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He had been staring at his computer for so long that when he pulled his eyes away it took them a moment to focus on Leo. “Yeah, sure,” Donnie replied, rubbing his eyes. “What’s up?”\n\nLeo shifted his weight from one foot to the other. “I just wanted to make sure we’re okay.”\n\n“Oh.” Donatello adjusted his glasses. He had been expecting this conversation. “This is about the other day. We both said things that were hurtful. I was being insensitive to your feelings and you got angry.” He looked up and smiled at Leo. “You made a good point. Though our situation is unique, it is not the only aspect that determines who we are. I’m sorry that I questioned you.”\n\n“I didn’t come here for you to apologize to me,” Leo said, a little frustrated and moved closer to Donnie. “You question everything, it’s the way your mind works and I know that. I shouldn’t have taken offence. Besides, it doesn’t matter how frustrated I was. I shouldn’t have said what I said. I’m sorry.”\n\n“You’re forgiven,” Donnie said as he stood. When he saw the look on Leo’s face Donnie gave him a reassuring smile. “Really. It’s okay.” He walked over to Leo and offered him a hug. “We’re good.”\n\nLeo moved into the embrace, wrapping his arms tightly around Donnie. “Thank you.”\n\n….\n\nSpring. The time of the year Donnie hated the most. While most people hated the dramatic shifts in the weather and allergies, Donatello and his brothers suffered from an overwhelming instinctual need to mate. \n\nIt was so overwhelming that Donatello almost didn’t care if he was wearing the protection he had spent countless hours to create. Fortunately he had enough control over himself to make sure it was in place before the first of his brothers came to him. \n\nIt had been a long day. They had all woken up feeling the need but they had to wait for Splinter to leave, that night, before doing anything about it. \n\nIt was almost time. Donnie was naked, pacing his lab in anticipation and making sure he wasn’t forgetting anything. \n\nThey had chosen the lab over his bedroom because it had a sink and all of his supplies. There was a cot if they wanted to lie down, though most of the time he was bent over the desk. He didn’t really care how his brothers wanted to do it as long as his needs were met. \n\nDonatello left the decision on who was to come to him first up to his brothers. It didn’t matter to him. He would take all three of them if they were willing. But that would lead to awkwardness in the days that followed the season. Donnie didn’t want that. \n\nHe had just finished injecting an ample amount of lubricant into the contraceptive when Leonardo opened the door to the lab. Leo was usually first since he was strictly business and just wanted to get it over with. So Donatello leaned over the desk and waited as Leo undressed. \n\nLeonardo wasn’t selfish but he wasn’t trying to make it last either. Donatello simply relaxed and tried to derive as much pleasure from the brief encounter as possible. It wasn’t hard to do, being in season helped in the process. It wasn’t as good as it was with Raph but it got the job done, several times. \n\nWhen Leo was finished he backed away from Donnie and collected his pants from the ground. “You okay?”\n\nDonnie looked over his shoulder just as Leo was fastening his pants. He nodded. “Yeah. Did the contraceptive bother you at all?”\n\n“No,” Leo replied. “It was actually kind of nice.” He watched as Donnie removed the silicon barrier. “Everything okay?”\n\n“I think so,” Donnie answered, taking the device over to the sink. “I don’t see any leaks.”\n\n“Good. I guess I’ll go then. Mikey’s waiting.” It was always a little uncomfortable afterwards. His brothers never wanted to just leave but they knew that they couldn’t linger either so a few awkward things were said before they headed out the door. Leo turned to leave but then stopped to look back at Donnie. “It’s not bad with me, is it?”\n\nDonatello, a little shocked by the question, shook his head. “No. Why do you ask?”\n\n“I care about you,” Leo replied with a sigh and shrugged his shoulders. “You said that it was better with Raph, now that you’re a couple. And, since I just come in here to satisfy a need and I’m, as you said, disconnected, I am afraid that I might be leaving you unsatisfied and feeling used.”\n\n“You worry too much, Leo. I enjoy our time together,” Donnie reassured him and smiled. “This started as a way to satisfy a need that we all had. And I am satisfied. Even though the relationship I have with Raph has evolved, it doesn’t diminish the one I have with you. There is trust, understanding, and mutual respect between us. I don’t feel used at all.”\n\n“Good,” Leo sighed with relief and backed up towards the door. “I’ll go get Mikey.”\n \nDonnie grabbed a fresh contraceptive and waved at Leo. “Okay.” \n\nHe had made several of the thick silicon based barriers. They stayed in place inside Donatello and he was stimulated by his brothers’ movements within the textured walls. He barely had time to insert the new one before Mikey came rushing into the room and began stripping. \n\n“Is it me or did Leo take longer this time?”\n\n“I think your eagerness made it seem that way,” Donnie replied with a chuckle while he finished getting ready. \n\n“Can we do it on the cot?” Mikey requested. \n\n“Okay,” Donnie said with a slight nod of his head. “I don’t have any problem with that.”\n\n“Face to face?” Mikey added a little nervously. \n\n“Um?” What was with his brothers lately? “Sure.” \n\n“Raph said it was better that way,” Mikey explained rubbing his hands on his legs as they made their way to the cot. “I had asked him if it would be okay if I tried it. He said he had no problem with it and as long as you didn’t mind.”\n\nMikey tended to be talkative. He would ramble on about one thing or another, his train of thought changing tracks often. He would laugh nervously at his first few churrs whenever they interrupted whatever he was saying. Occasionally he would stop talking all together, lost in the bliss. Donnie found it to be kind of cute. \n\nMikey buried his beak in the nape of Donnie’s neck. “You textured it.”\n\n“I did,” Donnie replied, running his fingers through the pattern of Mikey’s carapace. \n\n“You’re so good to us.” With a glassy look in his eyes, Mikey smiled down at Donnie. “Can I kiss you?”\n\nDonnie nodded. “Sure.”\n\nIt was the first time Mikey was quiet during their time together. When they finished, Mikey sat back on his feet at the foot of the bed. “Raph’s right, it was better that way.”\n\n“It is,” Donnie agreed as he got up on shaky legs. He removed the contraceptive and checked it for any leaks. He was happy to note that it held up perfectly. \n\n“I wish we had more time,” Mikey said as he got dressed. “I kinda wanna lie down and snuggle for a while.”\n\n“That would be nice.” Donnie placed the contraceptive next to the sink after giving it a thorough rinsing. “But Splinter won’t be gone for much longer and we’ve made Raph wait long enough.”\n\n“He gets to have you all year.” \n\n“Mikey?” Awkward conversations seemed to be the theme of the day. \n\nRubbing the back of his head, Mikey let out an exasperated sigh. “It’s not that I want you the rest of the year. You know I’m not attracted to you outside of the season but, let’s face it I don’t really have a chance in finding a human girl. So this is the only time I get.”\n\nDonnie wasn’t mad. He understood what Mikey meant. Mikey wasn’t gay. Even if Donnie identified as female, he had no doubt that Mikey would not be attracted to him. Mikey liked human women. 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Donnie looked up from his computer array. He had been staring at his computer for so long that when he pulled his eyes away it took them a moment to focus on Leo. “Yeah, sure,” Donnie replied, rubbing his eyes. “What’s up?”

Leo shifted his weight from one foot to the other. “I just wanted to make sure we’re okay.”

“Oh.” Donatello adjusted his glasses. He had been expecting this conversation. “This is about the other day. We both said things that were hurtful. I was being insensitive to your feelings and you got angry.” He looked up and smiled at Leo. “You made a good point. Though our situation is unique, it is not the only aspect that determines who we are. I’m sorry that I questioned you.”

“I didn’t come here for you to apologize to me,” Leo said, a little frustrated and moved closer to Donnie. “You question everything, it’s the way your mind works and I know that. I shouldn’t have taken offence. Besides, it doesn’t matter how frustrated I was. I shouldn’t have said what I said. I’m sorry.”

“You’re forgiven,” Donnie said as he stood. When he saw the look on Leo’s face Donnie gave him a reassuring smile. “Really. It’s okay.” He walked over to Leo and offered him a hug. “We’re good.”

Leo moved into the embrace, wrapping his arms tightly around Donnie. “Thank you.”

….

Spring. The time of the year Donnie hated the most. While most people hated the dramatic shifts in the weather and allergies, Donatello and his brothers suffered from an overwhelming instinctual need to mate.

It was so overwhelming that Donatello almost didn’t care if he was wearing the protection he had spent countless hours to create. Fortunately he had enough control over himself to make sure it was in place before the first of his brothers came to him.

It had been a long day. They had all woken up feeling the need but they had to wait for Splinter to leave, that night, before doing anything about it.

It was almost time. Donnie was naked, pacing his lab in anticipation and making sure he wasn’t forgetting anything.

They had chosen the lab over his bedroom because it had a sink and all of his supplies. There was a cot if they wanted to lie down, though most of the time he was bent over the desk. He didn’t really care how his brothers wanted to do it as long as his needs were met.

Donatello left the decision on who was to come to him first up to his brothers. It didn’t matter to him. He would take all three of them if they were willing. But that would lead to awkwardness in the days that followed the season. Donnie didn’t want that.  

He had just finished injecting an ample amount of lubricant into the contraceptive when Leonardo opened the door to the lab. Leo was usually first since he was strictly business and just wanted to get it over with. So Donatello leaned over the desk and waited as Leo undressed.

Leonardo wasn’t selfish but he wasn’t trying to make it last either. Donatello simply relaxed and tried to derive as much pleasure from the brief encounter as possible. It wasn’t hard to do, being in season helped in the process. It wasn’t as good as it was with Raph but it got the job done, several times.

When Leo was finished he backed away from Donnie and collected his pants from the ground. “You okay?”

Donnie looked over his shoulder just as Leo was fastening his pants. He nodded. “Yeah. Did the contraceptive bother you at all?”

“No,” Leo replied. “It was actually kind of nice.” He watched as Donnie removed the silicon barrier. “Everything okay?”

“I think so,” Donnie answered, taking the device over to the sink. “I don’t see any leaks.”

“Good. I guess I’ll go then. Mikey’s waiting.” It was always a little uncomfortable afterwards. His brothers never wanted to just leave but they knew that they couldn’t linger either so a few awkward things were said before they headed out the door. Leo turned to leave but then stopped to look back at Donnie. “It’s not bad with me, is it?”

Donatello, a little shocked by the question, shook his head. “No. Why do you ask?”

“I care about you,” Leo replied with a sigh and shrugged his shoulders. “You said that it was better with Raph, now that you’re a couple. And, since I just come in here to satisfy a need and I’m, as you said, disconnected, I am afraid that I might be leaving you unsatisfied and feeling used.”

“You worry too much, Leo. I enjoy our time together,” Donnie reassured him and smiled. “This started as a way to satisfy a need that we all had. And I am satisfied. Even though the relationship I have with Raph has evolved, it doesn’t diminish the one I have with you. There is trust, understanding, and mutual respect between us. I don’t feel used at all.”

“Good,” Leo sighed with relief and backed up towards the door. “I’ll go get Mikey.”
 
Donnie grabbed a fresh contraceptive and waved at Leo. “Okay.”

He had made several of the thick silicon based barriers. They stayed in place inside Donatello and he was stimulated by his brothers’ movements within the textured walls. He barely had time to insert the new one before Mikey came rushing into the room and began stripping.

“Is it me or did Leo take longer this time?”

“I think your eagerness made it seem that way,” Donnie replied with a chuckle while he finished getting ready.

“Can we do it on the cot?” Mikey requested.

“Okay,” Donnie said with a slight nod of his head. “I don’t have any problem with that.”

“Face to face?” Mikey added a little nervously.

“Um?” What was with his brothers lately? “Sure.”

“Raph said it was better that way,” Mikey explained rubbing his hands on his legs as they made their way to the cot. “I had asked him if it would be okay if I tried it. He said he had no problem with it and as long as you didn’t mind.”

Mikey tended to be talkative. He would ramble on about one thing or another, his train of thought changing tracks often. He would laugh nervously at his first few churrs whenever they interrupted whatever he was saying. Occasionally he would stop talking all together, lost in the bliss. Donnie found it to be kind of cute.

Mikey buried his beak in the nape of Donnie’s neck. “You textured it.”

“I did,” Donnie replied, running his fingers through the pattern of Mikey’s carapace.

“You’re so good to us.” With a glassy look in his eyes, Mikey smiled down at Donnie. “Can I kiss you?”

Donnie nodded. “Sure.”

It was the first time Mikey was quiet during their time together. When they finished, Mikey sat back on his feet at the foot of the bed. “Raph’s right, it was better that way.”

“It is,” Donnie agreed as he got up on shaky legs. He removed the contraceptive and checked it for any leaks. He was happy to note that it held up perfectly.

“I wish we had more time,” Mikey said as he got dressed. “I kinda wanna lie down and snuggle for a while.”

“That would be nice.” Donnie placed the contraceptive next to the sink after giving it a thorough rinsing. “But Splinter won’t be gone for much longer and we’ve made Raph wait long enough.”

“He gets to have you all year.”

“Mikey?” Awkward conversations seemed to be the theme of the day.

Rubbing the back of his head, Mikey let out an exasperated sigh. “It’s not that I want you the rest of the year. You know I’m not attracted to you outside of the season but, let’s face it I don’t really have a chance in finding a human girl. So this is the only time I get.”

Donnie wasn’t mad. He understood what Mikey meant. Mikey wasn’t gay. Even if Donnie identified as female, he had no doubt that Mikey would not be attracted to him. Mikey liked human women. He only wanted Donnie now because of the season.

“We can ask Splinter to be gone longer for now on,” Donnie offered. “You can come to me last and we can spend more time together.”

Mikey smiled, looking relieved. “That sounds good.”

Donatello knew that the way things were between him and his brothers wasn’t going to say the way it had been. But he wasn’t expecting them to all go through so much of a change within the span of a year. They all wanted something more or something different. This simply satisfying a basic need was quickly becoming not enough.

He felt bad for Leo and Mikey. For Leo it was an inconvenience of instinct that he could do without but he didn’t want his lack of desire for it to be a burden for Donnie. Mikey wanted it but he desired it to be with someone he found attractive. Sadly their situation made that nearly impossible.

Raph entered, shortly after Mikey saw himself out, and began to undress. While Donnie finished getting ready, Raph walked over and started kissing along the back of his neck as his fingers lovingly caressed Donnie’s arm and down his side.

Donnie turned and their lips met in a soft kiss that made his head spin. His heart raced as his body flooded with endorphins. Only Raph had this kind of effect on him. It was made his time with Raph so much better.

“I love you,” Donnie sighed as they fell onto the cot.
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