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  "description_bbcode_parsed": "<span style='word-wrap: break-word;'>Zack is riddled with guilt&mdash;he pawned his chores off on his brother like he always did, but this time he never laid eyes on Derek again. Aimless and despondent, he looks for meaningless tasks to keep his mind off of what he&#039;s CERTAIN is <em>his</em> fault. His next door neighbor, Ben, notices his depression, and decides that he&#039;s been working too hard in the heat, and invites him inside for an ice cold Gatorade...<br /><br />This story contains humans in sexual situations. Please follow the link here:<a href=\"https://archiveofourown.org/works/45752083/chapters/115541929\" rel=\"nofollow\">https://archiveofourown.org/works/45752083/chapters/115...</a><br /><br />\r\n\t\t\t\t\t<table style='display: inline-block; vertical-align:bottom;'>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<tr>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<td style='vertical-align: middle; border: none;'>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div style='width: 50px; height: 50px; position: relative; margin: 0px auto;'>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<a style='position: relative; border: 0px;' href='https://inkbunny.net/DreamGod'><img class='shadowedimage' style='border: 0px;' src='https://nl1.ib.metapix.net/usericons/small/278/278042_DreamGod_morexis_discord_emote.png' width='50' height='50' alt='DreamGod' title='DreamGod' /></a>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t</div>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t</td>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<td style='vertical-align: bottom; font-size: 10pt;'>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span style='position: relative; top: 2px;'><a href='https://inkbunny.net/DreamGod' class='widget_userNameSmall'>DreamGod</a></span>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t</td>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t</tr>\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t</table>&mdash;so, so wrong....and so damn hot all at once...<br /><br /><br />-------------------------------------------------------------------------<br /><br />Looking to get a front row seat to the action? Starting at $5 a month, you can access brand new stories as they&#039;re being written, and get early access to them for four weeks ahead of the public by joining the Official Thakur Subscribestar Adult channel! <br /><br /><a href=\"https://subscribestar.adult/thakur\" rel=\"nofollow\">https://subscribestar.adult/thakur</a><br /><br />Don&#039;t forget: even if you can&#039;t afford to contribute, you can still subscribe to the Positive Vibes tier and get access to the Thakur Story Forum absolutely FREE!!! Chat on Discord with like-minded individuals, fans and collaborators, including the big cat himself. And the best part? Instant access to ALL of his classic stories over the past 15 years! Sign up for free today, and upgrade when you can!<br /><br />As always, check out Thakur on his other galleries for maximum coverage:<br />FurAffinity(<a href=\"https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/thakurcat/\" rel=\"nofollow\">https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/thakurcat/</a>)<br />SoFurry(<a href=\"https://thakur.sofurry.com/\" rel=\"nofollow\">https://thakur.sofurry.com/</a>)<br />ArchiveOfOurOwn(<a href=\"https://archiveofourown.org/users/ThakurCat\" rel=\"nofollow\">https://archiveofourown.org/users/ThakurCat</a>)<br />InkBunny(<a href=\"https://inkbunny.net/gallery/Thakur/1/72e7ce2250\" rel=\"nofollow\">https://inkbunny.net/gallery/Thakur/1/72e7ce2250</a>)<br /><br />Thanks to my former Patreon supporters: Guri, Nichizue, AlexW, Stell, Dotoro, Frosti, Rob Baird, Rokanoss, Geko7, Lost Jungle, pupapo, lonewoof and wolfman! Special thanks to my official adaptation artist Baylong for providing pictures to accompany my stories! And thanks to DreamGod for formatting and upkeep of my libraries! <br /></span>",
  "writing": "I woke up and realized I'd been crying again. Damn it, I told myself I'd stop doing that! My brother would be back any day now, and [i]then[/i] I'd look silly.\n\nDerek had been gone for an entire week now, and still the police had nothing. Officially he was listed as a runaway, and I hope that's the case. If he ran away, he could always run back. I still remembered the last thing he said to me before heading out the back door and disappearing...\n\n``But I covered for you yesterday...'', he'd said. I couldn't even remember what stupid game I was playing at the time, but I ignored him. He let the dogs out, and disappeared from my life.\n\nMy parents tell me it wasn't my fault; that Derek loved me, and he left for some other reason. I don't know. I was always making him do my chores, and I hardly spent any time with him. Maybe he knew I never defended him when the other seventh graders called him a dog-fucker? Maybe he'd somehow overheard me joining in?\n\nI only said it because I didn't want the other kids accusing [i]me,[/i] too.\n\nThe police questioned all his high school friends, but none of them had any inkling that Derek might run away. Dad thought that Derek might have run away when Ben's new dog, Tinkerbell, got into the yard and bred with Beefstick. Dad was mad, of course, because he was a responsible breeder, but not mad enough to justify my brother's running away and never coming back. We kept expecting Derek to show up that night, or in the morning, but he didn't, day after day.\n\nAt least at school I was distracted. It was the first Saturday since Derek left, and if I wasn't careful, I'd start crying again. I needed to get out - to do something. Somehow I didn't think Call of Duty was going to cut it today.\n\nI got up and threw on my Taekwondo pants; I'd shower after working out a little. I really felt I needed to punch and kick things, and the punching bag outside called to me. I tossed on a white t-shirt and headed down the stairs, noting the clock. Noon. I'd slept badly yet again.\n\nThe crisp, autumn air really helped to wake me up and dry my eyes. We always cleaned up after our dogs, so I didn't bother getting shoes, just walking across the grass to the punching back. I started with my favorite kick: a spinning jump crescent kick, right at the top of the back. [i]Smack![/i] It felt good to finally be out and doing something, even if I'd rather be searching for Derek. My parents made me promise not to go looking though, and to leave it to the police.\n\nThey didn't want to lose me, too.\n\n[i]Thwack![/i]\n\nFront kick! Backfist! Sidekick! The bag went flying as my foot shot through it, bouncing back as the chain reached its end. Even in the light breeze, I was working up a sweat, breathing carefully just as I'd been taught. I wouldn't get my second degree black belt if I couldn't manage my air.\n\n``Hey, Zack...''\n\nI jumped, spinning around. There, at the fence, was Ben. I knew what he'd done to Derek over the last few years, so I narrowed my eyes. But even as much of a jerk as he'd been, wouldn't he be sympathetic now that Derek was missing?\n\n``Yeah?'' I said, clipping the end.\n\n``I just want to say, I'm sorry about what happened to your brother.''\n\nI took a tentative step forward, treading carefully. ``Yeah.''\n\nBen looked down, then up at me. His eyes were shining - was he crying? The fourteen-year-old choked up, saying, ``I can't help but feel somehow responsible. Maybe if I hadn't teased him, he wouldn't have run away...''\n\n``It wasn't that, or he would have run away a long time ago,'' I shrugged, not sure whether or not I believed the older boy. Besides, [i]if[/i] he ran away, it was because of me.\n\n``I just hope,'' Ben said, ``that wherever he is, he's happy.''\n\n``Yeah,'' I said. Whatever. I just wished he'd leave me alone!\n\n``Are you okay?'' he asked suddenly.\n\n``Huh?''\n\nBen peered over the fence at me, looking me up and down like Sensei Johnson. ``You don't look okay. You...wanna hang out? I got nothing going on today anyway. We could watch a movie or something.''\n\nI wrinkled up my face. Spending time with [i]Ben?[/i] From what I'd heard... How could I even consider hanging out with this boy after what he'd done to Derek? But what excuse could I give? I didn't have anything going on, either.\n\nBen said, ``Have you seen American Pie?''\n\nMy eyes went wide. Of course, I hadn't seen it. It was an old movie now, but my parents still knew about it from when Derek was younger and asked to see it with Ben. Boy did he get in trouble when they looked up the movie!\n\n``My parents wouldn't let me.''\n\n``Do you only do what your parents say?'' he asked. ``They don't have to know.''\n\nI didn't know what to say. I was curious, for sure, but I was only twelve and it was rated `R'. And not your normal kind of `R', but `R' for sexual content. There was like a `fatwa' on sex at my house: internet filters, monitored movies and games, and we were even pulled out of the school's sex education classes. My parents would [i]kill[/i] me if they found out! But would they find out? With Derek still missing, would they even care?\n\nBen interrupted my obvious hesitance, saying, ``Come on, I promise it'll take your mind off of Derek better than kicking that bag will.''\n\nI grimaced at Ben, but I knew he was right. And as much as I'd seen dogs breeding, I was a fair bit more interested in my [i]own[/i] species. ``Alright, fine, but if you tell my parents, they won't believe you.''\n\n``You don't have to worry about that, I promise,'' he said, smiling.\n\nI nodded carefully, and went through the gate to Ben's yard, following the older boy into his house. We walked right into the kitchen, which was far, far messier than my parents let our house get. There were magazines piled up on the dinner table, dirty pots and pans in the sink, and haphazardly placed appliances covering the counters and even the top of the refrigerator. [i]My[/i] parents would have yelled at Derek and me to clean it up ages ago, but as I looked closer at all the magazines and junk, I wondered if maybe Mr. and Mrs. Hendricks were the problem. I doubted that Ben or Sarah reads ``Home and Garden'' or needed an electric mushroom slicer.\n\n``Want a drink? Gatorade maybe?'' Ben offered.\n\n``Yeah, sure, why not?''\n\nI tipped the bottle of clear liquid to my lips...\n\nThe remainder of this story contains humans in sexual situations. Please follow the link here:https://archiveofourown.org/works/45752083/chapters/115541929\n\n",
  "writing_bbcode_parsed": "<span style='word-wrap: break-word;'>I woke up and realized I&#039;d been crying again. Damn it, I told myself I&#039;d stop doing that! My brother would be back any day now, and <em>then</em> I&#039;d look silly.<br /><br />Derek had been gone for an entire week now, and still the police had nothing. Officially he was listed as a runaway, and I hope that&#039;s the case. If he ran away, he could always run back. I still remembered the last thing he said to me before heading out the back door and disappearing...<br /><br />``But I covered for you yesterday...&#039;&#039;, he&#039;d said. I couldn&#039;t even remember what stupid game I was playing at the time, but I ignored him. He let the dogs out, and disappeared from my life.<br /><br />My parents tell me it wasn&#039;t my fault; that Derek loved me, and he left for some other reason. I don&#039;t know. I was always making him do my chores, and I hardly spent any time with him. Maybe he knew I never defended him when the other seventh graders called him a dog-fucker? Maybe he&#039;d somehow overheard me joining in?<br /><br />I only said it because I didn&#039;t want the other kids accusing <em>me,</em> too.<br /><br />The police questioned all his high school friends, but none of them had any inkling that Derek might run away. Dad thought that Derek might have run away when Ben&#039;s new dog, Tinkerbell, got into the yard and bred with Beefstick. Dad was mad, of course, because he was a responsible breeder, but not mad enough to justify my brother&#039;s running away and never coming back. We kept expecting Derek to show up that night, or in the morning, but he didn&#039;t, day after day.<br /><br />At least at school I was distracted. It was the first Saturday since Derek left, and if I wasn&#039;t careful, I&#039;d start crying again. I needed to get out - to do something. Somehow I didn&#039;t think Call of Duty was going to cut it today.<br /><br />I got up and threw on my Taekwondo pants; I&#039;d shower after working out a little. I really felt I needed to punch and kick things, and the punching bag outside called to me. I tossed on a white t-shirt and headed down the stairs, noting the clock. Noon. I&#039;d slept badly yet again.<br /><br />The crisp, autumn air really helped to wake me up and dry my eyes. We always cleaned up after our dogs, so I didn&#039;t bother getting shoes, just walking across the grass to the punching back. I started with my favorite kick: a spinning jump crescent kick, right at the top of the back. <em>Smack!</em> It felt good to finally be out and doing something, even if I&#039;d rather be searching for Derek. My parents made me promise not to go looking though, and to leave it to the police.<br /><br />They didn&#039;t want to lose me, too.<br /><br /><em>Thwack!</em><br /><br />Front kick! Backfist! Sidekick! The bag went flying as my foot shot through it, bouncing back as the chain reached its end. Even in the light breeze, I was working up a sweat, breathing carefully just as I&#039;d been taught. I wouldn&#039;t get my second degree black belt if I couldn&#039;t manage my air.<br /><br />``Hey, Zack...&#039;&#039;<br /><br />I jumped, spinning around. There, at the fence, was Ben. I knew what he&#039;d done to Derek over the last few years, so I narrowed my eyes. But even as much of a jerk as he&#039;d been, wouldn&#039;t he be sympathetic now that Derek was missing?<br /><br />``Yeah?&#039;&#039; I said, clipping the end.<br /><br />``I just want to say, I&#039;m sorry about what happened to your brother.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />I took a tentative step forward, treading carefully. ``Yeah.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />Ben looked down, then up at me. His eyes were shining - was he crying? The fourteen-year-old choked up, saying, ``I can&#039;t help but feel somehow responsible. Maybe if I hadn&#039;t teased him, he wouldn&#039;t have run away...&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``It wasn&#039;t that, or he would have run away a long time ago,&#039;&#039; I shrugged, not sure whether or not I believed the older boy. Besides, <em>if</em> he ran away, it was because of me.<br /><br />``I just hope,&#039;&#039; Ben said, ``that wherever he is, he&#039;s happy.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``Yeah,&#039;&#039; I said. Whatever. I just wished he&#039;d leave me alone!<br /><br />``Are you okay?&#039;&#039; he asked suddenly.<br /><br />``Huh?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />Ben peered over the fence at me, looking me up and down like Sensei Johnson. ``You don&#039;t look okay. You...wanna hang out? I got nothing going on today anyway. We could watch a movie or something.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />I wrinkled up my face. Spending time with <em>Ben?</em> From what I&#039;d heard... How could I even consider hanging out with this boy after what he&#039;d done to Derek? But what excuse could I give? I didn&#039;t have anything going on, either.<br /><br />Ben said, ``Have you seen American Pie?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />My eyes went wide. Of course, I hadn&#039;t seen it. It was an old movie now, but my parents still knew about it from when Derek was younger and asked to see it with Ben. Boy did he get in trouble when they looked up the movie!<br /><br />``My parents wouldn&#039;t let me.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``Do you only do what your parents say?&#039;&#039; he asked. ``They don&#039;t have to know.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />I didn&#039;t know what to say. I was curious, for sure, but I was only twelve and it was rated `R&#039;. And not your normal kind of `R&#039;, but `R&#039; for sexual content. There was like a `fatwa&#039; on sex at my house: internet filters, monitored movies and games, and we were even pulled out of the school&#039;s sex education classes. My parents would <em>kill</em> me if they found out! But would they find out? With Derek still missing, would they even care?<br /><br />Ben interrupted my obvious hesitance, saying, ``Come on, I promise it&#039;ll take your mind off of Derek better than kicking that bag will.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />I grimaced at Ben, but I knew he was right. And as much as I&#039;d seen dogs breeding, I was a fair bit more interested in my <em>own</em> species. ``Alright, fine, but if you tell my parents, they won&#039;t believe you.&#039;&#039;<br /><br />``You don&#039;t have to worry about that, I promise,&#039;&#039; he said, smiling.<br /><br />I nodded carefully, and went through the gate to Ben&#039;s yard, following the older boy into his house. We walked right into the kitchen, which was far, far messier than my parents let our house get. There were magazines piled up on the dinner table, dirty pots and pans in the sink, and haphazardly placed appliances covering the counters and even the top of the refrigerator. <em>My</em> parents would have yelled at Derek and me to clean it up ages ago, but as I looked closer at all the magazines and junk, I wondered if maybe Mr. and Mrs. Hendricks were the problem. I doubted that Ben or Sarah reads ``Home and Garden&#039;&#039; or needed an electric mushroom slicer.<br /><br />``Want a drink? Gatorade maybe?&#039;&#039; Ben offered.<br /><br />``Yeah, sure, why not?&#039;&#039;<br /><br />I tipped the bottle of clear liquid to my lips...<br /><br />The remainder of this story contains humans in sexual situations. Please follow the link here:<a href=\"https://archiveofourown.org/works/45752083/chapters/115541929\" rel=\"nofollow\">https://archiveofourown.org/works/45752083/chapters/115...</a><br /><br /></span>",
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