparky\" as in her \"Spysona\" form from Spy Vs Spy was a very kind person as i knew her.\nI dont remember exactly how i met her, kinda sad if you think about it, but it has to be around summer time 2015. I was working on a Spy Vs Spy system and avatars\njust for fun on an old mobian place (sonic the hedgehog) i was working there normaly as co owner.\n\nI was already a long time fan from Spy Vs Spy and, till today (which is kinda funny), Secondlife never really offerd a good looking or funny looking Spy Vs Spy avatar\nor something like. I was like ok, lets create something really dumb for myself which was a Black Spy avatar made out just of some prims. Looking back to it,\nits still kinda way to easy made and, since im lacking skills of 3d modeling, it really was just made out of some prims. the face, the hat, everything on it was kinda a mess\nbut it works for what it is, even if it is simply made - up to this date, i still sell it and no other person made a spy vs spy avatar for the secondlife market...\nand i dont know why!\n\nAnd here is where Faram comes in. I dont know why, maybe it was destiny but she was very kind to me as she saw my Spy vs Spy avatar and began to create something like\nan soft obsession to it. She really began to enjoy the Spy vs Spy stuff. She told me she was a long time fan herself and wanted me to create more from this Spy Vs Spy stuff,\n even encouraged me to create a female white spy avatar, a whole Spy Vs Spy fight system with a tone of firearm weapons and traps!\n\nI even went so far to create her own Spysona, \"Sparky\", a black female spy with red eyes, a white feather on her head (i come back to this in a bit)\nand her trademark melee weapon, which was pretty much a electronic brass knuckle XD it was a way to fun time i had and so i also learned about other people around her\nwhich enjoyed the spy vs spy stuff - like Lord Raiden (Demonblade7) which also created himself a Spysona with an armor! :3\n\nSome months later, the mobian place had to close and so Feram got the idea to create a own new place for all the spy stuff i was creating.\nShe was hosting the place and we called it Spy Vs Spy HQ. We worked really really hard on this place and tried to keep it running for several months.\nFeram was one of the persons which just enjoyed the stuff i builded up really really much. She really enjoyed all the weapons i made for this spy vs spy system\nand all the traps and the building we had on the Parcel. I played several rounds and just shooted each other with all the crazy stuff of weapons she,\nRaiden or me just made up - like a \"POW\" gun which pretty much just yeeted a stunning boxing glove at other people. XD\n\nIt was a great time i really enjoyed and i really keep in my heart.\nAfter that era of time, she went into the undertale fandom where i sadly had less and less contact with her. I still was her friend and sure we meet up from\ntime to time but not as often as before.\n\nIn the last months, i sadly didnt used SL anymore coz i was busy with other stuff or found other stuff more interesting.\nJust some weeks ago, i met her at her last place she opend up, a sim which was retrofuture/synthwave styled. \n\nShe was really happy to see me again since we didnt talked for a long time coz either if i used sl, she wasnt online or i wasnt.\nIt was, again, something like a reunion for us...and its even more sad to think about that she was again so happy again to see me and talk to me.\nAs in her usual kind, she again offerd her help with giving me a home place on her sim, offering again a place for myself and other friends.\n\nIt makes me sad if i think about how friendly she was. She really cared way to much about others first before she even cared about herself.\nThat she died coz of covid 19 makes it really sad for me to think about her. She was a pur soul and didnt deserve such death.\n\nI will honestly say that Feram as i was knowing her was sure not a perfect person and maybe not a very skillful one in building or drawing but i will lie if i wouldnt\nsay she tired - and she tried always to do her best. Mostly not for her, but her friends.\n\nShe tried to run several places from the Spy Vs Spy HQ to a Undertale sim, a pokemon sim and a retrofuture sim to the end.\nI dont know how many places she opend or helped out running but, where ever there was a fandom which needed some help, she was there for it. Not for heself,\nfor the people. I saw how happy she was and how she was happy to help people. She was a person which really deserved better and it always let me smile to think about\nhow hard she tried just to give people a smile as well.\n\nStill, there were times where she could be also very lonely and emotional, showing that even behind a helpful person, there is also just a small person which needed help\nfrom time to time herself...\n\ni remember fondly a talk i had with her very early on a day on one of the undertale sims she was running.\nShe was sitting alone there, on the edge of the sim and was just listen to music, relaxing herself. I came just by and we sat down and enjoyed the moment as friends\nand had some deep talk about music. So she told me that shes normaly into a lot instrumental music. I was a fan from Depeche Mode and i gave her some song to hear,\nas sample \"Enjoy the Silence\" and \"Precious\". Names last one was the one she really enjoyed the most and it also made her cry for a moment. It was a side from her i really\nnever often saw and thinking back about it makes me really cry right now...\n\nCome to think of it, the Feather she gave Sparky on her head was a symbol for her luck. I wished the feather would brought her more of if you think about it...\n\nShe was such a kind and good person. I really hope she didnt suffer to much as she died. She was about my age and thinking about that i just lost a friend with such a kind\nand pur soul makes me really cry. I hope shes now at a better place and that god watches now her soul when she tries to teach young angels fly or something\nwhich she sure would do up there in heaven...\n\nRest in peace my old friend, im sure you will be missed by many...you might just dont know...\n\nim sorry...im really in tears right now...May she rest in peace...", "description_bbcode_parsed": "Nichole Marie Hargrove, known as "Novagecko" or "Feram", died on 22/09/2020 becourse of an covid-19 infection.

She was a very good friend of mine and pretty helped me, back in the day, with a lot stuff i made - mostly my Spy Vs Spy stuff and art. She was a pur soul and for sure one which will be missed.

As memorial and honor, i created her a picture as how i remember her in the persona in form of "Sparky", her Spy Vs Spy character.

The text you can read there was taken 1:1 from her Secondlife profile, "Neo Jesse (Feram Brimm)". It makes me really cry and feel sad but i had to do something in memories of her.

I know that people will try to honor her with a video becourse she was a really beloved person by many. I also took part and sended already all stuff i could find to the video creator and shared already a small story about her and how i met her. I will copy the story below, if youre willing to read it. As for some links you might be intrested in incase you were a close friend of hers:

Nichole's Obituary:
https://www.berryhillfh.com/obituary/nichole-hargrove

A song i had in mind becourse of her (if you read the story now down below, you might see why):
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2F-UMMnpY2w

Her FA account:
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/novagecko/

The Story about me and Feram:

As for a small story, im sorry if my english sucks a bit. firstly im from germany and i really try my best with english,
secondly, the death of my friend is really something which makes me really cry and feel how much i really do miss her.

Nichole Marie Hargrove, mostly known for me as "Feram" or "Sparky" as in her "Spysona" form from Spy Vs Spy was a very kind person as i knew her.
I dont remember exactly how i met her, kinda sad if you think about it, but it has to be around summer time 2015. I was working on a Spy Vs Spy system and avatars
just for fun on an old mobian place (sonic the hedgehog) i was working there normaly as co owner.

I was already a long time fan from Spy Vs Spy and, till today (which is kinda funny), Secondlife never really offerd a good looking or funny looking Spy Vs Spy avatar
or something like. I was like ok, lets create something really dumb for myself which was a Black Spy avatar made out just of some prims. Looking back to it,
its still kinda way to easy made and, since im lacking skills of 3d modeling, it really was just made out of some prims. the face, the hat, everything on it was kinda a mess
but it works for what it is, even if it is simply made - up to this date, i still sell it and no other person made a spy vs spy avatar for the secondlife market...
and i dont know why!

And here is where Faram comes in. I dont know why, maybe it was destiny but she was very kind to me as she saw my Spy vs Spy avatar and began to create something like
an soft obsession to it. She really began to enjoy the Spy vs Spy stuff. She told me she was a long time fan herself and wanted me to create more from this Spy Vs Spy stuff,
 even encouraged me to create a female white spy avatar, a whole Spy Vs Spy fight system with a tone of firearm weapons and traps!

I even went so far to create her own Spysona, "Sparky", a black female spy with red eyes, a white feather on her head (i come back to this in a bit)
and her trademark melee weapon, which was pretty much a electronic brass knuckle XD it was a way to fun time i had and so i also learned about other people around her
which enjoyed the spy vs spy stuff - like Lord Raiden (Demonblade7) which also created himself a Spysona with an armor! :3

Some months later, the  mobian place had to close and so Feram got the idea to create a own new place for all the spy stuff i was creating.
She was hosting the place and we called it Spy Vs Spy HQ. We worked really really hard on this place and tried to keep it running for several months.
Feram was one of the persons which just enjoyed the stuff i builded up really really much. She really enjoyed all the weapons i made for this spy vs spy system
and all the traps and the building we had on the Parcel. I played several rounds and just shooted each other with all the crazy stuff of weapons she,
Raiden or me just made up - like a "POW" gun which pretty much just yeeted a stunning boxing glove at other people. XD

It was a great time i really enjoyed and i really keep in my heart.
After that era of time, she went into the undertale fandom where i sadly had less and less contact with her. I still was her friend and sure we meet up from
time to time but not as often as before.

In the last months, i sadly didnt used SL anymore coz i was busy with other stuff or found other stuff more interesting.
Just some weeks ago, i met her at her last place she opend up, a sim which was retrofuture/synthwave styled.

She was really happy to see me again since we didnt talked for a long time coz either if i used sl, she wasnt online or i wasnt.
It was, again, something like a reunion for us...and its even more sad to think about that she was again so happy again to see me and talk to me.
As in her usual kind, she again offerd her help with giving me a home place on her sim, offering again a place for myself and other friends.

It makes me sad if i think about how friendly she was. She really cared way to much about others first before she even cared about herself.
That she died coz of covid 19 makes it really sad for me to think about her. She was a pur soul and didnt deserve such death.

I will honestly say that Feram as i was knowing her was sure not a perfect person and maybe not a very skillful one in building or drawing but i will lie if i wouldnt
say she tired - and she tried always to do her best. Mostly not for her, but her friends.

She tried to run several places from the Spy Vs Spy HQ to a Undertale sim, a pokemon sim and a retrofuture sim to the end.
I dont know how many places she opend or helped out running but, where ever there was a fandom which needed some help, she was there for it. Not for heself,
for the people. I saw how happy she was and how she was happy to help people. She was a person which really deserved better and it always let me smile to think about
how hard she tried just to give people a smile as well.

Still, there were times where she could be also very lonely and emotional, showing that even behind a helpful person, there is also just a small person which needed help
from time to time herself...

i remember fondly a talk i had with her very early on a day on one of the undertale sims she was running.
She was sitting alone there, on the edge of the sim and was just listen to music, relaxing herself. I came just by and we sat down and enjoyed the moment as friends
and had some deep talk about music. So she told me that shes normaly into a lot instrumental music. I was a fan from Depeche Mode and i gave her some song to hear,
as sample "Enjoy the Silence" and "Precious". Names last one was the one she really enjoyed the most and it also made her cry for a moment. It was a side from her i really
never often saw and thinking back about it makes me really cry right now...

Come to think of it, the Feather she gave Sparky on her head was a symbol for her luck. I wished the feather would brought her more of if you think about it...

She was such a kind and good person. I really hope she didnt suffer to much as she died. She was about my age and thinking about that i just lost a friend with such a kind
and pur soul makes me really cry. I hope shes now at a better place and that god watches now her soul when she tries to teach young angels fly or something
which she sure would do up there in heaven...

Rest in peace my old friend, im sure you will be missed by many...you might just dont know...

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