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Um... yeah. So, my mental health in the past few months hasn't been... great. I've come so close to having an absolute mental fucking breakdown so many times that I've lost track of how many. This is sort of my homage to all the rage, distress, and burnout I've been experiencing. Anger is addicting emotion for me. While I've never had problems with anger issues before, just imagining what it would be like to stop giving a shit for one second and just absolutely ripping into someone puts me in a state of ecstasy like no other. Sometimes I would love nothing more than to go on an unhinged rampage on everyone and everything around me, but part of me is terrified that I will become something awful if I let it all out.  It's like there's a monster inside me and the only thing holding it back is a frayed piece of thread that only decays further with time.

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