\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t
\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t
I originally debated on whether or not I should upload this here, on my personal account, or even at all, but I decided I would like to be very public and open about the fact that I love very much and that today is our 10th year anniversary!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I remember desperately trying to convince myself I didn't have a crush on you - I didn't want to. At first, I swore to myself that I was only your commissioner and nothing more, but our conversations flowed so naturally that coming home to talk to you after school was the best part of my day. Little by little you stole all of my time and my heart. I think it was only about two weeks before I finally confessed in a much more blunt way than my absolute cringey and socially awkward initial first attempts at hinting.
I never thought I would find love on that hellscape of a website that treated us so poorly, but a year later I was eagle-eyed and awaiting the sight of your pinstripe pants, rushing to touch you for the very first time, and nearly ran into the glass panel that divided us by centimeters in excitement. I remember our awkward firsts, the insecurities, the photos from your camera you showed me as I just stared at you. I remember you asking me if you could kiss me. I remember, much to my dismay, how I sung to you on my bed to try and comfort you as our last night together drew near.
We were a hurricane, passionate and possessive in all of the ways that two traumatized youths could be. Bad habits and fleas from our past could never drain the love that two twin flames are destined to have for one another. A decade is a long time to get to know someone even better than you know yourself, and I feel it every time I gently guide your hand away from picking your skin raw, and every time you rub my stress away before I even know it's rising. We've loved each other through the shittiest of people and through the shittiest of things and circumstances. We're still here against all odds.
Your love is the culmination of what grabbed me and shoved me away from the dark, wrong path I was barreling down. You found me just in time, just as I did you. Any little bit of self love and confidence I've ever had in myself is because you've given me enough of your own love and confidence, over 10 years, to pay off the debt of it that others had robbed from me my entire life. We can't give what we don't have. No one had ever loved me, believed in me, or thought I was worth even the most basic forms of respect. You've made up for a lifetime of that and then some in every healing touch and every expansion we take on together.
We're so similar that everyone has always assumed us to be either one person or the same person, but our views aligning where they truly matter and our differences filling in for each other's weakness is what truly convinces me that we were hand crafted for one another by our loving universe. Nights like this are my absolute favorite thing about life. Us curled up together on the couch, cozy, with a bit of music playing from the TV as I lovingly gaze over at you while drawing, and you rub the perpetual stress and tension out of my exhausted body.
I want to take care of you and expand our minds for the rest of our lives, however long that may be. When those are over, I know I won't be far behind you in ascending to the next realm and getting to do it all over again. How privileged we are to have known each others for potential centuries, across different lifespans as different things. How insanely lucky we are that our journey in this universe is one of many quick stops that we'll be making on our eternal conquest.
Watching the meteor shower next to Sale is something I'll never forget as long as I live. I remember how they looked streaking against the sky. I remember how blue everything was, overlayed by a warm hue of pink when I saw your eyes twinkling in the dim dark. I tried so hard to replicate that. I sincerely hope it shows in this.
I love you eternally and unconditionally. Happy 10th anniversary, my sweet boy. ♡
╭━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ ☆ ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━╮
Art ©
Character(s) © ,
Do not reference or repost my art.
╰━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━╯
Both characters go by he/they pronouns. Please keep this in mind if commenting, thanks!
\r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t | \r\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t
I originally debated on whether or not I should upload this here, on my personal account, or even at all, but I decided I would like to be very public and open about the fact that I love very much and that today is our 10th year anniversary!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I remember desperately trying to convince myself I didn't have a crush on you - I didn't want to. At first, I swore to myself that I was only your commissioner and nothing more, but our conversations flowed so naturally that coming home to talk to you after school was the best part of my day. Little by little you stole all of my time and my heart. I think it was only about two weeks before I finally confessed in a much more blunt way than my absolute cringey and socially awkward initial first attempts at hinting.
I never thought I would find love on that hellscape of a website that treated us so poorly, but a year later I was eagle-eyed and awaiting the sight of your pinstripe pants, rushing to touch you for the very first time, and nearly ran into the glass panel that divided us by centimeters in excitement. I remember our awkward firsts, the insecurities, the photos from your camera you showed me as I just stared at you. I remember you asking me if you could kiss me. I remember, much to my dismay, how I sung to you on my bed to try and comfort you as our last night together drew near.
We were a hurricane, passionate and possessive in all of the ways that two traumatized youths could be. Bad habits and fleas from our past could never drain the love that two twin flames are destined to have for one another. A decade is a long time to get to know someone even better than you know yourself, and I feel it every time I gently guide your hand away from picking your skin raw, and every time you rub my stress away before I even know it's rising. We've loved each other through the shittiest of people and through the shittiest of things and circumstances. We're still here against all odds.
Your love is the culmination of what grabbed me and shoved me away from the dark, wrong path I was barreling down. You found me just in time, just as I did you. Any little bit of self love and confidence I've ever had in myself is because you've given me enough of your own love and confidence, over 10 years, to pay off the debt of it that others had robbed from me my entire life. We can't give what we don't have. No one had ever loved me, believed in me, or thought I was worth even the most basic forms of respect. You've made up for a lifetime of that and then some in every healing touch and every expansion we take on together.
We're so similar that everyone has always assumed us to be either one person or the same person, but our views aligning where they truly matter and our differences filling in for each other's weakness is what truly convinces me that we were hand crafted for one another by our loving universe. Nights like this are my absolute favorite thing about life. Us curled up together on the couch, cozy, with a bit of music playing from the TV as I lovingly gaze over at you while drawing, and you rub the perpetual stress and tension out of my exhausted body.
I want to take care of you and expand our minds for the rest of our lives, however long that may be. When those are over, I know I won't be far behind you in ascending to the next realm and getting to do it all over again. How privileged we are to have known each others for potential centuries, across different lifespans as different things. How insanely lucky we are that our journey in this universe is one of many quick stops that we'll be making on our eternal conquest.
Watching the meteor shower next to Sale is something I'll never forget as long as I live. I remember how they looked streaking against the sky. I remember how blue everything was, overlayed by a warm hue of pink when I saw your eyes twinkling in the dim dark. I tried so hard to replicate that. I sincerely hope it shows in this.
I love you eternally and unconditionally. Happy 10th anniversary, my sweet boy. ♡
╭━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ ☆ ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━╮
Art ©
Character(s) © ,
Do not reference or repost my art.
╰━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━╯
Both characters go by he/they pronouns. Please keep this in mind if commenting, thanks!