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It’s not normal for Leo to hear the curtain move and freeze, the water splashing into his face.
It’s not normal for him to hear Miley mumble “scuse me” as he takes the bottle and goes back to the sink, and for his brain to turn it into, “Good morning, chunin.”
It’s not normal for him to suddenly have trouble breathing.
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He knows this. But his body remembers hands running down his shell, pinching his thighs, caressing his ass. His body remembers being turned, looking up into Saki’s eyes as water dripped from the edge of the humans’ hair.
Something flirtatious, that Leo can’t hear over the sound of the water, the blood ringing in his ears, his own lungs struggling to function. The Shredder liked–likes?-his little jokes, always trying to make Leo giggle like a child.
His legs are nudged apart. A hand on his thigh, as light as a feather and heavy as an anvil. Shredder kisses him like someone in a romance movie, deep and passionate and unreal in a way that’s impossibly real. Leo lets out the faintest whine.
No-no-no. Leo collapses into a corner, hands over his mouth, trying to hide his frantic gasps for air. If Mikey hears this, he’ll try to help, even though Leo knows his brothers have to be sick of talking him through one panic attack after another. He’s a leader; he can’t have them wiping his tears and reminding him how to breathe all the time.
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Not real not real not real
“So good for me.”
The water rushing over them both. There was always warm water in the Foot Clan. There was always privacy, except where there wasn’t.
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Saki liked putting things into words. He always talked so much.
“So tight.”
Sometimes he was sore, and tired from a long day. Sometimes he was just waking up and not in the mood. But he didn’t say anything, so that meant he agreed, right?
“That’s it. You need this, don’t you? You need a good hard dicking.”
Sometimes he liked it a lot.
“That’s–nnh–it.”
Tears spark in his eyes, hot and painful. They get swept away by the relentless water, pounding down on his flesh like bullets and words and memories.
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