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"You asked for it, bitch," a large dragon responded.
A generic track played as the two undressed and fucked. The screen was turned off.
"Fucking bullshit," Ben said. He adjusted his mildly erect penis in his pants to be more comfortable.
The squirrel knew that's not how life worked. One doesn't just get propositioned. He was sure it had to happen to someone out there. Probably someone handsome. Someone was born with just the right pheromones that made others want them. Ben would never know. He thought it was best to dismiss it all as fantasy. He had an inferiority complex. He didn't want to feed it by acknowledging that there was anyone so lucky.
Having been a loner most of his life, Ben filled the void in his social circle with escapism. He read, played video games, and consumed pornography. Since puberty, pornography was his primary choice. He had memberships to sites for a while, but then just used torrents to obtain more. He was a regular in a few adult message boards. No matter how high his post count got, he always felt like an outsider. No one would notice if he stopped contributing.
He knew he wasn't special. He reminded himself of it frequently. He wanted to at least be special to someone. As much as he knew it was an impossible dream, he held onto hope that maybe it could happen.
He couldn't be the only one.
As much as he wanted to believe it, he saw no evidence of it. His veneer of well-being was being worn away. If he acknowledged that there were such a facade, he'd question how much longer he could get by. He wasn't brave enough to irresponsibly walk the line seperating himself from total dispair, so he never would see his fiction as the make-believe that it was, lest he break the lifeline keeping him afloat.
He opened a new tab in his browser and pulled up a porn site. He was done with videos for the time being. It was time for non-moving pictures. He spent half an hour casually masturbating. He found a picture to finish on and ejaculated. After posting on a message board or two, he began again.
He didn't really like sexual function. It was just a way to feel okay for a short time. He'd been with a few people in the past, but it felt like a distant memory. He felt like his paw wasn't quite as good, but took far less effort to appease. He didn't want to support someone. He didn't want to complete someone, he just wanted to feel okay. As long as he could keep cumming, he could make it through another lonely day.
Ben got up. He made himself some instant cup pasta. After finishing it, he turned on his game console. It wasn't as good as masturbating, but it could pass the time until he could blow another load.
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