Shadow is expectant and no one can know. Sonic figures he has a way he can help.
Contains: implied Sonadow, Shadow uke, c-boy, pregnant
Secrets

Shadow's POV

There was a downpour going on. Everything was dripping wet all around me and a freezing cold wind came passing by to chill me to my ver core. The clouds were dark and grey in colour. They loomed ominously up above with the promise that much more was still to come.
It was a perfect day for Fall this late in the season and this early December. The weather was truly dreary. Excellent for staying indoors where it was warm and dry.
Yet I was still out.
In the rain, in the wind, wearing not even a jacket to protect myself from the elements, I was still outside. For reasons I dare not bring up to anyone out loud.
I found myself drained of any and all energy I used to have. My will seems to have vanished as I don't know at all what to do with myself. I was lost in every metaphorical sense of the word. I'm numb even to the cold surrounding me.
When was the last time I felt this troubled?
I feel like I'm in a situation in which everybody but me wins no matter what angle I may tackle.
It has been a long time since I have felt this lonely.
I am alone and don't know where to go or what is to happen next, what I am to do now. For once I am clueless and it doesn't seem like I'll be able to figure anything out anytime soon. Yet, I'm running out of time.
It feels like I can't think straight. Too many thoughts are running inside my head, but at the same time none of them seem to register. I'm just staring at the puddles on the ground, sitting on this rusty old bench all by myself in the middle of an empty park.
Why did I even come out here in the first place? I'll catch a cold.
"Shadow?"
Looking over to my left and catching a pair of emerald green eyes amidst blue fur and quills through the heavy rainfall, I realize I'm suddenly accompanied by a very familiar face.
"Shad, what're you doing out here? And without even wearing a jacket or anything like that! I know you're the Ultimate Lifeform and all, but geez.. Even you know not to tempt fate like that." Look who's talking. The hedgehog who has build his entire fame on heroism and revolves his life around the very concept of cheating death and playing with fate has spoken.
Sonic approached and I now notice the white grocery bag clutched tightly in his left hand, his other stuffed in one of the two pockets of his jacket.
Urgent grocery shopping? I can't quite tell what was supposed to be inside.
"Shadow?" He calls my name again and I almost miss it. Looking back up to him, I notice an expression of worry. It is trying to urge me to speak. That something is wrong must be quite obvious on my face. Either he knows me too well or I can't hide my emotions as well as I used to anymore.
But a small spark of hope still makes itself known.
Can I even trust him, this hero as blue as the ocean he so fears?
He's the Hero of Mobius, as some have eloquently called him, and has done the big brave heroic deeds he's celebrated for and performed the small kind gestures people admire him for to back their claims up.
But does that really mean I can trust him to save me too?
"Sonic..." That I call him directly by his name instead of my favoured nickname for him, 'Hedgehog', already grabs his full attention.
"... I need your help."

"And you're sure that you haven't seen a single sign of him? At all?" Rouge's sorrowfull voice reaches my listening ears even though these walls aren't the thinnest.
It's the rainiest day of this early April and countless of fat droplets are clattering on the roof loudly, but even then I can still hear her just fine. The wind is howling outside too.
"Yeah... Sorry, Rouge... If I do hear from him, I'll let you know." Sonic is surprisingly reserved as he lies to her.
He is most likely reminding himself of what is at stake and telling himself that this needs to be done to keep us safe. That must be what gives him the strength to lie to her now. Even as he stares right at her face, which must look so worried.
Sitting here in this darkened room, lights off even though the clouds blotting out the sun makes it quite dark, I am following their conversation from the upper floor of the house. With no sound made and the lights off, it seems as if Sonic is home alone.
By all means, that is what everyone should be thinking. The only other person who knows this isn't true is Tails and he has sworn to secrecy too.
I can't stop him from tattling as he's on a sleepover with Cream to watch the stars later, if the ominous clouds will allow him to, but I believe I can trust him to keep our secret safe too.
From here I can't see my former partner's face, but I can hear her voice and I know her well enough by now to know when she's worried for someone or about something.
It is a sound that I very much dislike to hear and it takes all of my willpower not to clue her in on my whereabouts and reason for disappearing aswell.
Two people is quite enough.
"Yes, please do... It's been months already and I am worried sick. Who knows what he's been up to or what has been done to him!" I try to ignore the pang of guilt that I feel upon causing her so much turmoil and stress.
That bat knows I can handle myself just fine. So for her to think that something may have happened to me...
"Shadow may be the Ultimate Lifeform and one of G.U.N's best, but even now he's not ready to face the world alone. Unfortunately, that is something they didn't think was important enough for him to learn fifty-six years ago." Rouge continued to speak with a bitter tone and for a moment I have to bite down the urge to tell her otherwise.
Deep down, however, I know how painfully obvious it is even to me how I have no idea how real life works.
Beating up bad guys and saving the world is one thing, but taxes, insurance, laws, formalities and whatnot? You name it and I have no idea how to deal with it.
In my first year on Mobius alone I have managed to get myself a long list of offenses for breaking numerous laws I had no idea were even there to be broken in the first place.
"Yeah, heh! I remember this one time..." Sonic's voice dies down almost as soon as he started talking. It is presumably her expression or body language which keeps him from trying to lighten the mood. He must feel like this isn't the time to be joking or to be strolling down memory lane.
It stays quiet for another few good moments, of which this talk has had plenty of.
I try to curl up further down in the blankets I have wrapped myself in to combat this Spring chill as I patiently wait for this awkward conversation to come to its eventual end.
I wish I could see her and speak with her. I want to explain to her what this is all about, but I can't.
Too many people know already.
"Sonic..."
"If I see or hear anything of him, I'll tell you immediately. I promise." He tries to end this visit himself.
Don't do that, idiot. Don't make her promises you know you can't keep.
"Okay... I'll... see you later." With those unusually quiet parting words, Rouge leaves in the dreary weather she had arrived in and I hear the front door closing, followed by a frustrated sigh from Sonic.
A moment later I come out of my hiding in the guest bedroom and stand at the top of the stairs, gazing down at the other hedgehog.
Sonic catches my gaze.
"Don't worry, I didn't tell her anything." He tells me in a tone that is probably angrier than he would've wanted it to sound.
But I let it slip. I know by what it is caused and I understand it. I'm the one who forced this upon him after all. He's lying to one of his friends and allies for my sake.
"I know, I heard." I tell him as I walk down the stairs with a tight grip on the railing.
Sonic is tense, I can see it. His focused eyes are trained firmly on me as it takes a painstakingly long time for me to get down.
I struggled.
"I can't thank you enough for all that you're doing for me. For us." How many times I have repeated this is something that I don't know, but I will continue to do so until his and Tails' help is no longer needed.
The hedgehog before gives me an honest smile, of which even those were becoming a rarity ever since I suddenly moved in here.
It has nothing to do with my presence.
"Eh, it's fine. You know I'd do anything for a friend. Especially when said friend is in more trouble than even he can handle." His smile falters a little, but quickly reappears when he looks down on my body and that what no layers of clothing will be able to hide now.
A hand of his hovers on the swelling of seven months old, the very center of all of this.
"Early June you said the kid was gonna be here, right? He or She is gonna be a Summer baby! Just like us!" Sonic chuckles shortly, feeling for the quiet movement going on inside. I don't need to confirm his question as he already knows this to be true.
It's silent again. Time is passed as I stand there and let him enjoy himself by simply being pregnant. He has always had an affinity for children, no matter how small or how old they might already be.
Once he reached his twenties, that fact had only worsened.
But then his slight smile disappears as he brings our attention back to our previous topic.
"We could tell her, you know... She's part of G.U.N and your best friend. She'll know what to do." I sigh as I have heard him try to tell me this before.
I've been living here for the past four months now. Plenty of time to try and change my mind about the decisions that I have made.
With no want to listen to this again, I simply leave the hallway in favour of the kitchen, hoping to get myself something to drink. Sonic follows after me with every intention to continue this little talk.
I'm urged to sit down on this wooden step stool bought once upon a short time ago so our youngest resident may reach higher places in this kitchen and a glass of cool water is handed to me, from which I quickly drink.
I can't stand for too long without growing tired.
"It's better for her if she doesn't know. If we give G.U.N, or anyone shady for that matter, an inkling of a doubt about weither or not she may know where I am, she'll be in danger." I told him firmly after emptying the glass in one long gulp. I was that thirsty.
"You're witness to how weak my body's become without the Chaos that usually keeps it strong." I can no longer descent a simple flight of stairs without growing weary and dizzy.
I fear the day may soon come that I won't leave the bed at all because the mere act of living is tiring me out.
It is the energy that made me such a force to be reckoned with for so long that allows me to live in the first place. Unlike ordinairy mobians, I can't live without it for long.
Sonic frowns as he has seen me deteriorate and grow worse over the course of these past few months. It is something that was quite hard to ignore.
"I know you feel like I'd be better off if she knew, but this is a faceless foe. Weither they are at my old place of work or somewhere else entirely, I can't entrust this secret with anyone else until this baby is here and I can have my abilities back." I can't quite remember if I have ever gone this elaborate with my answer before.
"When I can defend myself and others again. That's when I want to tell her everything. Just bear with me and my wishes for a little while longer, Sonic. Until June." I asked the hedgehog who has come to kneel before me, his gaze once again on my belly and only occasionally briefly meeting mine.
We have so many unanswered questions as to what was inside. That includes me.
There is no father, he or she wasn't conceived with a second party involved that I am aware of. Alien or hedgehog, we have no idea what species they might be even what self-made ultrasounds initially tell us. Why my powers have gone is also something we are left to guess. The reason behind how this pregnancy affects my body so much more drastically than others is also something we are likely not going to find out either.
Tails has been trying to search for answers in an inconspicuous way, but has come up empty so far.
All we can do is wait and hope some of them will still get an answer with the inevitable birth.
A peach hand once again settles on my abdomen and the small creature inside springs to life at the attention 
"Okay, fine. I'll play along until then. But you better hold on to June." He doesn't care to hide his worry. To see the Ultimate Lifeform grow so terribly weak in the course of only a few months has unsettled him greatly.
"Don't worry yourself over me. I'll get there for sure. I will be strong enough when the day finally comes and I will recover quickly. All you need to do is keep up the pretense. Whoever may try to take advantage of me in this condition, we can't give them a single reason to believe you have anything to do with my disappearance." That was all I needed. Him to keep his promise that I would be safe in his home.
"Yeah, yeah, I know." He tells me and I am inclined to believe him. A small kick inside scolds me about ever doubting him.
I sit back against the wall this step stool is pushed against and let that hedgehog have his way as he rouses my baby from its sleep with all of the attention he showers it with.
Just until June. Then all of this can finally end. The baby will be here, my powers will be back, my body will recover, I can reunite with Rouge, and we will be safe once more.