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Whatever.
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Callie's mom was furious. She was throwing things: trophies, plates, dolls, pillows, anything she could get her hands on. Wanda was a single mother. She worked hard to provide for her daughter. She always did the best she could. She always worked long hours to make sure Callie could have plenty of opportunity and anything she could ever want.
Except cub porn. First, it was illegal where they lived. Second, it went against their morals.
"Mom, if you could just," Callie paused and dodged a vase. "If you would just listen to me."
Callie had been living with her mom to save on dorm costs. She had a part time job but it was only ten to fifteen hours a week. Wanda wanted the focus to be on school. She kept insisting that she would take care of everything else.
Wanda set down the book that she was about to chuck.
"When have I not listened to you?"
"Just now!" the daughter mongoose wanted to retort. Instead, she took a breath. Then she said, "I'm not trying to offer an excuse, I want you to understand why I've done what I have and then you can tell me what was wrong with my approach and how to achieve similar results without damaging our relationship."
"Get on with it then," Wanda huffed.
"I was looking at that to try to gain understanding. I wanted to try to see from your perspective and see what you saw in me."
"Oh, baby. You're my sweet little girl, what's not to like?"
"But only you see me that way. I see failure and ugliness. I see someone impulsive and lazy and slovenly. I'd never like me or be attracted to me."
"It's a good thing it's not up to you then."
Callie just looked at the floor.
Wanda opened her arms, "Come here, give Momma a hug."
Callie obeyed.
"Now give Momma a kiss."
Callie obeyed.
"Now touch your Momma."
Callie wriggled free of her mother's grasp, shock was on Wanda's face.
"This is what I'm talking about! This is what I mean! You get your hugs and kisses and your breasts rubbed and your cunt fingered and sometimes you do the same to me and it feels good but I just don't understand why you do those things or make me do those things! I love you, mom. I know you love me, too. But it doesn't make sense. And then I look up 'sweet little girls' and try to make sense of it and then you get all pissed.
"What is there to like? You've seen me grow up, you've seen my body when it was immature. You've held me when I was little, you kissed my forehead and told me that I was special and I don't see it. And I try to find the appeal. And you ask me what's wrong with me and call me a monster when I just want to understand and you're not helping!"
Wanda sat down.
She just sat in silence, barely breathing. She didn't have the words to say. She wanted to defend herself. She wanted to support her daughter. She wanted to be revered. She wanted to be just. She wanted punishment for the betrayal. She wanted it all and knew that it couldn't be that way.
Her pride wouldn't let her give up on her feelings. The best course of action was to give up on the desire to be infallible and looked up to, like she used to be.
Callie moved in for a hug and was met with apathy.
"I'm going to bed," she sighed. "I'm going to your bed. I don't dislike what we have, mom. I think it is special, but I can't just go along with it. I need to find my place."
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