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(Turtles are AU and Leo is 23 and Raph is 22, Donnie and Mikey are 20)
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No money is being made on this story.","writing":"[b]LEO POV[/b]\n\nNervously she sat there with her hands between her legs, staring at the needle going into Raph’s arm, as the big baby cringed like a child, in normal circumstances Leo would laugh, even crack a smile on the mere sight of Raph acting in this manner, yet she could not.\n\nHer mind was elsewhere, lost in the depths of her own sorrow, her fear and her shame.\n\nMany times she looked towards the door in wonder, how was Mikey is taking this, of all the ways of her little brother to find out that she was the one that had slept with him, this wasn’t the way she wanted to break it to him…\n\nSighing, she closed her eyes, just to open them again when she felt a warm, familiar hand on her arm, looking up, Donnie smile, “Leo I need a blood sample from you now.”\n\nNodding, she put out her arm, relaxing it when the elastic band went around it as tight as it could get, making a fist, she could feel the slight pinch, watching the red crimson liquid fill up the vial, then another, then another after that.\n\nThree samples full, Donnie took off the elastic band, then slowly took the needle out, “Hold this here for a couple seconds,” Donnie insisted, directing Leo’s hand to where she needed to hold down a small piece of gauze in place.\n\nTaking some white medical tape, Donnie taped the gauze down; leaving Leo's side with her blood samples bringing them to her desk, making sure each one was properly labeled with each person’s name, so none of them got mixed up.\n\n“What the hell is going on Donnie?” Raph finally piped up from her corner, annoyed at the fact, Donnie hasn’t made any attempted to explain this disaster that fell on them.\n\nBiting her lip, Donnie sighed, turning around, leaning against her desk, holding her bandage that was wrapped around her head, “I’m not sure exactly per say… What I can tell, is that our current conditions is linked to the accident that befell my lab…”\n\n“No shit, Sherlock,” Raph spat crossing her arms narrowing her eyes at Donnie, for stating the obvious, that all three already knew, Raph wanted something a little more concrete.\n\nTightening her grip on her desk, Donnie glared back at Raph for her rude interruption, she was still a bit pissed off over Raph’s display of arrogance towards her and treatment of her possessions, sure she was getting over it a while ago, even considering to make amends to her older sister, to let the whole lab accident be just a faded memory of the past, but after this transformation, and the fact Raph was been pointing fingers at her, like this whole nightmare is fully her fault, Donnie’s anger just came back in full swing.\n\nAs the stormed brewed between the two sisters, Leo sighed again, she would normally say something to direct Raph’s anger else where, to bring some kind of peaceful truths between them, for they are normally not so aggressive towards each other, but at the moment she wasn’t in the mood.\n\nSlowly getting to her feet, a wave of nausea hit her, it was so tense, twisting her insides to the point tears form in her eyes, she was unfortunately unable to move, losing the war to hold it back, Leo violently puked onto the floor, falling to her knees afterword.\n\nHer sicken state in turn did stop the two other siblings quickly, as both yelped loudly, clearing out of range of the projectile.\n\n“Shit Leo, a bit more warning if you’re going to hurl! Damn it, this stinks! I’m going to my room,” Raph held her beak from the wretched smell that made her own stomach turn, leaving the lab quickly, not daring to look back, fearing she might lose her lunch as well.\n\nPanting, Leo firmly had her palms against the cement floor, while her body shook uncontrollably, luckily to her, not everyone runs away when someone is sick, Donnie was there next to her in seconds trying to bring her some comfort.\n\n“Don’t worry Leo, its just nerves, I don’t blame you… I will go get a mop. Just breathe, take slow deep breaths, you might want to get away from your vomit so it doesn’t trigger your gag reflects,” Donnie soothed Leo by rubbing the back of her neck gently, helping Leo back up to her feet to sit on a chair, before walking away to retrieve a buck and mop, to clean up the mess.\n\nStaring at the floor, Leo tears took her, as a wave of her emotions broke down the wall she been trying so hard to keep up ever since she left the bathroom with Donnie, yet in the end, even a wall like hers that she perfected over the years, was no match this time around.\n\n--------------------------------------**********************-----------------------------------\n\n[b]Mikey POV[/b]\n\nHands shaking as the glass shard pressed firmly against his wrist, Mikey stared at it, as the dark feelings took him, engulfing him in a state of misery and self destruction, strangling his soul, draining ever inch of his purity, even his own sanity from it.\n\nHow could he reconcile on what he has done and still be able to face Leo?\n\nUnable to take it a moment more, this overwhelming heavy feeling within his heart, he pressed the shard into his skin as the pain that should have bothered him, did not, he was too numb to notice that he was actually hurting himself.\n\nTaking a breath, he started to move his hand that was now steady as a rock, like this was nothing at all.\n\nTears filled his eyes, as he watched the crimson blood escape his body from his opened wound, the deeper he went, the more the beautiful red liquid ran down his arm, making him to desire to see more, to see how much his body could give, then suddenly something broke his blood lust, his darken state of mine.\n\nIt was a flash at first, nothing more, in truth, it shouldn’t have caught his eyes at all, for how significant it was, yet it kept tugging at him to give a look.\n\nSomething glimmered in the shatter glass pieces that were scattered on the ground, trying to ignore it once again, he continue to cut, then it flash in the corner of his eye, as if it was upset of his ignorance of not paying attention to it, it started teasing him, calling him to pay attention to it or else.\n\nGrinding his teeth not wanting any distractions, he just wanted to finish this, yet it wouldn’t leave him alone. \n\nGiving up his fruitless attempt to pretend it wasn’t there, he dared to look at the reflections that were not just in one shard, but all simultaneously, casting an image like no other.\n\nIt was beautiful, with blues and light reds, with a hint of purple within its sunset, cast in front of it was cheery blossoms in full bloom, the image he loved so much, pulling on his heart string so hard he felt like his body was in some tug a war between the darkness and the light.\n\nStaring at it, his steady hands lost all feeling, letting go of the bloody glass shard, allowing it to fall to the ground, without a second thought. \n\nTaking a deep trembling breath, he slowly turned his head towards the wall, where it hung, a painting; a painting of a sun with cherry blossoms… Leo’s first real painting, one he was so proud of, the very one that Leo gave him for a present to thank him for suggesting him to paint in the first place.\n\nThe symbolism, the pure warmth of the painting wrapped its gentle arms around Mikey’s heart and soul, piercing through the darkness that dared to claim him as its own.\n\n“What… What am I doing?!” Mikey gasp, as the horrifying reality of what he was going to do, hit him hard. \n\nFlashing a look at his arm and hands that was stained in blood, even noticing his whole floor was painted red, he trembled at the disturbing sight, how could he have done this to himself, or even consider doing such a despicable thing in the first place?\n\nHow could he dare to even think this was the right choice for his current situation? Did he not proclaim he was going to start carrying around his own weight, taking responsibility like his siblings? Wasn’t this running away, being the person he wished not to be?\n\nMortified by his rash actions, Mikey screamed, shaking his head, what the hell was he thinking, how could he be so selfish!!!\n\nSuddenly to his surprise his door flung open, with a large bang, there speechless, taking in the scene in front of her, Raph’s eye was wide in disbelief and complete horror, not sure what she was witnessing.\n\n“Mikey… MIKEY what the FUCK are you doing!!!” Raph’s face suddenly got cold and hard, as she growled under her breath, snarling at Mikey.\n\nMikey trying to find the words to explain himself didn’t have the moment to do so, for Raph grabbed his sheet off of his bed, ripping it up, quickly putting pressure onto his arm, “Damn it Mikey, what were you thinking? How could you do this to yourself?”\n\n“I… I…” Mikey shuddered, the only thing that could come out was a whimper, he couldn’t tell Raph the reason, what would she think of him if she knew the truth?\n\nNarrowing her eyes, Raph held onto Mikey’s arm tighter shooting pain through his body, reminding him she wasn’t someone to piss around with. \n\n“Spill it!” Raph growled more, not taking any excuses, knowing this wasn’t some accident, like hell she was going to fall for that one.\n\n“I’m… I’m sorry, I,” Mikey teared up wishing Raph never came into the room, wishing he had thought this through more, he was lost, he didn’t know what to say.\n\n“Mikey don’t tell me sorry, tell me why… Why would you do this?” Raph’s voice choked on each word, which sounded shaky even, her hands were trembling, trying to keep the pressure on his arm.\n\nLooking away, avoiding those bright yellow eyes that could pierce into one's soul, Mikey shivered tying not to break down, as he gathered all his courage telling Raph of his shame.\n\n“I did something unspeakable… I know it isn’t an excuse for what I was willing to do to myself… but at the moment I seen no other way… I am ashamed of myself, sicken at the thought of what I did, to the point I truly believed I shouldn’t be allowed to live because of my actions,” Mikey told Raph slowly.\n\n“Mikey, what did you do? I… I know I’m not Donnie or Leo when it comes to talking… but…,” as the word Leo came out, Mikey cringed, making Raph looked at him sideways.\n\nTrembling still not daring to look at her at all, Mikey bit his lip, “I had sex with Leo… when Leo became a female…”\n\nWaiting for it, waiting for the disgust, the lecture, the anger for what he had done, waiting for Raph to tell him off, giving him grief, even a thrash in the head… Yet it never came, suddenly something unexpected happened instead, Mikey felt a set of arms wrapped around him tightly, followed by hot tears falling onto his skin, was Raph crying?!\n\nStartled on this notion, the fact that Raph would ever cry, especially in front of someone, let alone him of all siblings, Mikey tilted his head towards her, sure enough Raph was crying, for her being a female, this hit Mikey harder than in normal circumstances.\n\nHe thought seeing Leo crying as a girl was bad, this was worse, it truly pulled onto his heart strings, it was obvious Raph was stressed to the point of breaking down, then seeing this, hearing why he was going to kill himself, must have put her onto the edge, making her fall apart altogether.\n\nMoments passed, they just sat there not saying a word, finally sniffling wiping away her tears, Raph huffed, “Damn hormones, no wonder women cry, it's so hard not to…” Raph made the likely excuse on why she was crying, nuzzling her beak into Mikey’s neck, trying to attempt to stop anymore tears from flowing, as she softened her voice, sniffling again, “Mikey, I think we need to talk…”\n\nWith a nod Mikey didn’t fight it, he knew Raph was right, they did need to talk, he had to get it off his chest. \n\nSlowly he explained what happened, all the while Raph listened, never before Raph was so willing to do so, but Mikey realized for her in doing this, it was just not helping him, but helping her with her own issues as well.\n\n------------------------------------****************------------------------------------\n\n[b]Donnie Pov[/b]\n\nTaking the mop cleaning the puke that actually didn’t bother her sense of smell, considering out of her siblings, she had the stronger stomach for such things, in truth she had smelled worse things then Leo’s half digested meal.\n\nAs the soapy water sloshed across the ground, now and then Donnie flashed a look over towards Leo, watching her, it was obvious the blue clad turtle was in distress, yet deep down she had the feeling it was more than their current predicament that was plaguing her mind.\n\nThe question was, what was on Leo’s mind that was hindering her so, and why did she get sick, Leo wasn’t a person that would just lose her lunch, not so easily that is, Donnie has seen Leo to the brink of falling apart, yet never seen her in such a state she was in at the current moment.\n\n“Leo, do you want to talk?” Donnie slowly started to ask, putting the bucket to the far side so it was out of the way, not wanting to dump it at the moment, figuring that it was best she did not leave; it would only allow Leo to slip away before talking to her.\n\n“No, not really… Donnie what were you working on before the explosion?” Leo leaned her shell against the computer chair that Donnie insisted her to sit in, all the while taking a stool for her own self.\n\n“A solution for mating season… but that said, I don’t know how my experiment would have this effect on us, second thought, I don’t have the slightest idea how this is even possible. Or can I truly figure it out…”\n\n“Huh?” Leo looked up, staring at her genius sister that seemed upset over something, as fear build within, “What do you mean by that?”\n\nBiting her lip, knowing it was best not to lie; Donnie felt like she was an idiot not knowing or even bothered to test them after such an accident occurred, she has always been so cautious in the past, why this one time she wasn’t?\n\n“All the things that were involved in the accident were cleaned up and dispose of properly, like I normally do… Other words whatever triggered this is now destroyed, leaving no evidence of the source or samples to determine how our current condition came to be. Even with the blood samples, I am only crossing my fingers to see if I can come up with a accurate conclusion of what this is, or if it can be reversed,” feeling Leo worrisome eyes on the back of her shell, Donnie went to her desk sitting down on her stool, putting her hands together staring at the vials of blood in front of her.\n\nLeo stirred, then took a breath before speaking, “So you’re saying it’s not going to be easy to figure this one out then… Do you truly think our blood won’t have the answers?”\n\nDonnie only shrugged, “Don’t know, it’s a long shot, all we know it could be a mutation, some bazaar chemical allergic reaction, or other. Which I don’t have to point out, that ‘other’ tends to be a field that mere science has little effect on figuring it out.”\n\n“Donnie what else was involved in this accident,” Leo shudder looking around, knowing all to well that Donnie doesn’t only own many inventions, she also possesses artifacts that science has no concept to understand how it works.\n\n“Don’t know, I will have to go through my archives and determine what I am missing, even then half the stuff I have, I still never found out what they did or could potentially do. Before you ask, all the items and things that didn’t survive the accident was to damage for me to determine what it was, so I have no other choice to take the long way around for this one.”\n\n“How long will it take you to figure out what is missing?”\n\n“A couple days, a week, or weeks… I’m sorry Leo.. this is all my fault…”\n\nSlowly getting off her seat, Leo felt sick again, as her face turned white, “Donnie, it’s not your fault, don’t’ you dare believe it is.”\n\nSmiling at Leo warmly, happy to have someone that understands, Donnie got up from her seat, giving Leo a hand, “Thanks Leo… but I think its best that you go to bed, you look pale, describe to me how you're feeling at this moment.”\n\nLeo chuckled, trying to keep smiling, hiding her true feelings, “Not myself, actually none of us are… I will be fine Donnie, please don’t worry, I just need some rest that’s all.”","writing_bbcode_parsed":"LEO POV

Nervously she sat there with her hands between her legs, staring at the needle going into Raph’s arm, as the big baby cringed like a child, in normal circumstances Leo would laugh, even crack a smile on the mere sight of Raph acting in this manner, yet she could not.

Her mind was elsewhere, lost in the depths of her own sorrow, her fear and her shame.

Many times she looked towards the door in wonder, how was Mikey is taking this, of all the ways of her little brother to find out that she was the one that had slept with him, this wasn’t the way she wanted to break it to him…

Sighing, she closed her eyes, just to open them again when she felt a warm, familiar hand on her arm, looking up, Donnie smile, “Leo I need a blood sample from you now.”

Nodding, she put out her arm, relaxing it when the elastic band went around it as tight as it could get, making a fist, she could feel the slight pinch, watching the red crimson liquid fill up the vial, then another, then another after that.

Three samples full, Donnie took off the elastic band, then slowly took the needle out, “Hold this here for a couple seconds,” Donnie insisted, directing Leo’s hand to where she needed to hold down a small piece of gauze in place.

Taking some white medical tape, Donnie taped the gauze down; leaving Leo's side with her blood samples bringing them to her desk, making sure each one was properly labeled with each person’s name, so none of them got mixed up.

“What the hell is going on Donnie?” Raph finally piped up from her corner, annoyed at the fact, Donnie hasn’t made any attempted to explain this disaster that fell on them.

Biting her lip, Donnie sighed, turning around, leaning against her desk, holding her bandage that was wrapped around her head, “I’m not sure exactly per say… What I can tell, is that our current conditions is linked to the accident that befell my lab…”

“No shit, Sherlock,” Raph spat crossing her arms narrowing her eyes at Donnie, for stating the obvious, that all three already knew, Raph wanted something a little more concrete.

Tightening her grip on her desk, Donnie glared back at Raph for her rude interruption, she was still a bit pissed off over Raph’s display of arrogance towards her and treatment of her possessions, sure she was getting over it a while ago, even considering to make amends to her older sister, to let the whole lab accident be just a faded memory of the past, but after this transformation, and the fact Raph was been pointing fingers at her, like this whole nightmare is fully her fault, Donnie’s anger just came back in full swing.

As the stormed brewed between the two sisters, Leo sighed again, she would normally say something to direct Raph’s anger else where, to bring some kind of peaceful truths between them, for they are normally not so aggressive towards each other, but at the moment she wasn’t in the mood.

Slowly getting to her feet, a wave of nausea hit her, it was so tense, twisting her insides to the point tears form in her eyes, she was unfortunately unable to move, losing the war to hold it back, Leo violently puked onto the floor, falling to her knees afterword.

Her sicken state in turn did stop the two other siblings quickly, as both yelped loudly, clearing out of range of the projectile.

“Shit Leo, a bit more warning if you’re going to hurl!  Damn it, this stinks! I’m going to my room,” Raph held her beak from the wretched smell that made her own stomach turn, leaving the lab quickly, not daring to look back, fearing she might lose her lunch as well.

Panting, Leo firmly had her palms against the cement floor, while her body shook uncontrollably, luckily to her, not everyone runs away when someone is sick, Donnie was there next to her in seconds trying to bring her some comfort.

“Don’t worry Leo, its just nerves, I don’t blame you… I will go get a mop. Just breathe, take slow deep breaths, you might want to get away from your vomit so it doesn’t trigger your gag reflects,” Donnie soothed Leo by rubbing the back of her neck gently, helping Leo back up to her feet to sit on a chair, before walking away to retrieve a buck and mop, to clean up the mess.

Staring at the floor, Leo tears took her, as a wave of her emotions broke down the wall she been trying so hard to keep up ever since she left the bathroom with Donnie, yet in the end, even a wall like hers that she perfected over the years, was no match this time around.

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Mikey POV

Hands shaking as the glass shard pressed firmly against his wrist, Mikey stared at it, as the dark feelings took him, engulfing him in a state of misery and self destruction, strangling his soul, draining ever inch of his purity, even his own sanity from it.

How could he reconcile on what he has done and still be able to face Leo?

Unable to take it a moment more, this overwhelming heavy feeling within his heart, he pressed the shard into his skin as the pain that should have bothered him, did not, he was too numb to notice that he was actually hurting himself.

Taking a breath, he started to move his hand that was now steady as a rock, like this was nothing at all.

Tears filled his eyes, as he watched the crimson blood escape his body from his opened wound, the deeper he went, the more the beautiful red liquid ran down his arm, making him to desire to see more, to see how much his body could give, then suddenly something broke his blood lust, his darken state of mine.

It was a flash at first, nothing more, in truth, it shouldn’t have caught his eyes at all, for how significant it was, yet it kept tugging at him to give a look.

Something glimmered in the shatter glass pieces that were scattered on the ground, trying to ignore it once again, he continue to cut, then it flash in the corner of his eye, as if it was upset of his ignorance of not paying attention to it, it started teasing him, calling him to pay attention to it or else.

Grinding his teeth not wanting any distractions, he just wanted to finish this, yet it wouldn’t leave him alone.

Giving up his fruitless attempt to pretend it wasn’t there, he dared to look at the reflections that were not just in one shard, but all simultaneously, casting an image like no other.

It was beautiful, with blues and light reds, with a hint of purple within its sunset, cast in front of it was cheery blossoms in full bloom, the image he loved so much, pulling on his heart string so hard he felt like his body was in some tug a war between the darkness and the light.

Staring at it, his steady hands lost all feeling, letting go of the bloody glass shard, allowing it to fall to the ground, without a second thought.

Taking a deep trembling breath, he slowly turned his head towards the wall, where it hung, a painting; a painting of a sun with cherry blossoms… Leo’s first real painting, one he was so proud of, the very one that Leo gave him for a present to thank him for suggesting him to paint in the first place.

The symbolism, the pure warmth of the painting wrapped its gentle arms around Mikey’s heart and soul, piercing through the darkness that dared to claim him as its own.

“What… What am I doing?!” Mikey gasp, as the horrifying reality of what he was going to do, hit him hard.

Flashing a look at his arm and hands that was stained in blood, even noticing his whole floor was painted red, he trembled at the disturbing sight, how could he have done this to himself, or even consider doing such a despicable thing in the first place?

How could he dare to even think this was the right choice for his current situation? Did he not proclaim he was going to start carrying around his own weight, taking responsibility like his siblings? Wasn’t this running away, being the person he wished not to be?

Mortified by his rash actions, Mikey screamed, shaking his head, what the hell was he thinking, how could he be so selfish!!!

Suddenly to his surprise his door flung open, with a large bang, there speechless, taking in the scene in front of her, Raph’s eye was wide in disbelief and complete horror, not sure what she was witnessing.

“Mikey… MIKEY what the FUCK are you doing!!!” Raph’s face suddenly got cold and hard, as she growled under her breath, snarling at Mikey.

Mikey trying to find the words to explain himself didn’t have the moment to do so, for Raph grabbed his sheet off of his bed, ripping it up, quickly putting pressure onto his arm, “Damn it Mikey, what were you thinking? How could you do this to yourself?”

“I… I…” Mikey shuddered, the only thing that could come out was a whimper, he couldn’t tell Raph the reason, what would she think of him if she knew the truth?

Narrowing her eyes, Raph held onto Mikey’s arm tighter shooting pain through his body, reminding him she wasn’t someone to piss around with.

“Spill it!” Raph growled more, not taking any excuses, knowing this wasn’t some accident, like hell she was going to fall for that one.

“I’m… I’m sorry, I,”  Mikey teared up wishing Raph never came into the room, wishing he had thought this through more, he was lost, he didn’t know what to say.

“Mikey don’t tell me sorry, tell me why… Why would you do this?” Raph’s voice choked on each word, which sounded shaky even, her hands were trembling, trying to keep the pressure on his arm.

Looking away, avoiding those bright yellow eyes that could pierce into one's soul, Mikey shivered tying not to break down, as he gathered all his courage telling Raph of his shame.

“I did something unspeakable… I know it isn’t an excuse for what I was willing to do to myself… but at the moment I seen no other way… I am ashamed of myself, sicken at the thought of what I did, to the point I truly believed I shouldn’t be allowed to live because of my actions,” Mikey told Raph slowly.

“Mikey, what did you do? I… I know I’m not Donnie or Leo when it comes to talking… but…,” as the word Leo came out, Mikey cringed, making Raph looked at him sideways.

Trembling still not daring to look at her at all, Mikey bit his lip, “I had sex with Leo… when Leo became a female…”

Waiting for it, waiting for the disgust, the lecture, the anger for what he had done, waiting for Raph to tell him off, giving him grief, even a thrash in the head… Yet it never came, suddenly something unexpected happened instead, Mikey felt a set of arms wrapped around him tightly, followed by hot tears falling onto his skin, was Raph crying?!

Startled on this notion, the fact that Raph would ever cry, especially in front of someone, let alone him of all siblings, Mikey tilted his head towards her, sure enough Raph was crying, for her being a female, this hit Mikey harder than in normal circumstances.

He thought seeing Leo crying as a girl was bad, this was worse, it truly pulled onto his heart strings, it was obvious Raph was stressed to the point of breaking down, then seeing this, hearing why he was going to kill himself, must have put her onto the edge, making her fall apart altogether.

Moments passed, they just sat there not saying a word, finally sniffling wiping away her tears, Raph huffed, “Damn hormones, no wonder women cry, it's so hard not to…” Raph made the likely excuse on why she was crying, nuzzling her beak into Mikey’s neck, trying to attempt to stop anymore tears from flowing, as she softened her voice, sniffling again, “Mikey, I think we need to talk…”

With a nod Mikey didn’t fight it, he knew Raph was right, they did need to talk, he had to get it off his chest.

Slowly he explained what happened, all the while Raph listened, never before Raph was so willing to do so, but Mikey realized for her in doing this, it was just not helping him, but helping her with her own issues as well.

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Donnie Pov

Taking the mop cleaning the puke that actually didn’t bother her sense of smell, considering out of her siblings, she had the stronger stomach for such things, in truth she had smelled worse things then Leo’s half digested meal.

As the soapy water sloshed across the ground, now and then Donnie flashed a look over towards Leo, watching her, it was obvious the blue clad turtle was in distress, yet deep down she had the feeling it was more than their current predicament that was plaguing her mind.

The question was, what was on Leo’s mind that was hindering her so, and why did she get sick, Leo wasn’t a person that would just lose her lunch, not so easily that is, Donnie has seen Leo to the brink of falling apart, yet never seen her in such a state she was in at the current moment.

“Leo, do you want to talk?” Donnie slowly started to ask, putting the bucket to the far side so it was out of the way, not wanting to dump it at the moment, figuring that it was best she did not leave; it would only allow Leo to slip away before talking to her.

“No, not really… Donnie what were you working on before the explosion?” Leo leaned her shell against the computer chair that Donnie insisted her to sit in, all the while taking a stool for her own self.

“A solution for mating season… but that said, I don’t know how my experiment would have this effect on us, second thought, I don’t have the slightest idea how this is even possible. Or can I truly figure it out…”

“Huh?” Leo looked up, staring at her genius sister that seemed upset over something, as fear build within, “What do you mean by that?”

Biting her lip, knowing it was best not to lie; Donnie felt like she was an idiot not knowing or even bothered to test them after such an accident occurred, she has always been so cautious in the past, why this one time she wasn’t?

“All the things that were involved in the accident were cleaned up and dispose of properly, like I normally do… Other words whatever triggered this is now destroyed, leaving no evidence of the source or samples to determine how our current condition came to be. Even with the blood samples, I am only crossing my fingers to see if I can come up with a accurate conclusion of what this is, or if it can be reversed,” feeling Leo worrisome eyes on the back of her shell, Donnie went to her desk sitting down on her stool, putting her hands together staring at the vials of blood in front of her.

Leo stirred, then took a breath before speaking, “So you’re saying it’s not going to be easy to figure this one out then… Do you truly think our blood won’t have the answers?”

Donnie only shrugged, “Don’t know, it’s a long shot, all we know it could be a mutation, some bazaar chemical allergic reaction, or other. Which I don’t have to point out, that ‘other’ tends to be a field that mere science has little effect on figuring it out.”

“Donnie what else was involved in this accident,” Leo shudder looking around, knowing all to well that Donnie doesn’t only own many inventions, she also possesses artifacts that science has no concept to understand how it works.

“Don’t know, I will have to go through my archives and determine what I am missing, even then half the stuff I have, I still never found out what they did or could potentially do. Before you ask, all the items and things that didn’t survive the accident was to damage for me to determine what it was, so I have no other choice to take the long way around for this one.”

“How long will it take you to figure out what is missing?”

“A couple days, a week, or weeks… I’m sorry Leo.. this is all my fault…”

Slowly getting off her seat, Leo felt sick again, as her face turned white, “Donnie, it’s not your fault, don’t’ you dare believe it is.”

Smiling at Leo warmly, happy to have someone that understands, Donnie got up from her seat, giving Leo a hand, “Thanks Leo… but I think its best that you go to bed, you look pale, describe to me how you're feeling at this moment.”

Leo chuckled, trying to keep smiling, hiding her true feelings, “Not myself, actually none of us are… I will be fine Donnie, please don’t worry, I just need some rest that’s all.”","pools_count":1,"title":"TMNT - Bitter Sweet Honey (Ch.5)","deleted":"f","public":"t","mimetype":"application/msword","pagecount":"1","rating_id":"2","rating_name":"Adult","ratings":[{"content_tag_id":"4","name":"Sexual Themes","description":"Erotic imagery, sexual activity or arousal","rating_id":"2"}],"submission_type_id":"12","type_name":"Writing - Document","guest_block":"t","friends_only":"f","comments_count":"0","views":"116","sales_description":null,"forsale":"f","digitalsales":"f","printsales":"f","digital_price":""}