Content and comfort are so alien to me that, it took me a minute and forty two seconds to truly wake from my slumber and remember where I am... 

Oh! that's right I'm under my lover fox. Well, under his bed actually, not really in contact with his fur or under the pressure of his holy breaths (but that would be just too heavenly to not fantasize about). You is not even aware that I sneaked in your flat like I always do. Snuggling on the carpet covered in your dirty clothes, warm and delighted just under the place where you rest peacefully.

Absent were the cracks in my mind and the voices of hurt, I am surrounded by your healing scent. Nick no one could begging to grasp how much I love you. I allow myself a quietly sigh out, this is where I belong.

Wait... there is something wrong... Huh? What is that swaying sound? Its like the squeaking made by a faulty spring coil inside the barrel of a old Avtomat Kalashnikova that gave me the upper hand over that stupid  bufalo-butt in the shot out last weekend, but much more bigger. What could it be?

As I put more attention to this weird squeaking I also notice how intense is your heart beat just above where mine is, 180 bpm? That's way to high for you... are you having a heart attack? No please don't, you can't leave me like this.

I have to help him I have to come out...but before I did, I also notice your moans and heavy breathing and the pumping sound synchronized with the bed's squeal. Maybe you are just woke from a bad dream or you are scratching an itch?

If it were that and not a stroke, you would hate me if come out, right? And I can't have that either. What do I do? What do I do? Please Nick give me a sing that you are okay.

Stupid bunny, how could you forget? The spy cameras you hid to check on your Nick. Please be okay, please be okay... I repeat over and over as the app in my phone loads the live feed. And at the instant I saw it, I put the screen down and covered my shout to choke a cry of surprise. "Eep!"

I saw it! you were... you are... touching yourself. 

I can't believe it, after all this time I'd watch over you, this is the first time I really broke your privacy. I had always let you alone in the shower or toilet (except for an ear on alert, after all I can't let you fall or drown in the bathtub. I've seen that happening all too much frequent, but not exactly what you'll call an accident) and also I have notice once or twice before that you would do this and I try so hard to look away, I promise I do. But... But for me to see you like this! When we are not married yet, not even boyfriend and girlfriend, not even had our first kiss! and I saw it! 

I'm the worst. 

Nick, how could you ever forgive me?

"Mmmhm" I hear you deep purring moan, this how you sound while doing it, definitely.

The smell of your musk is intensifying, it's just the way your trousers smell, so intoxicating, so good. And I can hear your fur ruffling against where you are pumping your crotch. Where your fox-hood that I just saw is! Nick, It is so devilish red!

With you doing something like this just above me it's just too much... Would you be thinking on me, maybe? Please tell me you are thinking about me, about having me. About doing it to me.

I feel weird, would this be how the other Does feels for their mates?, How a 'normal' Doe feels like.

'Mmnh' Nick I can feel my tights tingling. Yes, because my body loves you... It wants to please you. It wants to be the one that satisfies all your needs, my fox. With you over me like this, it's almost like if we were doing it, Nick. Doing... sex. I cal feel my pulse throbbing for you and my mind sniping. Nick I want you so bad. 

I can hear your heartbeat even faster now and your panting moans and your quicker pumping. 'Mmmh' Nick are you going to finish soon? Please do it inside my belly, I want your babies. Soon we will marry, and we can have sex for real, and I will bear your kits, and I'll be so happy. I itch so bad for you.

"Mmhaa, mmhaaa." 

Your moaning it's louder now. Did you just?... Oh Nick! What a bad boy you are, to finish before your lover is so rude. But because this is our first I will forgive you, this time. 

'Sniff-sniff' This new smell is... Is this how you seed smells? I love it! I want it! Ugh I can't take it any more I'm going out... Nick you wouldn't mind, would you? If I do it? If I come out? I bet the sight of you bunnylove would get you ready for another round, right? right?

*Sigh* "I really need to find a vixen or something."

Wha... What did you...? I'm crashing hard on reality just now. A VIXEN!? What about me Nick!? I am here for you, don't you see? ALWAYS here. And you are thinking of a damn vixen!! It is that you don't see my like that? God why was I not born a vixen? Why I'm so broken? Why you do me this to me Nick? The sinking rage revolting in the base of my stomach it's just to much to bare. WHY NICK!? WHY!?

...Of course! You don't know I'm here... And...And...

You said 'or something'? You mean a mate that its not necessarily a fox, don't you? Are you into inter-species? are you into preyo? into bunnies? into me? But maybe you are, maybe this could be my chance. I only have to get rid of any stupid bitch that may try to take you away from me like I always do, maybe I can even wear the pelt of one of those whore-vixens to appear more desirable to you and then I.. I will... confess... confess my undying love to you. 

No, wait remember one step at the time Judy, I have to find a chance to tell you that I like you, and then ask you to be my boyfriend. You wouldn't mind that I confess first, would that be okay? I'm so scared Nick I need you, I really need you and I'm so scared of loosing you, of loosing my mind.

I flinched when hear the door shouting close. What!? Is it 8:35 already? This is the time you leave for work as always. Oh! I see I must have spaced out again, and you already took your bath and had your breakfast and it's time for you to go. You also leave the glass half full of water on your night stand for me, as hallways. I'm sorry Nick I'll be more careful to watch over you.

I thank Lord Frith as I wipe my tears form anger, joy and hope, as I cling to My Nick-doll I made out of your trimmed fur.

I'll keep you safe. I'll keep you happy. I'll keep you for me.