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I feel disconnected from them, and I alternate between not feeling anything from them and being too scared to go too far. It’s not bothering me, but I’m scared I will underperform for my partner. I don’t even see a point in masturbating, since I know it’ll end in disappointment. \n\nI hate that I don’t like to see myself as “woman enough”. Especially with the current events in the West, that make me hate the fact that I hate being female. I see all these anti-woman protests in the States and despite being thankful that I don’t live there, I still feel guilty for not doing anything against them. While I live in a more conservative country, there have been some attempts to add “gender neutral” language to a heavily gendered one (read: every single word has a gender here), but those attempts only served to remove the [i]female[/i] form of the words, not the male one too. There’s also the fact that I feel inferior to men for having a female body since a certain someone in my life made me feel like I was inferior for not having a penis.\n\nI’m not trans. I’m not “cis”. I simply [i]am[/i]. I don’t subscribe to the homophobic and misogynistic gender ideology (And if my fursona is as much as thought of as being “trans colored”, I become 10% more transphobic (and I'm already at 100%) 😊 I’m reclaiming pink-and-blue as being my favorite color combination.)","description_bbcode_parsed":"I hate the term "non binary" with a burning passion. It doesn’t mean anything, it’s mostly used by women who hate being women and men who just want to be more feminine, or by people who don’t even change anything about themselves. (Side note, I know a “non binary” girl irl and she dresses with heavy makeup and extremely feminine clothing but has a trans flag pin on her bag and uses masculine adjectives for herself. She’s literally that one tiktok stereotype. She’s also the most annoying person in my class) (And then I learned that both a former teacher and a former student trooned out at the same time).
I went through a non binary phase myself, but I took a more “defeated” approach to it, preferring to be “misgendered” rather than correcting everybody and imposing myself. I didn’t even call myself “trans” (except when I was talking to one person). I’m actually embarrassed about telling my mom about it, but some of those beliefs were stuff that I still identify with. My fursona is way more feminine than I am irl (which is why I made the alternate rabbit version with short hair). I’m a tomboy, I’m a dyke, I prefer to catch frogs and snakes rather than play with dolls (or rather, I make my own dolls).
What I am calling myself/my fursona is “nullsex”, which is the truscum version of “agender”, meaning I don’t identify with having a sexed body. I’d prefer if I didn’t have breasts or female sexual organs and instead would have nothing in their place. Which I know is impossible and is very much an “online comfort” only thing, but I feel like it’s important to mention since I run a porn account while drawing my own fursona without those parts.
I acknowledge that I am and will always be female, and I see no point in “coming out” as nullsex irl to my future partner, since I’m sure my genitals will have a significant part in our relationship. Although they are quite... “defective” so to speak. I feel disconnected from them, and I alternate between not feeling anything from them and being too scared to go too far. It’s not bothering me, but I’m scared I will underperform for my partner. I don’t even see a point in masturbating, since I know it’ll end in disappointment.
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